A/N: Hey, I appreciate the reviews. To answer a few of your reviews. I plan on making this a long fic. But it's just finding the time to do so. I have a rough idea of how I want this story to go. It's gonna be journey that's for sure. So if you plan on sticking around I hope you enjoy this story as much as I do writing it. I have a feeling it might be worth it. As for my other stories, I'm also working on them. If I'm honest I have a lot of other stories I began writing. Anyways hope you enjoy this chapter.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. All characters, storyline, dialogues belong to their rightful owner. Shonda Rhimes and maybe a few other shows. Also spelling mistakes, and punctuations marks are mine.
Arizona POV
I sit in the attending's room for a good hour, taking everything Callie just said. How could I be this fucked up. How could I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me.
"Hey Robbins?" I hear Mark calling me.
"Uhh yeah?"
"So what happened?"
"Mark, I can't talk about it right now. Please. I know your her best friend, but right now I can't deal with it."
"Hey, look at me he says. You're my friend too. We survived the worse. So you can tell me anything. I promise I won't judge you."
When I first got with Callie I never thought I would end up liking Mark. He was always that person that flirted with everyone. Then I realized him and I are more alike than different. One night when Callie had a long surgery. We went out for drinks after a few shots we both loosened up and got to talking. Then I realized what Callie's been saying to me that he's a cool and down to earth guy was true. So I told him about me, and he never judged me. He looked at me and smiled. "No wonder why Callie always has that smile on her face." He joked. From then on he was like a brother to me.
"I fucked up Mark. I slept with Boswell."
"Why?"
"I don't know. Honestly she just looked at me like I was normal. She knew I had one leg, but she kept flirting with me. The next thing I knew we were in an on call room."
"Did you wear protection?"
"No, I didn't do that. I just made her.. Umm cum with my you know..fingers."
"Oh.. oh.. I got it. I guess that's a good thing."
"Mark, she's so mad at me. I don't know what to do."
"Do you want to be with Callie?"
"Yes, I don't want anyone else."
"Then you fight for her. You keep fighting, even when you think you have no fight left in you. You keep going."
"Mark-"
"Trust me Robbins I would do anything to be in your situation. As fucked up as it is. I would do anything to see Lexi alive. And what you and Torres have it's real love. It's not one of those lovey dovey type of love. It's real."
I look at Mark and I give him a small smile. I can't imagine how he feels knowing the love of his life is dead. I can't imagine how Callie felt those 4 days thinking I was dead. "Thanks Mark, that means a lot, and I'm sorry. I know you loved Lexi so much."
"Yeah, I did." He says looking off.
"Mark, I'm scared. I've never seen her this mad before. And I know I can't blame her, but I'm scared she's gonna leave me."
"Torres loves you, but I'll be honest. I'm not sure what she's gonna do. So be prepared for a battle. Cause if there's one thing I know is that Callie is a passionate person. And I believe if you love that hard you can also hate just as hard. Not saying she hates you, I'm just saying it's gonna be battle."
"You're right."
"So what's your plan, blondie?"
"I'm gonna give her space and let her calm down and I'm gonna talk to her in the morning."
Callie POV
I make my way to the apartment once I get in I dropped to the ground. Exhausted and tired from this hell of a day. This has got to be the longest 48 hours of my life. I keep picturing Arizona and that bitch screwing each other and I can feel bile rising to the top. I stand up and run to the bathroom. After brushing my teeth I sit on the couch and look around our apartment. I have flashbacks to when she would kick me out of the room. When I had to force her to eat and take care of herself. I look on the wall and I see our wedding picture with our dad and her mom. I can't believe I fought so hard for our marriage that I gave up my own mother for her. And look where it got me.
"Fuck!! I need to get out of here. Everything reminds me of her."
I decide to do something I told myself I would never do. I pick up my phone and call home. my sister. I'm hoping she never changed her number.
"Hello?"
"Aria? Is that you?"
"Callie?"
"Yes." I sniffle trying to hide my tears.
"Cal are you okay?"
"No, I'm not."
"What's wrong?"
"I know you're against my marriage and everything-"
"Cal stop! I'm sorry, I owe you an apology. But let's not talk about that right now. So please just tell me what's going on?"
"Aria, Arizona cheated on me and I don't know what to do. I need to get out of here. I feel like I'm drowning."
"Cal, come home. You can live with me."
"Aren't you worried about mom?"
"No, me and mom haven't been talking for a few months now."
"How's that possible I thought you work at her law firm."
"I do but our assistants talk for us, anyways you can come stay with me and my family."
"Wait, you have a family? Dad didn't say anything when he visited in December."
"Yeah it just me and my son."
"Aria are you kidding me right now?!"
"No I'm not, so please come."
"Only if you're sure. I know we haven't talked in years and right now it feels to good to be true."
"Cal, come home. I miss my sister. We really need to talk."
"Okay. When can I come?"
"You can come right now." She laughed.
"I can't leave right now, but I'll book my flight for tomorrow and I'll send you my information."
"Okay Hermana."
"Thanks Aria. You have no idea how much this means to me."
"Callie don't worry about it. I'm really glad you called even if it wasn't from the best of circumstances."
"I know, I'm gonna gather my things and talk to my lawyer."
"You're gonna get a divorce?"
"Yeah.. no.. I don't know. I just know I can't be here."
"Cal, just come home and move with me. We can talk about it before you do anything drastic."
"You're right. When did you become so brilliant?" I teased.
"At least you can still bully me." Aria laughed.
Talking to my sister felt so amazing. For the moment things didn't feel so bad and I knew this feeling wouldn't last long.
"Well, I'm gonna go pack and get my stuff in order."
"Okay, send me your flight information."
"Love you Aria."
"I love you too Callie."
After hanging up the phone I lay on the couch and look up at the ceiling and all of a sudden I'm crying again. I decide to let everything out. I'm crying so hard I'm hyperventilating. Next thing I know I two hands sitting me up. I open my eyes and it's Mark.
"Breathe Callie."
"Mark, I... I.. can..can't."
"In and out." He soothes rubbing my back.
I sit up straight and breathe in and out. "Okay, I think I'm good. Thanks Mark."
"Callie, are you okay?"
"No, I'm not Mark. I don't think I ever will be okay."
Just then I feel that sick feeling again and I run to the toilet and empty whatever is left. "Fuck!"
He runs over and holds my hair, and rubs my back. I wipe my mouth and go to the sink and brush my teeth. "Sorry Mark, every time I think about Arizona I get sick to my stomach and throw up."
"Don't be sorry, you're allowed to feel this way."
"Mark, you don't need to watch me. I'm gonna be okay. I just need time to process things. I haven't slept for almost 48 hours."
"Cal I know we are all exhausted. Last night was crazy."
"Mark I was outside in the fucking pouring rain risking my life saving families from a burning bus while my wife was upstairs fucking that doctor."
"Cal-"
"No, Mark. I know you have a special bond with her and I respect that, but there's nothing you can say to make me feel better about this. Arizona and I we haven't had sex for over a year. She refused to be intimate with me. I understood why. Only up until 5 months ago we started having sex again. But 24 hours with some slutty doctor and she taking her clothes off for her."
"It's not my place to say anything but I think you should know that Arizona didn't really screw with her per se."
"What the hell are you talking about Mark."
"She told me that she didn't penetrate her. She just used her fingers."
"Surprisingly that doesn't make me feel any better. She might as well have. She disrespected me and our marriage."
"I get it Callie, but-"
"Mark, I think you should go, right now I'm not in the mood to be open minded. I need to feel what I need to feel. I love you Mark. But please I need to do this myself."
He stands up and hugs me. "Callie, you're my best friend. No matter what I have your back."
"I know Mark. Thank you."
He walks to the door and makes his way across the hall to his apartment.
Next thing I know I'm in a trance. I'm not even sure what's going on but my body is going through the motions. I grabbed my suitcase from the spare bedroom, and start grabbing handfuls of clothes. Not even folding them. I go by side of the bed and I see the picture we took when we went for a hike. How could she do this to me? To us? I grab the frame and fly it to the wall, instantly shattering everywhere. After grabbing important documents from our safe. I shut my suitcase and put it by the door.
I opened my laptop and book a flight for Miami. I send the information to Aria. She instantly replies that she will be there to pick me up. The next thing I do is work on my resignation. After that is typed up, I decide not to send it right now, but right before I leave. I believe I took care of all my important information for the time being. So now I sit on the couch and wait for... I'm not even sure what I'm waiting for. Arizona? Morning? Time? I'm beyond exhausted. If I could chose a word it would empty. Everything in me is broken and shattered. I hear my stomach grumbling, but I have no appetite to eat. I shut my eyes and the next thing I feel the sun shining on my face. I look at the clock and it's 7 in the morning. Deciding that I need to hurry up and get ready before Arizona gets home. I wash up and grab the computer and open my email and hit send to the Chief.
Sitting on the couch, I hear the door open. Arizona walks in the door, and I think she seen my luggage. She walks up to the couch and I can see fear in her eyes, and honestly I don't feel anything.
"Callie, where are you going?"
I exhale and I know I need to talk to her. I really wish I didn't need to. Maybe I should of listened to Aria when she said I should of left last night. Taking a deep breath I answer her.
"Away."
"What do you mean away?"
"I need to be away from you."
"Okay, I understand. So where are you going?"
"That's none of your business!" I snapped.
Arizona flinches. "Of course it's my business you're my wife, I have a right to know."
"No you fucking don't! You have no rights! You lost that the moment you fucked another woman."
I look at the clock and I see that my flight leaves in a few hours and I need to go to the bank and move stuff around. I stand up and I can see the panic in her eyes.
She lunged forward and put her arms around my waist. "Callie, don't leave. Please. I made one mistake. One. It will never happen again."
"Don't fucking touch me!"
Arizona instantly let's go but follows me around the apartment.
"Cal please you promised you wouldn't leave, can we please talk?"
"Yeah, I promised that when I thought you would never hurt me. Now look you fucking broke me." All of a sudden I'm hit with so much anger. "You wanna talk?"
"Yes please more than anything."
"Tell me what you did it her?"
"What?! No Callie I'm not gonna do that."
"Tell me how you fucked her and what she did to you. I want to know if she was worth it ruining our marriage over!"
"Callie I'm not gonna do that!"
"Did she come? Did you stick your cock into her? Did you eat her pussy? Was she everything you imagined? Did she scream your name? Did you shiver when you came?"
"Callie STOP!"
"No you wanted to talk so fucking talk! Cause once I walk out that door I'm gone."
Arizona shakes her head. "Okay! I didn't fuck her with my cock. I just fingered her till she came. Alright. I never let her touch me,and then I left."
"Wow that's it! For some reason. I was hoping it was worth losing your family over." I said shaking my head.
"Callie Im sorry. I'll do anything. Just please don't go. I'll go to therapy. I don't care. I'll do anything."
"Are you sorry for what you did? Or are you sorry you got caught?"
"Callie, I'm sorry. I never wanted to hurt you."
"You didn't answer my question, but I guess in a way you did." I take my ring off and place it on the kitchen table.
"Callie please. Don't. Please." She pleaded.
I reach for my neck and rip off the first Valentine's Day present she got me. My gold heart necklace and place it next to my ring.
"Calliope, I am so sorry. Don't leave me. I'm sorry." She says trying to look into my eyes, but I can't cause if I do I won't be strong enough to leave.
"I need to go Arizona."
"Cal. I'm begging you please don't go!!"
"Arizona, I can't. I need to go."
"I love you."
"Where?"
Arizona looks at me confused. "What?"
"Where is this love you speak of? I can't see it, I can't feel it, Arizona. I can hear it. I hear the words coming from your mouth, but I can't do anything with your empty words anymore. Whatever you have to say. It's too late Arizona."
"Callie, I don't want you to go. Your my wife!"
I walk to the door, and pick up my luggage. "Arizona You don't need to tell me why you did it. It's clear as day, you just wanted to get back at me. And you know what. Congratulations, you did. I'll be in contact with you when I'm ready."
"No, please."
"Bye, Arizona." I quickly say rushing out of the apartment. Finally letting my tears out.
I jump into my cab and head to the bank and move around money from my savings into my checking. I tried doing it online, but I guess an amount this large you need to do this in person.
"Are you sure Mrs. Robbins, you wanna move all this money?" My heart dropped hearing her call me Mrs. Robbins.
"Yes."
"Okay."
"Thank you." I faked smiled.
I feel my phone vibrating and I see it's the Chief. I decide silent my cell phone. After getting my ticket. I head to my gate and sit there. The announcement goes off and I'm boarding in 10 minutes. I decide to check my phone and I have miss calls from everyone. I turn my phone off and stand in line.
"Here I come Miami." I whispered to myself.
Arizona POV
I can't believe that Callie just left. I knew she was hurt, but I didn't think she would leave me. If there was one thing that was constant in my life it was Callie. After everything we've been through I always thought she'd be here. But now I broke her. I shattered the one person who loved me with everything she had, and the worst part is I can't blame anyone but myself.
I lay on the ground sobbing my eyes out. I hear pounding on the door. I chose to ignore it. The pounding doesn't stop. Instead it gets louder.
"Arizona, open the fucking door." Mark snapped.
I stand up and I look at him. "What's going on?"
"Did you know?"
"If you're talking about Callie leaving me. Then yes I know."
Mark gives me a look like I'm crazy. "No, that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about Callie turning in her resignation."
"What!?" My body goes weak and I drop to the floor, but before I fall Mark catches me.