Tension Unraveled
Disclaimer : JK owns all - you know the deal. I own nothing, I make no profit, I do this for fun :-D
Author's Note: Ok, so I have been MIA for a while. I wish you all could just come over and read my notebook that I write in (who writes in notebooks anymore!) so you don't have to wait so long. 'A Compilation of Love' is taking a while as I can't figure out how to start it yet the rest of it is practically done. (I feel like JK herself, the ending is finished but you have to wait a little while longer to find out how that ending comes to be)
Summary : An uber short ,blurb, ficlet etc. story on Ginny and Hermione. Femslash, don't like, don't read, etc. , etc.
Hermione's POV
I
didn't realize the effect I had on men until I was 18 and half my
grade had asked me out. I said no to every single on. Even Ron. I
just…didn't want any of them. Viktor was of course sweet but his
kisses were coarse and lacking passion. And Ron..well…simply put,
he was just Ron. I found myself bored with Lavender and Parvati's
conversations also. Men, Men, Men that's all they ever
talked about! One night though, their conversation brought me to a
whole new level of interest.
There was rumor flying that Ginny
and Katie Bell were caught together one night after quidditch
practice by Cho Chang. Ginny? Kissing a ..Girl? This statement was
almost shocking, but in a way, I found myself smiling on the inside.
Was this good news? I had no idea. I now knew I didn't have to
worry about her being pregnant but, why was I feeling the way I was?
I couldn't help but think that maybe I myself was gay as she was.
It started this almost rift in my thinking. No longer could I think
straight (no pun intended) The next few weeks were absolute hell as I
tried to figure out if what I was feeling for Ginny was a feeling of
lust, curiosity… or love.
"'Mione."
"Wha- oh -
what?" Harry looked at me with the same look he had been giving me
for the past couple days. He knew I was off lately. "You were
staring off into space again. Are you sure you're ok?"
"Yea
Harry I'm fine, just a little, stressed I suppose." Truth be
told, I was beyond stressed. Truth be told, the rumors about Ginny
and Katie were not even close to the truth. They were doing a hell of
a lot more than making out after practice. They were now Hogwarts
favorite couple. Every guy, excluding Ron, was ecstatic that two of
the hottest girls, I mean most attractive girls, I mean… oh fuck
you know what I mean, were now completely and totally absorbed in one
another. Not to mention, I couldn't keep my eyes away from them in
the common room. I was dieing to be Katie, or be in her pants, I
didn't really know. Something kept telling me it was wrong to feel
this way yet when Ginny would speak to me, or smile at me, or simply
say my name I would get this tremendous feeling of butterflies in my
stomach and my head would explode. Lately I had been completely
incoherent every time I got near her. Sure Katie was good looking,
but Ginny was drop dead gorgeous. Her luscious red hair flowed like a
stream every time she moved her head. I loved the way she ran her
hands through her hair every time she got a little stressed out. What
am I talking about ! It's just cute how she does that. I mean,
I'm her best friend I'm supposed to know what she does and why
and when…right? I didn't lie when I told Harry I was stressed, I
just under exaggerated, I was completely and totally lost and I
didn't know anyone who would be able to help me. I couldn't even
tell my best friend about it.
My best friend meaning Ginny. I
could tell Ron but he would hate it. Harry, well, he's not exactly
bright when it comes to girl problems is he? I mean Ron would hate it
but he hates everyone who is in his sister's life. Hell, I am
surprised he doesn't hate Bill for being closer to her than he is.
He just loved her a lot and didn't want to see her heart broken I
guess. Her parents also loved her no matter what. No way in hell
would my parents allow "such behavior" as they would say. Molly
just simply stated that once they all grow up there will finally be
more girls than boys and that is something she was perfectly ready to
live with.
However, one person who was not ok with it…was me.
I couldn't help but feel jealous every time I saw them together.
The tension between us just seemed to grow, and grow, and grow. It
never stopped. It was like we went to the top of a mountain and took
a snowball and rolled it all the way down. Soon enough, we were bound
to see it explode. That night, was tonight.
"Hermione, why do
you hate Katie so much?"
"I do not hate her." I replied
defensively. Lie.
"You sure as hell act like it! Giving us
dirty glances, being annoyed when I got out with her, no to mention
how rude you are to her, oh, let's say, all the fucking time!"
She was pissed, no denying that, but I scoffed at her. Me, rude?
"Yes, 'Mione, YOU, rude!" I looked at Ginny temporarily
getting lost in the glance. I loved it when she called me 'Mione--
wait, I'm mad at her, I hate it when she calls me that.
"Mione."
She said starting to change the subject and avoid more fighting, "
Harry wants to know what's wrong with you. He's recruited me into
bugging you until you come out." Did she know? The thoughts raced
through my mind. I can't come out. "Please 'Mione, just come
out and tell him what's wrong, he is your best mate you know."
Phew, she meant tell him whats wrong, though that still implies that
I'm a homo-fucking-sexual, Ginny doesn't know, nor does she need
to at the moment. However, I was getting pretty sick of Harry asking
what was going on. "Bloody hell! Nothing is wrong with me!"
"Well, according to h him, according to you, there is nothing
wrong, but I think we can all tell something is getting to you and
you just don't want to tell us."
"Why can't I just
figure out my problems by myself?"
"So there is a
problem."
"No, there is no problem!" Shit she was good.
"
you just said you wanted to figure out your 'problems' by
yourself."
"That- No- that's not fair!" It wasn't but
it worked.
"Just tell me, I'm your best friend, you can tell
me everything!" No I can't.
"I do."
"Like hell you
do!"
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked
defensively.
"That you don't tell me everything, exactly what
you think it means. Fine, I'll make you a deal. I'll tell you
something if you tell me what is bothering you." What on Earth
could she have to tell me?
"Fine, you first." She sighed and
then took a big breath.
"KatieandIbrokeup." She said quickly
and incoherently.
"What?"
"Katie - And - I - Broke -
Up… clear enough for you now?" Fuck, when did this happen? "Not
that you would be too upset by it anyways, you fricking hate the
woman."
"I do not!" Why am I friends with her …oh yea,
you love her you moron! "I am trying to be supportive you know! I'm
sorry you guys broke up."HA!
"Don't give me that! I know
you are happy we broke up." Low blow, 1 point from Ginny.
"Ginny!
Do you have any clue what you are saying! I'm your best friend and
you keep accusing me of hating someone who makes you happy!" uh oh,
I can't stop now "I don't appreciate the way you just turned it
onto me when you come to make sure I'm ok. If you wanted consoling
just ask, don't turn it back onto me!"
"That's it
Hermione I have had enough of this shit. I just broke up with Katei
and you turn this into--" But I cut her off, by kissing her. I
don't know where it came from. I had no idea what I was doing but I
saw her lips and my instincts completely took over. I forced her back
onto the wall a little rough but all my pent up sexual frustration
was coming out at once. If I could have, I would have ravished her
there and then. I kissed her hard and deep, though never giving her
the impression that I was too rough. Her tension soon turned into her
begging for entrance into my mouth. She was kissing me back! Her
hands ran through my hair as I held onto her waist and pulled her so
close she could have gone through me. I wanted every bit of her. We
released finally due to lack of air and immediately I went down to
her neck. As I kissed her collar bone I heard a soft moan. I couldn't
help but smile at this. "' Mione…" I went back to her lips.
She was finally saying my name the way I had wanted her to say it for
too long now. Suddenly I heard a creak near the door and I was away
from her faster than I could have blinked. We did our best to
straighten ourselves out 2 seconds before Harry came through the
door. "You two ok? I heard a bang." I blushed and Ginny looked at
him and said, "Yea, we just dropped a book." "Oh, ok…" He
looked at us suspiciously and then left the room. He was a lot dumber
than I gave him credit for.
After he left I turned to Ginny. "I
am so sorry I-I, I don't know what came over me! I saw your lips
and I just had to kiss you, I, I am sorry if I freaked you out."
She smiled
"Are you really sorry?" There was a short pause as
her glare drilled through right to me, "Are you?"
"...No."
She grinned as I said that I really wasn't sorry at all.
"I
take it this is what has been bothering you?"
"Yea." Hit
the nail right on the head didn't she?
"And why you hate
Katie."
"I don't hate Katie!" She'll never let that drop, I know
it.
" 'Mione…" She grinned. God it was so much sexier
when she said my name now. When I kissed her it made the gravity of
the situation so much that I felt I was going to fall to the floor
any second. Hopefully she would fall and be next to me though. I
couldn't help but want to hear her screaming my name in pure
ecstasy though. Every girl has hormones after all and I wanted to
know all of Ginny. I wanted to be the only one who knew her. I wanted
to be the only one, ever. " So why didn't you tell me? I would
have understood. I kind of know what you're going through."
"I
was scared." She grabbed my hand as if telling me that I never have
to be afraid again. " I mean I didn't know if I was jealous my
best friend was with someone else or I was possibly feeling something
else. I was scared of that 'something else' you know?" She
nodded. " I mean, your parents are understanding and they will
always love you no matter what. My parents though…I am scared to
tell them about us. I just have this horrible feeling that they won't
love me anymore." Ginny had a look on her face of pure concern and
sadness at this statement. "Oh 'Mione" she said pulling me into
a much gentler, but much better kiss. It felt like she was taking the
somber feelings I had been experiencing right out in this very kiss.
It was magical. "I love you Ginny." I said as we broke the kiss.
She leaned her forehead to mine and with our noses touching let out
the biggest grin I had ever seen on her. "I love you too 'Mione."
We laid down on my bed and for a few minutes we just enjoyed each
other's company. "You know 'Mione?"
"What?"
"While I was going out with Katie, it was you
who I wanted to be with."
"Really?"
"Yep." She
looked at me. I could see she was telling the truth in her eyes.
There was something else there too. Lust."Ginny Weasley, if I am
not mistaken, I think you want to have your way with me."
"Would it be so wrong if I did?" I laughed
"No, but
Harry or Ron or anyone else could walk in any minute."
"So?"
She grinned.
"Not yet…Christmas at your house. I always loved
your room." She grinned and grabbed my hand. She kissed my cheek
and put her head on my chest. We laid like this for what seemed like
days. It was in these few moments that I realized that I had found
someone who loved me truly, madly, deeply. I knew Ginny and I were
going to be together for a very long time. We would fight everything
together, hand in hand, heart to heart.
"I love you
'Mione."
