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Callie POV

"Shit... shit.. shit. It's not possible."

All of a sudden my sister walks through the door. "Hey Callie, you okay?"

"Aria.."

"Yeah Callie? Are you okay? Why do you look like you just seen a ghost?"

"Umm.. mom came by."

"Oh.. okay that makes sense." She laughed. "So how did that go?"

"Surprisingly okay, I told her. I'll call her when I'm ready. Plus I know you two aren't talking."

"Yeah, she can be annoying. Anyways I know it's early, but I got us drinks. Dad said he'll grab Cal before he comes over. So that means I don't need to leave the house."

"Cal.. Callie.. Calliope!"

"I'm sorry what's that?" I say looking off in the distance.

"I wasn't sure what you liked, I got wine, tequila, whiskey, Pinot noirs, pick your poison."

"No, thank you."

"Wait, what's going on? I know it's early. You don't want to drink?"

"No, I might be hungry, or I might need to throw up. I can't tell."

"You're going through the hardest thing in your life and you just seen mom. You don't want to drink? What are you pregnant?" Aria laughed.

I look into her eyes and I know she can tell I'm distraught.

"What?" She whispered. She takes the seat next to me on the sofa. "Callie."

"According to the Cal's calendar I'm late, and I'm never late. We need to go to the drug store and go buy a few tests."

"Callie, wait did you cheat on Arizona too?"

"No."

"Wait, then how is that possible."

"Do I really need to say it?"

"Ohhh, oohhh. Okay. I got it." Aria says shocked. "Well let's go buy you some test and I guess you can tell me about it on the way."

"Yeah, let's go."

Arizona POV

I wake up the next day and I walk into the kitchen. Everything looks brand new like there was never a mess. I sit on the table by my mom who's drinking a cup of coffee and reading the news paper.

"Mom, can you come with me to the hospital?"

She puts down the paper, "Of course sweetie. You not feeling okay?"

"No, I'm gonna make an appointment with Dr. Wyatt."

"Who's that?"

"She's a psychiatrist. I need help mom."

"That's a wonderful idea sweetie. When did you want to go?"

"Well as soon as possible."

"Okay let me change my clothes and we can head over."

Walking into the hospital I'm met with lots of stares. I ignored them all. If I want Callie back. I need to be back to my old self. No I need to be better than that.

"Mom, you can wait right here. I'll be back."

"Okay."

I knock on Dr. Wyatt'a door. "Dr. Robbins?"

"You know me?"

"Of course, you're the only one who never came to our group sessions after the plane crash."

Flashback

"Arizona I think you should go see Dr. Wyatt. Everyone is going."

"No, why would I go? I'm better."

"No, you're not.Just because you been at work for a month doesn't make you better honey."

"Callie I'm not going. I don't want to talk to someone about my feelings!" I snapped.

"Ari-"

"Fuck, I said no. Can't you hear me?"

End of flashback.

"Dr. Robbins?"

"Sorry, yes I remember. Anyways. Could I make an appointment to see you?"

"Come in, sit down."

I sit across of her and she looks into her calendar. "So what day were you thinking?"

"As soon as possible."

"I have an opening in two days at 11:30."

"Okay, that works."

"Can I ask you what is the reason for this appointment?"

"I cheated on my wife. And I need to fix this. Fix me so I can be better."

"Okay, well I'll see you on Friday at 11:30."

"Thanks Dr. Wyatt."

I walk back into the waiting room.

"Okay, let's go mom."

"You, okay?"

"No, but I will be. My appointment is this Friday."

Walking to my apartment my mother stops me.

"I'm gonna go to the store, and pick up groceries. Do you want anything?"

"No, just get whatever you need." I give my mom a wad of cash. "Here take this, buy whatever."

"Ari-"

"Just take it mom, I'm not sure what the house needs. Callie usually does all the shopping. So please take this and get what we need."

She takes the money and my car keys. "Okay, honey."

Sitting on the table, I hear a knock on my door. And I know it's Mark.

"Come in."

"Is it safe to come in? Or are you gonna kill me?"

"Step inside and find out."

"Robbins, I'm sorry about calling your mom, but I know I couldn't help you."

"Mark, maybe you over stepped a little bit, but I appreciate it."

"That's good to hear. I'm happy for you."

"Anyways have you heard anything from Callie?"

"No, not yet. Her phones still off." He says taking the seat next to me. "You know right now she would be making us pancakes."

"I know, and she would be singing and dancing. God I miss her so much." I cried holding her ring and necklace.

"Arizona, I know you do. One step at a time."

I wipe my tears and look at him. "So what brings you over?"

"Well Cristina and I are leaving next week."

"Really you're flying?"

"Yeah, I know we don't want too, but it's the fastest way and neither of us want to drive."

"Seriously."

"Yeah, we're gonna see Dr. Wyatt and get her to prescribe us ambien. So we can knock out before the plane takes off. Also Addison might come with us."

"Speaking of Dr. Wyatt. I just made an appointment with her for Friday."

"Are you serious Arizona?"

"Yeah, My head is fucked up from the plane, and I kept an act going so long, that I didn't even realize it. Until I cheated on my wife and she left me. Then I was forced to tell my mom the truth. And you know what. It's exactly what I needed."

"Arizona, I am so proud of you. Really I am. If you want I'm sure everyone would be okay with coming in and talking as a group with you. Since you know you didn't come when we went. It helped a lot."

"I would love that Mark, but I will let you know. I can't think of that just yet."

"I understand Robbins. Really I do."

"I know you do."

My mom walks in with a few bags. "Mrs. Robbins you look beautiful as ever. Where's the Colonel?"

"Marcus, thank you. He's at home. He might fly out but I told him he doesn't need too."

Mark POV

"Well, I'm glad you here. Do you have any more bags to grab? I'll be happy to grab them."

"Yes I have a few. Let's go." While walking to the elevator, she looks up at Mark. "And Mark next time you call me about my daughter. Maybe you can give me a heads up of what I'm walking into for I could prepare myself." She laughed.

"I'm sorry. I know I should've, but I didn't want to freak you out when you were across the country."

"Mark, you're a good friend. Thank you for calling me."

"Of course. I love them. They're like my sisters. I would do anything for those two."

Callie POV

We sit in the car in silence and a million thoughts are going through my mind.

"Hey, Callie. I know you must be scared right now, but let's take a test and we can go from there."

"Aria, I'm not scared, I'm petrified."

"I know sweetie, but let's not freak out just yet, we don't even know the results."

"Okay, let's go. How many should I get?"

"Well when I was pregnant with Cal, I bought 5."

"Okay, I'll get 5."

On the way back home, I turn to Aria. "So I'm guessing you have questions."

"Callie, it's up to you if you want to share. I know I don't deserve to know such intimate details of your life."

"You're, right you don't, but you're my sister and I feel like I can trust you. Well if I am pregnant, I already told you that the baby is Arizona's."

"So, she's intersex?"

"Yes."

"So how did you take the news, when she told you?"

Flashback

We've been maybe on four dates by now and I knew that I really liked her. She made me laugh til my stomach hurt and she was a flirt. Like a huge flirt, but I started noticing she was becoming distant. So I didn't want to push her and I let her be. For maybe a week we didn't talk. I was hurt, and I thought if anything we could be really good friends. Then one day I was in the scrub and she comes bolting in. She doesn't say a word. She just stands by the sink.

"So are you gonna say anything? Or you just gonna watch me scrub out?" I teased.

"I don't know."

"Don't know what?"

"You bother me Callie."

I definitely was not expecting her to say that. I can't believe how honest and upfront she is."Excuse me?"

"You see, most women I meet I can just flirt with and have a good time, and go on my way."

"Okay?"

"But with you, I don't want to leave. The moment I go home or you go home. I miss you, and I know I might sound crazy since we've only been on four dates, but I want to know you Callie. Like really know you. But there's a few things about me that most people don't know, and I feel like I can trust you."

"Okay? If you wanna know me then why did you stop talking to me? Why were you distant?"

"Because you bother me!" She says. "Hell we haven't even kissed yet, and usually I kiss women with out even knowing there names. But with you that doesn't even matter."

"Okay, I don't know if I should be insulted or happy."

Arizona pushes herself off the sink and steps in front of me and I take a step back hitting my back with the sink. She puts her hands on either side of me trapping me against the sink. "You should be happy, because that means that you mean a lot to me. So I'm gonna be honest with you, and if what I tell you right now, changes how you feel about me then that sucks, but I need to tell you before we go any further because I know once I kiss you. I'm not gonna want to kiss anyone after that."

I stood there and I was in awe of how honest she was. Nobody, no male or female, I ever been with made me feel like this. She literally could light my soul on fire with just the look on her face, and how she could express herself with words.

"Okay." I whispered.

She takes a step back and looks me in the eye.

"I'm intersex."

I blink a few times and I'm not sure what to say.

"Callie can you say something?"

"Well, I wasn't expecting that."

"Yeah, I'm sure you weren't." She laughed.

"Do you have any more surgeries for today?"

"No, I'm done for the day. Why?" Arizona asked looking at me confused.

"Okay, I'm done too, let's go to my place. Cause I don't think this scrub room is the appropriate place to have this conversation."

"Umm okay? Yeah you're right. I'm sorry I bolted in here. I just needed to tell you." She said nervously.

"Don't apologize. I'm glad you did. Meet me in the lobby in 15 minutes?"

"Okay." She walks to the door

And I'm not sure what got into me, but I just wanted to kiss her to calm her down. To let her know she doesn't need to worry.

"Oh and Arizona?"

She turns around and looks at me. "Yes Callie?"

I walk up to her and kiss her, and her lips were so soft. It felt like kissing a soft cloud. I go to pull back, but she grabs the back of my neck holding me in place. She slides her tongue begging for access. I finally grant it to her. When we pulled apart. I look down at her lips and it's swollen.

"I'll see you in 15 minutes. Dr. Robbins." I winked walking away.

Arriving inside my apartment, Arizona sits down on the breakfast bar. "You hungry?"

"No, I'm good. I'll be honest. I'm still nervous."

"Why are you nervous?"

"Because you're different Callie."

"You keep saying that I bother you and I'm different. Honestly it's making me feel uneasy."

"Sorry, it's just that you really are. I never met anyone with such a beautiful mind and soul. You care so much Callie and it's intimidating if I'm honest."

"What's so intimidating Arizona?"

"People love you, they follow you, you inspire them. Me included, but I'm also scared."

"Scared of what?"

"You have a lot of questions tonight don't you?" She chuckled.

"Sorry, I'm just very curious as to why you feel like this?"

"Because you bother me, and I know if I let you in which I know I'm going to I'm gonna fall in love with you and that scares me."

"Arizona-"

"Calliope, do you know that you're on my mind so much that I even looked up your name. Like who does that."

"You did?"

"Yeah, you're one of the nine muses. Goddess of music."

"So you must really like me?"

"I do."

"Well I guess I should tell you something."

"What's that?"

I walk around the breakfast bar and take the seat next to her, and sit there and watch her while I pretend to think.

"Calliope, come on you're making me nervous."

"Arizona, I like you too a lot."

"What about what I told you earlier? Is that gonna be a dealbreaker because if it is. You and I we can't be together, but I would love to be your friend."

"It was a bit of a surprise, but I liked you before you told me that, and one bit of information doesn't change you. So I'm not gonna judge you on it. Plus, a little extra never hurt anyone right?"

She rolls her eyes and laughs. "See you're amazing."

End of flashback

We pull into Aria's garage, turning off the engine she looks at me. "She's right you know."

"About?"

"That you have such a huge heart that it's intimidating."

"Aria."

"No, Callie. I mean it. Growing up I looked up to you, so much. You're so open with your heart."

"I don't know if that's a good thing. Look, where it got me. 2 failed marriages and I might be pregnant from my wife who cheated on me."

"Callie, I can't speak for those people. But I can speak for myself. You found it in yourself to forgive me. Though never intentionally wanting to hurt you, I know I did. I know I caused you years of hurt, and I'll be sorry about that for the rest of my life. Only someone who loves as hard as you could do that."

"Thank you Aria, and I don't want you to feel sorry. I want us to move on."

"I'm working on it, anyways are you ready to take those test."

"No, but let's go and do it."

"You go ahead and take them and I'll wait for you in the living room."

"Okay."

I walk into my bathroom and I sit on the toilet and look at all the pregnancy test. "Ready or not, let's do this."

After taking all 5 test. I lay them on the sink and walk into the kitchen. "Now we wait for 5 minutes."

"Callie, whatever it says. I'll be here for you, and so will papí."

"Thank you, I appreciate that. Anyways please distract me for the next 5 minutes."

"Ooh how about I tell you about Calvin?"

"That be amazing."

"Okay, so I know you must have questions, and before you say that I don't need to tell you anything. Just know I want to tell you everything." She laughed. "Okay, I had Calvin from a one night stand. I didn't even know the guys name. So when I finally found out I was pregnant, I figured do the right thing and find my sons father. I went back to the bar where I met him and turns out he was the owner. So when I told him I was pregnant, he asked if I was keeping him. I said of course. I asked him if he wanted to be involved and if he didn't he could sign his parental rights over. So he did. He signed his rights over, and if I'm being honest it crushed me. I didn't care that he didn't want me. It crushed me to know that I was gonna raise my son with out his father. That I gave him an out and he took it, I thought he would at least considered. Anyways I had mom write up the legal documents. Which was a hardship in itself. She's so old fashioned. Living in the 60s I swear. Anyways he wouldn't be able to sign it till the baby was born. So when I gave birth to Cal. He went down to the office. He signed it and never looked back. Now, I believe that Cal is the best thing to ever happened to me. Even though that guy was a scum and I guess I can't call him a dead beat since he signed over his rights. I guess he's more of a sperm donor. He gave me the best blessing I could ever ask for."

"Aria. I'm so proud of you. I really am. Even though I've been kinda absent minded since I've been here. I did notice how caring you are and how selfless you are. I love it and I'm sorry to hear about Cal's sperm donor. You are an amazing mámi."

"Thank you Callie, anyways let's go. I think it's been over 5 minutes."

We walk into the room and I'm scared, no terrified.

"Aria, you check it."

"Callie, you can do it."

"I know I can, but I want you to do it."

"Okay, okay."

I sit on the bed and I watch her walk to my sink and she picks up each test and she looks at me. "It's negative."

"What?" I said kinda sadly. I honestly thought I was.

"It's negative." She repeats.

"Well, I guess it's a good thing. Phewww." I start to cry.

"Callie-" Aria walks to the sink and grabs a few tissue and hands it to me."

"I don't know why I'm crying. I wouldn't want to bring a baby into this. I can't believe it's negative. It's negative?"

"No, it's positive."

My head snapped up. "What!"

"It's not negative. They're all positive. All 5 test are positive."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah Callie, I can read." Aria passes me all 5 test.

"Oh my god. I'm pregnant."

"Yes you are."

"I'm gonna have a baby." I smiled, and then all of sudden it hits me. I need to tell Arizona, and I think Aria could sense something was wrong.

"Callie, are you okay?"

"Aria, I need to tell Arizona."

"Yes, you do."

"Aria, I'm not sure what dad shared with you about my life, but I think I'm ready to tell you."

"Are you sure? You just found out you're pregnant, I think that's enough big things for one day."

"No, I'm fine. Let me share this cause I'm not sure if I'll be strong enough to share it with you later."

We walk to living room, and we next to each other. She takes my hand and gives it a squeeze. Letting me know she's supporting me.

"Okay, do you know about the plane crash?"

"What plane crash?" Aria says shocked.

"Okay so you don't know. Well around 16 months ago, Arizona and a few of our other colleagues were in a plane crash."

"WHAAT!"

"Yes, they were going to Boise Idaho on a special case to separate conjoined twins. Anyways on the way there the plane started to malfunction. All of a sudden the back of the plane ripped off and the plane came crashing down. I'm not sure what else happened cause she never shared anything with me. But what I do know is that one of our collegues died cause she was smashed from the back of the plane. Mark was in a coma. And Arizona had an open leg fracture from her femur. They were gone for four days. Her leg started to get really bad and the infection only got worse with each passing day. Once I saw the scans, I knew that the best solution was to amputate."

"Callie-" I put my hand up telling her that I need to finish first. So I continued.

"That night I was at home waiting for her. The day she left I realized I missed my period. So I took a test and I was pregnant. I went and took a blood test to confirm it and it was showed that my HCG levels were elevated and I was indeed pregnant. I was gonna surprise her that night. Only thing is she didn't come home that night. I wasn't really worried, until one of my co workers came knocking on my door, and told me the news that their plane never landed and nobody knew where they were. The moment she told me that I collapsed. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. With every passing second I believed she was dead. I tried to have faith. I prayed, but I couldn't feel at ease. The next day, I started to feel cramps and all of a sudden I was bleeding like crazy. I was going through a miscarriage. I went to the hospital and only the OB and the nurse knew, they never told anyone and neither did I until a few days ago when I found out she cheated on me. We were in the attending's lounge screaming at each other and she told me I didn't lose anything. I promised myself not to say anything, since she never knew and I know she could not handle another loss. I figure keep it to myself, and maybe tell her at the right time. Anyways during our screaming match she told me I didn't lose anything. That only she did. So I told her, and I knew it was gonna hurt her, but she deserved to know."

"Callie, I'm so sorry."

"Me too."

"I'm sorry if this is too much, but can you tell me what happened."

"When they finally found them, I was still in the hospital, so only Bailey, Webber and Owen flew out. I couldn't go, but when Owen emailed me Arizona's scan. I knew her leg had to be amputated, but she withheld consent in Boise. When they finally returned, she made me promise to not take her leg. I should of knew better Aria than to promise her that. But I was so happy she was home, I was willing to do anything for her. So I promised her I wouldn't. I made a plan and I went to Owen at first he shot it down and eventually he came on board. While I was in the middle of surgery. Arizona best friend Karev comes in and tells me she's septic and she's gonna die. I kept asking if he pushed pressors, and he said he did. I knew it was the leg and so did everyone else. So I gave him my consent, to cut it off. I needed her to live. The weeks and months that came after made me feel like I made the wrong choice. She hated me Aria."

"Cal I'm sure she didn't hate you."

"I knew the moment I told him to cut it, she would hate me. I'm the best fucking Orthopedic Surgeon in the country and I couldn't even save my wife's leg." I sobbed.

Aria sits by me and rubs my back. "Cal i think it's enough for today."

"No, I can finish. I'm sorry it just feels like I'm reliving it again. Anyways, after she woke up. She kicked me out the room. I tried my best to be there for her. To love her unconditionally, and I did. We weren't intimate for a little over a year, and that was tough because we used to have sex often, but I knew I couldn't push her. I think she could tell I was getting tired of her treating me like shit. Then at baileys wedding, something changed. She booked a room, in a way to be spontaneous. So I thought we were gonna you know have sex. And when it came time, she couldn't. I didn't get mad. I understood. While we were in bed watching a movie. She turned to me and told me she slowly coming back to herself and she apologized for the way she was acting and asked me not never leave her. I'm not sure why she thought I'd leave her, but I told her I wouldn't. Even though I knew things would never be the same. I told myself to stick it through. Finally a month later she was ready to become intimate again. So we did. Then a few weeks later she comes home and tells me she wants to try for a baby. So we were trying. I should of known better to say yes to her. But it's Arizona. I could never tell her no. I believed for a while it was okay. Then fast forward a few months the night of the storm, I was outside rescuing families from a burning bus and she was upstairs fucking that slut."

"Cal, I'm so sorry. You don't deserve this."

"I know Aria. But really, I know she's not blame. I know I have a part in it. I saw the signs. I knew she had PTSD. She thinks I didn't hear her waking up almost every night with nightmares. It happened for months. I chose to ignore them. I tried to get her help. She refused. And I figure I'd rather have her than lose her. Maybe I was suffocating her. I'm not sure. How can I be when she never ever talked to me. So here I am. A fucking mess and now pregnant.

"Cal, it's not your fault. Nobody is at fault. You're human and so is Arizona."

"It's just so hard, life was never this hard. She made it so easy to love her, and I'm so happy that I'm pregnant, but I'm hurt that I feel like this. This should be the happiest moment in my life."

"Having a baby. Yes it's definitely one of the best blessings. And tomorrow I'll call and make you an appointment with my OB.."

"Thank you Aria. I appreciate that."

"Callie, even though you probably feel that you're at your lowest. I want you to know you are the strongest person I know."

"Aria, how am I supposed to bring a child into this mess?"

"Callie, I'm not sure. I don't have the answers. With your situation. It its not as simple as just divorce her. You two have been through a lot. More than most people do in a life time. Maybe you should see a therapist?"

"Yeah, I think that be a great idea." I yawned.

"How about you rest and I'll wake you up when dad gets here with Calvin."

"Thanks Aria."