Disclaimer:I don't own Final Fantasy VIII. I'm not even really good at it either. But they have so many loveable characters...

Chapter 4

I sadly looked out the window of the train. The flashing scenery didn't help me keep my mind off things. Not only, did my one and true love forget all about me, I had to see my father. My father never really liked Squall - I was always running off with him, and now I was hurt. Selphie decided, being one of my best friends, she would come and stay with me for a while in case things got rough. Thank god I still had her. Thinking about Squall, I could only think about how impossible it would to get things back to normal, whatever normal was.

He promised me so many things. He said that he would protect me, but where the hell was he now? In a damn hospital bed, confined to four blank walls with a woman who used to 'love him.' Damnit, what the hell was I doing on this train! Why am I not right there by Squall trying to help him!

"Stop the train!" I shouted, and I tried to get up. Selphie immediately grabbed my waist, as if I could get anywhere in the first place.

"Rinoa, what's you're problem!" I started to tear up and tried to pull myself away.

"Let go of me! I need to stop the train!" I yanked at her arms like they were an unwanted seatbelt. Selphie just tightened her grip and held me back.

"Rinoa, are you insane!" I started to cry, and I felt my strength slowly drain out of me. I was out of breath and my arms just started to slack.

"Selphie...let me stop it..." She held onto me, now more of a hug then a restraint.

"Rinoa, we can't go back. You need to see your dad." I shook my head.

"No, I need to see Squall..." I sobbed. It was pathetic. of me. But I needed Squall, why couldn't anyone understand that? I needed my knight. He promised me he'd be there for me. I promised I'd always wait for him, but I guess this was the test. Waiting for him to come back to me.

He never promised he would never love anyone else. Could I even trust Quistis alone there? I remember when we promised.

"What'll become of me?"

"Don't worry about it. There've been many good sorceresses. Edea was one. You can be like her."

Squall tried to comfort me...

"But Edea's still... I can't guarantee anything, either, if Ultimecia possesses me again... You saw me. She controlled me in outer space and made me break Adel's seal. What might happen next time? What will I end up doing? Will I end up fighting everyone?...Scary thought, isn't it?"

I was so scared. I didn't know what Squall was thinking...

'Rinoa... Even if you end up as the world's enemy, I'll... I'll be your knight.'

"If I fall under Ultimecia's control again... SeeD will come kill me, right? And the leader of SeeD is you, Squall... Squall's sword will pierce my heart... I guess it's ok if it's you, Squall. Nobody else. Squall, if that ever happens..."

God forbid the day...

"That's enough! I'll never do anything like that. The sorceress I'm after is not you, Rinoa. My enemy is the sorceress from the future...Ultimecia."

He didn't understand...

"Ultimecia lives in the future and possesses me. She uses my body as her extension into this world. How? How will you save me?"

Could he even find a way?

"I'll come up with something...There's gotta be a way."

Squall, you always do...

"..."

"Don't worry. Trust me."

Of course I would...

"...I trust you. Well, until you find a way, maybe... Maybe I should stay in Esthar, at the memorial? Wouldn't that be better?"

I didn't want to hurt anyone...

"No...That'd be pointless." I'll just end up going after you again. Rinoa...Just stay close to me.

Did he remember?

"Oh... Those words!"

"What?"

"That's what started everything."

He didn't remember...

"What are you talking about?"

Squall...you forgot.

"You don't remember?"

"Something I said?"

He seemed so open to me...

"Oh, just forget it!"

He wouldn't know...

"No, it's because of the GF. That's why I forgot."

"That's just an excuse."

Typical, blame it on someone else...

"Feeling better?"

At least he cares...

"Yeah. Can I tell you a story? I had a dream. It was a scary dream. We make a promise. We promise to see shooting stars together. I get dressed up and put on your ring. But the thing is, I can't remember where I'm supposed to meet you. I start to panic. I really want to see you, Squall, but I don't know where to go. I start running through the mountains, the desert, the plains...Through Timber, Balamb and Galbadia... When I realize I can't run any longer...I...I just want to see you so badly... So I scream, Squall, where are you? Then I woke up. I was crying. I'm sorry. You don't have to say anything. I just felt like I had to tell you."

It was a stupid dream...but it hurt so much...

"It was just a dream... It doesn't mean anything. Don't worry about it."

He wouldn't understand how it hurt...

"...I guess you're right."

"How about this...

I'll be here..."

"...Why?"

I didn't know what he meant...

"The reason why you couldn't find me was because we haven't promised yet."

"Promised...?"

"I'll be waiting for you. If you come here, you'll find me. I promise."

He promised me...

My flashback ended and I hurt more then ever. I wouldn't find him there. He wouldn't be waiting. He broke his promise...another one. Squall, why did this happen to us?

Just then, the city came into view. Soon the train slowed to a stop. We took our luggage, and Selphie helped me off a train. I looked around and sighed.

Home isn't what it used to be.

Ah, it took a little long, but I think this is a very sweet chapter. And yes, the flashback was from the game. Glad if you noticed it really happened. Thank you to my reviewers...

Reality Trance - Don't worry, I'll make Seifer come into the story. He's so cool.

Irisfromwinhill - Ah, love triangles are the best in stories. Thanks for reviewing!