The Republic of Heaven
You were my Heaven.
I died the day you pressed that fruit to my lips.
I died the day you climbed on top of my hips
And showed me a feeling I never knew before.
I died and I went to Hell
And you were there, and it turned into Heaven.
And the darkest corners and hottest fires
Were illuminated and inundated
With pulsing, gorgeous, forever Love.
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You were my everything.
I wanted and needed nothing else,
No world, no Knife, no family,
Nothing but you and your love, here,
Together, knowing it would last forever,
Like our heartbeats pressed closer, closer,
Until there was no more distance and
We melded into one another,
So close, so perfect, so Right,
Like the end of a sad movie
Or the beginning of the world.
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You were my Someone,
My Everyone, my daemon
In human form, but yourself,
Beautifully yourself, Lyra,
So strong yet so fragile,
So sure yet uncertain,
You. Yourself. I could see You
Like I knew you forever,
But you still surprised me
Every moment, every day.
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You were my Heaven.
But the World needs Heaven too
You were my World.
But there's nothing I can do...
I guess there's no God
So now who can I blame?
It's weird how our love
And its end feel the same.
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And now everything our last.
Last kiss last words last time
Last chance to say something,
Anything, nothing should end
The way our beautiful love,
kiss love words sex words kiss,
And the love remains forever.
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First love first time first loss
Next time...there won't be a next.
There won't be another, just You,
In all your grace and splendor...
You were my Heaven...
And every day without you
Turns routine into Hell.
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Your eyes your hands your face
Your tear suspended forever
As Time stops to mourn our loss
My love my heart my world,
All ending in the blink of your eye
But first you led me to the bench,
Hands held tight like threads intertwined,
And gave me your last gift, last smile,
Before the Fates snipped our thread
And our hands fell apart, undone.
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Broken heart broken Knife broken smile
So close yet worlds apart,
I close the window, turn away
Locking your face in memory,
Forever. Often, sometimes,
I remember you always,
Never letting you go.
My dad said we must build
our Heaven where we are,
Because there is no elsewhere.
You were my Heaven.