Never to Regain
Sequel to "To Have Lost"
Note: Please read "To have lost" before reading the sequel otherwise you will be confused!
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "Falling Apart " By Trust Company
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I cant believe what he just said! If I would just listen.. That all of this was my fault.. How could it be my fault? All I have done my entire life was try to be like him! To make him proud that I am his son! And ... and all of it! All of it was just wasted! All those days I trained extra hard! All those times I told him I loved him! Helped him out! I shouldnt be the one to get my father out of trouble! Thats his job! ... it's his job to worry when his children are scared! He's not suppose to laugh and say how weak we are! We are just children! Doesnt he get that?
I slipped away further from you
trying to find what is real,
You're somebody else
that I never knew,
and someone that I can't feel.
I've changed a lot over these years... when I was younger that is all I ever thought about.. Was having a dad that cared.. I wished so much that you could act just a little bit like Goku! I wished I had Goten's life! It seemed so perfect! Not a care in the world! He knew his fathers feelings for him! As I got older I still wanted my fathers love and approval.. But I soon realized I would never get it! Maybe deep in his heart he loved me and is just to proud to show it! ... Now.. Now after all he has done, after everything he caused! How he makes my mother cry herself to sleep, how he makes my little sister wonder why he hates her.. How he hits me.. And says its my fault.. Now I could careless if he cared! I love my father but im not going to waste my time of day to try and get him to love or care for me!
I shut it away I keep it in me.
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
and you see I'm falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far,
there's no other feeling.
You just lie.. You tell us you love us one day.. But the next your cold words turn everything around.. If we were to die in one day would you care? Would you care if I died right here where I stand? Would you cry? Would you be sad? Or would you just say what a stupid brat?.. Before all of this happened I believed you could change.. I was right .. You did change but not the way I thought you would! You became a evil cold man.. Yes you were that before all of this started but you never were as low to beat your own child! To make your little girl cry! You were never such a weak coward..
I slipped away closer to me
the only thing that is real.
I'm falling behind and now
I can see your absence helps me heal.
I've tried to think of reasons why you do it.. Why you act this way towards your family that has only loved and honored you.. No reasons come to mind unless you hate us.. You think of us as your burdens .. Your regrets.. You could have left planet earth when you came.. You could have been a strong warrior of the galaxy ... but then you met mom.. You never admitted that you loved her.. But it showed when I was born.. How could you not love her? She was beautiful.. And now she had given you a son of your own.. A little boy you could love, and teach to be a strong warrior like yourself.. After many years you still could have left.. You could have left anytime you wanted.. But I believed you stayed because you loved us.. Then mom had baby Bulla.. You could tell you loved her.. We were a great happy family.. But then I got sick of the way you treated me.. I thought I was alone.. I thought no one understood me.. I found out I was wrong! I tried to make things better but I made them worse.. Is this my fault? The way you treat us? The way you regret staying? Is it my fault?
I shoved you away I keep you for me.
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
and you see I'm falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far; there's no other feeling.
No! I never drove you to beat me! I never drove you to yell and scream and break my mothers heart! You did that on your own! Not me! You did it! You have to grow up and take responsibility for what you did! For what your doing! I took the responsibility when I ran away! I maned up! I said I was sorry! I told you I would never leave again! You also said sorry! You said you would never treat me like that again! You lied! I kept my promise! Im still here! Even after all you put me through im still here! Why am I still here? I hate the way you hit me and scream at me! But if I leave who will you have to take your anger out on? My little sister? I wont let you! I wont let you hurt her or my mother! I wont..! that is why im still here! But I still have to fix what has been done! I cant stay and live like this! Eventually I will leave! Not out of rage or anger but because I would be an adult.. I don't want to leave when things are like this! I wont leave when things are like this!
Spread, Spread out.
So you take me and you break me,
and you see I'm falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far.
And you take me and you break me,
and you see I'm falling apart.
There's no more feeling
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Please Read!
3rd chapter to the sequel! Yay! I hope your liking it so far! Vegeta wont be a evil jerk for the whole story.. But he will be for awhile longer.. And in later chapters you'll understand why vegeta is acting like this..
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Anoke