Never to Regain
Sequel to "To Have Lost"
Note: Please read "To have lost" before reading the sequel otherwise you will be confused!
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "Step to me " By Thousand foot krutch
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Im sick of this! If he thinks this is going to stay the same he is out of his mind! I wont let this stay the same! Im changing things here and now! You tell me to listen! You say your in charge! Well guess what now its your turn to listen! I don't care if you are my father, I don't care if you are in charge! I don't care what you try. What you need to know is it ends now!
I've been as far as you can go
I've learned a lot and now I know
You're never gonna get me on the floor again
I'm prepared to take you to the end
Never gonna play your games again
Bring your whole team and all your friends
But I hope your listenin'
"Listen to me!" I scream
"Listen to you? Why should I?" My father asks
"Why should you? You should for the simple fact that if you don't you could lose your family for good!" I scream
"Oh really? Well then go ahead be my guest." he says
"...This has to stop dad, I love you I really do! We all love you.. But we cant live like this! We cant live with you doing this! You yell for no reason! You hit me for no reason and then apologize for it afterwords! We cant do this!" I say with tears running down my face
Haunt me if you want me
But I'll warn you
If you ever step to me
"I do not sort! "" my father screams
"No sort? Ha! What were you going to do to me dad?"" I say below my breath
"... I was going to give you a well deserved belting.."" my father replies
"Well deserved, ha! Don't make me laugh!"" I say
"Make you laugh? Now thats funny, you're the one here making a big deal about a punishment!"" dad says
I sometimes wish that I could fly
Hold me tight in your arms tonight
Sick of livin' inside a lie, alright
I can't count the times I've tried
Stand alone just to lift you high
You're my answer to the question why
im sick of living like this! Before I thought I was a prisoner, I thought my life couldnt get any worse than it was. I ran away for a little while.. My father had me come back, he told me he loved me! He told me everything would be okay!.. before I felt sorry for myself.. Now I feel even worse for myself.. I made things ten times worse than it was.. But should I really be blaming myself for all of this? Did my leaving make my father do this? How could it? I can back we made our peace.. That should be enough!
I'm sick of letting you control
The places that I go
I'm never giving into you again
Take, take another look at me
And tell me what you see
All of these kats tryin' to get under my skin
But they can't step over me
You try to control me
But ya can't hold me
You don't own me
If you ever step to me
I want him to stop and look at me! Really look at me.. I want to know what he see's .. Does he see his loving son that cares and admires him! That wants to be just like him? Does he see that? Or does he see his human punching bag that does nothing right? I would really like to know that... what am I to him? What is my mother to him? He she just his slave? Does he think that he is on planet vegeta. Where everyone has to listen and obey his every wish? Does he really believe that? Does he think his children are his property? Yes.. In some way we are his property.. But not in the way im saying.. I mean does he think he can control us, demand things from us, and then just punish us? Does he think thats all his children are good for?
I sometimes wish that I could fly
Hold me tight in your arms tonight
Sick of livin' inside a lie, alright
I can't count the times I've tried
Stand alone just to lift you high
You're my answer to the question why
Sometimes I wish I could just fly out of here.. I did that once I just left.. It didnt turn out to well.. My result is my hell that I am living in.. This is my all time punishment.. I've took my punishment from time to time.. I never complained.. But I never thought he beat me.. I never thought a father could do this to his own child.. I guess I was wrong
I know it's not me
Take a look inside me
I'm sick of these ways
So sick of these games
Couldn't see it til I multiplied you
Call me a freak
But I don't hear the words you speak
I'm takin' control
Just lettin' you know
That I won't get sucked in by you
You yell, you scream, you shout it to the top of your lungs what a disgrace I am to you, what a failure I am to you, what a burden I am, why am I those things to you? What did I do wrong? Why do you ask this way? Lately I've been hearing my little sister crying at night, she cries for me.. She cries when my father yells, she cries when he screams and hits me.. She cries herself to sle ep.. I don't want my precious little sister to cry! I don't want her to feel pain, sorrow, or hurt! I want her to be happy! And joyful!
I sometimes wish that I could fly
Hold me tight in your arms tonight
Sick of livin' inside a lie, alright
I can't count the times I've tried
Stand alone just to lift you high
You're my answer to the question why
"I just want things back to normal!" I cry out
"Normal? And what would be normal son?"" my father asks
"Back to the way things were!"" I scream
"Oh you want things back to normal eh? "" my father says with a evil smirk
Haunt me if you want me
But I'll warn you
If you ever step to me
"Daa.d...da.d...dad don't!"please!"" I plead
"Come here!" he screams
... he hits me so hard it all goes black
Again, you try to control me
But ya can't hold me
You don't own me
If you ever step to me
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4th to the sequel! Yay .. Sorry for the delayed chapter.. School comes first.. But I try to update atleast 1 or 2 times a week! I promise! Saturdays I might update 2 times in one day..
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Anoke