Never to Regain
Sequel to "To Have Lost"
Note: Please read "To have lost" before reading the sequel otherwise you will be confused!
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "FTake me " By Papa Roach
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I wake up in the infirmary in capsule corp, i cant move! it hurts so bad! i look around trying to find anyone to tell me what happened.. all i remember is talking to my dad and... oh yeah.. he did this... of course.. he did it.. he was mad.. thats all i shouldnt have pushed him!... why am i doing this again? why am i covering for him?.. just then my mother walks into the room
"oh good Trunks your awake!" my mother says cheerfully
"Yeah..." i say
"oh Trunks dont be so down" my mother says
"Dont be so down? mom have you looked at me?" i ask her
"Yes.. i have dear.. im sorry for what happened but.. what could i have done sweetie?"
"no.. mom i wasnet suggesting... i ... im sorry" i say giving in
"it's okay dearest" my mom says
Take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out .
It has been a week since my father put me in the hospital, ... i just got out a day ago.. he beat me so hard.. im suprised he didnt kill me.. im falling apart now, i just only seem to make things worse! before i ran away my father just abused me with his words! then he started to hit me! but not very often! now.. now he hits me everynight! it hurts! he tells me if i say anything to anyone i'll die.. would death be better than this? why is he doing this to me?.. why?.. what did i do to deserve this? im just a kid!.. im afriad im really afraid.. what if my father does kill me one of these days? i thought i could make him change but i cant! why do i keep trying! all it does is make him hit me harder! why cant i learn!
I lit my pain on fire
And I watched it all burn down
Now I'm dancing in the ashes
And theres no one else around
Cause I wanna be apart of something
This is just a story of a broken soul
Im sad all the time.. im depressed.. i have no feeling.. i wake up in the morning.. depressed.. i go to sleep depressed and bruised... hurt.. ashamed.. my father makes me train.. he makes me work harder than i worked before.. if i dont he hits me.. if i do he hits me.. whats the point in doing what he says.. actually why do i bother asking that question.. i know the reason why.. if i dont listen he will beat me half dead.. if i listen.. he will only hit me.. but still my options arnt very good... i dont know what to do! im so confused! i love it when he leaves! i love it! he isent here to belittle me! to hurt me! to hurt my mother!
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by.
It hurts to know the only thing keeping me alive is listen and obeying what my father says.. knowing that he can kill me at anytime, for no reason.. it hurts! it hurts going out someplace and seeing little kids having fun with their father, being happy, knowing they are loved.. it hurts seeing that knowing i once had that! i once had my father that loved me! now i messed everything up! why do i keep doing that? why do i keep messing things up, why do i keep making things worse for myself?
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
He beats me, he smacks around my mother, i hate it when he does that! he just started... when i try to stop him he hits me! i dont care though i wont let him hurt my mother!.. or atleast i will try not to!... at first when he started to smack my mother around i would come in between him, but.. now he locks my away so i cant stop him, he says she deserves this! why, why does he do this to us? we didnt do anything to him! why does he hate us this much! why wont he just leave.. after awhile i was going to tell someone what my father does.. but now.. now he threatens me with my mother.. he is even starting to threaten me with my sister.. i cant live like this!
I'm burning in the heavens
And I'm drowning in a hell
My soul is in a coma
And none of my friends can tell
That I'm reaching out and getting nothing
This is just a story of a broken soul
Why does my father want us to live like this? why does he make us live like this? why does he hate us so much? what did we ever do to him? why does he act this way? why cant i tell someone why am i to afriad.. im letting everyone down.. im letting my mother, my sister and myself down.. im so ashamed to be me! i hate myself! why must i do this! why cant i just tell the truth! i know what my father says but isent trying better than just giving up? i know it has to be.. but . ..what if i make things worse again? what if does kill my mother because of me?
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
What if he hurts my little sister because of me? it would all be myfault! i cant live with that! i couldnt i couldnt stand knowing it was my fault.. i dont know how i live now! with what my father does to my mother.. before i never undertood how she could just stay in her room and hear me scream for help.. i thought she thought i deserved it.. but now.. i know she couldnt have done anything.. i knew before she couldnt have done anything i just wished she would have tried.. but now .. now i have to be locked away hearing my mother scream in pain! it kills me! how could he do this to his family that has always loved him?
Don't shut me out
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
The Pain is just to unreal! i cant stand it when he hits me! it's everyday.. the pain.. the hurt.. everything i just wish it would go away! i scream at night, i try to hold it in but it's hard! i try so my little sister wont be afraid! who am i kidding? i know she is afraid who wouldnt be? she has to sit and listen to me scream for mercy, and then listen to our mother beg our father to stop.. what child wouldnt be afraid? i know i would.. i know i am.. im afraid every day i wake up.. every day i go to sleep.. everytime i look over my shoulder im afraid..
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
Afraid.. afraid he will come to beat me.. to hurt me.. to give me pain..im afraid i will die ... im afriad for the life of my mother and my little sister.. i wish he would stop.. i wish they wouldnt feel pain because of me..
Take Me
Don't Break Me
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Yay another chapter up! what do you think? i know Vegeta is being an ass but it will all be explained later on so PLEASE REVIEW and tell me what you think, and if i should continue!
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Anoke