Never to Regain
Sequel to "To Have Lost"
Note: Please read "To have lost" before reading the sequel otherwise you will be confused!
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "Perfect" By Simple Plan
Note: Just like in "To Have lost" this is in VEGETA'S POV
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i still cant believe it.. i killed my own son.. everyone tells me its not my fault.. that i didnt mean to.. but still it doesnt matter! My son is dead and can never come back because of my hands.. because of the hatred i had.. at nights i find myself walking into his bedroom, just staring.. wishing that he was there in his bed snuggled under his covers.. but that is just wishful thinking... King kai wont even let me talk to him.. he says it throws off the balance of the living and the dead.. but i dont care! I just want to speak to him! to tell him that im sorry for what i did..
One night when i was woundering in his room i saw a book of Trunks's as i read it.. i hated myself even more.. his words...
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
As im reading .. it hurts knowing he felt this way.. knowing it was because of me.. now this.. no one can say wasent my fault.. this is was written before trunks left home.. before any of this started! he wrote this! i sometimes wish i could change what i did, the ways i was.. i wish i could go back to when trunks was just a little boy.. how much i wanted to be a good father but my pride stood in my way.. i swore i would never let that happen again.. but i had so little control over my life i actually was able to be controled.. yes i was being controled by myself but it wasent me! It was a darker side of me!
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
He says he just wanted to make me proud.. doesnt he know he always made me proud? i still remember the first day i trained trunks.. he was so weak but i was still proud of my little sayian... my son.. he was the first thing i could ever call my own.. i trained him, i made him a strong proud warrior.. but i forgot along the way that he was still just a little boy that needed his father.. i wish i could change what has happened i wish i could just talk to him! just for 5 minutes! 5 minutes is all i would need! i just need him to know that im sorry!
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
It sickens me everynight thinking of what i did.. even if i had no idea what i was doing it still doesnt matter.. i never should had made trunks feel bad enough to write this.. i wonder if he was ever going to tell me what he wrote, tell me his true feelings.. would i have listened? would i have cared or would i have been to proud to see that my son needed my just like all the other times i pushed him away.. like all the other times i pushed my family away.. i pushed everyone away.. if i would hve just listened to him.. maybe it would have never came to this.. came to my sons death... knowing that i can never make things right again with him makes me sick.. how i wish i could change places with my dear boy...
i take my family to my sons grave. my daughter brings flowers for her big brother, my wife just cries.. i kneel down beside my daughter, standing in front of trunks's grave.. we read the headstone outloud
"In loving Memory of Trunks Vegeta Brief, You will always be loved and missed, Rest In Piece"
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
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Please Read!
Okay i know weird/short chapter, but its the end.. the end is aways suppose to be short... i hope you enjoyed the Sequel!
Now just to clear things up.. this was in Vegeta's POV, but the song lyrics are suppose to be trunks's words in a journal.
That is all i can see that might confuse people.. if you have any questions go ahead and ask:D
PLEASE REVIEW! THIS WAS THE LAST CHAPTER I WANT ALOT OF REVIEWS PLEASE!
Anoke