I heard the shower in the bathroom and decided that it couldn't be a bad thing to take a look inside, his clothes were all wet and I should throw them in the dryer.

"Tatsuha, I'm coming in okay? I just want to put your stuff in the dryer." With that I opened the door, I let my eyes look around in the room 'Kumagoro boxers…cute' I smiled and let my eyes lingering on the shower, the door was opened and Tatsuha stood inside, leaning back against the wall, looking at me with a kind smile on his face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-" but I was cut off from Tatsuha.

"It's okay, I don't usually bother with closing the doors or the curtains or whatever. Since..uhm nevermind" he smiled at me again , while I dropped Kumagoro onto the dryer and walked up to him. 'Damn, he so cute...but I really like him...I shouldn't let my need ruin everything...only once...one little kiss...it wont kill me...I guess...' I think my head was about to explode while I was sticking it into the shower "You like Kumagoro?" I asked, remembering the boxers on the floor. Just as I remembered why i was here, a hand came up to my arm, gently holding onto it.

"Of course...who wouldn't like that sweet pinkish bunny...but I like you even more..." he was still smiling at me, I would have been bright red if someone stepped in on me while I was under the shower, but he just smiled at me softly. "Want to come in?" he asked me in the same soft tone as befor.

Sure, I wanted to, I wanted it more than anything..."You're totally different from your older brother..." but I nodded slowly to answer his question befor I said that, and when I had finished the sentence my shirt was already unbuttoned and thrown onto the floor. His hands were gently stroking over my chest while I got rif from the rest of my clothes, befor I could think of anything I was pulled into the shower. I sure as hell was red all over my face, not so much because we were both naked and under the shower together, just because...I liked it.

"Tatsuha..." he had his back turned to me while he was picking up the liquid soaps, looking which one smells best.

"Hai?" he sounded so innocent and cute, when he turned around with some dark red bottle, which had Sakura in golden flowerlike letters written on it, it was my favorite too, but I didn't say anything, I just smiled at him when I saw the bottle.

"May I ask you...Which lucky cicumstance brought you here?" I leaned back against the wall, relaxing a bit when his hands ran over my body slowly and gently stroking every inch of my body, well from my waist to my hair at least. Tatsuha looked at me when I asked that question and his smile was gone for a second...Did I say anything wrong?

"My brother and Shuichi...well Shuichi told my brother somehing he shouldn't have told him actually...and aniki...well he tried to use me just so he can get some fun...Shuichi told me, and I ran away...that's why I was in the park befor..." he smiled at me again, it was as soft and cute as befor, just his eyes looked so sad.

"Your brother's evil...he surely forced it out of Shuichi...he can't keep secrets to himself when Yuki wants to know about them." I took the bottle out of his hands and gently pinned Tatsuha on the wall behind him, I poured some of the pinkish soap in my hands and let them move over Tatsuhas arms. He was shivering under my touches, it's so cute. Never befor did I feel so comfortable with anyone around me than now. "Don't be sad Tatsuha..." I looked into his eyes, he was about to cry, but I didn't think anyone of the Ueasugi family would really cry.

"I'm not...why should I...if something like that turns out to end like this..." again he smiled at me, but this time his eyes were shining again. I was happy that he liked beeing with me and let myself sink into his arms. When I realized what I just did, I thought he'd push me away, but he just closed his strong arms around my waist and let his head rest on mine.

"You're cute, Ryuichi" he whispered softly, I just realized how hard I pinned him against the wall, and how hard I got from feeling his warm skin and his member against..'What? Why am I thinking about that? I just wanted him as a friend...But...he feels so good...and he smells...' It was beautiful, the warm water forming small pearls on his pale skin. But no matter how beautiful he was, I pulled away from him and looked into his eyes, those beautiful black eyes, shining through the water.

"What is it Ryuichi?" it seemed as if he hadn't even noticed how turned on I was...because of him. His hands still lingered on my waist, and I didn't want to push them away from me. I must've looked really confused, Tatsuha wanted to pull his hands away, but I didn't want that, I pulled his hands back to my waist "Don't..." it was the only thing I could manage to say to him. He just nodded slowly, but pulled one hand away to stop the water and grabbed a towel. "You're shivering, I don't want you to get sick!" he said smiling and wrapped the towel around me befor he pulled me close to him again. "What is it? You can talk to me Ryuichi..." his voice was so soft an kind.

"I...really like you Tatsuha..." I didn't know how else I should tell him...I couldn't tell him, that I loved him, to frightening was the thought that I could loose him...scare him away. He gently let go of me and grabbed my clothes from the floor, handing them too me.

"Here, you should get dressed, I mean it's not like I wouldn't like you running around like this, but you shouldn't get sick." I smiled at him, he was so cute and caring, I couldn't believe that he should be the brother of Yuki Eiri. But I just grabbed all of the clothes that were spread in the small room and pushed them into the dryer befor I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around Tatsuha.

"If you don't want me to get sick, you'll have to keep me warm yourself!" I whispered into his ear befor I turned around and walked into my bedroom. I switched th TV on and put a DVD in the player, an old nittle grasper concert, I turned the volume down so it was sounding more...romantic. I soon saw Tatsuha appear, and pulled him onto the bed. He was lying on his back next to me, I pulled our towels off and the blanket on top of us. I didn't even realize the shocked...or surprised look on Tatsuhas face until now "What is it Tatsuha?"

"Nothing, I'm just...surprised...that's all..I would've never thought that..this would happen" he still smiled at me kindly... from his words I'd say he didn't like it that way, but from his smile and his soft tone, he sounded like he did like it this way. "You just said that I should keep you warm didn't you?" he asked me softly befor he moved so he was lying on top of me.

"Yeah I did..." I closed my eyes and pulled him down on me "I'm not that weak! You won't hurt me." I lifted my arms and let them sink onto his back holding him tightly.

I have no idea how long we were lying like that, I know that both of us got hard while we were lying there. I didn't care about him notcing it anymore, I wanted to be close to him, to feel him inside me...but how should I tell him this?

The music was gone, all 3 dvd's had allready been played then, it was getting dark outside and I looked at Tatsuha, I wanted to say something, but then I saw those beautiful black eyes half closed, looking at me, I don't know why but he captured me, I slowly moved closer to the face next to mine and kissed his lips, they were soft and sweet and warm and it made me also feel warm inside. When I pulled away and opened my eyes again, I was surprised- i'd thought to find shocked black eyes, widened and staring at me, but instead his eyes were closed, his lips were slightly parted and his hand was traveling over my chest.

"I love you Tatsuha..." It was meant to be whispered, but it sounded more like a soft moan, Why did I have to be so stupid as to tell him? He sure as hell will run away- what the...

He didn't run away, he moved one hand to my cheek and turned my head to face him, gently capturing my lips with his. I'd expected much, but in none of my thoughts was he staying and actually kissing me again. It was like we would be melting together, at least it was what I felt. He was the first guy I ever kissed, of course there were some woman befor him, but with none of them it was like this. I wanted this moment to stay forever, I wanted him to stay like this with me. This time it were my eyes that kept closed and my lips that were slightly parted when he pulled away again.

"Tatsuha...will you...could you stay here tonight?" I really didn't want him to leave again. His fingers were running through my hair and softly stroking over my cheek, his eyes were half closed while we were looking into eachothers eyes. His soft voice filled the room "If you want me to, I'd love to stay here with you."

I held him tightly "Should you tell someone that you wont be coming hme tonight?"

"No...noone will worry anyway.Yuki'll be happy to have time with Shuichi, alone." Again those sad eyes were looking at me.

"Why are you sad Tatsuha?" I let my hand rest on his neck, one of my fingeres slowly moved in circles.

"Nevermind...I'm just a stupid little kid..." he smiled at me, more a sad smile than a happy, shiny one.

"You're a bad Liar! Tell me the truth" I still didn't want to see him cry. Not tonight, tonight was supposed to be the best night in my entire life, and I wanted it to be his best night too.

"It doesn't matter! I don't care about it as long as I'm...with you...You're all I ever wanted...This is more...and better than I've imagined...I wont let Yuki ruin this!" he burried his face in my neck and kissed it softly. I could feel warm tears running onto my skin and just stroked over his back, comforting him.

"You really like your older brother, don't you?" I whispered softly into his ear.

"Yeah...not as much as I...like you...but noone could mean as much to me as you do." He really sounded honest. I pulled him against my chest again, guessing that this was what he wanted me to do now. I looked down at him and kissed his hair, befor I closed my eyes his steady breathing comforted me enough to make me fall into a kind of light sleep, I could still tell that he was there, I still could feel him and the soft movements his chest made when he breathed, but I couldn't move anymore, my body seemed heavy, I couldn't open my eyes or my mouth...until the phone woke me and brought me back to reality.Tatsuha didn't seem to notice so I carefully reached for the phone and answered it quietly. "Sakuma-desu" I said as usual.

"Is Tatsuha with you?" I would've guessed, or prefered it would be Shuichi, but it was Yuki, much to my surprise, he sounded cold as always, but I could feel that he was worried about his little brother, even if he'd never admit it.

"Hai, he's sleeping at the moment, he'll stay here today." I answered softly, quietly and as nice as possible.

"Okay, he doesn't annoy you to much, hopefully. I can get him tomorrow if you want me to..." he sounded pretty annoyed.

"This' Shuichis idea isn't it? Anyway...No, you shouldn't come here, if he wants to go back, I'll get him where he wants to be."

"Shut up, brat!" he said, obviously talking to shuichi and holding his hand over the phone befor sighing talking to me again "Well, he has to go to school I suppose...at least Shuichi says so"

"Yeah? Probably...I wont force him there, if he wants to go there, I can take him there...tell Shu that Kumagoro and me will take care of Tatsuha...he doesn't have to worry!"

"Whatever...good night..." he hung up and I put the reciever back, when I realized those deep shining black eyes staring at me "What is it Tatsuha?" I asked smiling at him.

"Arigato..." he smiled up at me.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you"

"I wont go to school tomorrow...but I can go home or well...more likely somewhere else if you want it" I still don't know why he offered that, wasn't it obvious that I didn't want him to leave? I held him even closer and replied smiling "You'll stay here...I want you to...if you want to go home, I wont hold you but I'd like you to stay..."

"I just don't want to annoy you..."

"You're not! Why don't you go to school?"

"Don't see why I should...it somehow doesn't get me anywhere...I'm almost never there anyway..."

"Yeah, I wont tell you, you should go there or anything, I just want to know it..."

"I hate it there...guess there's nothing more to it...I'm getting sick there...just seeing the place, the teachers...the students...I'm freaking out...I'm going insane if I'd keep going there..." He really sounded sad and as if he was dieing inside when he thought about his school.

"I guess...there are lots of people thinking like that...I also left school when I was 16, ad I don't think it was that bad for me...so even if I wanted to, which I don't, it would be like lieing if I'd tell you a lecture for not going there...don't worry Tatsuha...and...please...don't look so sad at me...I can't stand that..." I didn't know what to tell him anymore, no matter what I said...he still looked pretty sad, and tears were dropping onto my chest again. "What can I do to make you happy again Tatsuha?I' do everything to see your shining eyes and your beautiful smile upon your face." I really meant what I said...I'd do everything he tells me...I'm suprised by myself that I really admitted this just to see him smile again...I'd do everything for this..."Fuck me!"...did he just say that? Did he really ask me to fuck him? I must be dreaming, he couldn't ask me for that..."What?" I asked softly, getting myself away from my thoughts again.

"I...want you...to fuck me..."

I sighed and smiled, more to myself than to him "As long as it doesn't involve people like Yuki Eiri...it's called making love..." he let out a small laugh, just like I did, I turned us around so I was lying on top of him "You really want to be uke?" I didn't think he really wanted to be, I guessed he never was befor...he looked like someone who liked to have the control over all sitations...well at least in this point he's like his brother.

"I wouldn't say yes, usually...but I want to feel you inside of me...and I...want you to be able to stop at any time if you don't want to do this." Of course I wanted it...since I saw him under the shower I want to do this. I'm so glad I never took Kumagoro into my bedroom when someone else was here.Poor little bunny.

"I'll do it with you Tatsuha...but please..be kind to me...I never...made love to another guy" I guess I sounded pretty shy now...or rather..stupid, bu he still looked at me, kindly smiling.

"Doesn't matter...just be careful." He pulled me dow to meet my lips with his, gently kissing me, I could feel how my blood slowly running down and made me getting harder all the time, I could also feel his arousal rubbing against mine, god help me, how am I supposed to hold back long enough to make us both enjoy it when everything...when he felt so damn good. He really seemed to be knowing this scene well...a bit too well, I followed his hand as he pulled out the lube I had next to the bed.

"How could you-" he pulled my lips onto his and kissed me again, my eyes still lingered on his skillfull hands as he poured some of the lube onto one of them, he moved his hips upwards and pushed me up a bit, holding me in place with his 'clean' hand, coating my erection with the slippery fluid befor placing it over his entrance and whispering into my ear "be careful Ryuichi".

I was pulled down by those warm skillfull hands again slowly, I entered him, looking into his black eyes, I tried to pull back when I heard him whimper beneath me and saw his eyes closing a bit in pain, but he held me back and pulled me into him faster "Just keep going Ryuichi...don't worry" he whispered again while I slowly pulled out of him again, to thrust into him a bit harder and faster than befor.

"I love you Tatsuha" moaning into his ear, while I stroked over his chest slowly moving down with my hand, pumping him synchron to the thrusts. Enjoying his moans and the reactions I recieved from him, god how can someone possibly be as beautiful and cute as he is? How long can I possibly keep myself from coming inside him, every noise he makes is bringing me closer to the edge...it's slowly driving me insane. I never thought anyone could have such an effect on me, especially not a guy. But who cares about his gender...he's amazing. I looked down into his eyes, god they are so deep and shining...so beautiful...they match his hair so perfectly...I could lose myself in them...or...did I already lose myself in them? "Tatsuha" I moaned at him and befor I could hold back anylonger I cum inside him with one final thrust and I felt hot sticky fluid shooting on our stomachs when I collapsed ontop of him, I burried my face in his chest, kissing his neck softly as I pulled out of him "You're amazing Tatsuha!" I whispered into his ear and let my head fall back down, I felt so tired and exhausted...

"I love you Ryuichi...you're wonderful!" I heard his whispers at my ear befor I fell asleep.

So much for this chapter

I guess it doesn't make sense at all...or well if it does it sucks probably, because...well I'm not imature enough to write from Ryuichis POV...but I guess even he doesn't always think and talk like a five year old...just be nice and leave reviews for me please

Probably you can help me...I have an idea for the next chapter...so how about telling me whoms POV it should be...I already had Ryuichi..and failed...miserably I think... but I wanted to try something new...so tell me for the fifth or sixth chapter...I don't know...which POV shall I use? Yukis? Shuichis? Tatsuhas? Ryuichis again? Thoma? Suguru? I can use almost everyone...but please not Hiro...that would be more OOC than Ryuichi...

So for now, have fun and be kind to me

Tenshi-Tyara