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Newest chapter for you all… Hope you didn't forget about this story! I took a while for this chapter I apologize! I'm not a quick updater as it appears :( sorry!
Never Will We Be That Wonderful: Chapter 6
If she knows something and I say I know nothing than she will know I'm lying, but if she never knew anything in the first place and I confess than she will be super pissed. Either way I have to make up my mind sometime today.
"Sorry I shouldn't have said that, I guess I'm a paranoid girlfriend. Wouldn't matter if he was cheating on me I've got the hots for Motoki right now anyways," she smiled to herself.
"I'm sorry what did you just say?" I asked coming out of my thought trance.
"I said I've got the hots for Motoki right now, didn't you hear? I'm surprised Lita hasn't bitched about me behind my back to you by now. Ya I was at the café he works at and I saw him working and we were talking for a while and I started going there every Wednesday just to sit and talk with him. Looks innocent but him and I both know deep down inside that it's not," Explained Raye.
My mouth dropped and the temptation of confessing my infatuation with Darien along with the trials of us making out in his truck were dying to spring from my voice box and deliver themselves on a silver platter just to watch her face look hurt if only for a minute.
"You're kidding me right?" I stated more than asked I suppose.
"Why? Do you have a thing for Motoki too?" She inquired jokingly.
"No! And there's so many reasons why I wouldn't! Motoki is Darien's best friend for starters and although the two can't admit it Motoki and Lita have had a thing going on for almost eight months now!" I spilled, and what's this laughter is evoking from her mouth.
"So what? It's time Lita learned how to share it's not like she's never taken anything from me!" shot back Raye, that's a lie Raye takes but has never been taken from. "Serena you crack me up, and here I thought you would be glad; it means you and Darien can go out when him and I break up because I broke up with him! Besides its preposterous Darien breaking up with me for you, I was kidding besides I didn't say I wanted to break up with Darien right now,"
"Why is that preposterous?" I asked pathetically. I should not have asked that, now is when all hell will break loose, she's going to have a billion more questions to follow this one. I am intimidated.
"What are you purposing Serena?" She laughed, however her laugh was not the normal cackle it sounded a bit choked up.
"I'm not purposing anything, what I meant by it is that you always say it's preposterous or impossible for someone who thinks you're hot to think I'm hot to!" I exclaimed, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. Here comes her sympathy and apologies.
"Oh Serena I don't mean it like that," She sighed and pulled me into her arms.
"I'm not saying someone like Darien could never like you because that is entirely untrue and you know it! What I'm saying is my boyfriends aren't about to leave me for you I'm not implying it in a mean way. I am merely stating a fact, the boys I date work to hard to get me and keep me to just dump me like that for someone who they didn't work so hard for. I consider myself to be a privilege not a right,"
How can she be so conceited? A privilege not a right? I don't think Darien worked all that hard to get her, if anything I think she worked hard to get him. Darien is probably the most eligible man in our high school, he's our royalty and whoever dates him becomes royalty. Raye confides in me her desire for Motoki, now I question whether or not she is simply using Darien to gain popularity or if she really loves him like she says she does.
Later that Evening…
"RAYE! Darien is here!" Shouted Grandpa up the stairs.
"Darien? What's he here for?" pondered Raye as she made her way down the stairs, I quietly followed with my cell phone to my ear. I was trying get a hold of my parents so that I could go home.
"What a sweet surprise," Smiled Raye while standing on her tippy toes to give Darien a small kiss, and yet I show nor feel jealousy.
"I came to drop off some clothes you left at my house last time you were over," He explained then followed to hand her a plastic bag with assortments of clothing in it.
"Oh hey perfect timing want to give Serena a lift home?" She smiled sweetly at him, this relationship was a sham and I was the only one who knew it or at least I was the only one who could see it.
"Sick I don't want Serena in my truck," He replied, I could tell he was kidding the way his eyes pierced through mine and a small curve of a smile faintly showed on his lips.
"Darien be nice, now Serena this is why Darien could never like you," She laughed while handing me my coat. She did not just say that, she doesn't know anything and yet Darien who does will now be completely confused. I walked slowly behind Darien as we walked down to his truck and I climbed into the passenger side. I did up my seatbelt as normal and he started the truck and drove out of the drive way, right about now is when my stomach makes grows butterflies and the feeling or sheer nervousness is my predominant feeling.
"Okay I was going to avoid asking but what the hell was Raye talking about back there?" questioned Darien a little angry.
"It was from our conversation that we were having earlier in the evening," I answered while adjusting my legs, this was going to be awkward.
"She thinks you like me?" He questioned. Okay this was it I can no longer take this, everyone knows I like Darien for Gods sake. Why don't I just come out and say it? Oh right because I'm a pansy.
"For God sake Darien everyone thinks I like you!" I shot back, didn't mean to sound so pissed off. "Even you think I like you!"
"Raye was never serious in her accusations but that freaks me out when she accuses you right in front of me, you didn't say anything to her right?" He inquired.
"Do you think I am stupid? What am I saying of course you do everyone does, I am stupid. I don't know what I am doing if I get caught for what I've done then everyone will hate me!" I cried. I heard the truck slow down to a stop and I looked around, we were in a parking lot of an abandoned fair ground.
"What are we doing here?" I asked sitting up straight to look at him.
"Serena do you not want me to be around you anymore?" Asked Darien with a serious tone of voice.
"Why would I want that?" I asked, now realizing all I just said would give him the impression I want him to go away. Yes I do want him to go away I wish I never liked him to begin with! I sometimes feel as if I am the daughter off that movie "Mermaids" trying to lead a celibate life and yet here I am in a truck alone with a guy in a parking lot of an abandoned fair ground, If I was ever to loose my virginity now is looking like the time.
"With all that you say to me I've always gotten the impression that you wanted me to either be your actual boyfriend or leave your life completely. So I think right now you're going to have to make a decision," He said quietly while moving a little closer to me, I wish he would back away it would make this so much easier.
He slowly put his hand on my hip and moved the back of his hand up and down my leg, giving my body shivers. I felt his hand pull my face closer to his and he kissed me tenderly on the lips than continued to caress my leg.
"Do you want me to go away?" He mumbled through quick kisses.
"I like you," I replied, there I had said it in a moment of passion it came out my true feelings and yes I am scared of the repercussion. He pulled away and looked at me as if studying my features.
"You like me," He replied as if baffled by my confession, my dirty little confession. I have sinned oh how I sin.
"I have liked you since before you dated Raye, I could never tell you because I know that I am not near as attractive as Raye or any other girl you have dated for that matter. I don't put out or at least haven't put out. I have a great body and nice hair but that's all I've got to work with. I can't heighten your popularity and I'm not an air head so therefore I am more observant making me appear weird," I explained and I could feel the moist tears building up in my eyes, my hands rushed to cover my face; I don't want to be looked at now. I felt two large hands grip my inner wrists and pull them away from my face.
"Serena you know I don't feel the same way. I am sorry though that I make you feel this way about me. Do you still want me to be in your life?" He asked sincerely. "Because if it is hurting you then I will leave and never speak to you again,"
"Please don't go away," I answered, I could feel a pain in my lip I had subconsciously began to bite it. "If you go away from me I think it might be worse. I don't care if you don't like me and you know that," I stated while pulling him into a hug.
"Serena I don't want to go out with you but I never wanted to hurt you," He whispered while forcefully hugging me back.
"You're not hurting me, this isn't hurting me. I didn't get jealous of seeing Raye kiss you even. I've become so cocky and I can't loose this flaw," I exclaimed in frustration.
We sat there in his truck embraced for sometime before he drove me home, we didn't speak at all. I feel he's to afraid to say anything; as if he had anymore of his foot left to insert into his mouth.
The Next Day…
I was late for class again. I slept in this morning because I couldn't sleep last night, I couldn't take the curiosity that filled my body. I was wondering what Darien had been feeling last night, if Raye had suspected anything at all and above all I was wondering where the hell Minako was so I could tell her all this! I could hear voices down the next hallway, they were male voices. There is only one group of guys who will constantly be late for class and wonder the hallways.
"Ami is having a party tonight hey?" announced what sounded like to be Ryo.
"I don't have any money to buy beer, I'm going to feel left out!" Exclaimed Motoki. Motoki and Darien live in an apartment together; like Raye Darien lost his parents when he was young he was put into an orphanage but no one has the slightest clue as to how it happened.
"Don't worry my friend I shall buy you all beer for tonight I am going to find a pretty girl and get some action," laughed Shinozaki.
If there's one person Ami has similar qualities too it would be Shinozaki, his father owns a shopping mall in Odaiba and is constantly alone and he is filthy rich. Shinozaki is reckless and his father just pays everyone off to keep them quiet. I look at Shinozaki as a tragedy his father doesn't understand the attention he craves and his mother is so wrapped up in Shinozaki's father to even care what her son needs.
"Who you planning on getting action from? One of Raye's friends?" Laughed Kenji another one of the group.
"Lita, Ami or Minako would be okay but Serena now she would be prime," laughed Shinozaki. Okay my attention is at Bay, did he just say I would be prime? What the hell is prime?
"What do you mean prime? And don't be talking about Lita, she's mine," Asked Motoki.
"Remember I said would be prime, prime it means she'd be a prime girl to fuck," He explained. I've never been talked about like this, that I know of and I'm curious to hear the reaction of the others.
"You couldn't get into her pants if you paid her," Laughed Ryo.
"Oh how do you know? I'm good looking, popular, rich and I'm considered to be prime myself thanks," He answered cockily. So he thinks, I don't consider him all that 'prime'.
"Don't touch Serena," I heard a deep masculine voice and I peered around the corner only to find Darien leaning against a row of lockers.
"Why not? She's single and hot and she can't stay innocent forever," laughed Shinozaki.
"For one thing you don't stand a chance, she doesn't need money her parents do nicely, she's already pretty popular and I'm pretty sure she's fine without your prime ass. Besides you mess with her and I'll mess you up," I heard Darien threaten.
He threatened for me, he threatened another guy for me. Holy shit."Serena you know I don't feel the same way. I am sorry though that I make you feel this way about me. Do you still want me to be in your life?" I hate it when your mind has random flashbacks, they always make you feel like crap.
"Darien buddy what's with you and Serena? You're not seriously going to ditch Raye for her? Didn't you work really hard to get Raye?" Asked Ryo. I heard Darien laugh.
"Do you guys have any idea how we started going out? It's hilarious really. So I'm leaning against the wall outside reading a book when Raye walks up to me and says 'look I'm popular and you're popular we're both single and completely bored with our lives so why don't we try something new and go out with each other?' I said ya of course because I was bored with school and I was kind of tired of girls following me around all the time trying to go out with me. Than she had the nerve to continue with 'Oh and let's just say you approached me and asked me out with flowers,' and I'm pretty positive her friends all think something much more romantic than what actually happened,"
I heard his laughter continue along with all of theirs. He never answered their question, but none of them continued with it they all just continue to laugh.
"That's hilarious okay so that's what really happened? I heard she had you whipped because you're so 'in love with her'. Scared me for a minute there," joked Shinozaki.
"No that's pretty much what happened. Besides what is love Shinozaki? Not what Raye and I have I don't even know what to call our relationship,"
That Night at Ami's house…
Once again there I sat alone in the corner; not like I was hoping for someone to come and talk to me. They were all drunk and doing stupid things or making out. Then there was Shinozaki who was approaching me with speed.
"Serena Tuskino you look beautiful tonight," he complimented, great he was pissed. I didn't think I looked all that beautiful. I was wearing a soft pink sweater and a knee high jean skirt. My long blonde hair hung around the lower of my back and my make-up was natural looking; I was far from beautiful.
"Oh I highly doubt it Shinozaki," I smiled, how can I not be polite after all he wasn't trying anything.
"No I really mean it; do you think I could kiss you right here?" He asked than took his index finger and pushed it into my cheek. I don't really care if he does or not, it's not like it's going to go anywhere. I might as well indulge his dreams a little longer.
"Go right ahead I don't mind," I laughed and he did, his mouth was open and wet so my cheek was now covered in his spit. Maybe that wasn't such a good idea. He than followed to take a seat beside me on the couch. I turned my head to see Raye sitting on Darien's lap on a bright orange chair across the room. Darien's eyes however were not on Raye they were cutting straight through the crowd to me.
"Can I kiss you on the lips?" whispered Shinozaki into my ear, why not? I don't see the problem what one little kiss can cause.
"You have my permission," I replied and I saw his head turn around as if he was scanning the room. I saw him give the thumbs up to Darien and when he turned back to face me he had a huge grin spread across his jaw. He leaned into kiss me and he did, this kiss however was nothing like when Darien would kiss me this made me sick not excited. He continued the kiss and proceeded to begin to make out with me. I need to get out of this or I'm going to be sick this is horrible! I began by trying to push him off but every time I tried he would continue by moving his hand down to where my breasts were and I would smack his hand away if it would get to close.
"Mhphmm Stop…No…st-" I mumbled but my last word was cut off by him being thrusted off me. I looked up to see Darien holding onto his shirt. I looked past him to see girls crowded around Raye who was sitting on the floor as if Darien just stood up and walked over here.
"What did I tell you Shinozaki? Don't fuck with Serena!" He shouted while shoving him against a wall. By this time everyone had turned to watch what was going on.
"What her and I do is none of your business," replied Shinozaki.
"Ya anything you assholes do to Serena is my business, you can touch anyone else but not her you got it?" He threatened.
"Why? What's so special about her? Ryo was right when he said you're going to ditch Raye for her wasn't he?" Questioned Shinozaki. Temporarily Darien's face glazed over as if he had no response. He dropped Shinozaki to the floor and walked out the French doors leading to the back yard. I quickly followed behind him, I could feel Raye's eyes burning as they followed me running outside.
"Darien! Stop wait up!" I shouted, he had gone towards the lake which was down a narrow dark path. I saw him standing on the beach.
"What? What do you want me to say?" He said calmly at me. I stayed silent.
"Maybe some part of me is attracted to you okay? I just couldn't stand seeing Shinozaki kissing you it was driving me insane. You said you didn't get jealous when Raye and I would kiss and yet here I am going crazy watching you kiss another guy, I almost beat the shit out of him!" He explained while throwing a rock into the water.
"The worst part is I dropped Raye right on the ground when I stood up and didn't apologize. She told me to stay here and let you have your fun, I'm not even your best friend and I could see you were not having fun, what am I supposed to say to her now?"
"Why did you do it? If you don't like me than why get jealous and almost beat up Shinozaki? Why stand up for me? Why do you do all these things if you don't care at all about me?" I shouted across the sound of the waves crashing.
"Damnit!" He shouted out towards nothing, it was his frustration leaving him with that one swear. "I like you okay? Maybe there is something here. I just don't like how I like you,"
Is he drunk? Is he sober? Am I drunk? Did I just hear those words escape his precious lips? Has he confessed his feelings?
"I'm sorry what?" I called back at him, we were still standing a distance apart perhaps I didn't hear him right.
"I said maybe I do like you. I hate how I like you though I don't go out with girls because I like them Serena I go out with them if they benefit me somehow. With you there is no benefit there's just you and that scares me," He explained while standing closer to me.
"This can't be true. Everyone knows good looking guys don't like me, people like you don't like me! I like people like you but you never like me back it's just not what happens!" I yelled with tears forming in my eyes, wow I feel like a baby but I can't stop them from happening. He laughs.
"This is what makes me like you Serena the fact that you are weird, it makes you non boring!"
"Well what are we going to do?" I inquired while pulling sweater closer to my body.
"I don't know, what do you want me to do?" He asked while pulling me close to him, he could see that I was freezing.
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So there's the chapter, how exciting I finally have Serena and Darien action but that's not all for them there will be so much more to come in the next chapters… It's not that easy guys! 3 Alisabeth