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Wow thank you for your comments and guesses! To ladykagome123 you're on the right track but not necessarily right, but lets put it this way you'll be shocked and pleased when I reveal what happened.

To princesaangelbebeDarien technically is an orphan, Michael isn't his real father and because Darien doesn't like him he doesn't live with him and tries not to associate with him. It'll be explained more in later chapters….Actually it'll be explained in this chapter too.

Never Will We Be That Wonderful: Chapter 9

When you look upon life you question why is it happening? What is our purpose? Ha, some scientists say we're simply animals here to mate with each other in order to keep our population huge. Others say we're here simply to live. Religious people believe God put us here for a reason. When I was young I used to believe I was here because my kitty needed me. When you're young you're innocent and no one can really take that away from you.

Even if you try to avoid loosing your innocence with time you will and you'll realize that you're not here because your kitty needed you, but that the purpose of life is to grow and live while trying to discover your own answers. My innocence was gone at age fourteen when I went to a party and saw all of my friends drinking and falling over because they had consumed so much. Now here I am, in a truck, making out with the most beautiful guy I have ever looked at; not to mention a boy whom I technically stole. This definitely qualifies as no longer as innocent.

"I have to go home. It's like ten thirty already," I commented while pulling away to the other seat.

"Sorry, it's just I like how I don't have to sneak around with you anymore. How I could kiss you in school if I wanted to and no one would say a thing," He replied. I felt my cheeks flush and a smile creep up my face. I leaned over and kissed him one last time before sliding out of his truck.

I quietly snuck into my room and got ready for bed. I lay there looking out my window at the stars. I heard a soft knock on the door and then I could see it open a jar. I could see two eyes peering at me.

"Serena? Can we talk?" Asked my mother. She's always wanting to have these serious discussions right before I want to go to bed.

"No, I want to go to sleep can't we talk in the morning?" I requested, awaiting her 'no'.

"…That's fine I guess we'll talk then," She said sadly then the door closed slowly and I could hear her swishing along the floor to her bedroom. I'm curious as to what she wanted with me. Was it another infamous sex talk? Was it another 'you're fighting with fire' talk? She gave in so easily which makes me think it was perhaps serious. I'm to distraught in other areas of my thoughts though to wonder too much about what my mom wanted.

What bothers me more is what Darien said. 'why you have no desire to have sex with me?' I couldn't answer him.In truth I don't know myself. Come to think about it I've always been curious, but so scared to have my first time ruined for me. I want to be regret free when I loose my virginity. I always preach celibacy for myself and yet here I am once again contemplating sex.

It's funny how I picture it with romantic music, dim candles and me sporting sexy lingerie. That's almost never how it happens. I question myself though if that's really what I want or if it's what pop culture has made me want. I asked Raye once what her first time was like and she said, 'It's never how you picture it. I wanted it planned out with the works; you know music and candles? Yeah happened in the backseat of his car with the radio off.' That does not sound like fun to me. Darien's backseat has stuff in it so there's no way that's where I'm loosing mine. I think every girl though has an vision of what they picture their first times to be like. I suppose it's the same as wedding or prom. However those things are rarely ever what you wanted them to be like.

The Next Day…

When I woke up in the morning my mom was no where to be found. I suppose she had already left taking Shingo to school. Shingo was always prompt with everything he did and I was the complete opposite.

"Serena, we missed you last night at the party," commented Lita while leaning against my locker.

"Oh, I had other plans," I explained.

"Raye was there. She was bad mouthing you to anyone who would listen. Her most famous line was 'She's supposed to have replaced me and yet she's not here at this fabulous party,'" said Ami sarcastically while sipping on her soda.

"Why do I need to go to parties? I'm not trying to replace Raye so it's not like I'm going too change for 'the position'," I replied.

Why does everyone have this strange idea that I'm the next Raye? I mean it's not like I could pull that off. I don't think having someone rule over the school is right anyway. Besides it's not like dating Darien should make much of a difference; it was more or less a shocker for those around us.

"Whatever, but just know this Raye's got it out for you because she's jealous of you and Darien. She's been trying everything in her power to get back with him. She's changed her story once again from 'I'm the victim' to 'I let him go because I love him'," Told Lita while rolling her eyes in distaste.

"And are people buying it?" I asked.

"Of course not everyone who counts was there at the party and saw what happened," She answered.

There's one thing on my mind that confuses me the most. Lita and Ami were always friends of mine, but lately they seem to be wanting to do everything with me and always trying to make sure that I go to all the right parties and talk to all the 'right' people. Minako also has changed it seems. I rarely see her in the hallways and during classes she seems to always be with this boy named Kunzite whom she claims is one of her best friends.

"Serena why weren't you at the party last night? We all missed you terribly," Laughed Raye as she walked by. She had a girl with her whom I had never seen. She looked foreign with her natural dirty blonde hair and amber eyes. I can't stand it when Raye tries to rub things in my face. Luckily I saw this one coming from a mile away.

"Sorry Raye I had plans with Darien. He took me to meet his father who turns out adores me!" I replied with a grin worthy of the Cheshire cat. I saw her face grow sour; if only for a second. I recalled Darien telling me his father disliked Raye. She nodded then the dirty blonde and her raced down the hallway in the opposite direction.

"What was that all about?" Inquired Ami watching in the direction of Raye.

"Darien's father didn't like Raye. I knew it would be a sore spot for her if I mentioned how he liked me," I smiled in victory.

"Darien has a father? I thought he was an orphan like Motoki. Isn't that why they live together?" Asked Lita looking awfully confused.

"Technically he is, I guess I shouldn't really be talking about it because it's really none of my business. I didn't even think Motoki lived with Darien anymore seeing as he wasn't there yesterday when we went," I replied. Come to think of it where was Motoki yesterday?

"And another thing who is that girl with Raye?" I asked remembering my confusion from earlier.

"Her name is Debelle Natsumi, she's from England," Explained Ami. "I met her first actually in my computer graphics course. She has exquisite Japanese, but also speaks a few other languages including French and German,"

"Yet her name is Japanese I notice," Observed Lita.

"Yes, apparently she's a quarter Japanese. As well she has a twin brother named Debelle Allan. I've never seen him though. She describes him as very rude," Explained Amy while finishing up her soda.

"I feel badly for her. Raye's using her because she has no friends," I smiled sadly. I turned to see them staring at me. "What?"

"That was out of character," Said a shocked Lita.

"What was out of character?" I asked.

"Usually you would say something like oh well I'm glad Raye made a friend. However, you just said Raye has no friends. You seem to be a little more out spoken recently," Replied Lita.

"I've always been like this. It's only recently you two started to actually talk to me though. Usually I just kept inside my head and not shared my opinions. Some how though without Raye I feel I can let it all out," I winked while grabbing my binder. "I have to go to the bathroom before class so I'll see you girls later,"

The late bell rang as soon as I reached the bathroom. By the time I was done the hallways were deserted and no one was at their lockers anymore. It was then that I heard whispering amongst the empty hallway. I leaned against the edge of the wall that lead to the next hallway and slowly peered my head around. There was Raye standing there with Darien and they seemed to be whispering sharply to one and other.

"Darien please I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you just please, come back to me," cried Raye quietly.

"Pain? I caused you more pain then you caused me. Do you ever question why anyone isn't taking your side of the story? Because your story keeps changing. First you're upset and hateful that we broke up. Now rumors have it that you're trying to be friends with Serena and want to get me back all at the same time," Replied Darien skeptically.

"I don't want to be friends with Serena anymore. She hurt me and although I forgive her I shall not be friends with her again," whined Raye while pulling on Darien's sleeve.

"You don't forgive her. I know you a little better then that Raye and I've come to the conclusion that you're a fake. Serena, now she is real," He explained while removing her hand from his sleeve.

"Real? Are you on drugs? She's more fake then I am. She now pulls off this bitchy image and tries to be me when she knows it's not her true self. Only because of you is she popular. She's just using you to become popular. Besides you won't get laid with her, she's Roman Catholic," She whispered while pulling him closer to her using his shirt.

Where does she come off with that one? Like I could actually use someone to become popular. I was only popular in the first place because I happened to make the right friends in kindergarten. As for Roman Catholic, since when I have I even announced an official religion let alone being Roman Catholic. I must intervene this before she starts filling his heads with ideas about me.

"Okay I've heard enough," I stated while revealing myself from behind the corner. Darien and Raye both jumped, being startled by my appearance.

"You little eavesdropper," spat Raye staring at me with great distaste.

"I wasn't doing it on purpose I merely stumbled into your conversation on my way back from the bathroom," I answered eyeing her hands on Darien's shirt. Sensing my uneasiness Darien hastily removed her hands from his shirt and took a step away from her.

"Darien this is what I'm talking about, she's also extremely over protective and won't even trust you with me," explained Raye pleadingly.

"If I was her, I wouldn't trust you either," He said with no emotion in his voice.

"First of all Raye, where the hell do you get off saying I'm Roman Catholic? That's certainly not true. Secondly do you really think I'm capable of using someone to become popular? No you don't. You've degraded me in front of people for so long that I wouldn't even have the chance to do so. I hate how you can't stand the fact that for once you lost. I hate how you just can't leave me alone and let life move on. Most of all though, I hate how you just can't back off of Darien when you didn't even really like him all that much in the first place," I shouted, I could feel the tears coming to my eyes. By this time a few classroom doors had opened and people were now watching the argument between the two of us. Darien's hand encircled mine as he began pulling me away.

"Are you in love with him Serena? Does he make you hot just thinking about him? Does he? Well news flash he'll only be with you until he sleeps with you. That's right, the moment you two fuck your relationship is through! I know more about him then you ever will!" She screamed. I could see her make up smeared down her face because she had been crying.

Darien dragged my down the hallway away from her. He was preventing me from doing something that I had wanted to do for a while. However he was right in doing so. I would have lost the fight anyway.

"Is it true?" I asked wiping the tears that were pouring down from my eyes. I couldn't help but ask if it was true. Even if I tried to convince myself that Raye was an excellent actress I would still question his motives.

"Are you stupid? Of course it's not true. I slept with her within the first few weeks and we stayed together for six months. She told everyone it was after a few months, but it was really only a few weeks," He answered handing me a tissue from a package in his bag.

"I know I shouldn't have to ask you that. It's the only thing I've been thinking about though for the past few days," I confessed looking at him directly in the eye. "It's almost as if I'm waiting for the moment where you can't take it anymore and go and have an affair with some floozy,"

For a few minutes he stared directly at me. He studied my body as I sat in a leather chair in the alcove. Almost as if he was carefully choosing his words. Similar to a chess game he was thinking two steps ahead. He then looked away from me.

"I won't cheat on you Serena. I promise you," He said earnestly.

"I trust you," I smiled weakly taking his hands into mine and he bent down to my level. "From this moment forward anything Raye says I shall regard as lies,"

"I will too," He agreed and flashed his perfect smile at me.

That Evening…

I lay on my bed looking outside my window at the street below; watching the people all walk by. There was a time when I would obsess with needing to be told I was 'hot'. Now the word 'hot' doesn't even have the same meaning. Now I obsess with being called 'beautiful'. I unfortunately was cursed with only being called 'pretty'. However, I suppose I should not complain for there are some girls out there who are called hideous or ugly and are probably never even going to be told they're 'pretty'.

"Serena are you home?" I heard my mom call from downstairs in the kitchen.

"Yes!" I shouted back and got up to go and meet her. I had almost forgotten that she wanted to speak with me about something.

"What is it? Sorry I didn't talk to you last night and I didn't wake up early enough this morning," I confessed while slumping into the kitchen table chair.

"It's fine I can talk to you about it now," She smiled weakly. It looked as if she had been thinking about this one for weeks. "I hear you're no longer friends with Raye,"

"No and I think it's a good thing almost," I replied. I really hope that's not what she wants to talk to me about.

"Hmm, I ran into her grandfather at the grocery store today and he told me he was sad to see one of Raye's more polite friends leave," She commented. "I also hear that you're now seeing Chiba Mamoru," She commented.

It's strange hearing an adult use his Japanese name rather than his English one. So many of us go by our English names and not our Japanese ones.

"Yes that's correct," I smiled. I guess you could say I'm still giddy and when someone mentions his name I can't prevent that smirk from creeping up on my lips.

"Please don't hate me for asking this, but are you and him having intercourse?" She asked. I gasped, as most teenagers do at their mothers asking such questions.

"No!" I replied stunned that she would even think such a thing of me. She then reached into her purse and pulled out a small package.

"Now even though I know you say you're not having sex I want to give you these. It's contraception," She explained while sliding them across the table at me.

"Why are you giving these to me if you know I'm not having sex?" I inquired.

"Well I think you're old enough that I can tell you," She said looking towards the floor. Perhaps this is what she wanted to talk to me about.

"When I was about a year older than you I lost my virginity to your father," She explained looking intensively at me. "We rarely got a hold of any for of contraception which was definitely risky. After a few months I began having symptoms of pregnancy and as luck had it I turned out to be pregnant with a baby boy. I was to young to have that child Serena, far to young. I was only sixteen years old. I made probably the biggest decision of my life and I chose to abort the child," My mothers eyes were filling up with tears. "And my whole life I've regretted not keeping that child,"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My mother had an abortion? So many questions were racing through my mind at this very moment.

"Did dad know about it?" I asked pulling her into a daughterly hug.

"Of course your father knew about it. At first he was completely against it, but soon gave in realizing it was our only option," She answered while wiping the tears away from her eyes. "I'm telling you this so that if you do decide to have sex, use protection and be responsible. I don't want you to have to make that decision like I had to,"

I nodded in response and took the pills off the counter. I decided it would be best to give my mom a moment alone. She probably just remembered hundreds of horrible memories associated with that time. She was staring straight ahead out the window blankly with her hand covering her mouth. I could see her eyes were still soaked with tears.

I find it frightening how so many teenagers have sex without thinking about the consequences. Even I did not think about them until she told me her emotional past. If Darien and I had sex and I became pregnant would he stay? Sometimes I think he would, but other times I'm unsure. He can be warm and cold towards me all at the same time. He's an orphan so perhaps he would like to have a child of his own. I'm only fifteen though and he's eighteen; I don't think either of us would like to a child at our age. Perhaps that's the reason I'm abstaining, fear.

The Next Day…

"Sod off you daft cow!" I heard someone shout in English down the hallway. I turned to find a boy with dirty blonde hair and sparkling amber eyes looking angrily at the new exchange student Natsumi. This must be her brother, Allan. He then turned towards me, smiled and winked. I felt my face turn red. He just openly flirted with me, and for once I realized it.

I slowly made my way to my locker which was conveniently placed across the hall from his.

"What's your name?" I heard him ask in Japanese. Yet he had a bit of an accent.

"Tuskino Serena," I replied turning to face him.

"I'm Allan Debelle. Sorry I meant Debelle Allan," He bowed. I always find it interesting when people from other countries try to act Japanese. I indulged him politely and bowed the same.

"You must be Natsumi's brother," I exclaimed.

"I am. She drives me crazy though so I rarely admit that we're related. Are you the girl who dates that guy with the nice truck in grade twelve?" He inquired watching my pull my books out of my locker.

"Yes, that's me," I answered.

"That's nice. My sister fancy's him. I'm also interested in you," He said in English. Although I don't quite understand what he means by 'fancy's' I think he's trying to say his sister likes him. Great, more competition. And I have no idea what he was saying about me.

"I suppose I shouldn't be speaking English to you hey? Sorry about that. Anyways I'll see you around Tuskino," He winked and then made his way down the hallway to his next class. He was almost as hot as Darien. The only difference is Allan is more friendly then Darien ever was. I'm not generally attracted to friendly.

As I walked down the hallway a girl ran past me and bumped into me knocking all my books to the floor.

"Piss off!" I shouted after her. I bent down and began to retrieve my fallen books. It's so rude when people don't stop and help you.

"Serena! What are you doing tonight?" Asked Darien walking up to me.

"Nothing," I replied looking up at him innocently.

"Would you like to hang out?" He inquired.

"Sure, want to come over?" I asked smiling. My mother was probably curious to meet Darien.

"Okay meet me at my truck after school," He added while jogging off to his next class.

After School…

"Mom I'm home and I brought Darien with me!" I shouted as we walked inside.

"Whose Darien?" Asked my mom. She promptly walked into the entrance way holding a pot that she was drying with a towel. She gave me a confused glance as she saw him walk in.

"Chiba Darien?" She questioned.

"Yes, it's a pleasure to meet you," He bowed courteously and she did the same while returning to her dishes in the kitchen.

"You've already been in my house so I suppose there is no need to give you the grand tour," I joked while leading him up the stairs to my bedroom where we could have privacy.

"Your mother watched us the whole time we were down stairs, does she not approve of me?" Questioned Darien.

"Even if she doesn't she can't say anything. My parents were the same age gap as us when they started dating," I explained while seating myself next to him on my bed.

"They were? Did they have you young or were they older?" He asked.

"Young she was three months pregnant with me when they got married. That wasn't why they got married of course. It just pushed the wedding ahead a little," I told while turning to him. He was glaring at me intensively now. I hope he's not expecting us to mess around while my mother is home.

"What about your parents?" I said, changing the unsaid subject.

"My mom had me after three years of marriage to my dad," He said but his face said there was more to the story then what he was letting on.

"How old were you when your mother died?" I asked aloud then followed to cover my mouth. He turned to me with his dark blue eyes almost as if he was shocked that I would ask such a thing.

"I told you I'm very personal and don't open up much," He explained. "If you must know I was six,"

I nodded, almost as if I was expecting him to continue. In which to my amazement he did.

"She over dosed on drugs due to her broken heart," He exclaimed, then turned to face me. "She had a complicated affair behind my fathers back,"

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I know I know you probably hate me because I left you with such an awful cliffhanger. Well you're right it was an awful cliffhanger, I couldn't help it though! Just remember though this story isn't as predictable as it appears; you'll have to wait until next chapter to figure out why though! Please remember to review! Thanks