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Chapter 1

Derek's POV

I look at her god she hasn't changed in six years has it really been that long since I last laid eyes on her the same glowing red hair and the same beautiful blue eyes. What was I thinking the day I let her walk out of my life. Oh right I was thinking stupidly that I was in love with another woman when I wasn't the pain I see in Addie's eyes hurts me to the core. Its not fair that she was put through that. And it was barely four months after she was gone that he broke it off with Meredith she was too tidy for him Addie just liked things thrown around thats just the way she was. When she said that, that little girl was his he stopped and looked at her he was making sure that she wasn't joking. He felt himself almost stop breathing they had a child after all the heartbreak before they had a little girl a little girl he didn't know because he'd been stupid. "I can't believe she's mine," he breathed.

She looked at me and gave me a tiny hint of a smile more than I could ever ask for considering what I must have put her through. She's struggling though to say something but god I wish I knew what it was. I know I loved Meredith in a way I suppose don't ask me how to explain I loved her it was sort of the love that you know will never last. But I did love her I won't deny that I couldn't I didn't even try before Addie left. If I think about it I haven't admitted this but Meredith Grey actually broke it off with me. Kind of ironic really. "Well she is yours Derek and she knows all about you I wouldn't keep that from her," I hear her say quietly.

I nod and give her a smile I see Megan at the end of the hall yes I thought it was her his half-sister. So thats where she's been living all these years figures in Paris of all his siblings half or not Addison and Megan had always been the best of friends. He hadn't thought of that he hadn't thought he would have been so obvious thats who she'd run too. And did she just say my daughter knows all about me. I look at her again my god why would she do that. "Thankyou Addie," I say.

End POV

Addie's POV

I kept my hands exactly where they were cause god knows I just wanted to run to him and hug him as hard as I could even after all these years I still loved him more than I would ever admit to him or anyone else. I bit my lip and watched him the last time I spoke to him I screamed at him for not loving me enough for not wanting to be with me. That was not a proud moment I can tell you. 'Cause generally I don't scream unless necessary and he needed to be screamed at. Or at the time I thought he did anyways. I was hurt and he hadn't helped in anyway. "I'm sorry that you've missed six years of her life its not fair but god knows you hurt me and in this way I knew I could hurt you. And yes I'm selfish but I kept you alive for her."

I looked down I knew he was staring at me. But what I didn't expect when I looked up again was that he was close to me and within reach which he hadn't been a few seconds before. I used to know when he was close by, I could feel it before he was even there. I looked into his eyes and I didn't see anger and resentment. I saw sadness oh he had better not be feeling sorry for me no siree mister. He can take his sorryness and stuff it. But I knew he wasn't feeling sorry for me. Its just me procrastinating in my head. "Your not selfish," he said. I raised an eyebrow at him and he chuckled a soft one that I remembered so well. "Well hey if I had admitted that you might have hit me, but its okay if you let me think it." I shook my head "seriously Addie its happened before I've said something thats true and you've hit me."

I really hate it when he's right, why does he have to always be right amazing how you can be with someone for eleven okay twelve years be married to them and they can still drive you somewhat insane. I folded my arms and tapped my foot and then I saw Aurora looking out the door curiously I know she's wondering who he is. I look at Derek "do you want to meet your daughter?" I ask one raised eyebrow. He nods and I hold out my arms and she comes running towards me and I pick her up she's becoming bigger and bigger but I can still pick her up. "Aurora I'd like you to meet someone, someone who will be very close to your heart."

I see her look uncertainly at Derek and then back at me I can see that she isn't quite sure what to make of him and why I would be talking to him. I never completely explained to her when her father was or where he might be. Though I told her about where I'd lived before I moved to Paris to live with auntie Megan. And I know Megans never told her. So the question that came out of her mouth was quite a surprise to me. "Mommy is he my daddy?" she asked quietly. She had a hopefull look on her face. So how could I lie to that sweet little question.

I look at Derek whose watching her the last time we stood like this our life had been broken in two it seemed like a lifetime ago that, that had happened. It was well maybe not quite a lifetime ago but it wasn't exactly like it was yesterday though. I ran my fingers through her hair, "yes my baby he's your daddy," I whisper. I wasn't about to lie to my six year old daughter. 'Cause later she would just be angry at me anyways if I didn't tell her right then and there. "Aurora Nicole Montgomery-Shepherd I would like you to meet your father Derek Shepherd."

I look between them as Aurora susses him out whether he's worthy to be her daddy. No that doesn't mean I've had so many relationships since I left that my own daughter has tried to figure out whether or not he was going to stay and be her daddy or not I just mean that okay I don't really know what I mean. I saw Derek reach out and touch her hand I see a tiny smile on Aurora's face. She loves hugs and I bet anything she'll be a daddys girl in no time. She always used to have Megans boyfriends wrapped around her little finger in no time. She had a charm about her. Which made me worry when she was older. Better not tell Derek right. "Hi Aurora," he said softly.

She looked at me and I nodded for her to go ahead, "hi daddy," she said. I never thought I'd hear those words pass through my daughters lips. Never in a million years, but they are something that is truly unbelieveable in my heart I wanted her to know him but you know me being stubborn is my number one way of dealing with things. "Mommy has told me all about you though she never showed me a picture. But I knew it was you, you and I have the same eyes they are a slightly darker blue than mommy's."

I could see the astonishment on his face the love there. He held out his arms and Aurora scrambled out of mine and leapt into them. Well I certainly wasn't expecting that I thought there would be more reserve. But I was wrong and for once in my life I'm glad I was wrong. "Has she now well I hope it was all good things but I have no doubt with your mother that it was," he said. He looked at me as he hugged her tightly. Oh yes Derek like I could say anything bad about you. I rolled my eyes at him and shook my head. "Of course it was." He smiled happily.

I feel my heart start to beat a little faster was I blushing. No I couldn't be blushing he's my ex-husband for god sakes I can't blush because he just smiled at me. What am I sixteen have I gone back to being a teenager. Silly really but it felt good weirdly enough. I ran my tongue over my teeth and looked around I wondered where Izzie was if Megan and Aurora had come in. I shook my head I hoped she was okay. Like the others she had another year to go of her surgical residency. She'd probably be taking on some interns this year much like she had done in Paris. As it turned out I was right about her that she was the most promising intern of them all. "Your quite welcome Derek," I say and grin. I stroke my daughters back I watch him and I know everythings changed. But the one thing that will never change is the fact that I will never stop loving him. And we do have a bond because of our child.

Aurora looks between us and just snuggles her head into Derek's shoulder. "Mommy can we go home with daddy?" she asked suddenly. I looked at her in surprise I had wondered if he still lived in his trailer that would be scary. I mean good lord I hope he has because well he does have a nice big piece of land to build on.

He looks at me and smiles yea that scares me a whole lot though I'd never admit it to anyone but myself. 'Cause that would just give him a big ego boost in the worst direction. "Yes come on mommy I do have a house now you know," he said theatrically. It was like he read my mind about that and I chuckled. I wonder what it looks like probably so Derek I imagine now not that, thats a bad thing or anything its not.

I nod and give in as I always do to Aurora and the look that Derek's giving me how can I resist. "Of course we can we can have dinner with him if he wishes with aunt Megan," I say. I see Derek look grim though he and Megan are on good terms they haven't always gotten along I know that and they know that but I'm not going to leave her out she needs to eat too. "She needs to eat too Derek." I give him a smile and keep rubbing Aurora's back I see that she's fallen asleep jet lag I suppose. Or just being comfortable in the arms of her father. "She'll behave herself I'm sure."

Derek nodded and his frown turned into a smile when he saw that Aurora was sleeping, "she looks like you when your asleep like an angel," he said. I roll my eyes at him laying it on a little thick but I didn't mind but he was right she did look like a little angel. I'm not sure I look like one when I'm asleep but if he says so. At fourty-four I highly doubt an angel I look. "Why don't I put her down in my office." I wasn't planning to stay I had to go home and get ready and beautify myself I mean hello Derek I have to plan for hours ahead that I look great at your house.

Wait girlfriend can't tell him that would be really embarrassing but I nodded. Yes thats it nod at his suggestion, "all right that sounds good and maybe if you don't have surgery or something we could go have some coffee," I say quietly. He walks into his office which I hadn't noticed until then was now bigger and better than the last cupboard he had. It looks new as well. Which I suppose it is after they had to rebuild everything after that fire a year ago. He lay her down and put a blanket around her I pulled out a piece of paper and wrote a note for her so she'd know where we were in case she woke up before we got back. "She'll phone my pager if she needs us."

Derek smiled and nodded, "well that sounds all right and no I don't have surgery for another hour and I've got Yang looking after the patient anyways," he said. I nodded ah yes Christina Yang or I suppose I should say Christina Yang-Burke now thats who she'd become she'd gotten married to Preston Burke of all people. But I hear that she's also expecting twins now thats the scariest thing of all but I'm happy for them and I'll tell them so when I see them next. "Addie you in there somewhere?" I woke up from my daydream and looked at him and shook my head he chuckled at that, "somewhere over the rainbow are we. I asked are you ready to go?"

I scowl at him but it turns into a smile and I nod, "yes I'm ready to go," I say. I walk out the office, its just coffee Addie nothing more thats too soon oh yea way too soon.

End POV

Izzie's POV

I look around and bite my lip five years, three months, 4 weeks and 22 days since I last walked into this hospital or well actually stood in it I suppose you could say. It wasn't even to work it was to say goodbye to everyone. I was leaving for what I thought was for good. Huh? What a joke here I am back again and it feels like I never left. The one person I'd never been able to track down was Alex, I swear I think he was avoiding having to say goodbye. He probably was I checked my watch everyone would probably be on lunch now so they'd be outside. I'm thankfull to Addison, for putting a good word in for me to the Chief I can finish my last two years of my residency here.

No one probably recognizes me my hairs now cut up in a sort of bob and its a darker blonde now I decided I needed a change from what I looked like and it was good a change. I walked out to where everyone was sitting and I spotted them immediately of course I'd seen Meredith a number of times over the years but not the others. I smiled when I saw Burke sorry Preston he was actually sitting at the table with them all. He'd come to see me well us in Paris Addison had asked him to come help her with a procedure. And sworn him to secrecy before he even came back to Seattle. And Callie she was sitting next to George I'd never gotten to know her all that well but I'd heard they'd gotten married two years after I left.

I see Meredith look around as though she knows I'm there and she smiles I'm better friends with Meredith now than I have ever been. That wasn't the strangest thing, the strangest thing was watching her become friends with Addison. I suppose they had a lot in common I walked over and Christina looked up I could see the surprise on her face. But what shocked me the most was when she stood up and hugged me. Was I suddenly in the twilight zone Christina Yang was hugging me. Yup twilight zone okay come on where are the cameras who told her to do this. But I hugged her back and the one obvious thing I noticed was, was that she was huge. She must be pregnant. "Izzy your back Meredith said you were coming back but she didn't say when," she said. Christina pulled back and smiled.

Okay now I'm creeped out she's smiling well okay as smiling as Christina can get. "Well I wasn't sure when we were getting in either," I say truthfully. I go around the table hugging everyone else even Preston lets me give him a hug mr attending mr future chief of staff. No offense McDreamy but I think Burke deserves it much more. God its good to be home. I sat down and smiled at all of them.

To be continued...

Thankyou everyone for the reviews. I wont apologize for being negative I'm sorry I know that sounds horrible or whatever but I don't even like Meredith she's whiney and just annoys me way too much for a main female character. Yes and some would say why are you watching the show its because of people like Addison and Izzie and Christina and Burke and Bailey that keep me watching this show. Not a couple I don't watch this show every week just to go oh joy another week where poor old Derek is pining after Meredith. So I say rock on Addison and hell you know find happiness somewhere. Yes I do love Addek but I'd be just as happy if Addie moved on with someone else. And Meredith as well actually. Cause Derek doesn't deserve any happiness. Unless its in fanfiction like this one.