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ஜ Chapter 2: Impossible ஜ
-Izaya´s point of view. A few hours later.-
This...
Was certainly amusing to watch.
The sun was setting on the training grounds dipping everything into a light shade of red and orange. Huge shadows casted by the wall Rose were starting to approach the colorful scene steadily as time passed.
Sitting on the roof, one hand propped up on his knee, the other lazily playing with his ring the raven watched a certain place that wasn´t as deserted as he had thought it would be. Curses were to be heard and a couple of dusty mushrooms decorated the scenery every now and then whenever the blond decided to kick, hit or throw the training equipment across the place.
Izaya had come back just an hour ago, after finishing all the boring paperwork he was just the tiniest bit curious if the guy from midday had already left. Before long he had spotted the raging bull he met in the afternoon.
It was honestly amusing to watch his useless attempts of handling the maneuver gear.
All alone on the training ground, still trying to get that balancing ability right.
He had expected the blond to give up and just head home. Especially considering what they were up against. He should have seen real titans face to face- especially considering the rumors. Just one encounter with the terrifying creatures was more than enough for most men to cover in fear and give up on their wishful dreams of becoming the heroes who saved humanity.
Maybe he didn't know fear?
It was one of the many thoughts that coursed through his mind as he watched the violent monster kick the dust again.
Or maybe he was just stupid? It wasn´t the first time he encountered humans that just didn´t seem to be able to grasp the actual seriousness of their situation. They treated the fight against the titan´s like some sort of game, but the seconds before they died they all wore the same stupefied expression.
What did they think? That they would be strong enough to escape a titan´s grip?
Talking about strength.
Where did that blond´s strength come from?
He surely wasn´t muscular or strong looking, he had seen people whose bodies had looked like they had ancestors of bears and even they weren´t this strong. It was annoying and fascinating him at the same time.
Almost seemed like a monster.
Humans shouldn´t be able to possess this much destructive power- and definitely not when they obviously had the temper of a four year old.
Well given his temper he should have given up by now- but he didn´t- which only ended up in making the raven even more curious about this strange man.
He couldn´t deny that he was catching more and more of his interest the longer he watched him.
How come he hadn´t heard of someone like him? Even if he lived inside wall Maria, if rumors of a man with this strength and affinity to destruction had caught the authorities' ears, that guy certainly wouldn´t even have lived there anymore when the wall finally broke.
His superiors would have taken him instantly into the military, trained him to be of use. They would have put him into the inner walls, alongside the king and aristocrats, for their protection of course. He could have had an easy life like this too.
But then again Izaya suspected they would have had to give up on him right away again.
Because what he was doing on that training ground was anything but training-
The man´s forehead hitting the ground hard he could hear a curse slip from the blond´s lips as he pushed himself of the ground once more. As long as Izaya had been watching him, he had understood two things.
One, was his unbelievable strength of course.
And the other-
Again the blond crashed into the ground face first, this time pulling at the training equipment so harsh it finally broke down.
- he had no talent whatsoever handling the maneuver gear.
Over and over he got into it, tried to stay in it, only to fall down. He hadn´t even managed to stay still for one second ever since Izaya started watching.
There was no sign of progress either.
... and yet he was still here.
Pretty stubborn.
Just like a child, the raven thought, a quiet snort escaping him as the blond greeted the earth again face first.
Persistency was usually a trait Izaya admired, but like this it was wasted. If he couldn´t handle the maneuver gear then he was useless.
Too bad he didn´t have an inhuman body fitting his strength.
From the way the blond´s forehead had started to bleed he concluded his body was just as sturdy as any other human´s.
So even if they sent him out against the titans, he was probably going to die by being squished in a titan´s hands or being stepped upon. Judging his temper he would probably rush into unnecessary fights too.
Sighing Izaya shook his head. The rumor of the strong man had already reached the higher ups, including the lieutenant.
Of course they were exhilarated at the show of strength.
He didn´t get why his superiors thought that man was a useful weapon. If anything he was probably a threat. Getting everyone in danger with his stupid behavior and unfitting strength.
And so he let himself slip off the roof he had been sitting on.
-Shizuo´s point of view.-
Stinging pain and a throbbing headache was annoying Shizuo as he sat there on the ground cross-legged.
One hand resting against his bleeding and burning forehead he glanced at the remains of the annoying training equipment he had... destroyed.
A soft sting of guilt struck him, knowing full well that he didn´t have any money to even try and compensate for it- but what was he supposed to do?
He didn´t get how to stay on this thing. Everyone, literally everyone of these guys he had seen in the afternoon did it. Some for just a few seconds, others for a time span that seemed sheer endless.
But all of them did it somehow. Just he seemed to be too fucking stupid.
Grasping the iron threads tightly he pulled himself up from the ground once more- there was no way he was going to give up like this. A vein popped on his forehead, he could already feel his patience snapping- but no, he had to stay calm. He would get better at this for sure! If he trained enough he could do it!
"How much longer are you going to keep at this?" Startled by the unexpected voice the blond let go of the iron threads. A vein popped on his forehead as he recognized the annoying voice.
If he hadn't already been pissed off, then he definitely would have gotten now, seeing that stupid smirk on that grinning face.
"The hell do you want from me?"
Hoh, how hostile. Izaya´s smirk grew only wider. To be honest staying inside the walls was boring. Everyone treated him way to predictable. His superiors would never mess up their attitude towards him and stay polite no matter what he said or implied, and the recruits and soldiers were either too stupid to even get mad over what he said or simply bit their anger back since he was their superior.
"I thought I told you, it's no use?" But this guy, with this kind of temper, it made the raven want to tease him.
"Fuck off," the brute didn´t even listen to him as he turned his back towards him heading for one more, still undamaged, training equipment.
The raven tilted his head with a soft hum.
Did he just not want to admit he was right or did he seriously believe he could get better at handling the maneuver gear through training?
Letting himself be quiet and just observe the scene for once the raven watched the man as he slipped into the gear. Izaya half expected to witness some kind of miracle now since the brute obviously didn´t mind that he was watching him.
But no, no miracle occurred.
Seeing as the blond´s forehead connected all too beautifully with the ground again Izaya guessed it was pretty much impossible for him to learn how to handle it.
Groaning the man brought a hand to his face, rubbing only more dirt on his by now bleeding forehead.
"Shizu-chan, what are you doing upside down again?" the raven asked, bending over the blond in an attempt of mockery.
Shizuo groaned, pushing himself off the dirty ground again as he glared at the guy- this freaking-
"It´s not my fault, this thing just won´t-" and then he blinked. "What the fuck did you call me?!" Izaya snorted at the obviously furious and unexpectedly honest surprised expression he showed.
"Oh, Shizu-chan~?" he purred, trying to say the new nickname he had just thought of just so much more annoying as he emphasized each syllable. "Well you see, since you play around like a child I thought I might as well address you like one~"
Good thing Izaya had more than just average reflexes, because he definitely didn´t see the whole training equipment coming flying right towards him. Only barely- one step to the side and the thing flew past him with a whooshing sound.
Blinking he looked at the thing before drawing his attention back to the blond.
"Whoop, now that was close, wasn´t it~?"
"You fucking asshole-!" One step, two step, the blond had approached him, a fist was risen but it was nothing but a quick step Izaya had to take to evade the fist that aimed at him easily.
One after the other Shizu-chan tried to hit him, but with no result as the raven evaded each of the overly aimless swings.
The blond was clumsy, fighting almost like a child, the way he tried to punch him just wasted way too much energy and speed- and yet it was thrilling, because each time the fist whooshed past his ears he could just feel that amount of pressure and power behind them.
He knew that if Shizu-chan actually managed to hit him it would be pretty nasty.
"I´m curious Shizu-chan, how come you are so strong?" Pure rage was decorating the blond´s expression and at the nonchalant question and Izaya noted he was getting even more pissed.
"I said stop calling me that!" Again the fist was aimed at Izaya, but this time he wasn´t just going to evade- twisting his body it passed past his face-
A soft blink and expression of realization crossed the monster´s face as Izaya grabbed the still stretched arm and pulled just a bit at it- causing the blond to ultimately lose his balance and-
*thud*
Blocking the sun in the sky Izaya´s face reappeared over Shizuo´s who was now laying on the ground- that grin still spread across his face.
"Ah, Shizu-chan, do you expect to get me with that kind of simple movements?"
He was so going to fucking murder that guy-
"YOU-" Izaya chuckled as he stepped away from the brute who was pushing himself up from the floor. He almost wished he had a red piece of clothing at hand. Just pulling out something like that would probably have the same effect on the brute like on a raging bull.
Turning around, however, the blond didn´t head for him, but for one of the equipment instead.
"Ahh, are you going to destroy more of our equipment now?" Izaya called, only making the blond pause in his steps as though he had guessed his intention right.
The raven shook his head with a sigh, as fun as this was-
"I don´t know what you think you are doing here, but if you keep destroying everything like a monster I will throw you over the wall to your kind~" he had a sort of responsibility, and having someone as destructive as the blond around here was only going to affect his humans negatively.
Oddly though the blond actually seemed as if he had listened when he stopped in his steps. Hoh, did he actually care about the destruction he caused?
"Just stop trying already and go home," Izaya sighed, putting his hands into his pants pockets as he leaned against the broken equipment. Only half of it was even standing straight anymore. "You can't learn this by practice-"
"Can´t stop trying." The raven blinked, a bit amazing by how calm the blond had said that. Just a second ago he had been raging and trying to hit him so the words caught him off guard.
"Oh, but you can," he continued, deciding he wanted to see what the blond looked like right now as he was only seeing his back and faced him, "It´s easy, just resign from the recruits."
The blond seemed surprisingly serious all of a sudden, Izaya might even go as far as to say he looked like he was in thoughts, not that he would dare to think the blond had actually a brain to use.
"I said I can´t you lousy flea," he finally said with a sigh, ignoring the raven as though as if he weren´t there and just went past him, to another one of the still undamaged training equipments.
The raven blinked- "Flea?"
The blond frowned as he got into the gear again, trying to attach it right.
"You are just as annoying as one." Well Izaya certainly had been called many things before, but a nickname as creative as flea hadn´t been among them.
"I did think you were quite a brute, but Shizu-chan, so you have fleas as well?" With a huge sigh the blond rubbed his temples.
This guy-
Why was he even annoying him? He seriously wanted to punch his fucking face in and just get him to leave, but seeing how well that had worked before he tried to refrain from doing that again.
"Shut up or I will kill you," he mumbled instead, only earning something that sounded like a stifled laugh.
"Woah, what a threat, I´m so scared~" In his mind Shizuo was already strangling the annoying guy, throwing him through a house, shoving him into a wall, punch his face-
"Anyway, back to topic," the raven said suddenly, clapping his hands together as if he were trying to be serious. "So why can´t you just live a peaceful life within the walls?"
Tch-
Couldn´t he just leave him alone?!
"That´s none of your fucking business," he barked, feeling as though this guy was going to get him to flip out.
"Ah and that´s where you´re wrong Shizu-chan, " Izaya explained, "since it´s literally my job to protect humanity, I can´t let someone as destructive and stupid as you run around freely, causing damage to everything he touches~" Causing destruction to everything he touched, huh?
He already knew this sort of thing. He knew what a monster he was, but right now- he had no other choice. He had to master this stupid gear and get into the corps or else...
...
He couldn´t give up.
"Are you done?" the blond asked through gritted teeth making Izaya just all the more curious about him. He had expected him to lash out, but no- it almost seemed like Shizu-chan was making it a game to respond with unpredictability to everything he said and did.
"Not quite~" Izaya chirped, but this time Shizu-chan just seemed to be making a point of ignoring him entirely.
"Ne, how long do you intend to keep on trying, Shizu-chan?" he asked, provocative, using the nickname again on purpose to tick the guy off, except this time it didn´t seem to work.
"Until I get it right."
Hmmm.
What made the man calm down all of a sudden and converse on a civilized level?
"Which will never happen~!"
"Don´t you have something better to do? Annoying someone else?"
...
Izaya didn´t know what it was but all of a sudden he found himself thinking that the blond seemed frustrated, not in a sense of being annoyed because of the useless attempts of mastering the gear, no, it seemed more like he was getting frustrated in a sense of dread.
"Not really."
He seemed overly calm too, especially in handling the gear. For a moment Izaya just watched the guy as he tried to stay in the belt, falling down twice right no his face, but he didn´t even frown about it.
"I´m curious", he mumbled, voicing his thoughts, "What is it you are doing this for?" Again the blond fell down, but didn´t answer his question.
"Want to get famous?" Izaya offered as one of the many possible reasons he could have, but the blond didn't seem to be affected by his response at all.
"Maybe you just like killing?" Quite the bold suggestion, and Izaya did know some guys that just joined to corps for this particular reason, he had a feeling it wasn´t what Shizu-chan was aiming for though.
"Or you want to see what´s beyond those walls?" Curiosity was humanities greatest weakness after all. But the blond didn´t even bat an eyelid.
"Maybe someone close to you got killed and you want revenge?" At that the blond´s eyebrow twitched and he rose his head to glare at the raven.
"Can you shut the hell up?"
Hoh-
"The revenge it is." He must have hit something there if the blond reacted to it like that.
"Is not," the blond grumbled, but Izaya just smirked feeling victorious.
"You know revenge is useless though?" he chirped, annoying the blond just so much more.
"No one asked for your fucking opinion." Didn´t mean he couldn´t give it.
"So how long do you really intend to do this for?"
"Until I get it right!"
Pfft, what a vague answer.
"Forever hm, aren´t you wasting precious time? Time you could use to get a normal job?"
"You are talking to me since like half an hour ago, now who is wasting time." That made the raven pause and blink for a second.
Heh- the blond wasn´t as dumb as he thought.
At first glance the blond had seemed as though he was just all muscles and no brain. Interestingly he didn´t have that many muscles, nor did he appear to be extraordinarily stupid.
Not to mention that he had pointed something out that Izaya was wondering about himself, he would almost go as far as to say the blond seemed to perceptive in a sense. He should have been done messing with him long ago but somehow he found himself enjoying the company of this man way too much.
His rawness, the way he didn´t seem to spend even a second thinking about just where they were, what positions they were in, how they might be getting killed by titans if wall Rose broke down as well, was awfully refreshing.
He was like a child and yet he wasn´t.
"So you are not doing this for revenge?" Izaya asked once more, thinking that the blond wouldn´t be wasting time with something as petty as that. Maybe he was seeing him smarter than he was but he decided to go with the flow for once.
No more teaseling.
"Told you that´s not it," the blond mumbled, pausing in his useless training as he wiped some dirt off his forehead.
"Then what for?" Izaya inquired and Shizuo swore the guy would drive him insane by the end of the day.
"Not telling me, hm?" Izaya mumbled as he received nothing but a glare. "What about the rumor, is it true?"
For a second the blond paused, and jus looked at the flea.
"What rumor?" Just the word itself made his blood run cold ever since he was a kid.
Delighted that he was finally getting paid some proper attention the raven elaborated.
"People say you killed a titan with a tree~!"
...
Oh.
... so there were rumors about that time. He should have expected it.
"Yeah," he mumbled, remembering that moment way too well. His stomach dropped just at the sole mentioning of it.
"Yeah? That´s all you say?" Izaya blinked a bit confused, "Usually people would be bragging by now, except what they said is a lie-"
"Are you done annoying me now?"
... he wasn´t even trying to defend himself? Did he really care so little about what he managed to do? Killing a titan was already a glorious deed as it was, people were sure to admire or look up to him and yet he seemed as though he hated the fact he did.
"You are bleeding on your head you know," Izaya noted, his eyes following a small trail of blood that was starting to drip from his head. Hitting his head so often it was no wonder he guessed.
But the blond didn´t seem as if he cared even in the slightest, almost the opposite, he brought up the back of his hand to wipe the blood away and just frowned as though he was getting annoying it was bleeding.
"Doesn´t it hurt?" the raven asked, not able to make sense of the brute.
"I´m not stopping because of a little headache."
...
He was deliberately enduring pain.
That was something Izaya didn´t understand. It was one thing to be stubborn, tenacious or maybe just childish- but it was a whole other thing to start getting hurt and still not stop.
It proved a certain level of desperation.
When would someone endure pain? If they did it for some kind of purpose.
And what kind of purpose? It couldn´t be self defense, since training here was literal the wrong thing to do then.
Thinking about it, it was the same with the titan.
He killed one. He didn´t run away, no he killed it. The only option Izaya could think of to actually kill a titan instead of just running away was when he had no other choice to. To protect himself for example.
But if he was just scared and trying to survive, joining the survey corps was pretty much the dumbest decision.
He didn´t think Shizu-chan was that stupid.
So why else did he have to kill the titan?
And then it was all of a sudden as if something had clicked in his head.
"You are doing this for someone, aren´t you?" it was as though he hit the nail on the head as Shizu-chan turned his head to look at the raven with an expression that spelled more than a thousand words.
Almost immediately his brows furrowed to a frown again and he glared at the raven.
"This is none of your business, just leave me alone already."
Of all the things that the annoying flea had said- tch. Did he enjoy this?
He sure was staring at him as if he were some sort of attraction.
It was when he caught the sound of footsteps that he looked up again. He met the raven's eyes closer than he thought- the flea had approached him, arms crossed and just pointed at the gear.
"What?" the blond asked, wondering what the hell he was going to annoy him with now.
"You need to lean back more if you want to get anywhere."
...
"Huh?" Confused the blond blinked, not getting at first what the flea was talking about now.
"You keep falling forward on your nose, but I haven´t seen you fall backwards yet. You are leaning too much into it," the raven explained, the teasing tune in his voice and the annoying smile in his face had disappeared and the blond was left to stare in both surprise and doubt.
Was he seriously trying to help him now?
"Come on, try falling backwards and then let´s see how bad you really are." The flea said, stepping just a step back to give the blond the room he needed.
Wondering still if the raven was just trying to mess with him the blond pulled at the iron threads. Leaning back more he meant, hm?
He tried to stay still, lean back, the gear wobbled again just like all the other times, just this time Shizuo tried to lean back instead of falling forward.
And just for a the tiniest fraction of a second he felt like he grasped some sort of balance-
However, it really was just a split second before he felt himself losing the balance and fall backward, right onto his head.
A stinging pain shot through his skull and he groaned.
"What the hell flea I still fell down!" he complained, feeling as though the raven had just messed with him, but strange enough he wasn´t laughing.
"Shizu-chan, there are abilities one can obtain and then there are skills that just have to be there." He said instead, his arms still crossed and a sigh escaped his lips.
For a second Shizuo felt as though the raven was disappointed he didn´t manage to do it this time.
"Wreck yourself, destroy the training ground, I don´t care," he shrugged and turned around, a frown decorating his face, "but it´s a fact that if you can´t stay in the gear tomorrow you will be kicked out."
And with that he just walked away, leaving Shizuo to lay there on the ground confused.
Well he was glad the raven finally left, so he could have some peace, and yet-
What the hell was that even about?
To be continued~
*PANTS*
SO MUCH TO WRITE
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Just in case you didn´t notice, this chapter was 4492 words long xDDD There you go Rage0fPhoenix lmao xD Actually I didn´t intend to actually make it longer but then I couldn´t just cut off the conversation in the middle and I was like- ... fuck it xDDDDD
Now- I know not much actually "happened" but ahh I have to start this slowly xDD
Hope you won´t kill me for it C': But I promise this is gonna be heart tugging and sweet soon~! xDD
Guest 2: NO I won´t xDDDDD Laughing your ass off is also one possible way to react to this x'DDD ahaahha well, the certainly will be starting fights C': geez stop apologizing though xDD haha indeed, Shizuo has just a tiny bit of respect for Izaya C': I think it´s like in canon xD Cuz I bet Shizuo acknowledges at least that Izaya is smart as fuck and admires that a bit in secret x'DDDD Now this chapter was lots of boring talking but hey~ I have to start somewhere xD next chapter will be a bit surprising, and funny C: xD
Now, now, that´s it for this weeks xD Sorry I´m a day late btw C':
See you in 13 days x'DDDD