-๑-๑ ஜ ๑- Chapter 11: What do you do, Shizu-chan? -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-

-Shizuo´s point of view.-

Warily Shizuo´s eyes travelled back and forth between the men on the wall. Most of them were strangers, people he never saw before, not even at the training ground, and then there were the few familiar faces he recognized among them.

He could see Karisawa and Yumasaki, sure he had never been hanging out with them all that much but he knew they were Kadota´s friends.

And he was there too of course, talking to a doctor- maybe being a doctor himself and all Kadota was going to take care of them outside? In case they got injured or something?

It was then that the medic in white turned around and faced the blond.

"Shinra?" Shizuo questioned instinctively as the bespectacled friend grinned up at him.

"Ah, Shizuo~!"

Perplex the blond looked at the bespectacled as he approached him with one of that flashing smiles of his.

"What are you doing here?" the blond questioned, for a short moment thinking that maybe Shinra was going to join them on the mission.

"Oh, just a quick check up on the team," Shinra replied instead though answering the blond´s silent question.

"Woohoo, I can't wait to kill these bastards!" frowning the blond twisted his head, facing some other guys entering the scene. One of them seemed like one of the thugs he used to beat up back in wall maria. A scar was decorating his expression and some sort of hammer was attached to his back as he looked past the wall with a couple of what Shizuo deemed were probably his friends.

"I will take them down one after the other!" he boasted, echoing laughter joining his own as his friends were obviously just as crazy as that idiot.

"Wanna bet who will get the most?" one of his friends questioned-

"Hah you bet!" another said.

Shizuo could do nothing but frown deeply at the stupid conversation they were holding. What the hell did they think there were doing? Heading for a trip?Something fun? An amusement trip outside to the titans? this was a serious matter how could they be this fucking stupid and looking forward to what was probably going to be their death?!

"Ah, Shizuo, please don't end up knocking anyone out. They are all needed on the mission, even if they are just dead weight in the end." Shinra suddenly said making the blond snap out of his thoughts and turn towards the brunette instead.

"Pisses me, off," he growled lowly. Beating these assholes up really seemed like a good option. "They are the reason everyone thinks so ill of Izaya," he grumbled- and he knew he was right with what he said.

It were people like these, they didn't seem like they were going to listen to any orders given my Izaya or anyone else. No the opposite, these would probably just rush at every titan they saw in the hope that they could defeat it quickly and return as heroes.

They were so fucking stupid- Shizuo bet they had never even seen a titan before and yet they were boasting as though they had already killed half of the monster´ s population.

"Hoh? Don't tell me you don't think ill of him?" Shinra suddenly questioned, seeming genuinely surprised by the blond´s honest words.

"He is taking his job way more serious than any of the people here at least," Shizuo mumbled, "Even if he doesn't save anyone from the titans."

…

A moment of silence followed. Which was pretty rare for the doctor. Turning his head he looked at Shinra who was for once wearing a rather serious expression instead of one of his usually happy and chirpy ones.

"That's not true actually," he suddenly said, his eyes still fixed onto what was laying behind the wall though.

"What?" Shizuo repeated, pretty sure the flea had told him that he wasn't willing to save anyone except himself on the battlefield.

Chuckling softly the doctor sighed as his voice dropped to a low whisper.

"The truth is, Izaya actually saved my ass when we were little."

Izaya saved Shinra? Surprised the blond frowned at the unexpected piece of information.

"It was when wall Maria got broken," the brunette started, "I was stuck beneath a rock, I got out from underneath it but both my legs were broken. Izaya ran in front of a titan and attracted its attention to lure it away." Izaya… lured a titan away? Without any sort of maneuver gear or weapon at hand? "It was a freaking gamble that thing was way faster than him and he was really close to getting caught a lot of times. Hours passed and he was still there, he could have gotten eaten. The corps weren't coming either- we had no idea whether they even were on their way, but Izaya stayed nonetheless," Shinra continued picturing an image of the raven the blond hadn't quite been able to imagine so far.

Izaya was so cold, not in a bad way, it was just all the battles, the missions, even the way he treated Shizuo, he was trying to be nice but he was still keeping his distance, so hearing now about an Izaya that was trying this hard to save his friend…

That was actually risking his life like that…

"After a while we started to realize that no one was going to come for us," Shinra continued, "I told Izaya to leave, but you know what he did?" Soft laughter left the doctor's lips as he remembered the memory.

"He carried me to the boats all the way." Right the boats.

Shizuo could remember them. They were getting the people inside wall Rose to save them from the titans.

"With two broken legs I was dangling from his back while he risked his life to get me there." To be honest Shizuo was somewhat dumbfounded.

He didn't really know what it was about the story that amazed him this much- the actions in itself were amazing, there was no doubt about that, but hearing that izaya did all of that only made it that much more amazing.

It was somewhat… painful. Even though the story proved how much the flea cared about Shinra to risk his life for him like that it also coldly reminded him of the words izaya had told him today morning.

"If you can't live with the thought of having let someone die while knowing you might have saved them then it's better if you go and possibly die than to cloud your mind with false regret and die in the next battle."

Shinra was someone he couldn't have forgiven himself for if he hadn't given his all to save him.

But that also meant, seeing how he never even tried to save anyone… he only had Shinra. He was his only friend, the only one he trusted- and all the others were just…

A life like Izaya's… was pretty damn lonely wasn't it? Right now, the way it was, with nobody to confide in no one to laugh with or share anything with, because Shizuo knew that the survey corps stayed long on these missions. they barely spent any time inside the wall. just a fraction, to recover, that was all, and then they were forced to face a life and death situation once more.

people dying left and right. The flea ending up alone...

"It was not only once that a titan spotted us or tried to snatch us, but Izaya never dropped me," the brunette suddenly laughed snapping the blond out of his gloomy thoughts as he finished his story.

"Izaya did all that?" he repeated, although it sounded less like a question and more like a statement.

"Indeed," Shinra laughed, "So you see, if it's needed, Izaya gives his all to save a person he deems worth saving."

Glancing at his old friend Shizuo couldn't help but wonder.

"... why are you telling me that?" It sounded somewhat personal, also proved just how close those two were despite Izaya saying he was only an old friend.

And knowing this much about the flea… telling this to the wrong person could actually get the flea into trouble rather than getting anyone to like him. After all, shady people lived inside the wall, rotten souls that would use something like this against the raven. maybe try to blackmail him that something could happen to Shinra if he didn't do as he was being told.

Thinking about it now the blond had to blink as he realized that maybe that was why the raven was treating the brunette friend so nonchalant and seemingly mean.

And same for Shinra-

"No reason," the person in questioned grinned, and he pretty damn looked as if he already knew Shizuo had understood. "It's just been long time he has been interested in anything but killing titans."

"LISTEN UP." Startled the blond snapped his head towards the edge of the wall-

there he was.

Izaya- and next to him that guy with the scar across his right eye. Their hands were crossed behind their backs, their stance straight, intimidating even, filled with charisma. Within a time span of seconds it was quiet within the rows as their voices hallowed across the scenery.

The scar faced man had been telling the man to quit it- now it was Izaya's turn to take one step forward and start to explain the mission.

"We are heading to the giant forest, a group of titans has been collecting there but we have no idea why," he started, his voice clear, unwavering, the countless humans listening to what was going to wait for them out there.

"Our goal is to get there, investigate what they are being drawn to and come back to report," Izaya went on, pointing towards the horizon behind his back. it was odd, because the land looked so free, there was no wall, there was nothing but nature, and yet Shizuo could already spot something in the distance, walking. And it definitely weren't animals.

"I repeat, our goal is to investigate, not to kill them, they are all minor class and therefore not a threat to the wall- and easy to be taken out by cannons." Annoyance was suddenly making itself noticeable as the people started to whisper and hiss to each other.

A couple "What?" and other complains were reaching the blond´s ears, making that frown on his face only grow deeper in response.

Whether these people died, that didn't matter.

He knew what Izaya had tried to tell him, to make a choice. Choose which people he would try to save and which he would let die with no bat of an eyelid. Izaya wasn't cruel to think that way, it was necessary in a battle.

A glance was thrown, Kadota was there. If a titan were about to eat him he would try to help-

Karisawa as well. He doubted her and Yumichi would have any troubles dealing with the titans but if they had he wouldn't leave them behind.

These shitheads should just shut the fuck up already. Izaya wasn't even done with his speech yet- but those bastards didn't seem to care- and the raven had obviously noticed this as well as he put on one of those smirks he had shown Shizuo when they first met.

"Well then, all of you, give your best not to die."

Izaya was addressing all of them, but somehow Shizuo felt as though his eyes were only resting on him for a second as he glanced towards the blond for a second longer than at anybody else.

maybe it was because Shizuo was the only one listening with earnesty, taking to heart what the raven had to tell.

Yeah, he was taking everything to heart, weighing the words like gold on a libra. Choosing the people he wanted to return alive to the wall- people that he wouldn't leave behind because doing such would weigh on his mind forever-

Izaya was one of them as well.

If he were in danger he definitely wouldn't leave him behind.

After that it was a mere matter of minutes.

Nervousness was making itself noticeable as Shizuo snatched one of those blades, or rather two of them after noticing that he couldn't just take one.

his stomach was doing a backflip- he looked around saw all the people, grinning, happy to go into battle, but all he could see were their faces, cringing screaming and covered in blood.

A soft hint of nausea made itself noticeable as he got onto one of the horses. They were collecting up ahead, right in front of the gate. Honestly, his guts had never screamed at him this bad that this was a bad idea.

"Nervous?" Shizuo hadn't even noticed the raven had come up to him, that horse of his right next to the blond´s as he met the raven´s glance with a surprised flinch.

Hell if he were anything but nervous he would probably be crazy.

"I put you into the front," the raven suddenly said, his voice low but still loud enough for the blond to hear. "Meaning you will be stuck with me for a while~"

there it was again, that smirk on his lips- just how could Izaya manage to joke around like that in the face of the danger they were going to throw themselves into.

the blond really didn't know, but somehow, knowing that the annoying flea was being there calmed him at least a bit.

"Aw, now that sucks," he replied clearing his throat as his voice turned raspy halfway.

He could see the people from the Garrison, running around, screaming at each other as they prepared to open the gate that was now right in front of them.

"You remember what I told you right?" the raven suddenly whispered and it was way more quiet than before.

"What?" the blond repeated, equally quiet- The raven´s glance was hard, yet soft.

"There are titans all around you, what do you do?" he suddenly questioned, reminding the blond of the afternoon they had spent at the wall Rose. How he had tried to get up there because the safest option according to Izaya was-

"Run and hide." A smile met his eyes as the raven nodded satisfied.

"Good." And then there was the scar faced man standing next to the horses, nodding at the raven-

"GO!" was the only word he said-

And with that the survey corps set into motion- the horses neighted, the people screamed as the gate opened, making room for the troup to dash out- onto their first- and for most probably last mission.

To be continued~

DUN DUN DUUUUNNN The titans are finally making their appearance soon~ Lol it will be somewhat fun to write those awkward shits and their hilarious way of running xD

Anyway~!

WE HAVE A WINNER! *0*0*0**00** xDDD

"Survival of the doomed" has the most readers at the moment and will therefore be update twice from now on~!

Everything else will be updated just as usual~! C:

Well then, see you in the next chapter on 22nd February 2018~! *0*

Guest 2: daww izaya is just beings o! nyyaargghhh Like levi in a way but way less you know, able to deal with it xD like izaya is such a smol lonely lil cookie ahhhh xD Shizuuuuuu just love him already and hug him and tell him everything is gonna be okay and all aw gosh Izaya seems so strong but deepp within he isnt gosh with all his walls and shit xD aw gsoh and now, well now shit is gonan get serious C: