-๑-๑ ஜ ๑- Chapter 14: No! -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
-Shizuo´s point of view.-
No-
NO-
For a second time just seemed to stand still- eyes blown wide Shizuo couldn't avert his stare from that titan. That titan.
The titan that just-
His guts were churning his stomach lurching as an immense feeling of panic and despair tormented his entire being. Horror was reflecting on his expression and before he knew it, without even having any sort of plan, he was already moving. Towards that titan.
Corpses, steam raising from dead titans and blood were colouring the ground but the blond had no eye for them as he dashed right for that titan-
His hands were still gripping that blade- the blade that Izaya had thrown- hard, harsh, he didn't even notice the silver creaking and bending underneath the enormous pressure that was Shizuo´s grip as his expression churned into something filled with hatred to an extent it had never been before.
KILL.
Was the only thing on his mind- when he saw the titan. Those disgusting eyes, searching for possible prey it could consume, those death bringing teeth, sprinkled with blood and guts stuck in between the deadly white. And that arm, reaching for the blond, coming down like a machine, a monster, something out of this world-
It was reaching for Shizuo, he knew that, it wanted to eat him, he knew that as well- and yet he couldn't give a single fuck about that right now.
Because right now the only thing that deadly hand was, that arm extended to reach for the titan´s pray- to Shizuo it was nothing but a staircase to his enemy.
Without fear he dashed up that steaming path towards the bastard´s face-
The monster´s expression remained just the same. That grin, the disgusting grin spread across its lips as it had no idea of its soon end.
It barely took a second for the blond to swing that blade, swing it with so much force the creature's eyes were still rotating in confusion after the head had separated from its neck.
With a harsh thump the isolated part rolled off- the body of the titan crashing to the ground like a dead sack of potatoes. Shizuo was still standing on top of the titan- now rushing to where he believed its stomach would be.
IZAYA.
Was the only thing on his mind when he saw the monster dead on the ground.
IZAYA.
He had to be alive-
Silver digging into the rotting flesh he tore the skin apart- blood was steaming like a river down the titan´s body and onto the ground. He could already hear more steps, those heavy thumps violating the ground. But his hand didn't stop moving, ripping, cutting away on the flesh as he tore the titan apart.
Izaya.
Izaya had to be alive- he had to- he couldn´t be dead- not after sacrificing his blade for Shizuo´s sake!
Despair was making itself noticeable in the frantic motion of cutting away on that titan´s flesh- Not too deep.
Not too deep.
Like a chant the sentence repeated in the blond´s mind, firmly believing, that Izaya still had to be alive inside this damn bastard´s body.
He had to-
He had to be-!
…
It was so quiet. So so quiet. Swallowing hard Izaya tried to suppress an upcoming wave of panic. Crimson hotness was surrounding him upside down, left and right. Trying to find some grip on those … on- the creature´s inside... of his stomach-
Izaya's stomach lurched.
His eyes squeezed shut as he tried to not let go with his trembling hands. Gastric fluid was filling a third of the monster´s insides. Heads, ripped off body parts- Izaya tried to pretend it wasn't a titan's stomach he was in as the cold shiver of death choked his throat.
He couldn't move his legs- the pain was too much to bear- just thinking about having to move again at all was making the flea nauseous. Hidden by the disgusting fluid he could only imagine what they had to look like.
Blades, broken to pieces were swimming in the disgusting soup around him.
He could just hold on- try not to drop into this mix of deadness and blood. His breathing was ragged, his eyes wide.
Dull and threatening his side throbbed- the bloody piece that had pierced his skin stuck in the titan's flesh.
He tried to calm down, to just- maybe there was still a way- he was still alive- he was still alive.
Like a mantra the sentence kept repeating in his head as though the thought alone was going to save him while his mind drowned in a sea of panic.
And then it was there-
Light.
Snapping his head up he almost choked on air when something undefinable suddenly crashed through the surface.
The gastric fluids splashed against the walls, Izaya nearly lost his balance but before he could recognize just what it was that had just pierced the titan's stomach there was already a pair of arms wrapped around his body.
Tight, secure he suddenly felt himself being pulled from the heat- pulled away from the verge of panic as his lungs filled themselves with the fresh and familiar air of the forest they had been in.
Eyes darting around Shizuo searched, searched for the titans he had heard- the titans he could still hear. Heavy the thumps thundered through the silence of the forest and his grip on the flea tightened unwillingly.
Away. They had to get away from here-
Eyes darting around he couldn´t spot anything that would even remotely serve as a hideout- there was nothing- nothing but-
Trees.
As if on autopilot his hands darted to this cursed maneuver gear of his- he might be too stupid to use this- but just up there, just like back at the wall, he had to get up there!
Wires shooting out they embedded themselves into one of the tree´s stems- harsh- quick the blond felt himself being pulled towards the tree and off the dead titan.
Curling around the flea to try and protect him from the impact as much as possible he shot the second wire- he had no idea where it even landed- the next thing he knew he just crashed into branches- branches and leaves- harsh and hard they slapped his skin, tore his clothes until a branch, larger than the other crashed into his back like a whiplash.
They came to a halt- just there on the branch that killed his back. Groaning softly he glanced to the right, to the left- were the titans already here? Had they seen them? Where they trying to get them?
Questions over questions assaulted his mind as he scanned their surroundings. They were in one of the trees- one of the giant trees. He could see the titans from above. Running, stumbling, searching for the source of the noise he guessed- but they didn't spot Izaya and Shizuo.
They walked past, oblivious to the two sitting on the branch of a way too high tree.
They wouldn't be able to get them up here- at least none of the normal class titans. Relief washed over the blond as he closed his eyes momentarily.
He did it.
He did it!
"Fuck that was close," he said out aloud, his arms still wrapped around the raven. "How the hell did they even catch you?" But then his expression dropped.
The question had been directed at the flea. He thought everything was fine now- he thought he did it- but it was only then that he realized just how wrong he was.
The flea looked bad- really bad.
Covered in blood, from which Shizuo was only left to guess which was his own and which staining him from the inside of his stomach.
But he could see well enough- he could see the way Izaya's legs were bent in an odd angle, blood seeping from underneath the cloth covering his stomach. He could see his chest heave up and down rapidly yet shallow. His eyes were squeezed shut in what was unmistakably pain. Blood was dripping from a wound on his forehead and his hands trembling as if he were freezing. Despite Shizuo´s attempt of keeping the raven unscathed he could spot numerous scratches cuts and bruises scattered across his body.
But the thing that scared him the most was just how pale the flea had become. His breathing so shallow as though he was planning to quit it entirely.
"Izaya? Oi-" the raven was shaking, tremors wracking his body and not responding to him at all. Blood was starting to soak Shizuo´s pants and he realized with the feeling of a blow to his gut that the flea was worse than he had assumed.
".. shit-" Izaya could hear the blond, he wanted to respond, wanted to move- but he couldn't. He just- the pain was taking over his mind, clouding his judgement as he could do nothing but try and just not pass out.
Feeling his surroundings move he could only try and make sense of what was happening around him. He had no idea what was going on- the only thing on his mind was this dull pain, pain from multiple places he couldn't even define their location anymore as his eyes were squeezed shut.
He was feeling so damn nauseous. So nauseous and cold. Freezing.
"Hey- hey talk to me, Izaya-" he could hear him. Shizu-chan. Feeling his back brush against something stable his mind barely managed to conclude that he was laying down. He could feel a pair of hands. On his shoulders, then his head. Something soft was pressing against it. Swallowing harshly the raven flinched at a momentarily sting of pain. But then it subsided a bit. Wet coolness was emitted from the soft texture and the raven realized the blond was pressing a piece of cloth drenched in water against his head.
"Hey, Izaya-" just why? Why was the flea this bad? Shizuo didn't get it- from what he saw his legs were broken- he had hit his head, was injured yeah, but that didn't explain why he looked as though he was going to die any moment!
Calm down, calm down-
The immense panic that Izaya might just still die right here right now despite having saved him from that titan was killing the blonds rational thinking. They were alone, in the titans territory, with him not having any proper medical knowledge and Izaya down.
As if on auto pilot the blond ripped at his shirt once more- he had already used a part of it, poured water over the cloth to at least cover that bleeding wound on Izaya's forehead. It was then that he noticed it.
Blood- more blood than a few seconds ago. And it wasn't dripping from his legs or forehead- no.
Shirt lifted quickly the blond choked on his breath for a moment. There was an enormous cut in the flea´s abdomen. Blood was seeping from the wound in a horrifying fashion as the blond jerked at his green coat- tearing he ripped the fabric apart. He had to stop the blood flow- Quick the torn fabric was pressed against the flea´s stomach.
He had to keep Izaya from losing any more blood- he knew he had to make this tight but god-
Choking on air Izaya's hand was suddenly shooting forward, gripping the blond´s shirt as if to beg and make him stop.
Shizuo was hurting him- fuck he knew he was hurting him.
"Sorry, fuck, sorry-" fuck he hated this, he didn't even mean to hurt Izaya. He didn't want to hurt him. Izaya was heaving, his hand not letting go of Shizuo´s shirt as the blond tore his green coat to shreds, using it as the only kind of bandaid that was available.
"Hey flea, you okay?" it was a stupid question, really and yet Shizuo didn't know what else he was supposed to say.
"I'm sorry-" Guilt was driving him mad- guilt for having been saved by the flea, having caused this to happen- having hurt the flea again-
"Izaya-" Izaya could hear him well enough. Slowly, very very slow, his mind was becoming somewhat clear again.
Opening his eyes barely for a second he could catch a glimpse of Shizu-chan´s expression.
That brute, he was way too gentle, a monster trying not to hurt anyone, he looked as though someone had just hurt him and not Izaya.
"´m fi... ne." Softly, low the words finally managed to seep from his lips- but they were anything but the truth. His head was spinning, his body shaking like crazy- the pain was starting to become dull- and yet it was still pulsating so painfully. And the words he had spoken only caused the nausea he had already felt prior to reach its peak.
"Might…. be sick tho," the raven swallowed hard trying to get rid of the lump in his throat. Feeling his senses come back to a certain extent a pair of arms wrapped around his shoulders as they pushed him up gently.
He knew it was Shizu-chan.
Holding him in place with one arm around his shoulder the other was kneading at the back of Izaya's neck with the cold piece of cloth that had been pressed against his forehead in an attempt of chasing the nausea away.
"Everything is going to be alright," the blond suddenly said and honestly if the raven hadn't been feeling so shitty he would have probably laughed at the lie. He wasn't stupid, he knew he had lost a lot of blood if not too much and he was nowhere near properly fixed up, not to mention how they were still inside the titan´s territory.
"I already fixed you, okay?" the blond continued, somewhat desperate-
Seeing the flea this apathetic, with a face gray like death and feeling his cold clammy skin despair was threatening to swallow the blond whole.
He was still too pale and so god damn cold.
Fuck he wasn't gonna die right? No- fuck, he couldn´t-
Izaya could feel the blond, feel the warmth radiating from his hands that were now trailing to his upper arms, moving up and down as if to attempt and get the raven warm again.
"Hey, Izaya-" Shizuo´s brown coat was taken off, and before Izaya knew it it was resting on his shoulders. Warm. Just like the blond.
Letting his forehead thud against the blond´s shoulder that he could only assume was right in front of him the raven left his eyes closed. Tried to get a grip on himself.
"Calling me by my first name? Cocky aren't you?" his lips were trembling while speaking, dizziness and nausea attacking once more as he took a shaky breath.
"Are you okay?" It was the blond who was asking- to Izaya's disappointment the blond was not annoyed at all. Seriously, what kind of Captain was he if he couldn't even calm one of his soldiers down?
"You mean apart from feeling like shit? Yeah sure," he replied, breathing slowly in order to keep the tremors from showing too much.
"I'm surprised you didn't pass out," the blond said, relief washing over him just upon hearing the flea's remarks.
A soft snort followed, but only to have the raven frown deeply a second later.
"Are you okay?" Again the same question.
"Just- give me a moment." Black spots were interrupting the raven's field of vision. Shrieking, a loud high pitched noise was assaulting his ears. He knew there wasn't actually anything to hear, but it was still there.
"Shit, why did you even give me your blade?" The blond sounded like he was blaming himself- but honestly there was no need to. It was Izaya's and Izaya´s fault alone that that one titan got ahold of him.
Taking a deep breath the raven tried to get his voice back in control.
"Because you obviously had the better chance of us to survive back there," he breathed, only causing the frown on Shizuo´s face to deepen.
"You watched out for me, I saw you, you beat a titan that was heading for me," the blond argued, still remembering how he had just- frozen up in fear. Like a coward. "Fuck if I just hadn´t-"
"Shizu-chan stop. It's not your fault. I was the one who decided to take you on the mission, if anyone is to blame it's me." He was the captain, he was supposed to take decisions- and yet the blond didn't quite seem to grasp that yet.
"I disappointed you didn't I?"
"Disappointed? You saved my life." For once Izaya was actually speaking the truth. Hell he didn't blame Shizu-chan for what had happened, nor was he mad, the opposite- if the blond hadn't come for him, pulling Izaya out of that titan's stomach-
He would be dead now.
Slowly being digested.
Feeling his stomach lurch at the thought the raven let his eyes squeeze shut for just a moment.
"Are there any titans around?" he questioned between pressed lips.
The blond´s head turned, left and right- before they had been rushing past, but now it was awfully silent inside the wood.
"No, they are gone."
Taking a deep breath the raven opened his eyes again. Trying to focus he looked down the trees. It was either now or never.
"We need to get away from here."
to be continued~
Awww poor Izzy - lol no I enjoyed making him suffer lmao xD I'm so evil xD' Things are gonna get really interesting now ehehe a plot twist is up ahead~ ;3 Izaya sure is a reckless cookie though, wanting to run around again right away tse tse tse well not like he would be able to xD
See chu all in the next update on May the 15th~!
Guest 2: xD ahahah well who didn't hate the idiots? xD awwww right? xD i loved that sentence too ohoho It's so captain like xD kya I love writing izaya this way! xD thank chu for helping me with the chapter again C; I would have probably rewritten it again if it hadn't been for you xD hahaha who knows~? Maybe Izaya will still die? C: I mean- he could? With that much blood loss? hmmmm~ xD It's been long since I randomly killed people off xD
Fellow writer: daw sorry xD Usually I do update on my profile if an update is gonna be moved or not, just sometimes- … I simply forget xD Or I do intend to update on that date still and just work on a chapter till like, 3 am, and then realize I won't be able to get done in time anyway C': then again 3am is already too late- haha oh well x'D I will try to be more accurate there! :3