Alone
02/09/04
I'm all alone. Everyone is always leaving me. First my dad, to go fight for our country, then Sean leaves me to clean up the mess some people call my mother. That all happened after Marco dumped me, am I really that hideous that no one, would want to stay with me? Ashley left to, for London, and she's staying with her dad and Ali, her dream guy. Craig's gone too, to record his record. It's not only the fact that everyone is leaving me; it's the fact that I am breaking everything I touch too. I broke Jimmy and Hazel's relationship, and I'm probably the reason why many other Degrassi couples have broken up too. I hate my life but there is nothing I can do about it.
ELLIE
02/14/04
Happy Valentines Day, Ellie Nash! Could this day get any better! Dad called and said that I should come visit him. I agreed of course. I'm thinking about moving away. Just packing up and leaving. I know I would miss some things like; Marco, Jimmy and my friends. But they're all busy with their own lives right? I mean all I ever did was hurt Jimmy, force Marco to tell everyone, when he obviously wasn't ready, about his sexuality. The only thing I'm okay at his using my video camera. I think when dad sends me a ticket; I'm going to be gone forever. I know mom is going to file for divorce. It's either going to be her or dad, just any day now. They obviously don't love each other any more. I have no idea where I want to go though. I've always wanted to go to Australia though.
ELLIE
03/02/04
It's done. In two weeks, Ellie Nash will no longer be at Degrassi High, but instead on a plane to Sidney, Australia. I've already started to finish things up. For example, I sold my CD collection for money, and rented out my apartment, the one I shared with Sean. No body knows, because I don't want them too. The day before I leave, I'm going to write them a letter and mail it, so they won't get it until later. I hope know I'm doing the right thing. I just want everyone else to be happy. I don't want to be known as the Goth-punk cutter, I just want to start over. I'll probably come back, in a couple of years, I mean it's not like I'm doing anything illegal, I am 16 turning 17. That's almost legal.
Ellie