This chapter takes place after the divorce and into the 4th season (same disclaimers)

From the moment that we met my world was turned around upside down

I wake up can't sleep. Ever since she's been gone I haven't been sleeping well. Man how I wish the morning would come.

I've got the lights turned up, The door is locked, the bedroom TV's on, Doing the only thing that gets me through the night, Since you've been gone, Prayin' for daylight waiting for that morning sun, So I can act like my whole life ain't going wrong, Baby come back to me, I swear I'll make it right, Don't make me spend another lonely night, Prayin' for daylight

Michelle you left thinking it was best for the both of us. Maybe it was, but it sure doesn't feel like it. I think this might have been a bad decision.

But you were wrong; love was what I wanted all along, and now your gone

I think back to the day she left and know it was my fault. I should have stopped her I know it doesn't help to think about it but I do anyway.

I should be out in that driveway stopping you Tears should be rolling down my cheek And I don't know why I'm not falling apart Like I usually do And how the thought of losing you's not killing me I feel bad That I can stand here strong Cold as stone, Seems so wrong I can't explain it Maybe it's just I've cried so much I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can't help but think about how it could have been if I hadn't messed it up. If had tried to stop you. It wasn't her fault after all she was just doing it for our own good, she was trying to show me that she loved enough to leave me if need be.

What hurts the most was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin' to do

I fall asleep thank goodness. I need it. I wake up the next morning with a new routine. This one isn't as good as the old one. Oh how I long for the old one. Then I'm in CTU helping Jack once more. Then I see her.

Hey baby, is that you? Wow, your hair got so long! Yeah, yeah, I love it, I really do .Norma Jean ain't song we'd sing in the car driving down town. Top down, makin' the rounds, checkin' out the bands on Doheny Avenue. Yeah, life throws you curves but you learn to swerve. Me, I swung and I missed, and the next thing you know,I'm reminiscing missin': dreamin' on dreams, wishin' on wishes. Like you would be back again.

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain. I put on that old song, we danced to, and then, I head off to my job: guess not much has changed.
Punch the card, head for home, check the 'phone, just in case .Go to bed, dream of you: That's what I'm doin' these days. Yeah, that's what I'm doin'.

The day passes. Jen calls, that lady has the best timing. Not. Now here I am holding her against he wall trying to explain that Jen isn't important to me. Then she asks "Do you love her?" no Michelle no! I don't! I love you I've loved you all along!

Do I cry in the night? Do I long to hold you tight? Do I wake wanting you? Yes I do. Do I recall every day how you took my breath away? Do I remember loving you? Yes I do. Yes I do dream of all we had together yes its true we lost it all forever do I pray every day? Yes I do.

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