-๑-๑ஜ ๑- Chapter 29: You are awesome -๑ஜ ๑-๑-
-Izaya´s point of view.-
The sun was gleaming strong, painting everything in a pleasant orange and red. Even the rubbish on the ground and the destroyed shops seemed somewhat beautiful the way they reflected the sun's light. The broken glass sparkled as the blond moved past another shop, the raven´s warmth still present on his back.
"It´s almost too beautiful today," the raven mumbled, feeling as though the sun was making it a point to mock them by how gorgeous the sky seemed to be painted.
"How can it be too beautiful?" Shizu-chan asked, making the raven snort just a bit.
"Well considering our surroundings, the sky doesn't fit what´s underneath." It certainly didn´t.
He could hear the sounds, the noises of monsters lurking inside the dark black buildings. And yet the scenery right now, walking towards the school they had determined as their home with the sunset at its back, seemed just way too peaceful.
"I guess I know what you mean," the blond hummed, his eyes glancing warily from left to right very couple seconds.
The sun had only started to set and everything was still illuminated properly by the light- the school was up in front too, but he couldn't help but be extra cautious.
"Maybe after nature starts covering everything with its healthy green the sky will match with the ground again," Izaya argued and the blond had to admit that maybe he was right.
Once the plants had taken over the city again… that would take long time wouldn't it? At that moment the zombies might as well all be dead already, died of starvation since no humans were left anymore or just died because of that virus finally killing them off.
He wondered whether Izaya and him would still be together like this by then. Travelling to who knew where… listening to Izaya's rants and doing shit that the blond hadn´t even tried before the world started going down the gutter…
To be honest the imagination of such a time should shock him or make him frown, but now that he had gotten used to have the flea around like this he couldn't help but feel that he really wouldn't mind such a future at all.
his grip on the flea tightened just a little bit. If the flea was still with him by that time that was.
"You could have gotten that woman I bet." Surprised by the sudden change of topic the blond blinked, the hold on the flea loosening up again.
"What?" he repeated, wondering who the on earth the flea could have meant.
"Your type," the raven explained, his head resting on the blond´s shoulder as he watched the shops they passed by.
"I hope you are not talking about yourself," the blond mumbled making the raven snort.
"No, actually, I'm being serious." For once the raven actually meant what he had said to the fullest. Even though Shizu-chan didn't seem to be all that convinced on his part.
"I don't know if you noticed but everyone was afraid of me back then."
"Oh I wasn't," the raven reminded the blond. "You aren't as scary as you think."
It was what he honestly believed. Sure, Shizu-chan could execute quite the fear inducing moves, but that didn't mean he himself was someone people would have had to fear in the first place.
"Your opinion doesn't count you are crazy."
Pfft, of course.
Maybe he really was. Crazy that is. But still he could see no flaw in his logic.
"No seriously. You aren't that bad of a guy. I mean apart from your looks, and I hope I don´t need to tell you that do look pretty damn good for a monster, you aren't as frightening up close." Pausing in his steps for a moment the blond wondered whether he had just misheard.
The blond had not expected that.
Not any of those words. And especially not from the flea. He felt a weird warmth at heart, almost made him feel uncomfortable. The flea was just joking around- he had to be.
"Are you saying I'm hot now?" Shizuo snorted, trying to switch the topic but oh the flea wasn't done yet.
"Well why not? You seriously give yourself too less credit. You aren´t all anger and violence. You are actually a pretty thoughtful person, to the point I would almost call you perceptive, insightful and maybe even smart," the flea continued, every word feeling like he was pressing something hot against the blond´s back and face.
"Smart?" the blond laughed awkwardly, not knowing how to actually handle what the raven had said. He had never had to deal with something like.. compliments or things of that sort. If anything people were always telling him just what was wrong about him or what he needed to change about himself. To hear the flea speak about him this.. positively, was unsettling him, he didn´t know how he was supposed to react. "If anyone is smart, then it's you. I know nothing like you do," he pointed out, knowing that he could never ever compete with the huge amount of knowledge Izaya seemed to possess.
"Smartness isn't defined by the amount of information we possess Shizu-chan," the raven argued instead, "it's about how fast you are able to grasp and understand things. You aren´t stupid."
No, Shizu-chan wasn´t stupid. Sure Izaya had always called him that way, called him an amoeba, a brute, a beast too, but all of that was not actually true. Well maybe in terms of strength monster wasn't exactly unfitting but apart from that he had just been teasing and annoying the man on purpose.
"It's the opposite actually," he mumbled, remembering all those good old times they had had, apart from the fights that is. It´s not like they never talked to each other. At times when they were both at Shinra's and they had to get along sort of without destroying his home the blond had almost behaved normal. Like he would with anyone else. Sure while destroying some cups accidentally, but hey. The way he always worried about his brother, was certainly a trait he wouldn't exactly call negative. "You are surprisingly emphatic, honest, caring to a degree I will probably never understand. You are strong, which is more of a positive trait than you might think." Strong in a sense of what he could endure- what kind of words and treatment he had been able to endure all lifelong. If he were Shizu-chan and he had been shunned his entire life like this, he wasn't too sure if he could have handled it as well as Shizu-chan had.
"Except when you lose it you always try to do what you think is right, you have an awful huge sense of justice. Just remember you didn't approve of me hotwiring a car even though the apocalypse was already there, not to mention that guilt you always carry around for destroying the city." There was a reason after all Izaya had had it so easy to annoy the blond by simply telling him what he had destroyed again and how his brother would think of him now after all.
"You are surprisingly sensitive to your feelings as well as others. You are the type that gets hurt all the time but never complains about it because you consider others reasons first. Emotionally I mean. I can't remember a single time you would get angry over yourself. If someone involves people you know, friends, or family, or causes trouble for others then that´s a different matter, but when it comes down to yourself you never burst out like that."
The raven had to smile at his own words as they remembered him of a scene he had accidentally seen. The blond had been on his way home and some kids thought it would be fun to annoy the man. he taught them a little lesson, but he didn't hurt any of them. Sure he scared them off, but still it happened in a manner so controlled it had left the raven surprised.
"You always put others safety first, no matter what- Well there is that part of you having monstrous strength, but that doesn't mean you won't get hurt. Coming down to it I think the only bad trait about you is your temper and not even that is as unreasonable as you describe it."
Heh. Thinking about it, Shizu-chan really gave himself way too less credit.
"I think if that type of girl is running around somewhere out there she surely could have loved you for who you are."
…
Shizuo didn't even know what he was supposed to respond. The flea wasn't joking, he actually meant what he had said and somehow it made him feel something he had never felt before.
He just felt so very warm at heart. He didn't know the flea knew him that well. Shizuo hadn't even bothered to look that closely at himself. What he said didn't sound like it had been mockery, and yet the blond couldn't believe what he was hearing from the raven.
"Are you even listening?" the raven asked after a few seconds of silence. he had expected to get some kind of answer from the blond, maybe some sort of protests about how what he said wasn´t true.
"... I am-" was the short answer he received as they had finally reached the building.
"Just... I don't really know what to say." The raven snorted in amusement- was Shizu-chan actually being shy?
"Seriously you are speechless?" he would have never thought Shizu-chan was the type to get embarrassed about compliments.
And oh yes, he somewhat did. He could feels the weight on his back spreading a certain kind of warmth from not only there but also inside his chest.
he… didn't know what he was supposed to say.
Thank you? He wasn't thanking Izaya for saying what he did, he just…hearing how the flea thought about him, how he saw him made him feel somewhat ..light.
"You aren't that bad either," he mumbled, barely loud enough for the raven to catch the words. A grin crossed his face and he nodded in agreement.
"Oh, I know I'm awesome~ that´s why I´m your type, ne?" it was somewhat of a joke and yet-
"Yeah." the raven blinked.
"Yeah, what?"
"Yeah, you are awesome." A gush of warmth spread along the raven´s face at the unexpected agreement, rendering him speechless for a moment. His hand found its way up to his face as he let his eyes trail to the right.
Ahhh- he hadn't exactly expected that-
And he certainly hadn't expected how… it made him feel. All of a sudden he was just way too conscious of the hands holding his thighs in place. Of the strong shoulders he kept holding on to and the warmth spreading from the blond´s back as he couldn't see his expression but merely look at the blond hair he was so used to see.
He felt something stir inside him that he couldn´t quite point out-
Just what had he been rambling for fucks sake? Things like these weren't meant to be said out loud-
Honestly, the raven couldn't help but deem his own reaction as more embarrassing than Shizu-chan´s. The blond had at least been able to reply something after all he said.
Taking a deep breath the raven cleared his throat.
"Now I think you got the fever Shizu-chan," he cooed, making the blond merely laugh in response.
It was when they were already almost at their school, their new home, that a clattering sound made them both of them snap out of their thoughts.
Almost instantly the two tensed- Izaya could feel the way Shizu-chan´s grip tightened on Izaya and the blond felt the flea´s hands dig into his skin.
There was a store next to the school. It had already been there when they first arrived as well- the windows were broken entirely, sharp and dangerous the shards were scattered everywhere and the shelves inside the shop had all been thrown over.
It was a sound coming from the pile of darkness that alerted them.
Groaning.
The raven felt his guts churn, his imagination helping him to see shadows move inside the darkness.
The blond wasn't stupid, the sun was still out, he knew they weren't in any form of danger- but one thing he was worried about was Izaya to say the least.
Tense and quiet against his back he was scanning the shop.
Shizuo knew he was afraid, he knew what he was thinking about. He could hear him swallow, his breathing having become so quiet as though he was trying to make himself as unnoticeable as possible.
It made his blood boil- made him angry, to know that these assholes had managed to affect the flea, the louse that didn´t even fear him, like this.
But he had to calm down. Going over there and beating every single one of these assholes up wasn't going to help Izaya. No, not when the sun was already setting and he was only getting them into danger.
Trying to calm his own rage the blond closed his eyes for a short second.
"It's okay, they won't come out."
Izaya's eyes were still fixated on the shop. his hair was standing on ends. "I know." He knew they weren't able to come out of the darkness. He knew it.
And yet-
Not wanting to let the blond know about what these things were doing with him mentally he cleared his throat and pointed towards the shop.
"Hey let's take that with us, could be fun."
For a second the blond was confused, his eyes following where the raven was pointing. It was only at second glance that he spotted a billiard table outside the shop. It was partly buried by rubbish and one of its three legs seemed to be broken.
He wanted to object, not thinking that it would contribute to the raven´s fears if they went any closer to that shop- but then he realized what the flea was trying to do.
Izaya was obviously trying to distract him from the topic at hand.
Izaya was Izaya- the informant, his long life enemy, the person no one was going to take down except him maybe- he didn't want Shizuo to know about this.
no, maybe that wasn´t even it. The flea probably didn't even want to admit to himself that he had a problem to begin with.
Tightening his grip on the flea the blond moved towards the table. Warily his eyes scanned the inside of the shop, almost begging for none of the zombies to appear while Izaya was looking. The arms having wrapped around his neck in what seemed to be a comfortable position tensed the slightest bit and he could feel the raven inch just the slightest bit closer.
The sound of wood breaking and glass clattering to the ground filled the air as the blond pulled the billiard table out from underneath a pile of rubbish. Surprisingly the texture of the green surface had not been destroyed or damaged at all. And the billiard balls seemed to be resting in a casket on one side of the table.
"One leg is broken though," the blond pointed out the obvious while taking even but steady steps away from the shop. He couldn't wait to be back inside the library again.
Not because of the zombies, but rather because he didn't like it one bit that Izaya had made him go over there just to prove how he was okay when he wasn´t.
"We can just put some books beneath that one," the raven replied, his head still turned and eyes glued to the shop as Shizuo finally entered the school.
Lifting the table above their heads he made his way up the stairs, careful to not accidentally damage it and so they got to their room again.
The bookshelf was still in the same place, away from the window, making the sun's rays illuminate everything in orange and red.
The billiard table was placed on the floor, gracefully tilting over, as Shizuo locked the door by shoving another bookshelf in front of it again.
Sighing he looked at the closed entrance.
Perfect, now this he liked way better. He turned around, wondering whether he should close up the window already as well, but paused.
The flea he had let down had already moved over to the window. He was next to it, arms crossed, looking down onto the street from above.
Shizuo didn't need to be a genius to figure out what the flea was looking at.
Awkwardly he rose his hand, rubbing his neck as he approached the raven from behind.
"They won't come in here."
the raven had obviously heard his words as the grip on his crossed arms tightened just a little it.
"Of course Shizu-chan, I know that," he merely responded, but he sounded way less convincing than ever- it was almost as if he weren't even trying to convince him at all.
It left the blond at a loss of words.
He wanted to comfort him somehow but knowing how prideful the flea was- he didn't even want to admit to him that he was afraid, so who was he kidding?
And yet… Frowning just a bit, the blond stepped a step closer.
Fuck it.
A shoulder suddenly bumping against the raven´s to the point it almost felt like Shizuo was leaning onto him made the raven blink and twist his head.
Shizu-chan was frowning, but not saying a word.
Was he… trying to cheer him up?
He couldn't help but snort at the awkward, yet so Shizu-chan like move.
"Smooth," he snorted, and he felt as though the crease on Shizu-chan´s forehead was disappearing as he looked at him again.
"Ne," he started looking towards the newest asset to their home.
"How about we try that game you made me bring up here?"
A surprised blink followed as the raven looked back and forth between the billiard table and Shizu-chan.
"What?" he asked, pointing at the table- "You are suggesting to play?"
"Well that's what you wanted me to bring it for, no?" Izaya couldn't help but laugh at the oh so logical words.
"Yeah but I didn't think you would be the one to ask me for a game," he pointed out, moving away from the creepy window and approached the game instead. "If anything it's always the other way round." The billiard table seemed to have witnessed some harsh times, but with a few books he should eb able to fix it.
"Does Shizu-chan even know how to play?" the raven questioned as he chose some of the thickest books he could find in the bookshelf and pulled them out.
"Just a few basics, but I guess you do?" Shizuo asked, lifting up the table as the raven stocked the reading sources upon each other.
The raven snorted, glancing up from the blond from underneath as if he had just offended him.
"Please Shizu-chan, who do you think you are talking to?" The blond rolled his eyes, partly annoyed, partly glad, because this was the Izaya he knew. The boasting, childish, smart little shit.
"You think I can´t beat you, huh?" the blond hummed, making the raven perk his ears.
"Oh, you think you can?"
"Is that a challenge?"
There it was again, the mischievous glint in Izaya's eyes as he out the last book beneath the billiard table, now even and ready to play with.
"Bring it on Shizu-chan~"
to be continued~
KYAAAA isn't this sweet?! xDD oh and don't you worry i'm not even done with the squealiness yet xDDDD Oh gosh i love writing this so much I can't even xDDD But next chapter- Oh my god. next chapter- people, prepare yourselves C: Because next chapter will blow your brain out xDDD Finally I'm getting to write this chapter ohohohooh xDDDDDD
Guest 2: ohohohoh oh yes C: izzy is really Shizuo´s type- if you knew how much omg -squeals squeal screams cuz.. next chapter.. next chapter.- ohohohoho hon hon baguette C: xDD lmao and again you hit the nail on the head xD bingo~ xD It's assuring to know my writing is making enough sense to be able to be predicted by cautious little cookies like you xD eheheheheh C: Well then, see you in the next chapter~ where things will turn…. ohohoho ~ xD
On a side note- not many are reading mah story "Shingeki no Shizuo" and I think it's kinda a shame cuz I love to work the most on that one right now (and sotd) xDD and it's gonna be one long ass story, so- xD
Nuh but really, if you aren't reading it cuz it´s an AU you are missing out on something xD
cuz it's got nothing to do with the actual anime Attack On titan except for the fact that there are titans running around C': The entire staff of it has been replaced by the DRRR staff, so there is no Eren, but a Shizu-chan instead C: no levi but an Izaya captain running around C: and the plot is something entirely new as well so x'D
It´s really similar to Survival of the doomed in a sense, there is some comedy with occasional moments of seriousness and little Shizaya moments when they decide to work together for once xD not to mention the sexual tension ohohoho C: C: C: xD
Oh well, anyway that´s it~ ho ho ho ho C: look forward to the next chapter -OMG- xD Which will be out onnn 24th September~! C: C: C: C.
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PS.: Also, hey, hey, peeps I started a twitter account xD I dunno if anyone of you has twitter, but if you do, I'm posting tiny lil spoilers for chapters and previews on pictures I´m drawing and hmmmmm lemme think, well just random shit in between I guess xD Oh and I'm also twittering about delays of chapters and stuff xD -hopefully those won't appear too often- -coughs- xD
Just search for "Shirohimesstories or Shirosstories", I dunno cuz one time twitter made me cut my penname short xDD
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