-๑-๑ ஜ ๑- Chapter 34: I hate you, Shizu-chan - -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
-Shizuo´s point of view.-
No.
No, that couldn´t be-
head twisting around the blond looked at his surroundings once more- the crashed shop, down the street, up the street- behind himself because maybe he had misunderstood and Izaya was just behind him or something but no.
No he wasn't anywhere close.
This, this couldn´t be right?
The flea, he-
He wouldn't just-
Before he even knew it his legs were carrying him away from the entrance, he didn't even have any idea where he was running, just running, burning he was dashing down the street.
"IZAYA!" the yell tore through the silence.- it was odd because usually they had to keep their voices down due to the possibility of zombies hearing them, but in this part o the city, there didn't seem to be any of the ordinary slow ones. The opposite. The streets were empty, the roads free- only the groaning, the screeching from the nightly assholes hidden within dark shops was left as a reminder of their situation.
"OI?! IZAYA?!" Again he yelled at the top of his lungs, his voice hallowed, broke halfway as his breathing was ragged, gasping for air as quickly as he could to run faster- faster- because he had no idea where the flea was, he had no idea how far he had come.
Desperation was gnawing at his bones and for just that moment the fear of losing the flea to the virus was gone because another one much more immediate fear was taking over.
The flea was running away, the flea was doing what he always did what he always could do fucking best- he ran, he planned to leave Shizuo aone here, to leave him because-
Fuck, shizuo didn't even know why exactly, he just knew it was true.
Jumping across rubbish on the street he grasped the ledge of a small building to maneuver his way on top of it.
He didn't know why, was it because of the virus? Was it because he didn't want to argue with the blond- fuck he didn't know, the only thing he did know was that if he didn't manage to find the flea soon-
"What are you looking for Shizu-chan?" almost crashing into a wall the blond´s eyes widened as he came to screeching halt.
His breath got caught, pants were swallowed as he looked up, up at the top of a building.
There he was-
Relief was washing voer the blond way quicker than he was able to even ascertain what it meant to find the flea this part form the school they had been hiding in.
"Izaya! What are you doing?!" He failed to see the glare, the hostility his eyes held as he took in a shuddering breath of relief.
"Isn't it obvious?" Izaya spoke, and it was only now that the blond noticed the oddity of the raven´s voice. So clear, so sharp. "I decided to break our little team."
Like a cut it tore through the silence. The voice just as much as the words.
Break-
"What-" the blond managed to mumble a frown crossing his face as he looked at the flea. And then there it was that laughter. Quiet, but steady, it was welling up in the raven´s throat until he was grinning again with that old sirk, the smirk he used to send him back in Ikebukuro.
"Ahaha, that face Shizu-chan," he sighed, holding his stomach while chuckling as if the blond had just told him a funny joke. Sneering, with a hard gaze he straightened himself, the laughters suddenly dying on his lips.
"I only teamed up with you because you proved to be useful in the first place," he announced, with a voice so freezing it only confused the blond double and trice. A smirk followed, drawing across his lips again as he shrugged, the blond not being able to respond anything at the unexpected words. "But now I don't need to you anymore, it's as simple as that~"
he didn't- … what? "You see, we are both perfectly fine surviving in this shit alone," izaya continued, but Shizuo wasn't really listening to his words anymore. Instead he was thinking, frowning deeply. He didn't understand- what was the flea trying to do?
Surviving alone? that was bullshit, izaya had said so himself just a day ago, their chances were that much higher if they acted like a team- so what the hell did this mean? "You take the zombies down like the monster you are and I will just go my ways," the raven purred, only causing that crease on Shizuo´s forehead to grow even deeper.
"What the fuck are you talking about Izaya?" his voice was low, his expression stern a hint of anger was causing his fists to clench. He knew it, he knew deep down that the raven just wanted to provoke him- but why?
"The truth obviously," Izaya responded with a grin on his lips, dripping with mockery.
Why? Shizuo didn't get it.
He was confused, he was sad, he knew Izaya was acting like this because of what he had done but he didn't get the connection- just what was the flea trying to achieve?
Closing his eyes the blond tried to count to 5. Hoping to calm his nerves before he really ended up getting mad at the raven.
"Izaya," he spoke slowly, raising his head again, "stop the bullshit and-" but he didn't get to finish his sentence.
It was there. All of a sudden, he even saw it coming but he was simply too stunned to move.
Stinging, warm and wet he touched his cheek. Blood greeting him with it´s devious colour.
"You don't get it, do you?" the raven who had thrown the knife he supposedly had gone to recover sneered. "I don't need you anymore Shizu-chan," he spat, his eyes narrowing in hate. "I hate you now it would be great if you just went and died~!"
"Iza-" the name was stuck in his throat, because obviously the raven wasn't intending to listen to the blond even a second longer as he suddenly turned on his heels.
A smirk on his expression he rose one hand to wave and-
"See you~" jumped off the other end of the roof.
Shizuo had no fucking idea what was going on.
"IZAYA!" Rage, sudden rage was filling his mind. Not at the words, not at what the flea had said, but just this, the action, running away from him as though he was going to leave him behind like the stupid brute he was.
Leaving him without telling his real reason.
it pissed him off, it pissed him off so much, after all these days after everything they had went through- together!
He definitely wasn't going to let Izaya get away with nothing but lies after everything they had been through!
Almost threatening the steady sound of running steps hallowed through the city- steam blew, dust flea as the blond suddenly found himself in a situation so similar to their old chases it hurt.
A sign was torn up from the ground, the pavement destroyed, buildings crashed-
"IZAYA!" he could see him, the flea, he could see him up ahead, sometimes only his shadow sometimes the edge of his coat, but he knew he was there, and he wasn't going to lose him!
Adrenaline pumped through his veins, signs were thrown, signs that for once Shizuo didn't give a damn about whether they destroyed anything on their way.
The flea did nothing, he had no more blades, all he could do was run, run- the blond was getting closer, he was almost there-
Jumping up the wall of a house he found himself on the roof- and then he saw hi, full body up ahead and hey he wasn't as far away anymore than before.
"IZAYA!" again his voice hallowed and the raven almost seemed to jump at the loudness and the indication of just how near the blond was already at his heels.
"IZAYA STO-" abruptly, choking on his words the blond suddenly found himself unable to finish his words.
Because suddenly he was falling.
Falling down.
Crashing crumbling the roof of the building they had been running on broke down just beneath the blond´s feet-
It might have been the car he was carrying along, or maybe the roof was just too old- the regret was dashing through his head like lightning, but the dust and rubbish blinding his eyes and assaulting his lungs making him cough violently were quickly drawing his attention to them as his back hit the ground with a harsh thud.
Sunlight was gleaming down from the hole he had fallen through and he swiped across his face to get the dust out of his face.
It was dark, it was cool inside this house- and suddenly he heard it.
The groans.
Eyes snapping back open his sight was obstructed by blurriness but fuck he was able to make them out clear enough. A horde of them, covering in the dark suddenly standing up with something that almost sounded like pleased grunts.
His heart stopped, his body acted as fast as it could, pushing himself off the rubbish he backed away, but the creatures, they ran, screamed, jumped-
And suddenly there was light. So much light.
It was blinding the blond for a second as his back hit the wall he had backed off into.
Screaming, louder than before, this time of agonizing nature was reaching his ears and his heart thumped in his ears when he looked at the suffering danger in front of him.
Screaming, screeching the light was burning the zombies alive, barely a few centimeters away from his feet.
Chest heaving he glanced up at the sun that had saved his life- only to spot someone else.
Someone heaving, panting, standing at the edge of the hole that had suddenly gotten this much broader. His eyes were narrowed, a deep frown on his forehead, so untypical for the flea.
An unreadable expression was pictured on his face, sadness anger, frustration all mixed together in a cocktail of sadness that the blond couldn't decipher.
It only took the blond a second to count two and two together and make his eyes widen just a bit at the unexpected turn of events.
For a moment, a tiny moment he really thought the raven was just going to run on, he wouldn't even have been mad for that, after all the flea might not have noticed that he fell down into one of these dark pits filled with zombies, maybe he even saw but thought Shizuo could take care of it on his own- but just the fact that he had chosen to turn around and break off more of that ceiling to help the blond showed that what the flea had been saying earlier was nothing but a huge lie.
"Izaya, wait!" Shizuo called, and this time he thought he might get a chance to talk to the flea, panting and gasping for air as he was- but apparently that wasn't what the flea had in mind.
Straightening himself he turned on his heels- he was about to run off again- except this time luck seemed to be on Shizuo´s side.
With an ear numbing creak, the roof that was already nothing but a giant perforated piece of cheese, the rest of the ceiling came crashing down- a whelp escaped the raven´s lips as he fell together with the rubbish, down onto the creatures burying every single one of them beneath the stones.
Screaming was heard, the zombies screeching, burning- the flea was coughing now as well trying to get his sight back- but Shizuo wasn't going to lose his chance this time.
by the time the last of the creatures had died of the burning rays of the sun the blond was there grabbing the raven on both shoulders and shoved him to the ground.
Yelping the raven tried to worm his way out of the grip, but no chance- his head hitting the ground a bit harsh he squeezed his eyes shut in a momentary sting of pain.
"Stop running away god damnit!" Shizuo announced, frowning, yelling in a way when the flea opened his eyes again to glare at the blond.
"Tsk-" his shoulders were pinned but hell his legs weren't, kicking, wriggling he tried to shove the brute off him somehow, tried to get rid of the way too heavy weight on top of him-
"Let go you brute! Go die!" he was practically screaming if the blond had to use another word to describe the flea he would have almost said hysteric.
"You are really stupid you know that? You don't even get it when people deceive you the whole time!" the raven hissed, glared, still trying to get the blond off him, but it was no use, not with Shizuo.
"Deceive huh? As if," sure the flea might have been an asshole, sure he might have done shit like this in the pst, when everything was fine and there were no zombies running around, but not now. not like this.
"What you don't believe me?" Izaya questioned, sounding as though he was making fun of the blond for being so stupid, but Shizuo knew better than to catch that bait.
"Of course I don't!" he barked, causing the raven to flinch just for a moment at the loudness of his voice, "I don't know what the fuck you are planning but I sure as hell won't let you run off like this."
He really meant it.
No matter what the flea planned, it didn't even matter whether the flea was speaking the truth or not.
Even if he had been deceiving him for a certain amount of time, maybe even for half the trip, Shizuo didn't care.
Not after yesterday, not after everything they shared, after Izaya's birthday surprise for him, after talking about their siblings, after comforting each other like that and pushing on together through these times.
"Just tell me what's going on all of a sudden," the blond pleaded, no matter what the reason was he already knew he could forgive it, after everything the flea had done.
"Why?" Pausing for a moment the blond looked at the flea- or ather at his hand, because he had risen it, his wrist covering his eyes a he sighed the word deeply.
"Why can't you just let me go...?" he could see it, e frown right on his forehead only partly hidden like the flea wanted to.
"What?" the blond questioned, not getting what had changed- the flea suddenly seemed less hostile, if not to say not hostile at all.
His movements had slugged down and he had stopped moving.
"You are an asshole you know that? Go die, seriously-"
"Izaya-" the blond groaned, not knowing what else he was supposed to say.
"Why the hell can't you just go find someone else?!" the raven questioned, voice hard choked somewhat, "There are surely other people left you can get attached to! Maybe some of your friends survived! I bet Celty is still out there! Search for her!" he pleaded, and suddenly there was a choked sound resounding from underneath that hand that was blocking the blond´s sight.
A sound that really gave Shizuo´s heart a squeeze there.
"... are you crying?" A choked sob was the answer, Izaya's hand tightening into a fist as though he didn't want the blond to know.
"Shut up," he choked only confirming the blond´s suspicions. The raven´s shoulders were let go. One bracing itself against the dusty ground next to Izaya while the other took that wrist.
Encircled it. he could feel the pressure, strength Izaya ut into it to keep it in front of his face but against Shizuo he had no chance. Effortless he moved it aside, only to confirm his suspicion.
Izaya really was crying.
to be continued~
Heyo heyo cookies xD I took one day longer to update but heyyyy xDDD Awww stuff is gonna get so cute and bittersweet and omg- I didn't get to write the unexpected plot twist yet xD but next chapter hehehehe C:
That being said, next chappy will come out on 6th March~! xD Well then cookies see you there~ C; xD
Guest 2: yup Izaya and his drastic logic xD haha Shizu-chan is just such a sweet cookie, he just wanted to protect izaya, decided he could deal with anything as long as he was there at least- and then that xD whelp the reasons didn´t get revealed yet- mainly cuz I wrote too much on this chasing scene lmao xD but hey next chapter you will get Izaya´s reasons haha xD
Unknown: yes yes yes yes YEEESSS xDDDDD lmao cry mwahahah cry peeople~ xDDDD I´m a saddistic lil shit so yay~ xDDDD oh? You are so sure i wont let him die? C: xDDD yas double update *0* I managed to write it in time haha xD not as sad as i wanted it too yet, but heyyy i have one more feelsy chapter to go before I´m twisting this story up C:
Anon reader: muhahaah xD surprise~! as if the story would end so sweetly pffftttt I always make things complicated ehehhe xD this scene with the syringe was actually the reason i started this story xD It was the first idea I had and then i ahd to think of otehr shit around this so the scene would end up being as feelsy as it was lmao xD oh gosh that reminds me of a story I once read xD a highscool shizaya fic xD they were lovers but then shit happened and at the last chapter the author only wrote and ten years later- and then she basically connected the story with the ikebukuro chases and hatred and it was so feelsy omg xD so sad xD sobs