-๑-๑ ஜ ๑- Chapter 40: Hold me tight - -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
It was quite the interesting atmosphere that presented itself in front of the raven as he approached the fire. As if they were on a camping trip the small group had sat down around it, encircling the beautiful orange and red.
Instead of cheerful chattering only cold silence was greeting the raven though as he chose his own spot to sit in.
The smell of beans and something that might as well have been some kind of soup was filling his nostrils and he didn't even wait or stop to ask whether he was allowed to take some as he took one of the cups placed next to the food.
"Heh, doesn't even look half bad," he announced, that familiar grin everyone in the group new all too well on his lips again.
Namie was still glaring at him, making it a point to sit down as far away from the raven as she could- and her new best friend Vorona was right by her side sharing the same kind of hatred it seemed.
Izaya really did wonder how he got the blonde to show this much of a reaction.
She used to be anything but expressive after all from what he remembered in the past.
Same for the others- gaze travelling from one person to the other the raven made it a point to try and guess what had happened to them, what they had possibly seen during these two weeks of apocalypse.
Were they still the people that he used to know?
How far had they changed?
It was almost scary to think about how some of the people sitting here might as well have turned into psychotic bastards like Seiji had.
It made his body tense and his throat feel just a bit constricted.
They were inside a wall created by Celty and yet he wasn't entirely sure they were really safe.
If they found out about what he did to his wrist- he was certain they wouldn't hesitate a second to kill him.
Maybe Shinra would try to keep them from doing so, but honestly it was just a gamble.
"Ah, Shizuo, you can…" it was Kadota who had raised his voice. He had watched the blond that had gotten out of the tent shortly after Izaya and was probably about to offer to let him sit next to their group- or to put it simple, somewhere else than next to the flea.
Too bad that Shizuo was aiming for just that.
Letting himself slump down right next to the flea he felt the man tense up.
"Wow you still didn't get enough of me?" Izaya questioned aloud, a hint of sarcasm in his voice as he tried to muster a glare, or at least a convincing smirk- all while watching the blond´s hand from the corner of his eyes.
Almost imperceptibly he encircled the raven´s wrist hidden behind their backs as Shizu-chan apparently had made it a point to sit extra close to the raven.
The message was clear- Izaya's words and glance were asking just one question in Shizuo's eyes.
Why he was being so damn obvious when he had promised not to reveal their current relationship.
It seemed the blond was smarter than the raven had expected though as he shrugged with one of his angry glares-
"The hell I do, but someone's gotta watch your sorry ass and those dangerous knives you carry around," he grumbled and for a second the raven was really amazed at the level of Shizu-chan´s acting skills. "Keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer or something like that I guess," he shrugged, and a smirk drew across Izaya's lips.
"Heh- well if you say so," he chuckled, that hand well hidden as his palm squeezed the blond's softly.
"It´s a miracle you didn't kill him yet anyway," Kadota suddenly announced, and certainly considering their past it had to seem pretty weird to each of them.
"He proved to be useful in certain situations, " the raven shrugged making it seem like he used the blond only for his own benefit.
"Yeah and he isn't as stupid as I thought he was," Shizuo shrugged in return, doing his best to keep any show of affection from his expression. For all their friends knew they were enemies and if Izaya wanted them to believe so then Shizuo trusted he had good enough reasons for that.
"So, anyone else dead I don't know about?" it was Izaya who had asked the quite disturbing question.
An uncomfortable silence immediately ruled the space- only Shizu-chan seemed to be unaffected by Izaya's words.
"You really know how to start a conversation," Shinra sighed and for a moment he even looked somewhat sad.
"Simon is dead," he announced and half of the group deemed to be quite affected by it.
"How did he die?" Izaya questioned instantly drawing Namie's venomous glance to himself.
"Well what do you think, asshole?" she hissed, "He went to search for food and never came back."
… that still wasn't quite what Izaya wanted to know though.
"So you didn't see his corpse?" he asked further, knowing way too well just what Simon's corpse looked like. Shizuo had told him, saw his body shot by a gun, and yet that was not the information Izaya was craving for so badly.
"How about you? Saw anyone precious die yet?" Namie questioned, obviously getting pissed by the raven again already. Then again, no matter what Izaya said she would have gotten mad anyway probably.
"Hey now, let's calm down okay?" Shinra suggested and Izaya didn't need to be a genius to know he was trying to protect the raven. After all, he knew Mairu died from the virus way before all this.
"Yeah what about your sister? I heard she dropped dead in hospital before all this began," Namie suddenly said and the blond's grip on Izaya's hand tightened just a little bit.
"Hey-" he grumbled, like a dog, warning her with that gruff word.
"Indeed, what about it?" Vorona inquired anyway not scared by her senpai in the slightest. "You don't even care do you?" she spat further.
"I wouldn't be surprised if he killed the other," Namie suddenly snorted, that grin so malicious and satisfied as she certainly knee she had hit a soft spot.
"Can you shut the fuck up?" loud, maybe a bit too loud the blond barked causing the woman to flinch.
"What? It's not like this asshole had a heart," she shrugged, obviously not giving a flying fuck about what she said.
"Truth to be told I did stab my sister with a knife so there is that."
Silence.
It was Izaya who had spoken. But only Shizuo knew what had really happened.
He made it sound as though he were insane when the experience and action had torn him down like nothing Shizuo had ever seen him do before.
Grasping his hand tightly the blond kept his lips shut. He knew he couldn't say anything now, not without giving away how close they had gotten.
"You are such a fucking psychopath," Namie spat, and the others as well, they looked at the raven as though he was something needed to get rid of as he did nothing but grin in return.
"Says the woman with a brother complex~"
"Alright, that's enough for today!" Shinra suddenly announced loudly, cutting off the conversation right then and there. "I think we should sleep, I don't know about you two but I have been up for a long time," he continued, looking at everyone as though he was trying to get them to agree with him.
"That's the best suggestion I have heard so far, " Vorona agreed, pushing herself up harshly.
No more word was spoken. The raven couldn't help but keep that hrin on his face the whole time.
He had succeeded.
Pretty much every single one of them except for Shinra maybe should hate him now.
Wordlessly the group moved to the tents Celty created.
"Who has to share a tent with the asshole?" Namie questioned, and for a moment Shizuo wondered why the, even needed to share. But then he realized it.
For safety.
In case one of them got bitten and didn't realize, or something unexpected happened and they needed help.
"No one has to, I will do it," he announced quickly taking the spot with the flea.
"Please do kill him in his sleep if you feel like it," Namie said, and with that she disappeared into her tent, Vorona following close behind.
Sighing softly the raven did the same, walking into his own tent now.
"Well, that was smooth wasn't it?" he laughed, only to suddenly find an arm on his shoulder.
Faster than he knew what happened Shizuo had twisted him around and snatched his lips for a quick kiss before hugging him tight.
"Shizu-chan, what-" Izaya mumbled, slightly perplexed as he was hugged by the blond.
"I swear I wanted to kill that bitch for the things she said," Shizu-chan suddenly announced, his voice sounding so angry, so sad.
"Ah, bad Shizu-chan, that's not what you are supposed to do," the raven chuckled softly, but his own brows dipped into a frown as well as he hid his face in the blond's shoulder.
"Tch, the only thing I'm supposed to do is protect you and I can't even do that with your shitty rules," Shizu-chan complained, and somehow it made the raven smile.
Slowly, soft, he let his fingers travel through the blond's hair tips.
"No, you did well enough," he shook his head softly, "The excuse you came up with to sit next to me was good," and Izaya knew the blond knew the truth, and that was supporting him more than anything else.
No matter what he said he wasn't going to judge him for it.
He was trusting him. Izaya truly felt like everything was going to be alright as long as at least Shizu-chan was there and by his side.
"Izaya, I love you."
Surprised the raven blinked, not having seen the sudden confession coming at all.
"What-"
Before he knew it the blond had cupped his face softly and that all too well known caring and determined expression decorated the blond's face.
"Listen, anytime no matter when, if it gets too much, if you just want to get out of here, you say the word," Shizuo announced.
"What are you-"
"I'm just offering. I want you to know that we can leave anytime."
… Heh. Just like that? Was Shizu-chan really aware of what he was offering?
"... but Kadota and Shinra-" the raven started, thinking the blond had been relieved and happy to see them, but it seemed that didn't matter all too much.
"Survived pretty well on their own as you can see," the blond ended his sentence. "The school, the library," he added further, "Anytime you decide this is too much after all," Shizu-chan declared.
"... by this you mean.. this?" the raven questioned, a bitter smile crossing his expression as he glanced at his wrist.
That red dot was still sitting there laughing so evil and cruel.
"In the first line I'm talking about the hiding. Hiding this, hiding your true feelings, having to put on masks I know you do it all the time but I hate to see how it´s wearing you down," the blond mumbled quietly, his gaze turning soft.
Averting his eyes for just a moment the raven sighed.
"... is it so obvious?" he questioned. He had thought he had been better at hiding his feelings.
But then again it was Shizu-chan he was talking about. His instincts were beyond human.
"They brought up your sisters, the zombies, I´m not stupid," he said, leaning forward softly as he pressed a gentle kiss against the raven's forehead.
"So if it gets too much-"
"Anytime," the raven interrupted, "I got the message."
Shizu-chan was willing to do so much for him. The way he was holding him, showing his affection so natural and easy like this-
He paused for a second, "But anytime is not now," he announced, leaning up for a kiss.
He wanted to wait. Wait and see.
Because there was still a chance he was going to turn into one of the nightly creatures. And then he would count on Namie's hatred to kill him off before he could hurt Shizu-chan.
"I believe I still owe you a reply," he suddenly announced, remembering the blond's words still dearly.
But the blond shut him up with a kiss before the raven could even say as much as I.
Softly his lips moved against Izaya's and the raven relished in the feeling. The feeling of warmth that was spreading from inside out.
"No, I don't want to hear it now," the blond announced with a soft smile as he leaned back for a moment.
"Heh, unfair you said it too," Izaya complained, but he was still curious why.
"I know, just let me be selfish there," the blond chuckled, only confusing the blond even more.
"... how is that selfish?" Izaya questioned with a soft chuckle, those lips kissing him again just a second later.
The blond was all over him. First on his lips, then he trailed up to his eyelids, kissing them softly, eliciting a soft chuckle from the raven.
"What are you doing?" he questioned softly, the blond's lips now trailing up to his ear.
"Kissing you, isn't that obvious?" he whispered softly, blowing across it in a fashion that sent pleasant goosebumps down his spine.
"Shizu-chan I´m afraid this turns me on," the raven spoke softly in that low voice the blond loved so much.
"Good, that's what I was aiming for," he chuckled, and suddenly there was a tongue in his ear.
The raven shuddered slightly, a soft moan spilling from his lips.
"Pretty bold aren't we?" he questioned softly.
"Am I? I just want to make you feel good," the blond hummed, positioning his leg just right between the raven's thighs.
A soft groan escaped the raven's lips and his hands clutched onto the blond's shirt.
Taking a step further the blond pushed against the raven more- subsequently also into the pile of boxes though.
It was just a split second but the blond noticed the wince that travelled across the flea's face.
"It hurts."
It was a statement, not a question.
"Ah, no, it doesn't," the flea quickly lied, but geez- Shizuo had been stupid, Shinra had only just sewn the flea back together. Just moving had to hurt.
"It does," he sighed instead and pulled the flea down with him on one of two mattress created by Celty's shadows.
"We still have time tomorrow," he assured with a smile.
"If I'm still here then that-" but Izaya didn't even get to voice his fears as a palm covered his mouth swiftly.
"Tomorrow, " Shizuo repeated firmly, determined yet gentle.
And the raven let himself be swept up by it. Worrying wasn't going to help them.
And so the raven snuggled up to the blond, and before he knew it drifted into a peaceful sleep.
And Shizuo did nothing but watch. His flea. So fragile. Yet so strong.
Softly he let his finger tips brush across the raven's cheek.
So soft and warm.
Affectionate.
He couldn't protect Izaya from himself. But what he could do, was to protect him from every danger outside.
to be continued~
Hey hey peeps xD Lol I took an eternity to update- sorry for that cookies 3 things are getting sweeter and sweeter between the two hehe, maybe i should throw in something dangerous soon again~? C: Eheheh I'm one evil bitch alright xD Anyway, enjoy the peace and lovey dovey-ness as long as you can 3
The next update will come out, (Hopefully lol) on 21st April 2019 :3
See ya~!
Unknown: awwwww I hope everything is goodie again nwo :3 I was gone for a shitton of time after all x'D haha and hey this chapter was even more cute than the last one in my opinion xD but ohhhh~ I already have some drama in store for these two C: C: C
Guest 2: hehe Shizuo knows him way too well by now xD but hoenstly Izaya is relying on it, so- this Fotosynthesis they have going on here is becomeing more and more something I really love to write xD hahaha I can´t wait to spice things up tho xD I got so much drama lanned soon xD And also some funny as fuck chapters lol xD