Beast Boy and Terra's Songs Chapter 2: Why, a teen titans fanfic

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Everything you want, by: Vertical Horizon.

Why.

The sun shined down over Jump City Park. The green tree's in their best, birds sang and children played in the green grass. People dotted the landscape. Benches also sprayed over the park that was only a little ways off from the lake.

Though back in the trees sat a girl who didn't want part in any of the spring joy at the moment. Her head stayed toward over the school book on her lap. Her blonde hair shadowed her heart shaped face though she didn't bother trying to push it back this time. It acted as a shield.

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

She wasn't new to this city, though acted like it. Ha, in fact she knew this city better then most people... she had taken it over once... and also once protected it. But that was past, this was present. She refused her name, her old home, her old friends... and ever knowing one of her best friend. Her past was scared- clouded with horrible... unbearable memories.

Terra, calling herself Tara now glared at the math book on her lap. Her blue eyes trying to concentrate on the numbers. But this place brought back so many memories, dang it, why did she have to sit in this spot? She had used to sit with Beast Boy here, long time ago.

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

Beast Boy... Tara felt a lump in her throat at his memory. He had been everything she wasn't. He had been there for her so many times that she lost count. Without him Tara had no doubt that she wouldn't be alive. He had gave it all to her, his friendship trust... love... she had given it to him at one point. Her love... but now it didn't seem to be there anymore. She didn't have that feeling- like she was going to faint at his smile. He was a friend to her, and as much as she hated it... that's all he was.

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't
know why

One reason she ran, she didn't think she could bear telling him that. Telling Beast Boy things really did change... and not really in the good way. But another part of her, the Terra part that was still trying to live- still loved him. But she was so broken... so confused by all the past events she didn't know what to think. So went with Tara's thoughts and ran and allowed herself to fall out of love's grasp. Her past hurt, it was like an open wound getting worse everyday. But when she was Tara the wound seemed to heal... and Tara didn't love Beast Boy.

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

Tara glared down at her book as if it was to blame for her troubles. She sighed and glanced up at the park, picturing the Titans play some 'foo' ball. Though her thoughts would drift from thinking about the other Titans to just thinking about... Beast Boy.

Tara sighed heavily and closed her eyes as she thought back, trying to piece it all together.

"Hey Beast Boy?" Terra had chimed as they walked in the park.

"Yeah Terra?" Beast Boy turned his head to smile sweetly at her.

"Do you um..." Terra blushed and looked away. "You know have a crush on anyone?" she asked sheepishly.

Beast Boy covered his smile and shrugged, "I duno, maybe." he gave her a flirty look before dashing off. Terra laughed then ran after him.

Tara shook her head and looked around again, trying to keep her deep eyes from flooding. Why did things have to change? Why couldn't she summon up that feeling again?
Tara shook her head again- harder. Stop thinking that! She snapped to herself.

Tara truly didn't think she had that feeling anymore. Sometimes it would pop up, that heart melting feeling in her gut whenever she thought about Beast Boy. But it was fading... slowly growing less and less and soon would be no more. It scared her Terra part, scared her worst then anything, but her Tara part. Was glad because it meant she was learning to let go of her past.

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Tara stood up and started walking after slamming her book shut. She clutched it tightly to her chest as she started out of the park, thinking to herself. The day was pretty calm, for now. The sun beamed down on her golden locks and made them shine though her face stayed shadowed.

"That joke didn't even make sense!" Cyborg's voice came.

"It did to the people who have a sense of humor, unlike one team I can mention!" Beast Boy's voice snapped.

Tara gasped and looked around, she spotted the Titans a little ways off and out of instinct ran a little further ways off- though couldn't go any further as she stared sadly at Beast Boy.

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

He was so... cute... and sweet. Her face softened slightly, she was sure whatever the joke had been- she would have laughed even if she tried not to. He made her laugh and enjoy her life- unlike so many other people.

WHY! Terra cried out inside. Why can't we... why can't we have that feeling?

Tara made an attempt to swallow the lump in her throat, though it didn't work. He was just about everything she wasn't. Truthful, daring, brave, kind… loving. A reason she had liked him so much that past year, she why had been so fond of him. He didn't deserve her, he was too much.

Beast Boy stopped walking; having the feeling he was being watched he looked around as the other Titans walked on. His green eyes met Tara's... Tara's, not Terra. Beast Boy felt his own lump start to swell as his eyes softened into a sadden look. His mouth formed a thin line that cut threw his face and his whole head started to feel light headed.

"Terra..." he whispered.

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time

Tara shook her head to snap out of it and gave him a sadden look. "No..." she whispered softly before shaking her head then running off. Maybe some day she would have that feeling towards him again, maybe. But for now... it wasn't there.

Beast Boy clenched his teeth as he tried to get rid of the lump and watched the girl he once knew run off. He had thought she would be the one, and still prayed for it, but no matter what he did he couldn't seem to reach her that way. "It's never too late," he whispered to himself before catching up with the other Titans.

But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

OMG! you have NO idea how many times I argued with myself over if I should post this or not. Personally, I think it is my worst yet, but I will leave that up to my readers to deicide. I think it kinda goes against my loyal BBT-ness. But I like a drop of tragic like romance. So, as a warning, not all of these are going to have happy endings. Thank you for reading! And for my three reviews -huggles the reviews-

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