I do not own Teen Titans, or the song "What hurts the most"

By Rascall Flatts (or somthing like that, I think I spelled it wrong.)

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What Hurts the Most.

The day was starting to end at the sunny coastal Jump City. The sun sets where usually long, the sun took its time fading into the shimmering lake while the moon would slowly climb up into the beautiful night sky. Usually, this was all a perfect ending to a day, usually, it would cheer anyone up to watch.

This wasn't usually though, not for the green teenager who was stalking a dirt road with his head hung. Millions of confusing thoughts rushing through his young mind. Millions, yet, non made enough sense. Everything seemed mixed and matched, torn and sewn, thrown and tossed. Everything he thought would happen, didn't, and everything he thought wouldn't happen, did. Beast Boy's ear twitched at the slight sound of thunder, but he ignored it and leaned against a tree that over looked a over grown part of the lake. Terra... he missed her, more then anyone knew, more then he would admit to himself. When with his friends, the Titans, he acted himself, like Terra's rejection didn't hurt him any, like it was all fine. But it wasn't, this morning he had found wet spots on his pillow from crying.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

His mind drifted as the lake did on windy days. He had only spent a few weeks with her as herself, but felt so close to her. The blonde teenaged girl with the ocean blue eyes. That heart melting smile, the thought made him smile, a twisted and painful one at the memorie, but still.
Even after everything they went through, he loved her.

It only grew, and even after waiting a year for her, he still wanted her. What happened when she did become free, well, it was too painful for him to keep recalling. Beast Boy hit his head against the thick tree and closed his eyes, he had so many times to tell her how he felt, but never could. Now, he probably never would be able to.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Terra walked along a dirt road, taking little notice of those thundering clouds, threatening to pour out the water. Her arms held her sides. She wore her cut off jeans, and a long sleeved gray shirt since it was a Saturday. Her blonde hair swayed in the wind, but she was too wrapped up to notice.

Regret, anger, sorrow, loss, love.

She was feeling all those, and in a powerful way. She regretted turning Beast Boy down. She was angry at herself for becoming the spiteful creature she was. She was sad about losing her best friends over her mistakes. She missed her old life, she was missing out, and didn't believe she could go back. And she loved the green teenager she rejected in a cold shouldered way.

He can do so much better then me. I have to let him go. No matter how much I... Terra thought, hanging her head more as if trying to hide the salty tears that left her eyes and slid down her cheeks. It was her fault, that everything went horribly wrong, she knew that, but she wanted to just blame it on someone else, say it was their fault, that she was only the victim. But she couldn't.

In a way, she was punishing herself, for everything she had done. Not giving herself the pleasure of talking to the Titans, her friends, instead just watching them from a hiding spot- wishing she was there laughing with them. And the biggest punishment of all, avoiding Beast Boy.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder

It was hard, pretending to go on with life, like she was just a normal girl. Going to school every morning, giving small fake smiles when she wanted to cry. Laughing when she wanted to sob, everything was fake. "I wish I could take it back," she whispered to herself, making a whole new stream of tears start again.

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

"I could have told you so many times," Terra whispered, looking at the lake that started to dance in wave form due to the stormy winds that where blowing past. The rain droplets started out small, Terra didn't even notice till it was pouring down the rain hard and fast. As if even the weather was disgusted with her.

The blonde looked up, shielding her eyes before bolting to the shelter of a old tree a little ways away. She saw a shadowy figure, and as she came closer, saw who it was, she stopped dead in her tracks with a surprised face. "Beast Boy." She breathed out, making him open his eyes and look at her. He looked... depressed, alone, and she just couldn't describe it, but it made her want to wrap her arms around him for comfort.

What hurts the most
Is being so close

"Terra," He said quietly, almost as if he where expecting her to scream at him for something.

And having so much to say

"I-I Didn't know you would be here," Terra stuttered, taking a step back, even if it was raining harder.

Beast Boy smiled softly, "Small world after all." He lifted himself from the tree so he wasn't leaning on it anymore, though his arms stayed helplessly crossed.

"Yeah," Terra looked away at the rain that splashed into the lake with great force. "I should go, its raining pretty hard."

"No, Terra." Beast Boy took a step forward, it hurt when she took a step further back. "Stay, please?"

"No."

And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

"Why not?" Beast Boy begged. "Its raining pretty hard, and-"

"I have to go home. I can't stay." She said dully, keeping her eyes on the lake.

"Terra, please." Beast Boy begged again, "Just till the rain stops. Its getting dark anyway, I could take you home." Terra turned her head to look at him, her eyes looked hard and cold on her face that he almost looked away. "Can't we just talk?" Beast Boy sighed.

"About what?" She demanded. It was Beast Boy's turn to look away at the lake as his face went blank. "Us."

Terra shook her head so hard that her hair flew around her head. "Beast Boy, there is no us! Just let me go!"

"Why not!" He demanded, pleading almost.

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say

"Because... just because!" Terra looked down, closing her eyes as silent tears spilled down her face like the rain drops that where sliding off the leaves and bouncing off both their heads.

"Because why!"

Terra looked up at Beast Boy, her cheeks shined as she whispered. "Because, I love you." She drew back farther from him. "We can't..."

"Terra, don't go please!" Beast Boy took a hasty step forward, and Terra took one back just as fast so she stood in the pouring rain. "Why can't we! Why!"

"You can do so much better. I don't deserve this." She whispered again, backing up more and more. Her sneakers splashed in fresh mud, and rain soaked her to the bone, but she didn't care.

And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Beast Boy started to follow her, leaving the shade of the tree, "Don't leave me! Please, Terra, don't!" Terra didn't back up anymore, when Beast Boy was right up to her, she shook her head once more before reaching over and pressing her lips against his in a soft kiss. They stood there for a moment, Beast Boy finally got over his slight shock and wrapped his arms around Terra, and she did the same. The rain poured around and on them, both where soaked from head to toe. But neither was willing to ruin this one last moment for some rain. Beast Boy pressed harder, and Terra followed happily.

A loud crack of thunder made them both jump, Terra gave a heavy sigh, before leaning to his ear and whispering softly, "Goodbye." She then broke free from Beast Boy, and then turned and ran before Beast Boy could do anything but stare after her.

"I love you too," he whispered sadly.

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

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Sorry, I fineshed this a day or so ago, but I was having troubles getting it up. Hope it was worth the time. Heh, like I said, I like tragic romance, or at least writing them. -anime sweat drop-

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