Title:
Phoenix
Fandom: X-men Evolution
Characters: Rogue
POV, Rogue, Scott, Jean
Prompt: 5. Last
Word Count:
279
Rating: PG
Disclaimer:
I own nothing.
Author's Notes: 4th Season Spoilers, Future
Fic based off ending sequence from final episode. Character Death.
The last time I saw Jean, she was a supernova, a living flame, a phoenix. Only, only she's not really a phoenix. The mythological phoenix destroys itself and comes back and Jean, she's dead. She's gone. She's not coming back.
So really, being called the Phoenix is a misnomer, but I wish it weren't.
Jean was perfect and for being perfect she was imperfect. Sometimes I hated Jean. Sometimes I understood her.
I regret originally purging her memories when I purged everyone else. If I had known, I never would have. At the very least it would stop Scott from asking me, every other available minute, if I remembered anything from that time, if I had any scrap, any morsel to give him, so that he could be close to her again.
I wanted Scott for a long time, hell if I'm honest with myself I still do, but not as a pale imitation of Jean, not as a receptacle for her memories. Not as a living ghost.
I touched Jean Grey once, a long time ago. I touched her, because I was the only one that could control her, that could give her the bliss of temporary respite when she lit up, lashed out. When she ran full of power she couldn't control. I took her, all of her into myself and I kept her there, quiet, calm, comfortable.
But no matter how much I can absorb I couldn't contain the phoenix. I couldn't save Jean Grey even as a ghost memory, an image in my own brain. She was so powerful at the end that her own memories burned themselves out of my psyche when she died.