Nearly a year has passed.
And Sesshomaru discreetly watches Rin from afar. She was no longer attached to him and seemed to have moved on.
She was happy… happy without him.
That smile.
He knew every curve… her eyes would glisten only at him… when she was happy… with him.
He made that smile that could brighten an entire room fade.
He made her feel sorrowful and her smile soon faded to a frown with tears constantly flowing down her eyes.
He should have listened to his father. However, he was too late. Their thread of fate was now severed. The memories they shared burned deep within his memory.
He hoped this man will keep her happy and always keep that smile on her face.
Sesshomaru turns away from the couple. He would keep his distance…. from her. Let Rin live the life she deserved… without disturbance… without him.
He returns to his father's estate. He was relieved to see him. He needed to know his next steps to fix the damage he created from being a simpleton.
"Father, what do I need to do?"
Toga shook his head and sighed with an expression of sadness for his son. "Okay, son." He presses a button in his study and the wall opened. There was a stand and placed on it looked like an ancient book.
Using his demonic energy, Toga waves over the book, and it opens. Sesshomaru stood beside his father and watched the pages flip until they stopped.
"Son, give the page a drop of your blood. You will do this part on your own. Let me leave the room first." Toga takes his leave.
Sesshomaru stared down at the page that read, "sacrificium tabu." There was no way he turning his back on this. It was Rin he was doing this for. He was a fool. He had way too much pride. That pride made him lose a precious gem.
He runs his claw over his palm, piercing the skin. He makes a fist and droplets of his blood hit the ancient page.
He waits…
Suddenly, a bright light fills the room. Once the light dimmed, a silhouette of a woman appears in front of him. The woman that was translucent was now a figure with a white cloth barely covering the curves of her body.
Sesshomaru's eyes widened, "Rin." The woman turned in his direction and smiled. "I am not this woman Rin, you speak of. You desire her so much you have chosen me to look like her."
This was torture. The figure before him looked just like his Rin, even down to her scent. His own mind created a figment of Rin and her body… those curves. She was damn near naked in front of him. He hadn't been in his Rin's presence in nearly a year. But he knew he couldn't betray Rin more than he already had. He would not fall victim to his inner desires because he was missing his mate.
Shadow Rin claps her hands. "No salacious thoughts! You wouldn't get away with that with me." As if she was enjoying his look of desire, she walks up to him, swaying her hips. She pulls his face close to hers. "I am nowhere compared to your Rin. I would kill you." The woman with force pushed him away. She cackles, "Pathetic."
Shadow Rin snaps her fingers and a scene very familiar to Sesshomaru appears in front of him. He glanced over at shadow Rin and grunted. This will be embarrassing.
It was the first time Sesshomaru abandoned Rin. He watched himself kiss and fuck Rin all over that damn suite. He remembers that confession as if it was yesterday. "I love you." He remembers his exact thoughts at the moment and grunts.
Fake Rin laughs, "Oh, are you upset?" Sesshomaru growls at shadow Rin. That only makes her laugh more. "Look at you… sneaking out like that after Rin made a powerful confession to you… disgraceful."
Shadow Rin walks around Sesshomaru and then points to the scene before him. "You will see every time you hurt your mate."
His stomach clenched at the thought of what Rin felt during those times. It was torturous for him, defying his youkai, but he was able to resist just enough to get by until he was ready for her sex again.
Rin didn't have the same patience as him. She was human. She wore her feelings and emotions on her sleeve. Therefore, making her suffer, making her spirit break each time.
He watched as Rin woke up the next morning and read that damned text he sent.
She broke down, crying hysterically, trying to get a hold of him. He remembers how he ignored her. Even when his father tried to knock some sense into him… even while he was in obvious distress, he still resisted.
"Sesshomaru, don't do this! Is it because I said I love you? I take it back. Just don't leave me!"
Sesshomaru growls, his hands clenching. His claws slightly pierced his skin.
The doorbell rings. It was security trying to escort Rin off the premises. How embarrassing this had to be for her. She was naked, wrapped up in a sheet, and being told she had to leave quietly or be thrown out.
"I've seen enough."
Rin's shadow motions her finger. "No. You haven't seen enough. This is your karma." She points, and it showed Rin at home. Another scene. She called in from work. There were tissues on her bed and on the floor. She looked as if she hadn't had a proper meal in days. He watched as she took a Tylenol PM to help her fall asleep.
Shadow Rin snaps her fingers again, and they were at another scene.
Rin had just arrived home when she sees Sesshomaru at her front door. He remembered all the lies he told her just to get back in her pants.
She was still willing to forgive him and he could have taken advantage of this and made her truly his, but… this dog demon is a damn dummy. He knew she would let him in if he used the right words. He could see how she tried to resist…. But she loved him. Therefore, she let him back in.
He ruins the moment when he brings up purchasing a Plan B. He didn't care to see it then, but there was disappointment across Rin's face.
Did she want me to breed her? Have a pup… my pup?
Every scene tore into Sesshomaru's soul.
"This next one is the most painful." Shadow Rin had such sadness in her eyes. "This is where you took it too far."
Sesshomaru felt as if he was losing his breath as the scene before him showed him at his true lowest and how much of a vile being he became at this moment. It enraged him to see Rin entertain another male. His jealousy got the best of him. He took advantage of Rin and forced himself inside her again. He thought about teaching her a lesson by being a little aggressive so she wouldn't think about anyone but him.
He now saw evidently… Rin was in pain… she was terrified of him. So, she let him do whatever with her body just so he could stop. He forced her body to succumb to his ministrations.
He thought he would give her a couple of days to cool off when he heard her say how much she hated him from outside the door.
This behavior of his got worse as he continued to deny her as his mate and not satisfy the mating ritual. It was simple, but he rejected what he felt for her…. He loved her with his whole being. He knew when he first laid eyes on her, but instead, he played this game.
Now he is left alone.
They were now at the very last scene where Sesshomaru yet again forces himself into Rin's home. She was numb at this point and didn't know how to get rid of him.
He was harassing her at this point.
Sesshomaru was beyond disgusted with himself. He punches the ground hard, breaking his hand. He growls and begins to turn. He remembered every single moment of their encounters. Those last two… shook him. He damaged Rin.. she deserved to be with someone who loves her properly.
No disappointments…
He had the chance but blew it. How could he beg for her forgiveness? She had been through this rollercoaster because of him. He couldn't figure out what he wanted.
Now she had the strength to leave and never look back.
"Relax," says Rin's shadow. "This will be a tough decision now that you have seen what you put your mate through."
Sesshomaru calms his demonic energy. He pants heavily. "What does that mean?"
"Now for your punishment." Shadow Rin circles the pathetic demon. "You will watch Rin's entire lifetime with another. She will have her memories erased so she would never have a memory of you. This will ensure she will enjoy her life with her new, fated mate. For 500 hundred years, I punish you in a time loop of Rin's most joyous and intimate moments in her life with her husband. You will not be able to interrupt her new life as it is meant."
She rolls her eyes. "You have already interrupted the universe by rejecting her and summoning me." She folds her arms and sits on her haunches in front of Sesshomaru. "The second part to this is you will never know when she will be reborn."
"What!"
Shadow Rin's face change into something demonic. "You dare raise your voice to me? The one who can decide if your mate may or may not return to you?"
Sesshomaru could not say a word. All of this was his fault.
"Find her on your own once the 500 years are up. She points to Sesshomaru. "Take responsibility for your actions." She cocks her head to the side and smiles. "You thought this would be some simple task?" She shook her head. "The universe does not work that way. You were warned, and you ignored it…now you will suffer the consequences and maybe one day she will return to you."
Sesshomaru hated the way this Rin spoke to him and treated him. She looked exactly like his Rin with her perfect smile.
Shadow Rin cackles. "I hope you find her. You seem so desperate now. Good luck with that journey. She may or may not be reborn 500 years from now, but I wish you luck."
He would live with only memories of Rin being his for a moment. He reached into his pocket and it was the necklace he had commissioned that he never gave to her.
Damn it! How could I be so wrong ?
Shadow Rin returns to her normal state. "It is time!" A blue aura emanates from her. She cackles, "Give this demon his new fate… make him pay for his damning mistakes… this is his karma." She raises her hands above her and that aura goes into the sky.
There was a sudden shake in the earth but nothing too damaging, but it knocked the wind out of Sesshomaru.
When he awoke, darkness surrounded him. He stood to his feet and walked every which way, but he could not find light. He wondered, would he forever be in darkness.
A/N: Sorry for taking so long. And I hope that this chapter put your mind at ease about the mess Sesshomaru created. He brought it upon himself.