Her Diary

by Mrs. Marauder

She's a witch and times are changing. Everywhere you turn there is death and destruction, but not in her life. Some people say she is on the bad side, or the wrong side, but she knows, she is on the only side she can be on.

6. July 7, 1974

Dearest Diary

July 7, 1974

Well today is the day. I am so nervous right now. I am sitting a chamber in the Malfoy Manor. My new home as of today. As soon as I apparated from home mother sent my stuff over to the manor. The wedding is in an hour. The chamber I am in overlooks the grounds, which includes the back garden were the ceremony will take place. Mother was in here for awhile talking to me. She said she had already been in to see my dearest Lucius. She said that he said to tell me that he loves me. So now dearest diary I have this chamber all to myself for the final hour that I will be Narcissa Black. It seems that I have had no alone time in the past year and a half. I'm either talking to the caterer or going to dress fittings, or talking to the florist, as well as spending any of my spare time with Lucius. I am hoping that a of tomorrow my life will slow down, but I highly doubt it will. You see dearest diary, Lucius says we need a son. He said that the Dark Lord wants someone to take Lucius' place when he is gone and who better but Lucius' son. I so dearly want a child, I would love to have a baby girl, but I would love the child all the same if it was a boy, but I don't think I could live with myself if I subjected a child to everything that is happening in this time and age. Especially if it was a boy because the Dark Lord will most certainty want him to be come a Death Eater. So I guess I will put off having a child as long as I can. I will become a Death Eater myself. It's not that I have a problem with being a Death Eater, which I don't but I just can't but my child in that sort of danger. There is only 45 minutes until the ceremony, and I fell like the muggle, the second wife of the muggle king, King Henry VII, when she was sitting in the Tower of London, waiting to be executed. But I don't felling like I'm going to my death, I just mean the waiting and being so, so nervous part, as well as the part about basically being locked in a room and looking down from a window on the world below. I am looking out the window now and I can see all my relatives as well as Lucius' relatives, and friends and the Death Eaters. Of course no one will a problem with the Death Eaters being present because pretty much all of the except my cousin Sirius Black and my sister Andromeda believe in the Dark Lords ways. So now I can see my mother and Mrs. Malfoy running around making sure everything is perfect. Soon my Dad will walk in here and lead me down the aisle to Lucius. The wedding party is huge. I have one maid of honor and six, yes six bridesmaids. Lucius also has 7 of his friends standing beside him, including my cousin Regulas, brother of Sirius, but completely opposite of him, you see Regulas is the perfect example of a Black. He is in Slytherin and wants to become a Death Eater, and he hates mudbloods. I also have a flower girl and Lucius has a ring bearer. 20 minutes and counting until the ceremony. I am so bloody nervous. I fell like I am going to be sick. I don't know how I will be able to stand when my father comes to get me, let alone walk down the aisle. There are 500 people out there, 500 bloody people, and I don't even know half of them. What if I mess up, what if I forget my personal vows and what if Lucius changes his mind and abandons me? 10 minutes left. My dad says he will come 5 minutes before the ceremony. My mom has already had her 'talk' with me. One last look outside and I see everyone is sitting down and the minister is up at the alter. Oh god, breath, just breath Narcissa, I can't believe it, I'm hyperventilating. Oh no my dad's knocking now and he is walking in. Oh god I can't do this, I can't I have to go now. Deep breath, just breath, you'll be fine, you don't want to faint out there. How embarrassing. For the very last time….

Narcissa Black

a/n so why haven't you guys been reviewing? I would really appreciate it if you did. Thanks. Well since this is the last time she is Narcissa Black this diary is done. Her childhood is gone. So I will right a sequel which basically is her life after the marriage. So please review and thanks. I would like everyone that reads this to review. I allow anonymous reviews so you can review even if you don't have an account, so please do. Thanks