Testing Times
Chapter Six
The Blessing
The atmosphere was so thick that it could be cut with a knife; neither knew what to say or whether they should say anything at all. Smithy became fixated with the road in front of him while Kerry hung her head out of the window as she tried to control her sickness.
"Do you think that there could be a chance between us again?" He asked, looking at her slightly although keeping his eye firmly on the route ahead. Before answering Kerry paused and swallowed slightly,
"I don't know Smithy what if a couple of years down the line were both unhappy because one of us is living the life we don't want" She said, still looking out of the window only turning around to face him at the last minute.
It seemed to be a quiet day so Smithy took advantage of that and pulled over in the closest lay by.
"I've been thinking a lot lately since you left and I really don't want to lose you Kerry, I mean if we were to have kids they would be ours no one else's you can't help but love them." He said more optimistic than he had been for a while.
This was an improvement on Smithy's feelings towards their future but Kerry couldn't help but feel a slight uncertainty about it.
"What if we did go through with it and you found it hard to bond with the baby I really would be left holding the baby then wouldn't I" subconsciously she let her hand fall to her stomach.
Smithy glanced over and saw this, he didn't no what to say; was she pregnant or was it just a coincidence. Kerry was staring at Smithy trying to work out why he happened to be focusing in on her, and then it clicked.
"Are you pregnant" he finally said, more convinced than before. This was due to the expression on her face.
"Erm… yeah" She replied, at this point she noticed the distinct smile across Smithy's face.
They both had began to forget what happiness felt like but Smithy felt proud; proud that he was about to father a child but proud that the recent events had made him realise he was in no way like his father. He placed his hand on her stomach and felt for his baby under the various layers of police uniform. His reaction convinced Kerry to go with her heart and she shed tears although they were happy tears.
She leant closer and rested her head on his shoulder, could this be the happiness they both dearly wanted?
The next daySmithy smiled as he walked past Kerry on custody, she had been apprehensive at first about telling Gina about the baby but after her last pregnancy it was for the best. Tony and June came through the backdoor to custody armed with a suspect and walked over to Kerry on custody. The suspect appeared restless and was quite hard to get details from, it was obvious that he had been taking some drugs but they were unsure what.
"Have you taken anything in the last twenty-four hours sir?" Tony asked while restraining him.
"Why do I have to tell you, you stupid bastard?" He said attempting to wriggle out of the two restraints.
Looking at June Kerry walked from behind the custody to be at the same level as Tony, June and the suspect.
"I'll go and get someone from the FME to check him over" She said slightly nervous about being this close to someone so wired up.
"Wouldn't mind checking you over" he said leaning towards her as he went to grope her.
Repulsed by this Kerry pushed him away but this only angered him further, feeling rejected he pushed her with the greatest force he could towards the fascia of the custody suite.
She lay there as if she was looking out on the scene, Tony and June now had assistance and the suspect was being directed towards the cells. Her body was wracked with pain, but the source concentrated at the lower part of her stomach.
Smithy rushed into the custody suite when he heard the commotion and saw a rather distressed Kerry crouched on the floor. They exchanged glances and tears rolled down her face,
"He hit my stomach," she cried.
Smithy rubbed his hand over his face then helped her from the floor. With a little help he got her into his car and drove her to St Hughes, throughout the hospital he held her hand, which she held even tighter.
Upon arriving on a side ward she was given attention to by a midwife, she had never been more scared about the future before and it showed. Stroking her hand he stared at her, hoping to take the attention away from what was happening.
She tried to curl up in a ball to blot out the pain but it didn't help, her eyes looked helpless as she looked back at Smithy.
"I'm so sorry Smithy," she cried while coming to terms with the fact that she was losing this baby.
"It aint' your fault" he said while brushing his hand slowly down her face.
He knew it wasn't her fault, he knew exactly whose it was and was intent on hurting him the way he had hurt him and Kerry.
The abdominal pains were calming now and it was evident that the miscarriage was coming to an end, she felt numb when she realised that she was no longer carrying her baby and the nurse started to clear away.
He cupped his hands around her chin as he stared into her tear stained but still beautiful face. Neither of them said anything, instead they just sat there hand in hand exchanging words with their faces.
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This is the last chapter but one of this fic but i am planning a sequel! please R+R its taking yonks to write this xxx