She took a deep breath, her eyes boring into mine. "Okay I'll play. Give me a lot wet!" She giggled and I felt myself wanting rock her world after that statement. I reached out for her, pulled her into my arms and lifted my feet so I could float as the current took us the few feet down the river.

"Hold onto me," I instructed. She was already squealing from the cold water as her head was against my throat.

"Always," I heard her breathe.

I held my hand just lightly over her mouth as we fell down into the cave and under the water at the bottom knowing she might scream. I didn't want to attract any attention of the cons still on the island with us.

And scream she did, all the way down as we fell, with her clutching me so tight around my neck.

We surfaced at the bottom, and I held her tight in my arms, floating us in the water and was eager to see what she thought of my surprise.

Sara looked up at the roof of the cave to see the stars and moonlight shining in from the hole where the water cascaded down beside us. I watched her eyes roam the dark cavern with wonder.

"This is so amazing Roman. I have never seen anything so beautiful," she said, her eyes sparkling.

I kissed her chastely on the lips and pulled back to gaze in her eyes. "Neither have I Baby." She blushed again as she caught that I meant her and not the cave. We just floated there as I watched her eyes darted all over.

The rest of the roof of the hidden cavern was sparkling with shiny stalactites that hung down over our heads, making the ceiling look like it glittered with stars. The waterfall poured down into the pool we were floating in as a beam of light shone through the water as the only light in the darkness around us.

It looked magical. That was truly the only word I could use to describe it.

I could see a smooth ledge along the edges of the pool of water. It didn't look like the pool filled up more and more, flooding the ledges. There must be an area where the water drained out somewhere down below to keep it at relatively the same level.

I swam us over to the side and lifted her up and out of the water before I pulled myself out to sit beside her, dragging the bag up and out of the water too.

Sara leaned over me without a word, grabbed the back of my neck and pulled my lips down on hers, kissing me deeply.

I lifted my hands to her face, lightly caressing her cheeks as I sucked her bottom lip in my mouth. I tangled my tongue with hers, just enjoying the taste of her till we both needed to pull back to take a breath. "Care for more of a swim my Beauty?" I whispered, licking the shell of her ear as I felt her shiver in my arms.

I was tired sure, but it felt like just being around her even though it was the middle of the night, I felt more awake than I had been in ages. I felt young again, just asking her to play in the water with me like we were teenagers.

She smiled up at me with those beautiful brown eyes of hers. "I would love too. But this jacket feels like it weighs a ton, pulling me down in the water." My eyes bulged at that as I saw her cute little frown at her discomfort.

"May I?" I moved my fingers to the zipper as I saw her head nodding slowly as her eyes were locked on mine. I slowly inched the zipper down, not taking my eyes off hers. Once it was open, I looked down to see her skin just glistening in the dim light.

I had forgotten that I had taken her tank top off her up in the tree to warm her up when she was shivering so much as the rain poured down on us. Then later I tucked her into the warmth of Randy's jacket only now realizing that she never put her shirt back on.

I gulped as my eyes roamed over her chest, her white satin bra wet and sticking to her skin exposing the shape of her hardening nipples beneath the fabric. "God Sara, you are so beautiful," I groaned as I pulled gently on the leather and tugged it down off her shoulders, pulling her arms out to let it fall to the stone floor.

My beautiful girl blushed right away. I saw her looking so nervous and insecure despite her adorable confidence kissing me just minutes before. It looked like she didn't fully know what she wanted or how to feel. I wanted her to feel safe and know anything she was feeling was okay right now.

Stroking a lock of hair back from her cheek I pulled her chin back up to find her eyes again and softly smiled at her. "I mean it. In the shower it was so dark, and we could barely see each other at all. Here, the moonlight is so bright and sparkling like stars on the ceiling of the cave baby. I am seeing you for the first time like this and I feel my heart racing in my chest," I watched her smiling and blushing so bashfully in front of me. It was fricking adorable.

I sucked in a breath just aching to taste more of her skin, but she looked focused on me and sat up more and onto her knees. "Thank you Roman. It feels amazing to hear that. Really. Are you cold in that wet shirt? Can I help you get more undressed too?"

Ooh and there was that sexy confidence back again. She sounded all cute and seductive and I was loving every damn second of it. It felt like she was finally not scared or anything and feeling relaxed and looked playful even.

Hell yes, I wanted my shirt off. I nodded to her numbly, words completely escaping me at that moment.

I watched her moved her hands to press them against my chest as she slowly unbuttoned the buttons one at a time till she pulled the soaking wet shirt back off my chest, before tugging it down my shoulders, off my arms and tossed it aside. She sat more forward pulling her body onto my lap as my legs just hung down into the water and I felt her fingertips moving over my muscles.

Her head bent down and a whimper escaped my throat as her lips fell to suck on the skin of my neck and I shook my hair back behind my shoulders.

Oh fuck, her body moving against me felt so good.

My hands moved to rub up and down her back as I shook my head back, giving her more access to my throat, feeling my hair tumbling down my back. I felt her mouth lower on my chest before she ran her tongue over my one nipple as her fingers grazed over my skin, sending electricity zipping through me. I pulled her down more into my lap and heard her soft cry as my hands started tangling in her long, wet hair as her tongue traced down my chest.

She was watching me, and I moved a palm to stroke it down her cheek, fighting with myself to keep my own eyes open as I watched her tongue lick and suck a path down my chest as she wiggled her hips on my lap.

"God baby," I whimpered, wanting to say more, to express the myriad of feelings flooding my heart right then as her eyes glistened in the moonlight. More words did not find their way past my lips though as I felt her move back up and suck deeply on the hollow between my neck and shoulder. Ah, that felt like my favorite place for her to kiss me, it felt so good.

I heard a breath catch in her throat as she gently pushed me back further and my head fell back again, as I needed to brace myself on my arms behind me to not fall over as she buried her head against my neck. Her lips and tongue licked at each new piece of skin she passed as she kissed across to my one shoulder and back to my throat.

This was me letting her lead, giving her full control of my body in whatever way she wanted me. I even kept my hands off her now just to see what she would do, what she wanted. She dipped lower, tracing each dip and groove she found with her tongue, careful to avoid any bruises. I saw her slowly kiss around those and lick and suck on the sides and down my stomach as she shifted lower again, exploring me like I had been with her weeks ago.

Back in the shower I was the one seeking the pain relief like a man starved and nearly dying needing it so much and she was only too happy to offer it. Then I was pushing her against the wall, capturing her lips, drowning in her closeness and kisses and exploring all of her with such hunger and maybe even fear that it would never happen again.

But here, now I wanted to show her we were safe and hidden away and I was all hers and no one could hurt her. That we could take our time and enjoy each other, and she could see me. I was offering her anything she wanted. Anything to sooth all the fear I had seen in her the last few hours.

I had no idea what she had all wanted or how far she wanted to take things. I was beyond rock hard underneath her and I knew she could have felt it. Back in the staff room that night she had wanted to please me, and I had stopped her, saying that night was all about her. Now I wondered so much what she was thinking...

Groaning and nuzzling her head to my chest, she licked and sucked a path back up the middle of my body to my neck. I dipped my head slightly and found her eyes again and locked her in a heated stare. "Sara, baby, are you? Are we okay?" I rasped and she looked equally intense back in my eyes.

Her lips parted and I was so eager to know what to do or so say or if we were okay. She had been through so much.

"Umm, did you still want to swim?' she asked me. I wasn't sure if that was a total avoidance of her feelings or not. I nodded slowly and she reached out for me to lift her with me. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her down and into the water, the waves lapping up and down on our bodies.

Sara's eyes looked darker in the faint light shining down from the sky as I saw her moving under the water and struggling with something. The next second she pulled her ripped skirt out of the water and tossed it with our shirts on the ledge.

My mouth just hung open as I saw her eyebrows wiggle at me. "Still too many clothes Reigns? Or are you good?" I found myself barely able to understand what she just said knowing she was floating beside me in just her underwear and bra now and I fought with my brain to repeat it in my head.

I started unbuttoning my jeans and she moved in closer to me all brave and cute. Suddenly it wasn't just my hands there and I choked on the breath in my lungs as she slowly helped me pull them down my legs.

Goodness, this woman had fire. I realized now that she had undressed me before in the plane with much more trepidation. This time she looked like a goddess just taking what she wanted and not a shy scared human.

I pulled my jeans the rest of the way off and tossed them on the ledge too, along with my soaking wet socks and boots and she did the same with her ankle boots.

I felt her arms twine around my neck and slip down my bare back. I turned back to her, just letting us float in the water as she wrapped her legs around me. My hands snaked down her sides to palm her butt, holding her up in the water.

"God baby, you feel so good," I breathed as my mouth sunk down to her throat and I sucked her salty skin into my mouth as she threw her head back, her hair falling in wet strands down her nearly naked back.

I could feel her heart pounding rapidly against my own chest as we floated in the underground pool, as the light reflecting from the sky made the ceiling just sparkle like thousands of stars above us.

It wasn't as deep as I thought, and I could actually touch the bottom near the outer ledges. So I cradled her body against mine as I walked us around the sides, till we were almost under the water falling down into the cave.

I didn't feel cold at all with the warmth of our skin pressed together at every curve of our bodies. She felt perfect in my arms, like she never belonged anywhere else in the world.

Her eyes were shining as she looked up at me. I smiled at her, as I walked us under the falling water. The gasp as she buckled her hips at the sensation as the water poured down on her made me so hard in nothing but my tight white boxers.

"Roman, ahh so good," she mumbled as she shook her head and the water cascaded down every line on her angelic face. The moonlight shone down right on her as her head fell back, soaking her hair in the water. She lifted her head, her hair heavy with water falling down her body as she gazed deeply in my eyes.

"I can't believe I found you," she breathed out, her smile so wide. I pressed her back against the rock wall behind the wall of water, as it pounded down against my skin of my back. I kissed along the side of her neck as she tangled her fingers in my hair, slicking it back from my face.

"I know, I can't believe it either." I gasped out. "It's real, Sara. You and me...it's real."

I slid my hands up her arms to wind her fingers in mine as she held onto me with her legs under the water. Our fingers laced together beside our heads as the water lifted us up and down in its waves as I pressed closer to her and crashed my lips to hers.

I could stay in here forever in her arms, feeling her against me, tasting her skin and her kisses, my body wrapped around hers as the night sky twinkled above us.

If this was a dream...I never wanted to wake up.

Sara's POV

His warm mouth on mine felt incredible as I felt his hands pull my body in closer to his. Roman was so close that I could barely feel any water slipping between us as it poured down onto our heads, soaking us more as I buried my fingers in his long, wet, dark hair.

"Roman," I breathed when our lips broke apart so I could take in a shuddering breath. His eyes were mesmerizing and locked on mine as we floated in the water. I was trembling from head to toe with anticipation. But also with fear...

I had never been this close to anyone, not even Daniel. I told him I wanted to wait till we were married, and he respected my wishes. What I really felt was that I needed that spark between us to even feel like I wanted more with him; to make love to him. But I didn't feel that rush, that passion between us and I knew he wasn't the one.

Now...with Roman, feeling his hands all over me, his chest pressed so tight to mine, his soft warm breath against my face, I was overcome with that rush of all consuming feelings that I had never had with Daniel.

I wanted to be closer to Roman, I wanted to feel every part of him and have his hands and his lips all over me more. I wanted him to make love to me tonight and I was sure that was what he wanted too...but I was scared. Scared to lose him again. That was one reason.

The other was that I had not told him I was a virgin, just that I wasn't ready for everything before back at the prison that night. I knew I needed to tell him, that he deserved to know.

I had been so take charge and confident, pulling his lips to mine, straddling him, taking off my clothes here. Then without missing a beat I was reaching for his and despite my hands shaking, stripping him down like I was taking what I wanted. That he was mine.

He was mine. We belonged together and madly loved each other. But I was terrified of losing him again. Of losing the only person I had left in my life when everyone else was already gone. I needed to share all that with him. I knew I did, like he had shared so much with me about him being CIA and how he had gotten here.

I saw him staring at me as my mind was miles away, playing over all the different ways this could go and I realized he had caught me in my indecision. I opened my mouth as I smiled at him and pulled his head back to mine, but he stiffened, and his hands came up to my face as I saw his eyes were wide and curious at me.

"Baby, we can stop..." he mumbled as his hand brushed a wet strand of hair from my face. I closed my eyes leaning into his gentle touch. I shook my head, my eyes opening again to stare into the deep gray depths of his own.

"No Roman. I want this. I love you," I said, trying to sound sure of myself. But he was not buying it even when I thrust my hips into his under the water, feeling how much he wanted me too.

My beautiful man smiled at me, as the water dripped down his face. "And I love you too Beauty. More than anything," he said confidently. "But I can see in your eyes that something is wrong Sara."

He caressed my cheek, twining his finger around a lock of my wet hair. "Please tell me." His expression in that moment was so unguarded and so innocent as he waited for me to respond.

We were still floating in the water and when I didn't answer he started walking us back to the ledge where it was low enough to get back out of the water. When I realized that this moment was over, I started shaking my head again at him, pulling his face so his eyes met mine.

"Roman, I'm fine. I'm amazing." I kissed him hard and deep, mumbling between kisses. "This is perfect, being here with you." More kisses. "Don't stop, please. Just kiss me," I gasped out, throwing my head back and looking up at the sparking rocks on the roof of the cave in awe.

I felt his lips then on the hollow of my throat and my hand went around to hold his head to me as I felt him licking and sucking on my skin.

Maybe he did believe me.

My eyes fell closed as his arms slid down my sides to rest on my bare hips to massage my skin under the water as his tongue lapped at my pulse point.

"Fuck, baby. You taste so good," he whimpered against my throat, and I felt my heart skip a beat at the rawness of his velvety voice as he sucked my skin into his mouth and my head fell back more against the rock wall he had me pressed against. "Just kissing you like this, feels like heaven. You feel so perfect."

I moaned as his lips sucked further down my chest between my breasts and my heart was racing in excitement. His hands slowly brushed my bra straps down both my arms and I felt his nose nuzzling under the wet fabric of my bra. "Mmm, Sara," he whimpered, his lips moving to where his nose had nudged the fabric aside.

My thoughts raced, the fears trying to fight to overwhelm me. I ached for him to taste and touch me more. I wanted to feel Roman buried so deep in me and just the thought of that made me clutch at his neck right then, tangling my fingers in his hair. God, I wanted him so much.

But if I lost him again after such pure ecstasy? Could I ever recover?

My mind was spinning, and I remembered the hell it had been discovering I had been the only one that remembered our night in the prison shower. It had gutted me that the trauma he faced from being burned ripped everything that happened with us from his memory.

And now once we were rescued, he would still go to the Middle Eastern prison and be ripped away from me again? Could I really give so much of me to him? Give everything to him only to have it torn to pieces again?

I had barely survived the first time.

I felt his one hand slide around my side and up my back and my heart just pounded as his fingers grasped the hook for my bra. But before he unclasped it, I saw his eyes seeking mine for one more conforming glance...

He backed away from me the instant he saw the look on my face. He could see the warring in my mind so clearly. I knew it. I could not hide anything from him.

Roman lifted me up and out of the water, pulling himself up too to sit on the ledge and before I knew it he was digging in the bag he brought and draped a soft blanket around me we had around us back at the cave. I didn't even see he had packed it up to bring it along and here he was unzipping it from a plastic bag now.

Was he mad at me? I hated that I was pulling away. Take charge Sara that I had shown him before was such a liar. I dared to look back up in his eyes, scared of what I would see. But his expression was soft, his eyes warm as he pulled me and the blanket into his lap.

His hand went up to my arms and pulled the straps back up before he tucked the blanket all the way around me. His hand found mine and neither of us had spoken yet. The silence was deafening as I felt him tangle our fingers together. He brought our hands up to tilt my chin so our eyes met.

"Talk to me, please Beauty," he whispered. There was no signs of anger or disappointment on his face, just genuine concern as his eyes stayed locked on mine and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

More silence. I had no idea what to say.

"Please Sara, you can trust me with whatever in spinning in that gorgeous head of yours. I promise you I am not upset."

I tried to draw in a deep breath, but my heart was pounding so hard in my chest. "I'm just...I'm scared Roman," I said, glad to get it out but terrified of what he would think of me.

He immediately pulled me off his lap and stood up as I watched him. What was he doing? He walked away from me and to the edge of the rock to peer up into the cavern opening and look around. He climbed the rocks and I saw his head dart around above the ground before he came back to me.

It took me far too long to process in my nervousness that he thought I meant I was scared of intruders or someone finding us.

"No Roman, that wasn't what I meant. I trust you that we are safe and that no one knows where we are." He moved back to sit beside me but did not pull me into his lap again. He leaned back on his arms as I watched his feet dangle over the edge and into the water.

His head was down, and he had not met my eyes since he came back. "So then what are you scared of Baby? I'm not really understanding. I hope to hell it's not me but the way you are looking and reacting I am not sure what is going on right now."

I sucked in a breath at that statement like he believed it had to be the truth, realizing I made him think it was him. It brought me back to that moment in the plane where I was terrified of the plane taking off and being tormented by the memories of my family dying and he had thought it was him then too. He thought I was scared to sit beside him.

"I'm sorry Sara. I can give you space tonight for sure. You have been through so much. I guess I just read things wrong..."

I was shaking my head for the third time as I crawled closer to him and put my finger to his lips as troubled gray met determined brown. "No. No Roman that is not it at all. I love you. You did not see anything wrong."

I moved even closer, crawling back around his one bent leg to lean into his strong chest and I felt his arms come around me. I could feel his heart pounding against my ear as he brushed a kiss to my hair before his chin rested on the top of my head.

"Then what is it? We are safe, no one knows where we are. And if it's not me..." he mumbled into my hair.

"It's complicated and kind of two things." I sucked in a deep breath and shut my eyes. I could do this and just tell him. I knew I would feel better after, and I trusted him and knew he would understand my feelings and had always been nothing but respectful of me.

"I'm a virgin Roman. I've never gone all the way with anyone. Ever. Honestly I've never wanted to be that close to someone before I met you. I don't know if I am ready for... all of that. I am also so scared to lose you baby when we get rescued, and you still have to go back to prison."

I felt tears at my lashes now that just started slipping down my face. I choked on my breath as I spoke next. "It tore me to pieces after being SO close with you the first time and having the guards just rip you away from me and you not even remember anything once you finally woke up. Everything was so hard and just broke me apart.

Then too before, on the plane, I think I let it get that intimate in your lap just to say goodbye knowing I would never see you again and I just needed that closeness one more time and to feel you SO badly because I missed you so much.

Now too I look like I am sending such mixed signals and kissing you all over and undressing you. Yet going much further like before just scares me Roman and I am so sorry because I probably sound insane and so messed up. I think I was fighting with myself that I could push past the fear and then halfway through I just triggered more fear that I was terrified of losing you again. I must sound so stupid."

I blurted that all out with my eyes tightly shut, my arms tight around his waist not daring to look up right then.

There was more silence as I wondered what he was thinking before I felt his arms pull me in tighter to his bare chest, his legs bent on both sides of my body. His hands slid up to my neck and under my wet hair and tilted my head up till I was facing him, but I still had not opened my eyes.

"I'm sorry Roman, I am such an idiot and here I went ruining the moment..."

But he didn't let me finish and I felt his warm mouth envelope mine, his tongue plunging between my lips. He cradled my face as he kissed me, gentle but firmly and I just melted to his touch. When he pulled back, I slowly opened my eyes to see him staring deeply back at me.

"Thank you Sara," he breathed out, leaning our foreheads together, our breaths mingling as I sucked in air from the intensity of his kiss.

"Thank you for telling me. All of that." He held me tighter, his eyes locked to mine, his voice firm. "You are not an idiot or stupid at all and you did not ruin anything. You are my beautiful mess, if that is really what you think you are, and I am yours. I highly disagree that you think any of that was wrong or bad to say. You are allowed to feel however you want, and I beyond understand."

"Really?" I smiled tentatively at him, and he smiled back warmly, stroking his thumbs down my cheeks.

"Yes, really Baby. I am not going to pressure you. I would never do that. I will wait as long as you need. And I am scared too and I'm so sorry I left you with all of that by yourself when it was not in my control."

Roman nuzzled my nose with his and leaned his head to mine again closing his eyes. "About prison too, I promise you Jey and all of us are working like hell so that I won't get ripped away from you again, but I totally understand that fear too. And about being your first time Sara... I'm sure that took a lot to share."

I nodded, sniffling and could not agree more. I was in awe that he really was being so understanding. He looked so at peace right now, with his eyes closed and his hair framing his face. It looked like it was a weight even off of him for me to have shared all that and been so vulnerable, so real.

Gray eyes slowly opened, and I smiled back at the softness I saw in their depth. "Please know that whatever you want is totally your choice and your pace," he said quietly. "Don't think you need to be anything you aren't, okay?"

It felt so good to tell him and that he wasn't upset. Other guys I had dated before Daniel, some of them literally walked away when I told them I was scared, about the virgin thing and didn't want to go that far with them. Like I wasn't worth waiting for.

I had started to doubt if anyone thought I was worth waiting for...

"I think I just want to soak in just being safe with you tonight and warm. I love that you found us this amazing cave that is so romantic and so beautiful Roman. I just want to hold you and fall asleep in your arms. That is all I want." I smiled at him and saw him nodding and smiling back.

Roman pulled me closer against his chest and I hugged him tightly, pulling the blanket around both of us. But I heard him groan and it wasn't in pleasure, and I pulled back.

"I'm so sorry Roman. I didn't mean to hurt you. I know you said your ribs were still so sore." He was already shaking his head at me. But I could see in his eyes that he was just trying to be strong.

"Let's just... press pause here and let me take care of you," I said sitting up more and pulling the blanket off me to wrap around his shoulders.

I noticed a growth of some kind of moss or greenery further back from the edge of the pool and I took his hands, pulled him up and walked him over to it. It was soft and would make a great place to sleep. I laid the blanket down, motioning him to the spot. Then I shook out his jeans and my skirt, his shirt and Randy's jacket to lay them on the rock, hopeful they would dry by morning.

He let me guide him there before he argued back to me. "Sara I'm fine. It's just been a hell of a day, but I'm fine. We were talking about you."

"I can wait. Let me take care of you, please." I pouted at him when he shook his head again looking sternly back at me like this was some kind of competition. I ignored his stubbornness, focusing more on how I could help the man I loved. "Where does it hurt?" I asked him, waiting till he had sat down before I wrapped more of the blanket around him and sunk down behind him.

"You don't want to know Beauty. It hurts everywhere, like before. I think the pain meds are wearing off." He stuck out his lip back at me giving me such an adorable puppy dog face in the dim light. He did not protest more as I sat cross legged and tugged him down to my lap and started massaging his head that was resting on my legs.

"Mmm, don't stop," he moaned softly, his eyes closing instantly, and I grinned that I could help him feel better. I just stared down at his angelic face, his plump lips, swollen from our kisses, his long dark lashes just brushing against the skin under his eyes. His lips parted in a soft tender smile as my hands tangled into his wet locks, tugging gently on his head.

He had helped me so much already, on the plane as I felt so panicked as we took off, kissing me so softly saying he didn't regret it when I was thrown in his lap, and he could have been beaten for looking like he was taking advantage of me. He kept me safe as the plane crashed by shielding me with his whole body, protecting me from Brock and his goons getting us out of the plane before we drowned, and he nearly died having all the cons chase him so they didn't find me.

I kept massaging his head, his face and his neck slowly and firmly as my mind kept drifting. This man had been hurt just for looking at me when I arrived on the plane, beaten even worse when he thought Brock was hurting me and he took Miz hostage to get to the front of the plane.

Everything he did for me. I was in awe of him and his strength and bravery to protect me and I wanted so badly to show him how much I loved him.

Having him say he would wait for me made me want him even more...

I could not have been more confused in what I wanted or thought I could handle after everything we had been through.

A/N Hope you enjoyed a sweet relaxing chapter. Eager for your thoughts. There is a plan to get rescued and more to happen in the morning. These two needed to talk more and she really needs to open up more too. She's putting them at risk with racing to try to save them and not thinking clearly and just from everything she's been through. They just need a break and some peace. Just resting and being safe for a night is all they need at least for now.

Tomorrow night could be a very different story...

I had no idea that in all 3 of my stories at once we had cute and romantic massages happening. I didn't plan that. Lol

Please check out Finding You if you hadn't yet. I would love to know your thoughts on my first attempt at a Daddy Roman story and I am thinking I will add one more chapter there.

Watch for a Christmas story to start next! Happy December! Thanks again for reviews, favorites and follows.