Friday 11:13
It's not so bad during the day. The nightmares don't haunt me then. I can't stand the sight of them. I know he is evil. But how can he be with Lily? How can she bear him? That sight stirred up horrible memories. Once recalled, I couldn't forget them. They got worse and worse. The nightmares came. But I think – I hope – it's fading away. So I can forget about it again. Daylight helps. School helps. When I have to concentrate on transfiguring my desk, I don't think about it. Sirius – he would never be like that. Would he? He is perfect – he is handsome and clever. Nothing like that, that, – thing – that shouldn't even be called a person. Oh, I wish I could just forget about it. And that Lily would see him for what he is. If only my fifth year had never happened.
It's already so late and Lily's not in bed. I don't wonder now where she could be now, but I can't help being sickened. Already, at age seventeen? I was fifteen.
It's not so bad during the day. The nightmares don't haunt me then. I can't stand the sight of them. I know he is evil. But how can he be with Lily? How can she bear him? That sight stirred up horrible memories. Once recalled, I couldn't forget them. They got worse and worse. The nightmares came. But I think – I hope – it's fading away. So I can forget about it again. Daylight helps. School helps. When I have to concentrate on transfiguring my desk, I don't think about it. Sirius – he would never be like that. Would he? He is perfect – he is handsome and clever. Nothing like that, that, – thing – that shouldn't even be called a person. Oh, I wish I could just forget about it. And that Lily would see him for what he is. If only my fifth year had never happened.
It's already so late and Lily's not in bed. I don't wonder now where she could be now, but I can't help being sickened. Already, at age seventeen? I was fifteen.