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Title: Instant Messenger 23?

Author: Harmoni

Category: WWE

Rating: T for teen...cuz I like to swear hehehe

Summary: A nice messenger chat with WWE imposters becomes her way for escape. Cause that's all they were, Imposters. she wasn't that dense, she just wanted to pretend and play along cuz that's what they were doing.. Right?

Disclaimer: the OC's belong to me. wrestlers belong to the WWE and themselves, Part of the cheer is from Bring it On and the other part is from me… yes I admit it I used to be a cheerleader hides head in shame

Spoilers: Randy is suspended, and I'll prolly just make it up as I go along. I might follow some things that happen and discard the rest. My fan fic, my rules ha ha ha)

Feedback: Please tell me what you think

Author's Note: Ahem if this completely sucks, I'm blaming it on my feverish mind… I wrote this while sick. There is an explanation behind this story that I may perhaps share at a later date. I dreamed half of it but that's how a lot of my fics start...and before people go on about another Randy story…. SOOOO not my fault My Randy Muse is running rampant and SOOOO not my fault… please tell me what you honestly think it's written in 1st person which I usually don't do.

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Lana: I told him.

Jen: And?

Lana: I haven't heard from him since. There's more, there's something I haven't told you guys yet. Something he found out.

Krista: What's wrong?

Lana: It's back. It came back and I can't be saved unless I find a compatible donor. Randy told me he loved me and I freaked, told him I couldn't, told him what was wrong with me and ran away. I haven't heard from him since.

Krista: It's back?

Lana: yes.

Jen: And how long ago did you tell him?

Lana: Just before the Aussie tour last week.

Jen: I'm so sorry girl. Sorry it's back and sorry he's an asshole.

Krista: I was really routing for you 2.

Lana: So was I. I made him promise so long ago not to fall in love with me. I was so scared something like this would happen. And now…

Jen: you fell in love with him too.

Lana: look girls I just wanted to come on and give you an update. I'm not feeling too well so will talk to you when I can.

I quickly signed off, lying on my bed and staring at the ceiling. I was all cried out. I had no more tears.

When I had left him in the park, I took a taxi home, and locked myself in my room and yes, bawled my eyes out. Hmm I'm coming off as a big cry baby aren't I? I don't care. I didn't want to tell him like that. Actually I didn't want to tell him at all. I wanted to end it so I didn't have to hurt him more. But then he said those 3 words. I Love you. I didn't want him to fall in love with me. I didn't want him to make it harder. But he did and it came out because I freaked and now he hated me.

Look how quickly he left. Hell his stuff was even here. He must've gone straight to the airport just to get as far away as possible from me.

I haven't told Danni yet, I knew she was busy with a college course for work and had barely talked to her in the last couple weeks. John called me the first day of the Aussie tour and he knew right away by Randy's hostile attitude that he knew and called me. Through the tears and the sniffling I had been able to tell him everything. He had called me everyday since then.

My phone rang and even though I knew who it was, I waited for my mom to pick it up but soon I realized she wasn't there. Groaning I reached over and picked up the portable phone.

"Hello?" I croaked out.

"Damn you sound awful."

"Thank you Captain Obvious. What do you want John?"

"You Okay Princess?"

I made a noise unable to trust my voice.

"I'm guessin' ya haven't told Danni yet huh? I didn't say anythin' when I talked to her earlier."

"no." I whispered. "I haven't been able to yet. I don't wanna distract her even more from her work. She's almost done so I'll tell her then."

"I tried talkin' to him today."

"Why?" I asked him. "can't you just leave it alone?"

"Damn well should have. I think he's hurt Princess. He's hurt ya didn't tell him and pissed off he can't fix it."

"Pissed off? I doubt he could care less."

"He's confused."

"Did he tell you all this?"

"Naw, not exactly. We kinda got into a fight before Raw."

"John." I said my voice tired and weak.

"I didn't mean for it to happen. I talk to you everyday Princess and I know you're hurtin'. I hate to hear you like this so I decided to talk to him today."

I sighed but waited for him to continue.

"Probably wasn't the best idea. When he realized I knew already and kept it from him, he freaked out and punched me. I got me a nice black eye. Pissed me off so I hit him back, H and Shawn broke us up."

"What did he say?"

John sighed.

"John, what did he say?" I pressed.

"He called us all liars, asked how we could keep this from him then yelled at the rest of the locker room wonderin' who else knew, if you had told everyone but him. He got into Master's face, H's, Shawn's, anyone you had contact with and asked if they knew too. I grabbed him and pulled him away, he pushed me off called me a fuckin' traitor and punched me."

I clenched the phone tighter, and gritted my teeth. "I'm sorry John, I didn't mean for you to get hurt. I didn't mean for any of this to happen."

"It ain't your fault."

"Or so you say. I'll talk to you later okay?"

I hung up the phone and immediately pressed the talk button again, blocking my number before I dialed another number.

"Hello?"

"You listen here." I hissed into the phone. "Hate me all you want, despise me all you want but don't you dare, don't you dare blame this on anyone else. They kept quiet on my commands. I begged them not to tell you so if you want to place the blame on anyone, place it on me."

"Lana, I-" I heard him sigh and I don't know why but I hesitated and waited for him to finish.

"Forget it." He muttered before hanging up.

Out of frustration, I screamed and threw the phone against the wall. Pissed off with the world and what it had done to me.

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"Just give me the fucking phone." Danni snarled, reaching for my house phone.

She had come over after her course was complete and I told her everything that had happened since that horrible night.

"Leave it alone, Danni." I sighed, gently pushing her back. "What happened, happened. I dealt with it so let it go."

"And you're fine with him being the world's biggest asshole."

"I don't care." I murmured, my head falling back on the couch. "I told you I was going to end it anyways."

"Then he told you he loved you. Lana, can you seriously tell me you don't feel the same way?"

"Why does everyone keep asking me that?" I asked annoyed.

"Because nobody is stupid. It's not hard to see. You're the only one who refuses to see that."

"I don't." I muttered.

Danni rolled her eyes. "look at me and tell me that."

I lifted my eyes to hers. "I don't." I said again,

"god, you don't think I know when you're lying? I of all people am not stupid and know you better then anyone else so don't lie to me."

"What does it matter? He's made it pretty clear how he feels. What does it matter how I feel?"

"Because I'm sick and tired of you walking around like nothing bothers you and you don't feel anything towards anyone."

"It's easier." I shrugged.

"You always say that but you're not making it easier on anyone, least of all yourself."

"Why are you yelling at me? I thought you wanted to call Randy and yell at him."

"Well you won't let me call him and you're here being all dumb again so you put the pieces together."

"Wow so you go from over protective mode, hovering over me and making sure everything is okay, to yell and pick on Lana mode, trying to make me as miserable as possible."

"Me?" She asked with a disbelieving laugh. "oh no, I think you're making yourself miserable all by yourself."

"Me? How am I making myself more miserable." I yelled at her. "I'm the one dealing with it/ I'm the one getting over it so why don't you do the same and drop it?"

"Because this never would happened if you just told him from the get go."

"And none of this would have happened if you two weren't scheming behind my back."

"Oh so the whole time you've been with him you hated it and wished it never happened huh?"

I heavily dropped down to the couch, my head in my hands. "No, I'm glad it happened but if I had told him sooner this all would have happened sooner."

"Probably not." She quietly replied sitting down beside me. "More then likely he's just hurt and confused and he will talk to you again soon. Don't forget Lan you didn't just tell him you had cancer, you had to tell him that you've had it before and it came back, that was probably a great blow to him."

"When did you become the voice of reason?" I muttered wiping at the tears falling down.

"Probably about the time you quit being the voice of reason." She teases. "One of us has to be."

I sighed, rubbing my eyes hard as the phone rang. Reaching over I picked it up from the table, thinking it was John.

"Hello?"

"Hello this is Dr. Cortez's office calling, may I speak with Lana Mitchell please?"

I gripped the phone harder, my eyes shooting up to meet Danni's.

"This is Lana." I replied, hope now hovering in my heart. Was it possible? Did they already find a donor?

I listened for a few moments in silence then surprise and shock before hanging up the phone.

"what did they say?" Danni asked, "Did they already find a donor?"

"No." I shook my head slowly. "They called to tell me that the latest person to be tested for bone marrow compatibility came back negative."

"What?" Danni asked in confusion. "Who went in? No one knows. Was it John?"

I shook my head, still thinking I got the name wrong.

"Who?" Danni asked, before she gasped, covering a hand with her mouth. "no, really?"

I nodded my head. "It was Randy."

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