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Lupin saw Harry leave the funeral early, and didn't bother to follow him. On second thought, maybe I ought to say something to Harry about Dumbledore. As he began to rise, he realized that he wouldn't be able to find it in his heart to do so. So he sank back into his chair.

"Remus, you all right?" questioned Tonks, noticing his movements.

He forced a smile and answered.

"Yes, I'm fine."

As he turned his head, his eyes met hers, it felt as is she was looking right through him. He quickly broke the connection, only it was too late.

"Remus, what's wrong, and don't say 'nothing' 'cause I know when your lying."

Bowing his head in search of an answer only, he was unable to find one.

"I shouldn't be here," he said, turning his head towards Rufus Scrimgeour.

" Remus, don't do this to yourself, you have every right to be here." Snapped Tonks. "Just because of your… your condition, it doesn't mean you can't pay your respects towards Dumbledore as well."

"No, honestly… I should go, besides I should go talk to Harry before he leaves."

He didn't like to lie, but he knew he should go. He didn't feel like being spotted by the Ministry.

Before he got up, he took one last glance at Tonks. She was mad at him, he could tell, but it seemed like she was going to spare him from one of her lectures about how he was always putting himself down and never giving himself enough credit.

Just as he looked away, he could have swore he saw something like tears forming in her eyes.

Back as his house, he checked the lunar charts. He had one week till the next full moon. He planed to visit St. Mungo's for the wolfsbane potion, he knew this would be an extremely painful transformation. It was always worse when someone was killed. He remembered how painful it had been when his parents died, next when James and Lily were killed. Thank goodness he had Sirius with him, otherwise he wondered how much damage he would have done to himself. Then there was Sirius's death, he still had a scar on his stomach from that transformation. Normally he is by himself, but he couldn't think what might happen during this transformation, that's why he was going to take the wolfsbane potion.

For the next few days, Lupin traveled back and forth to receive the potion, and on the day of the full moon the nurse told him it was in fact, going to be painful.

When he arrived back at his house he was surprised to see Tonks. She was in the kitchen preparing a light meal for him before his transformation. He had to think of a way to get her to leave, he didn't want her to be here when it happened.

"Tonks," he paused "please —"

"No, I'm here to help you Remus, I don't want to go through this alone."

That was exactly what he didn't want to hear. He had to try again.

"Tonks listen, I don't want you to stay. I know what you want, and I… I can't give you what you're looking for. I'm —"

"Remus Lupin!" She shouted, cutting him off.

He knew he had pinched a nerve. He also knew the sun was setting soon.

"You don't give yourself enough credit!"

He knew he had to do something quick.

"Tonks please, you can stay for the transformation from human to werewolf, but promise me you'll leave after that." Pleaded Lupin.

"Agreed, but I'm going to come back to check on you."

"Fine, but give me a few days before you do, please," he begged.

"Alright."

He grabbed a large bowl of water and some newspaper. He could feel Tonks staring at him before he went down the stairs.

Please don't follow me. That's the last thing he needed, Tonks following him into the basement. Placing the bowl of water on the floor, he began to unfold the newspaper and spread it on the floor. He looked through his little window, only to see that the sun was going to set at any moment. "Damn!" he muttered to himself. Cursing himself as he ran up the two flights of stairs towards his bedroom. He had to get out of his robes. After he finished changing in to worn and tattered clothes, he ran down the stairs and almost hit Tonks. "Sorry about that." "No its ok, its my fault, I wasn't paying attention." "Um Tonks, about what's going to happen tonight. I thought I should warn you so you…er … don't worry about me." "Explain" said Tonks in an unsure tone. "Well, you might here some moaning while I go from human to… werewolf, then maybe a howl or two when the change is complete, oh don't forget to go. Please don't come down, no matter what you hear. Promise." He couldn't be too careful.

If she comes down, she'll meet a full-grown werewolf, I can't take any risks.

"I promise I won't venture down the basement, and I'll go as soon as I hear you howl."

Heading down the stairs, he hoped that this wouldn't scare Tonks, she did look a little nervous. As he gave his wand to Tonks he thought,

No risks tonight.

Back up stairs, Tonks saw the sun set. She knew that Remus would be changing soon. Then there it was. She could hear him moaning, she felt so bad, she knew what he was going through was very painful, especially tonight. She also knew that when someone was here he tried so hard not to scream, no matter how painful it was. He's such a gentleman.

Back in the basement Remus let out a howl that pierced the silence. He began to pace, wondering when the worst come. As the night wore on he could feel the wolf-ish side wanting to take over. The wolf wanted out, and so he fought it, fought himself. He knew better then to do that, he was going to be sorry later on, but he couldn't stop.

Finally he calmed down to the point, that maybe he could fall asleep.

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