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Hope's Fears
Suddenly, the grassy ground beneath the Doctor's feet jolted and they both fell into a heap on the floor. Laying flat on his back, he stared above him as the fluffy cotton clouds turned grey and then jet black. The clouds took over the comforting incandescent blue and made it angry. Clouds were still seeping into the sky, making it dark and unsettling for his eyes. The Doctor sat up, still staring at the sky, mouth agape and eyes wide open. Cara was now glancing at the Doctor, as he turned to look at her he realised that something bad was happening. "I'm sorry." She said to him, in an almost whisper.
The violent shade of darkness had dripped and dripped onto the ground at his feet. Meadows and trees and grass were becoming infected with sinister blackness, leaving nothing of their former light in its wake. The Doctor backed away from the seeping black blood but Cara had stood frozen to the spot, arms stretched out in front of her. He stared at the bleak surroundings that Cara had become encapsulated in. The Doctor tried backing away and away from it but it caught up with him. As he stood, surrounded by darkness he wondered why Cara was still staring at her arms.
When I counted up my demons,
Saw there was one for everyday.
With the good ones on my shoulder,
I drove the other ones away.
There was now no colour. There was now no life. There was now nothing. But the Bright Angel still stood, gazing at her own arms. The Doctor stepped cautiously onto the ground and made his way towards her. As her face came into view, he felt the ground pulse and throb. His voice was quiet and scared even to his own ears, "Cara, what happened? What's wrong?"
She looked at him briefly, mere nanoseconds, but in those few moments he saw that the glint of silver and mischief in her eyes had been replaced by sadness and grief. She went back to staring at her arms, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Something's happening on the outside, Rose is awake."
"Then I've got to get back to her."
She ignored his harsh tones and chuckled morbidly to herself, "She's awake and you're not there. This is her worst nightmare….but it can't be just that. She's more than scared, more than angry, so much more." Her eyes flicked forwards and the form of the Doctor, unconscious on the floor surrounded by blood appeared, cutting through the black. The Doctor stepped back from Cara, staring at him self.
"What…what is that?"
"This is the sum of her fears." Her head turned to his healthy body next to hers, "this is what she's seeing now. The one thing she's scared to death of. Literally."
A tiny splinter of light in the depths of the grief cut through and widened, the Doctor stared at the Bright Angel, so confused and panicked. Cara took a deep breath and said "This is what she's seeing now. This is what's happening as we speak."
So if you ever feel neglected,
And if you think all is lost,
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah,
Hoping everything's not lost.
The scene in front of his eyes burned inside him, imprinting itself on him like so many before it. Rose was shaking, blood soaked and blank as Adam crouched over the Doctor's unconscious form, touching his neck. Adam's cold voice echoed around the room, "He's dead, sweetheart. He's not coming back. No pulse, not even the tiniest tremor." He laughed, cold and harsh and came over to Rose, curled into a corner, face blank.
She spoke, so quiet and broken it sent a chill down the Doctor's spine. "There's nothing left. There's nothing left anymore."
"He's dead, no blood left in him now." Adam lied, "He can't regenerate without blood. He didn't even land us anywhere before he bled to death. It looks like it's just you and me, love…forever." When he reached out a shaking hand to touch Rose's cheek, she flinched ever so slightly but didn't move anywhere to get away from Adam. The Doctor's blood boiled as he watched the sickening scene in front of him fade out to nothingness.
Turning back to look at Cara, he saw the stricken look of agony on her face and ran to her. She gripped onto his arm tightly and her breathing became laboured and frenzied as she spoke to him "This is the end, she's lost all her hope again, there's nothing left for her anymore! Can't you see! Everything you've ever given her is being sapped away from her again!"
When you thought that it was over,
You could feel it all around.
Everybody's out to get you,
Don't you let it drag you down.
Cara turned to face him. As her torso turned, the Doctor saw a mesh of holes in her stomach and chest. Her face painted a picture of agonizing pain.
The Doctor knew what was happening. "Rose's hope is disappearing and so are you." Cara just nodded as her grip on his arm strengthened.
"Everything! Everything good is leaving her!" Cara gripped his arm painfully as the holes in her torso became bigger. Pain was now so apparent on her face, teeth gritted and fists clenched.
"It's wrong! This can't be happening!"
"It is! All the things your presence ever gave her are being zapped away again! All the love, hope, joy! Everything she wanted for her future with you is being drained from her by him! I can't let this happen again!"
"Again? What d'you mean again?"
She shook her head and smiled lightly, "He was right about you, you're thick as two planks!" She straightened carefully, looking him in the eye. "This is what happened before. This is what happened to her when you abandoned her, just leaving her in more agony because you couldn't face her pain. He may be evil, Doctor, but he's right."
If you ever feel neglected,
And if you think all is lost.
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah,
Hoping everything's not lost.
The Doctor struggled to voice his fears, "This is why she tried…why she took…"
She nodded, "Why she tried to take her own life. She tried because she couldn't face life without you. It's the same thing now! With every word, every touch he gives her! It just kills her a little bit more! Soon you won't be able to get her back." The mesh of holes in the Bright Angel's stomach had now grown and formed together. All that was left of her stomach was one great gaping hole. Her face slackened and her grip on his arm faded to nothing. Her breathing was heavy, she was grasping onto life; he froze in fear as he saw the colour drain out of her face.
"Tell me quickly, Cara! How do I get back!" No reply came as she tried to straighten up. "Cara! Tell me! You have to tell me how I get back!" Her head slumped downwards and her breathing was faster and labored as she grimaced in fiery pain, "Cara! Answer me! How do I get back to her!" Her head snapped up, eyes fierce with agony, "Cara, how do I get back!"
"You can't." She answered stonily as her knees gave way, hitting the grim floor with an echoing thud.
If you ever feel neglected,
And if you think all is lost.
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah,
Hoping everything's not lost.
ALWAYS: BON JOVI. TOO LOST IN YOU: SUGABABES. SHE WILL BE LOVED: MAROON FIVE. SPOILED: JOSS STONE. NO BRAVERY: JAMES BLUNT. BECAUSE OF YOU: KELLY CLARKSON. YOU GOTTA BE: DESREE. MY IMMORTAL: EVANESSENCE. RUN: SNOW PATROL. REVENGE: SLAVE. STOLE: KELLY ROWLAND. LOW: KELLY CLARKSON. WORLD'S ON FIRE: SARAH MCLACHLAN. EVERYTHING'S NOT LOST: COLDPLAY.