DISCLAIMER: I ONLY OWN ANNA! OR THE SONG 'WHAT HURTS THE MOST' BY RASCAL FLATTS.
A/N: I'm soooo sorry I had so much freakin homework! Thankyou for all the wonderful reviews! I think this will be followed with a sequal, review!
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CHAPTER 24: What hurts the most!
Harry sat by the fire reminiscing about Anna, when the door burst opened and Hermione came stumbling in with a stack of books twice her height.
" Let me help you with that." Harry said taking half of the stack into his arms.
" Thanks!" Hermione said slamming the books on the table. Harry just nodded and went back to his gloomy position on the couch. Hermione knew he was blaming himself because of what happened to Anna, as usual and made her way over to him.
" Dumbledore and the Order are going to find her Harry." Hermione said softly.
Harry glared, " how's that Hermione? They don't even know where she is! She could be dead by now!" He screamed.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house that don't bother me. I can take a few tears and now and then and just let them out!
" HARRY!" Hermione yelled standing up with tears in her eyes. " DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT EVER AGAIN! YOU AND I BOTH KNOW THAT'S NOT TRUE!"
Harry saw the tears in her eyes and looked down trying to control his own, " I know." He whispered. Hermione saw a tear drip from his chin onto the rug.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while, even though going on without you still upsets me!
" Don't say that." She said pulling him into a hug. Harry buried his head in her bushy hair and cried for a few minutes. Not wanting to seem like a cry baby and trying to scrape up what's left of his male ego, he pulled away and wiped his tears.
" It's just that, I see her in my dreams." He said in a small voice plopping himself on the couch. Hermione followed his lead with a concerned look on her face.
There are days every now and again I pretened I'm O.K. But that's not what gets me!
" What do you see?" She asked afraid of the answer.
" I see her and she's laughing and walking with me, things seem to be back to normal." He said with a small smile.
Hermione smiled, " that's great!" She said, although by the sad look that crossed his face she knew that there was more.
" Then I hear Voldemorts laughter, and all of the sudden there's Anna on a platform of some sort." He paused feeling the oncoming tears.
What hurts the most, is being so close! And having so much to say, and watching you walk away. And never knowin' what could of been, and I seen that lovin' you is what I was trying to do!
" I see her yelling and screaming an- and then." By this point he had more tears streaming down his cheecks, Hermione took his hand trying to comfort him.
" I watch as she's tortured!" He cries out, " I w-watch her bieng h-hit with sp-spell a-after s-spell!" He managed to gasp out.
Hermione grabbed him and rocked him as he wept. Harry didn't care if she thought he was a cry baby anymore, he couldn't handle it. It's like every night he was watching her die over and over again.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go, but I'm doin' it! It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone.
Snape watched the snow fall down as he was in deep thought. His thoughts occupied with one brown eyed fifteen year old girl.
' She's been gone one day and I already miss her pestering.' He thought sadly and grabbed a FireWhiskey bottle off of his desk. He knew that they were trying to get information out of her, about Harry. He gulped remembering what the procedure was.
Still harder gettin' up gettin' dressed, living with this reget. But I know if I could do it over, I would trade, give away, all the words that I say in my heart that I left unspoken!
He took a swig out of the bottle and as hours passed the bottle was completly empty. Snape hicuped as he stumbled into his rooms and knocked over his trunk.
" OW!" He yelped grabbing his foot, although the drunk Snape doesn't have great balance and he fell on the floor next to all of his spilled posessions.
" Bludyhels!" He slured witch was supposed to come out as 'bloody hell'. He dragged hiself to his knees and started throwing things back into his trunk. Although he came across one thing that sobered him up faster than any spell could.
"Anna." He whispered, it was a picture of himself and Anna dancing at the ball. Dumbledore thought it would be a wonderful memory, but only served as a dark reminder of what could of been.
What hurts the most, is being so close! And having so much to say, and watching you walk away. And never knowin' what could of been, and I seen that lovin' you is what I was trying to do!
Snape fixed his position so he was leaning on the trunk with his knees infront of him. 'She was beautiful!' He thought. She reminded him so much of her mother, ' now they're both gone.' He thought.
OOOOHHHH YEAH!
Snape felt something that hasn't been there in fifteen years, emptiness. The burning in his throat and eyes became too intense and before he knew it sobs were tumbeling out of his mouth.
What hurts the most, is being so close! And having so much to say, and watching you walk away. And never knowin' what could of been, and I seen that lovin' you is what I was trying to do!
Snape stumbled his way to his bed, blury eyed and threw himself on his bed trying to get a grip on himself. It was ironic how all he wanted was to live a bitter and lonely life, bickering with his inner demons. Although was blessed with a girlfriend and recently a daughter, and ended up killing two angels.
And I seen that loving you, is what I was trying to do.
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OK NOT THE BEST CHAPTER I'VE WRITTEN, (LAUGHS NERCOUSLY) ! Ya last part was kinda cheezy, eh, I have the worst writers block and I really didn't know how to interperate Harry's and Snape's pain. Then I hears this song and was inspired. But on a good note I have a good cliff hanger for da ending, wich will be soon! MWHAHAHA!