After the Fall Chapter 14, a buffy: the vampire slayer fanfic

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After Tara and Spike left, Angel turned to the slayer. "Okay, out with it. What's wrong?"

"What's wrong? What's wrong? Did you look outside? Did you see, do you remember the world that I have made?" She sat on the floor and hung her head in her hands. "I don't deserve to have you Angel. I don't deserve any of this."

"Please just stop the pity party. You did it. It's done. All we have is right now, this moment." He sat next to her and pulled her into his arms. "I love you and we both deserve this." Despite the state of the world, Angel was feeling light, giddy almost. He smoothed Buffy's hair back and began to kiss her, small, feathery kisses on her face and neck. His tongue reaching out causing small shivers.

"Angel please." She pushed out of his arms.

He gave her an intense look. "What is it?"

"I can't, I mean just yesterday you were Angelus and now, here you are. I don't know, it just doesn't seem…"

"Doesn't seem what?" His voice was deceptively quiet. "Right? Do you feel that you should wait to make love to me because you fucked the demon yesterday?" He knew he was pushing her, this was all new to her, the fact that he was back. But he couldn't seem to stop himself. He needed to mark her, make her his. Wipe away all visages of that bastard Angelus. This was he woman, his lover, his mate and that asshole had tried to sully it. And he felt as if he hadn't been with her, well, for a year. He craved her, he had to be inside of her. He felt a jealous roar about to erupt and couldn't stop it

Buffy jumped at the sound, her eyes wide with surprise and fear. "Angel, no…it…it's not…" He was beside her in a flash, throwing her on the bed and jumping up to cower over her.

"So what Buffy? Do I have to butt fuck you to make you feel at home? Does the romance of it all leave you cold?" He sneered. "'Cause I can do all that he did and more."

"Please Angel, no. It isn't…." She couldn't finish because he had thrust his tongue in her mouth and pulled her skirt up, ripping her panties off and letting his fingers replace them.

She lay completely still, shocked at his actions, not sure how to react. Angel felt her go cold and was as shocked as she was by his actions. He pulled away from her, the look in his eyes telling her all he was feeling. "Gods Buffy, please forgive me. I…I'm so sorry, I don't…please, talk to me." She saw the tears in his eyes and placed a hand on his chest.

Her voice was sad as she began to speak. "Angel, it's not you, it's never you. I…for almost a year I've turned my heart off. I had to or else I think I would've gone mad. With him there was no love, no connection. Just sex, just obedience, just fear. I don't know how to change it back. In my head I know I love you, but I am so afraid that I can't love with my heart. What if it all died?" She was engulfed in his arm as she sobbed out her deepest fears.

"Baby, you could never not love. Look at all that you did because of your love for Giles and Willow, for Oz. Even for Cordelia. I know you Buffy, I know the capacity you have for love, for caring. And I also know all that Angelus put you through. And I'm willing to wait for as long as it takes. For you to know what I'm already am sure of."

She looked up at him through water-filled eyes. "And what's that?"

"That you love me as much as I love you. That you never stopped and that no matter what else happens in our lives, that will always be the one constant." He kissed her forehead and rolled onto his back, cradling her in his arms. "Sleep now, we have a lot to figure out and we need our rest to make the right decisions."

Buffy snuggled into his side and relaxed, the first time in almost a year that she felt even slightly at peace. "Okay, you're right as usual. Just don't go anywhere, okay?"

"Never again baby, never again." He kissed her one last time before he reached over and turned the light off.

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He felt as if he were in heaven. The feelings, the sensations, all leading…he wasn't sure where but he knew he wanted to go there. Buffy, her scent was everywhere. All over his body, he moaned as he felt her mouth engulf him. "Gods!" He roared and his eyes flew opened. Angel looked down to see his soul-mate with her head between his legs. If he wasn't in such a sexual overload, he would laugh. She looked up, a mischievous light in her eyes. He pulled her up by the shoulders. "What are you doing?" He gasped.

She giggled. "Thought it was pretty evident. 'Cause if you don't know, I guess I was doing it all wrong."

"Baby, what happened? I mean, after last night." His voice caught in his throat as he fought the desire to throw her on her back and thrust into her.

"I woke up in the middle of the night and just looked at you. At the real you. My Angel. Not the demon who's been my jailor for the past year, but you. And I love you. I never stopped. My fears took over, my fears and my guilt, and that is just something a slayer cannot allow. So," she rubbed her whole body against him, "I thought my life was over and that was fine, it's what I deserved. I never thought I'd have you again, but I do and I need to start my life, so I decided I'd better get back on the horse, asap."

He smiled at her words. "And I'm the horse?"

She ran her hand down his length. "Stallion by the feel of it." She giggled again as she threw her arms around him. "Claim me, make me yours."

"Oh baby, you don't have to ask twice." He pushed her onto her back and kissed his way down her body, stopping at certain points along the way to make keen with pleasure.

"Angel, pleeease." She begged. "I need you."

"You have me." He made his way to the juncture between her legs and smiled up at her with an evil glint. "I am going to make you scream baby."

She breathlessly smiled down at him. "Not fair, I should be able to do the same for you, don't you think?" She shimmied down his body, twisting so she could continue her original ministrations while he continued his.

"Gods, I love an enterprising woman." He caught his non-existent breath as she lapped at him, reveling in the sounds she was able to arouse in him. She almost screamed as Angel began his assault anew on her. She lost her momentum for a moment, lost in the excruciating pleasure he was giving her.

"Angel, I need you. Now!" She pleaded. Angel quickly pulled her pliable body up to meet him, spreading her legs apart before slowly entering her. "Angel, quick."

"No baby, slow. Slow and deep." He moved in her at a languid pace, something she was unused to but willing to endure. He kissed her softly, stopping in his movements occasionally to just enjoy the feel of her around him, pulling him in deeply. He lavished her with words of love, worshipping her body with his and telling her just how much he loved her. She felt tears start to form as she began her ascent. It was a slow building, Angel layering all the sensations on top of each other, bringing her to a peak she had never been on. Holding onto her as she felt herself begin to fall. She arched into him, her walls clenching sporadically, letting him know just how close she was. "Just let go baby, I won't let you fall." His voice was ragged, fastly losing control.

"Angel, Angel…I…oh gods…" The sheen on her body made her appear as if she was glowing and Angel relished all of it knowing he was the cause of her pleasure. He licked at her neck, the spot that was his. He gently bit into her, allowing the warm liquid to enter his mouth, pushing them both over the abyss. She screamed his name, the name she had been afraid to utter for the past year, the name she dreamt about, the name she never thought she'd be able to speak again. "Oh god Angel I love you. I love you more than life. Please, never stop loving me." She buried her face in his neck, tears flowing freely.

"Oh baby, I could never stop loving you, even in death. I chose this sweetheart, I chose you and I always will. You are my everything. Never doubt it." He gently took her chin in his hand and brought her face up to his, looking deeply into her eyes he smiled, that smile that always made her knees weak. "You are my life baby, always." He kissed her, taking her breath away. "Believe me?"

"Always." And he proceeded to show her just what vampire stamina was all about.

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"What do you mean you won't go with us?" Giles asked his slayer. He had taken the return of Angel quite well. With Angelus being gone he and his loved ones were safe for the time being. But now, Buffy and Angel were telling him that they would not leave.

"I have to try to do something here Giles. I have to try to save what's left of the human race. This is all my doing and I have to…" she looked over at Angel, "to…at least try." Her voice became very weary, very sad.

Angel shook his head. "No, this is my fault. All of it. I knew Buffy was too young, but that didn't stop me from wanting her, from making love to her. And now, here we are. All paying for…"

"Oh, will you just shut up? All this self-flagellation is just a bit too much." Cordelia almost screamed. "She was seventeen and totally hot for you." She pointed at Buffy. "And you," she looked at Angel. "You were primed and ready to fire after what? Like 75 years? You had sex. Plain and simple. It was that Jenny Calendar," she turned to Giles, "sorry babe, but it was. Jenny Calendar kept this from all of us. Okay, so Buffy should've killed you. Been there, done that. But she didn't. Now you're back and we aren't gonna end up as the entertainment at your next monster mash." She rolled her eyes. "So please, just get over yourselves."

For the next few moments no one uttered a word and then Giles cleared his throat. "Yes, well, I supposed my dear Cordelia has more than a point here. It's all water under the bridge. There is no reason you cannot join us. We all want to fix things my dear, but to stay here, well it's sheer foolishness."

Buffy took a deep breath. "I love you Giles. You are the father I never had. But I am still the slayer, and I still have to protect the innocent. I need to do this. Please understand." She pleaded.

"Very well then. As your watcher I cannot leave you." He turned and stopped Cordelia before she could utter a syllable, "No my love, I need to try as well, this is our home. I want you to leave with Oz and Willow. I need you to be safe."

"As if. Just what is your defect? You actually think I would leave you? And for a place with no malls? Think again mister. You're stuck with me." Cordelia's voice was a bit shaky, she wasn't into all the heroism crap, but she wouldn't, couldn't leave Giles. She had fallen in love with him and she would not give him up. "I won't go anywhere without you and that is that."

Tara moved in a bit closer to Spike and looked over at Willow, who nodded. "Well, Willow and I were looking through some ancient Sumarian texts, you know the ones Giles?" He nodded back at her. "Well, anyway," she took a deep breath and continued, "seems we may have figured out a way to maybe bring the sun back."

Willow picked up the rest of there plan. "Yeah, we just thought if we could bring the sun back, well gosh, how many vampires alone would be gone? You know? I mean, they're all outside, twenty-four, seven, right?" She looked at Oz, who smiled encouragement. "And I know there are at least what? A half dozen types of demons that are allergic to the sun? Right Angel?"

He smiled at the red-head. "Yeah, great research." She smiled back at him.

"So, don't you think we could make a dent in making things better?" She waited for Buffy's reply.

"I want you all safe. I don't want you risking your lives anymore because of what I did." She turned to Angel. "Don't you think they should get out of here?"

He shrugged. "I think it's up to them Buffy. They've all been though the same hell and I think it's their decision whether they stay and fight or go."

"So not the sort of help I needed here big guy."

"Sorry, it's how I feel babe. For the time being I think we should keep the status quo. I'm Angelus and you're my 'guests. This'll give us time to work out a plan safely. Once I'm out of here, once it's discovered I have my soul again I lose all the power I retained as Angelus. And right now his resources can be a huge help to us."

"Agreed." Giles nodded and turned to the two Wiccas. "The two of you need to show me this spell you have been working on. We need to regroup and reorganize." He turned back to Angel and Buffy. "The two of you need to get back to your life, for the time being at any rate."