MineGeorgi: MWAHAHAHA– . . . sigh. Fifth chapter! I'm so proud! And now we finally get the beginnings of a SatoxDai plot!

And . . . I have amazing news! I finally have a vague idea of where the story is going! Fear not, it has a plot! And I'm using too many exclamation marks again! Hope you enjoy, as always. xXx

I will give you one chance to explain yourself.

Do I need to spell it out for you, Satoshi? I've already said this several times, and I keep repeating myself. I am not an individual being. I am a book, and books are inanimate objects, remember?

If you think that is a suitable excuse? No. It is not an excuse. It is what you yourself wrote.

When you began writing you gave me 'soul'. Perhaps I am different to other books in that this concept applies literally to me. I am like a person, one person in particular, in fact.

Who?

You. Obviously. You projected a sliver of your soul into the pages through your words . . . and that is what shaped me.

That does not make sense. You are nothing like me.

No? Well, perhaps. But you cannot deny that I have often voiced thoughts you would rather keep hidden from yourself. Whether about your heritage, Krad, or Daisuke – particularly Daisuke. You are torn in all matters concerning him.

Why did you begin writing? Be honest.

I had nothing better to do.

And?

Maybe . . . I suppose I thought, well, wondered, if it was true, that a book could listen in place of an actual person.

Exactly. You wanted someone to talk to. I'm it.

So if you keep showing different aspects of myself, what are you today?

I am your rationality.

I find that amusing.

Why?

I just re-read the entry. I realised you sound very much like me.

Are you rational all the time Satoshi?

Wouldn't you rather be normal?

Why did you leave, Satoshi?

You struck a chord. It hurt.

Sorry.

Anything interesting happen today?

I am not sure it could be called interesting.

Tell me anyway.

You seem quite placid.

Maybe. Just talk to me.

Are you bored?

No. Lonely. Like you.

I am not lonely.

That was a lie. If you are not lonely then why are you writing? Why are you not with someone else, a person? A friend?

So I am lonely. I am used to it.

So tell me about your loneliness. You have never talked about that before.

It is not Please, Satoshi? Anything will do, just talk to me?

Well . . . I suppose.

I do not know how to write about loneliness. How do you describe a thing so vast? It encompasses everything, all aspects of life, shadows all other emotions. It is like a void, but one that has never been full in the first place, so it is hard to determine its true nature and boundaries. Does loneliness have boundaries, I wonder?

One might argue that I am never lonely, for I have Krad. Krad is no company. Dark was right when he called him a monster. He only defines my loneliness, as he is the sole reason that I must always be alone.

I want so much to be friends with Daisuke. Though perhaps you are right, and my longing stretches for something beyond friendship. Either way, it is torment to know that he is so close, but couldn't be further away.

He still comes to my house. Ever since that night with the 'Torka Nai'. Every weekend he calls for me. Most of the time I pretend to be out, or sleeping. Occasionally I open the door and have a brief attempt at conversation before telling him I have work to do. Other times he will catch me at school. Every time I shy away, find an excuse to leave, because I feel Krad stirring within me.

I blame Krad for my loneliness. He is my curse. He is my loneliness.

Fight back.

What?

Fight back against him. You are Krad's tamer, not the other way round.

You cannot be serious. It is not possible.

Satoshi? Have hope.

Hope?

Against my better judgment, I took your advice.

Today I approached Daisuke at school. I got as far as catching his attention so that he would leave Riku to talk to me. And then I felt stupid.

Why?

Because I had nothing to say.

Picture me repeatedly banging my head on a wall here.

That is exactly how I felt. I stood with my mouth opening and closing Like a fish. trying to conjure words from nothing. A good party trick. And yes, I am sure that is how I must have looked to Daisuke.

Fortunately, he seemed to think I had something important, maybe a warning, to give him that should be kept from the prying eyes of others. He led me to a small grove of trees just on the edge of the school field that I had not known existed. We sat in silence, and under his expectant gaze I felt completely at a loss. Small talk has never been my strength. You don't say?

Shut up. I mumbled something to him about Krad, about trying to suppress him. This just caused a worried look to jump onto his face. In hindsight, I realise he must have assumed Krad was trying to get out at the time due to his being there, as he asked if he should leave.

I stood up to stop him, but didn't move more than two steps, my arm outstretched, about to touch his shoulder. He stared at me in confusion. I garbled some unintelligible protest and stumbled forward. I think I scared him. Perhaps I moved too quickly.

Actually, I know I must have scared him, as he stuttered that he had to leave immediately, and promptly ran off.

I have never felt so humiliated.

And I know I just destroyed all my chances of being friends with him.

That's a bit melodramatic, even for you, Satoshi. I'm appalled!

Excuse me?

So you freaked him out a bit. Big deal. The kid's coped with a lot worse than an idiot like you acting drunk and almost falling on him.

I am still doubtful.

What day is it tomorrow?

Thursday. Why?

Right then. You have two days to make up for today's mess up. Your mission: to arrange to go out somewhere with Daisuke on Saturday.

That's too soon!

Good luck.

Wait! I didn't agree to it!

Do I have to?

Stupid book.