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Chapter 5,

Like many new couples, the first weeks of Lily and Voldemort's new relationship was steaming. Every kiss was like the one they shared in the living room of Lily's apartment and every kiss left Lily desperate for more of him.

It was near midnight and the two of them were sitting in Lily's apartment. They were lazily having a thumb war. Voldemort, due to his long thumb, continued beating her for probably the hundredth time that night. They had been discussing charm theories for well over three hours. During which Lily sought comfort in his arms. They sat side by side on the sofa, Voldemort's arm casually slung over Lily's shoulder.

"I just don't understand why everyone makes such a big deal over age differences." They had begun talking about this when a news story came on the muggle news about a man of 29 having a relationship with a girl of 17.

"Well, perhaps manipulation had something to do with it." Voldemort said casually totally not caring that he had more or less done the same thing.

"What if they were really in love? Did anyone ever think of that? Just because she's a year under legal age it's wrong. Had she been 18 everybody would be fine with it." Lily took his hand and held it. "I mean you've got to be quite a bit older then me and I'm pretty sure I've never loved anyone more. And even though you were probably graduating when I was conceived I know that even though you don't say it you love me too." She rested her cheek on his shoulder and sighed. "So why do they care so much? Age is just a number."

Voldemort had sort of tuned her out after she said that she felt his love for her. He wondered if he really loved her or if he was just very attracted to her. He wondered if he was even capable of loving someone. Her words assured him that his original plan was working, but though he tried, he still couldn't shake a strange feeling in the area he assumed his heart should be.

After talking some more they ended up making out on the couch. Lily wrapped her arms tight around his shoulders as their tongues danced. Voldemort held her waist gently. Her shirt bunched up as she moved and she could feel his cool hand on her skin. It was a pleasurable sensation.

Voldemort cradled her head and gently cupped her breast. Lily pulled her mouth away. "Tom, I'm not ready for that yet." She said as he kissed her neck. He didn't answer but he withdrew his hand and instead caressed her hand with his.

When the little clock on the wall chimed Lily sighed. She pulled away from him reluctantly.

"I have work in the morning." Lily said. "I have to get some sleep."

"Training?"

"No, a written exam." Lily moaned. "I hate those." Voldemort chuckled.

"I'll see you soon." Voldemort said. He took her hand and kissed it. "Sleep well."

"You too." Lily said. She kissed his cheek and he left. Feeling lighter then air Lily went into her bedroom and crawled into bed.

"Class, I know today we were supposed to take the written, but things have changed." Moody growled. He was still filling in and it was very boring for James and Sirius who usually got away with everything behind the regular teacher's back. "We'll be training today." There were collective groans. "SHUT UP YOU BRATS!" Moody roared. "YOU CAN'T LEARN ANYTHING SITTING IN A CLASSROOM! CONSTANT VIGILANCE! THAT'S WHAT YOU WHELPS LACK! WARMUPS NOW!"

Lily and Sirius were paired up for auror exercises. They were to practice disarming while dodging an attack. It would have been something that Lily would have been good at if only she hadn't been distracted. After failing the warm up they took up spots in the sidelines for the class sparing.

As usual the instructor began calling people up. James took on a young woman named Janie. They were to only use the disarming spell and sparks. They wore special vests, similar to what muggle children wore when they played lazar tag. Three hits with sparks and it would glow bright green signaling that they have 'died'

It was fun to watch James play. It was quite obvious that not only had he discovered muggle video games, he had dominated them. "It's just like Halo for him." Sirius said fondly. "When Remus introduced the game to us we didn't think that we would like it."

"I didn't think that James would in interesting in muggle games."

"Are you kidding? It took him only one day to beat the game. We battle all the time." Sirius said fondly. Lily watched as James sparred with the poor woman and quickly defeat her. Lily was up next, against Sirius, and she barely defeated him. It had come down to the fact that she was more talented when it came to silent spells. But it may have had something to do with the fact that Sirius's best friend had the hots for her.

Voldemort was bored again. His death eaters were on assignments and Lily was taking a written exam so she couldn't duck out early. He was relieved that she didn't have training that day, it meant that she would have plenty of energy for other things. Perhaps they would have a debate again tonight, they both enjoyed those. Closing his eyes, he allowed his mind to replay the delights he had partaken in the night before. As a Malfoy walked in he snapped out of it.

"Sir, will you be joining us on the raid on the auror training compound?" Voldemort thought for a moment. Lily wouldn't be there, and terrorizing a bunch of upstarts would chase away the boredom.

"I suppose."

"Now, you little whelps," Moody barked as the class swallowed pain killing potions, "we'll be going out to The City today. You'll be practicing against professional aurors. NOW GO!"

"Geez, what's eating him?" Sirius muttered. Lily shrugged.

"One too many unforgivables to the noggin." James muttered back.

Slowly the class made their way to the outdoor training grounds. It was a large and usually pretty terrifying. They called it The City because it was a mile long each way and looked like a demolished city. Twisted metal and rubble was scattered about.

Many of the weaker souls lost their wits when in The City. It was no wonder, either, fully trained aurors pretended to be dark wizards and due to their excelled abilities they were very stealthy and their hiding was impeccable.

Fortunately they didn't dress as death eaters the first couple of times so it was a little less frightening. Neither side was aloud to use unforgivable curses or anything too damaging. All the rubble was magically protected so that if blown back, nobody would be impaled and probably killed or mortally wounded at best.

The young aurors-to-be looked around nervously. They had never been to The City before.

"Sure makes you sweat, doesn't it?" Moody growled. "If you'll direct you attention over there, you'll see the team you'll be fighting." The group turned to see a group of twenty intimidating people standing before them. About fifteen were men and five were women. They all stood with their legs spread at shoulder length and their hands clasped firmly behind their backs. They were dressed in tight suits with a patch in the corner. "ROBES ON!" Moody barked. Like an army, the aurors took out robes with their right hands and swirled them around their shoulders and fastened them.

"SIR YES SIR!" They chorused. "READY SIR!"

"Run along you little scamps," Moody said with a grin, "they'll give you a five second head start." As he said that, there was a loud crack as all twenty aurors apparated into The City.

"You said they'd…"

"CONSTANT VIGILANCE, MR. BLACK!" Moody roared.

The young aurors crept into The City nervously. James stuck close to Sirius and Lily.

"Okay, watch each other's backs." Sirius said. "Teamwork."

"Right." The other two agreed.

"Frank!" Lily hissed as they saw a man with a round cherry red face. He didn't hear her.

"Longbottom!" James hissed. Frank turned.

"What?" He hissed back.

"Let's team up. Those guys are strides ahead of us."

"Alice! Let's go!" A blonde girl joined her boyfriend and they joined the trio. The five of them walked cautiously through the twisted metal and stepped over bits of brick and mortar.

"BACK!" James shouted. They all jumped back as a red jet shot by.

"We're gonna die." Sirius panted.

"They can't kill us," Lily said, also panting, "It's not aloud."

"DOWN!" Sirius shouted. They all crouched low as a green jet shot above their heads.

"That was…"

"AVADA KEDAVERA!" a voice cried. The five wizards tried to apparate but couldn't.

"Sadistic teachers!" Sirius hissed as they didn't vanish.

"That wasn't the teachers," Alice whispered back as they pressed themselves against the inside of a building, "the course allows apparition."

They crept further into the building and were pulled forcefully aside and stuffed under a staircase by two men and a woman.

"We're under attack." The woman said hurriedly. "Stay here and don't move. That's an order." The five novices nodded. The three aurors crept out and moments later a light show began.

Nobody moved or spoke for a while. In fact not many of them took a single breath. James' arm was around Lily's chest and his wand was pointed out.

Frank tugged on James' sleeve and nodded his head towards Alice and Lily. Silently the two men moved in front of the two women. James, Sirius and Frank made themselves into a shield. Under any other circumstances, Lily would have protested the fact that the men were treating them like weak women but she didn't make a sound. She knew that the boys had only deep concern and love in their actions.

The building rumbled. The five took sharp breaths. Through a hole in the building, Lily saw a death eater walking by with his wand extended. He was soon attacked by an auror.

As if in slow motion she saw a death eater land behind the auror and green light hit his back. She felt her lunch rise in her throat. Someone was pushed up against the very wall she could see out of.

"Where are your friends?" a death eater asked. Lily recognized the voice as Lucius Malfoy.

"Burn in hell slime!" it was a woman.

"Crucio!" James squeezed Lily's hand until his knuckles were white and her hand was bright red as they heard the shrieks of agony. "Tell me!" Lucius ordered again.

"NO!" She shrieked again as the five saw a flash of red light. Lily squeezed her eyes shut and Alice held back a whimper.

"Tell me the location of the Order of the Phoenix." Malfoy ordered.

"I don't know!"

"Yes you do."

"I don't know!"

"Fine, then you'll suffer until you can remember." Nobody in the tiny hiding space dared move, not even when a splash of blood landed on Lily's hand. Malfoy was so close, if he just looked at a small hole in the wall he'd find them. They feared that one small movement would alert Malfoy of their whereabouts.

"Enough," a silky voice said, "you could find something far more useful to do with your time."

"But my lord…"

"Dumbledore has done his work well. No doubt he is the secret keeper of The Order, this little auror wouldn't know. Leave her."

"Sir,"

"Do as I say."

"Yes, sir." Lily saw the girl crumple to the ground and Lucius walked off with the dark lord. Lily took a breath. She pushed past the other's and ran out of the building.

"Lily!" they all hissed as she left. Lily crouched low. She heard the auror cough and wheeze. She sobbed in pain.

"Avada Kedavera!" the green light of the spell remained burned temporarily into the side of the building and Lily fell to the ground as she got away.

"Perhaps you should work on your aim." The silky voice of the dark lord said dully. Lily scrambled around the corner of the building. Clearly Lily's life was just some little toy. "Go make yourself useful elsewhere.

Lily grabbed onto the fallen auror and dragged her into the building next to the one her friends were in.

"Little auror come out and play."

"No," the auror whispered. Lily looked down at the woman. Her Weasley red hair was stained with the blood from her face. Lily recognized her as Kim, Arthur Weasley's sister. "Stay hidden."

"Where did you go?" Voldemort asked silkily. Lily's heart raced as she thought she recognized the voice. She tucked Kim's body in an alcove and covered her with a tattered blanket. She walked towards a hole in the wall, bent on dashing to the next building. She heard Voldemort's voice at the other end.

"Where did you go little auror?" She shot a spell in the opposite direction and darted out. She crashed into something tall and firm and fell to the ground. Her heart was beating faster then it ever had in her life. She knew what she had crashed into. Or rather whom.

"Ventriloquism is an acquired art." Voldemort told her. Lily fought back tears of fear. "Look at me auror, I love seeing light leave a person's eyes when I kill them." Lily clenched her fists. She could see their shadows on the building. He was pointing his wand at her. She wouldn't look at him. If he was going to kill her, she wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of looking into her eyes as he did so. But it bothered her that the voice seemed familiar. But she had never heard the dark lord speak before. She had never met the dark lord.

"Come now, don't be difficult." Where did she know that voice from?

Training?

No, written exam. I hate those.

I'll see you soon. Sleep well.

No. No it couldn't be.

I don't want to be alone. Talk to me Lily.

"Look at me, auror."

"No!" Lily said boldly. "I won't give you the satisfaction."

Lily

The harder Lily thought the more the voice of Tom and the dark lord mingled. Her eyes widened. When she took away the body and remembered back to when he was just the voice of her angel they sounded exactly the same.

Slowly she looked up, dreading what she would see. Emerald met scarlet. Voldemort looked at the tear stained face of the woman he probably loved.

"Angel," she whispered. She shakily stood. With tears spilling from her eyes. Lily ran. Forgetting about her friends and the injured Kim she ran. She ran away from the only man she loved body and soul. She ran until she realized, she didn't have his arms to run to.

TBC

Finally I'm able to update! Our movers didn't get our stuff here until four days after we moved. Since we moved across the country, I guess it isn't surprising. Anyway I just got internet connected so yay! I have half of the next chapter written. I'm not quite sure about the pacing of the next chapters, but I think it's going to slow down. Meaning it will be going day by day. But I'm not entirely sure. I know what I want to do with the story but I don't know how fast the story wants to go. I've written the epilogue. It was exciting and I was getting all emotionally involved. There's two ways it could go so I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'll probably end up flipping a coin because both ways are good (but one is a bit more OOC) it'll probably depend on my mood as well. Who knows it may all change! Anyway review!