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Break up?

Edward and I walked into my house and I placed all of my new books that I had just gotten from the bookstore onto the coffee table. Then I stacked all of them up perfectly so Edward and I could go upstairs into my room and talk until Charlie got home and he would have to disappear until I went to bed later on that night. He then would sing me my lullaby so I could fall asleep quickly in his arms.

I got a glass of water and a banana for a quick snack so I wouldn't disturb Edward with my growling and annoying stomach. I ate the banana in maybe three bites so I could be with Edward sooner. I walked into the living room were he was sitting and I suddenly felt a lot better since I had eaten something.

Edward must have known that today had been a long day for me or maybe he just didn't want to have to watch me trip over all of the stairs over exhaustion because he swiftly picked me up and carried me up to my room. I felt his cool hard arms cradle me like I was five again and I felt safer than I had ever felt in my life. I didn't want to ever have to move away from his strong muscular arms. But he then gently placed me down on my bed and kissed me lightly right below my jaw. Surely my heart gave me away by racing faster than it had the first time he kissed me. He obviously heard my thundering heart because he lifted his head from my chest and looked into my brown eyes."I love you" was all I could say to him while I let my heart reset it's self so I could breath again.

"I know you do. I love you too, but I love you so much more than you can ever imagine, and I always will."

I could tell by the way he looked at me that he was now very serious but there was a bit of playfulness still in his eyes. "Edward, I have a question. We will be together forever, wont we? I know you probably don't want to talk about this but…"

"No I don't. Please don't ruin the moment baby."

His voice was calm and he leaned in towards me and kissed the very tip of my nose. A shiver ran almost as fast as he could down my spine and back up again.

"But I have to, I want to love you forever too, I fear that I will grow old and have to leave you. Edward, I don't want to leave you here on earth. I will have to die eventually!"

It was very hard for me to talk about myself dieing. But the only thing that I could fear the most was being without him. "And that's the way it's suppose to be Bella. You don't know what it is like to be a monster, to have to hide a secret from everyone around you. You don't know how it feels to have to kill incident lives so you can stay alive! To have to drink from animal blood to live or else starve!"

He was now sitting in my rocking chair that I had had since I was little. The expression on his face was unreadable besides the fact that he was now upset. But no matter how upset he might have been or how mad at me he would get, I did not want to lose to this battle again. Shouldn't I have a say about the way I should die or live?

"Edward I don't think you understand, I want to live that life. I would give everything up to be with you forever! I really do love you."

I slowly got up to walk over to him to comfort him but he was suddenly standing and looked very angry about what I had just said.

"I will not damn you to a life like this, I will not make you into this thing that I am. Don't you understand? Don't you understand that I would never see your cheeks go red ever again Bella, never hear your heart race every time we touch, and never feel the warmth of your skin. You are so young, and you can do so much with your amazing life. You could become famous or something and really make something out of this life. That is why it was given to you. I will not take that away from you, even if the monster inside me encourages me to every second of the day."

"But I want to be with you.""No Bella this is enough, just drop it I will NOT change you."

I could then feel the tears forming behind my eyes but I told them just to wait a little longer until I could get my point across to him.

"You know that Alice has seen me being changed and you know that I want it to, why can't that be enough for you? Why do you only think about what might never happen again rather than what will to happen. All of the new things that there will be. It would be a new beginning. Our lives could be even greater if we were to do this Edward. I could live with you forever. Isn't that what you want?"

"Isabella, I am NOT talking about this any more! You know how I feel about this so I don't need to explain this to you anymore."

"So you don't want to do what needs to happen, needs to happen for us to be able to love each other forever? And what about how I feel about this? I thought you loved me enough to do this for me Edward!"

"You really think I don't love you enough? I can't believe you! Maybe we don't really know each other very well! I AM done with this conversation! Now GOODBYE! Please do not call me. We need a little time to figure out what NEEDS to happen!"

"Edward don't go…"

I would have called his name again, but my voice cracked and I was now crying historically my tears had decided without my permission that it was the time to come. My face was now cherry red and my Chocolate-brown eyes were now very puffy from the sudden tears streaming down my frozen face. My eyes began to sting from all of them or maybe it was because I hadn't blinked in over 5 minutes.

I just stood there letting the tears fall. I wasn't really upset but more angry, angry at the fact that the one and only person that I wanted to be with forever had just walked out and left me here, to cry, all alone. What had happened to my superman? Did he forget to protect me from himself?

For about a half of an hour I sat on my bed and thought to myself about what had just happened, I knew that Edward had a very clear point and I appreciated that he didn't want to ruin my life. But what he didn't understand was the only way he could ruin my life was for him to leave me as a human. For me to die sooner or later and never seeing my angel again. The thought made me cry harder.

But then all of a sudden my stomach sank to my feet. When Edward left did he mean that we needed a little more time to be away from each other? Did he mean that he wanted to break up with me until I agreed for him not to change me? Had Edward Cullen just break up with me on the first day of Bella and Edward summer of love?

I felt my mind swarming with questions that I wasn't sure if I really wanted to be answered, but I did have one very important question, did Edward want to break up with me?

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