Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy, that honour goes to the wonderfully talented Shonda Rhimes. Nor do I claim any ownership to the song 'The Way She Loved Me,' sung by Shannon Noll. In my dreams, however, McDreamy is all mine!

A/N: OK, so I decided to turn this oneshot into a full fic, so here goes: As I haven't seen any episodes with either one of them yet, Callie and Denny don't exist for the purposes of my story. George and Meredith never slept together, Alex and Izzie are back together, oh, and Burke never got shot too. The reason I've changed this so much is because I haven't seen the episodes with these events in them, and I wouldn't want to write something that doesn't fit in with what has happened, but still continue with what has happened, if that makes ANY sense at all to you wonderful readers. BTW, Italics are thoughts and bold italics are songs. So, R&R, and enjoy, of course! P.S. please excuse any bad medical speak – I'm a law student, not a med one!

It had been two months since she had kissed Derek on prom night outside in the rain, and Meredith Grey was still on cloud nine. She often found it hard to believe that he was truly hers, divorced with no more secret wives, mistresses, or even children – she'd made sure of that before agreeing to take him back! Really, it hadn't been hard to get Addison to agree to a divorce, she was actually the one who had served Derek with papers the day after that fateful night. She had finally realised that she was with a man who truly didn't want her – something she once swore that she would never do.

Every day at the hospital had gone back to the way it used to be at the start of her internship, before Addison came to Seattle. The only difference now was that Addison had chosen to remain, having fallen in love with the city in spite of her initial homesickness for Manhattan. If it was possible, her and Meredith had even struck up a friendship, to the amusement of all who knew their story. But this didn't faze either one of the women, despite everything that had gone on between them, they each found the other impossible to hate.

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Something's gonna happen, I can just feel it. Sorta like when I felt like I was gonna die, the day with the bomb, but nowhere near as morbid. I wonder if Derek's got a feeling too? I feel like something's building up, and any day now it's just going to climax. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to wait for it to pass.

"Mer, hurry up, we're gonna be late!" Izzie's voice rained down on Meredith's thoughts, shaking her from her reverie. "What are you doing, Bailey's gonna kill us if we're not on time! George and I will be in the car, you better be down here soon."

"Izz, I'll be there in a second, I just got distracted." Grabbing her bag and keys, Meredith ran to the car to join her housemates for another day at work. "Ok George, hit the gas. I'm in."

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"Hey Mer, where was McDreamy this morning? What was that, like, the first time you've come to work separately since the two of you got back together?" Izzie pried, always trying to get the gossip.

"We don't always come to work together," Meredith defended. "It's not like we work the same shifts all the time, and this just so happened to be one of those times. And anyway, you come to work with Alex more times than I do with Derek. What's going on with you two lately, you seem to be getting close. Again."

"I don't know, it seems different this time, like he really-"

"C'mon people, rounds now, gossip later!" Bailey cut Izzie off, calling out to her interns. "We haven't got all day you know!"

"Okay, Karev, you're with Dr. Mongomery, O'Malley, Dr. Burke needs an intern for a cardiopulmonary bypass, Stevens, you're on pit-duty, Yang, you're with Dr. Shepherd, and Grey, you'll be with me in Trauma." Starting off at a brisk walk, Bailey was irritated when she heard arguing behind her.

"How come O'Malley gets to do surgery, I haven't had surgery time in two days!"

"What, the vagina squad, again! Can't I go in the pit?"

"No way, I'm not working with Satan, not after that stunt she pulled with the baby!"

"Get over it Barbie, that was months ago! And Evil Spawn, this is what you get for pissing off the ex-She-Shepherd, you become captain of the vagina squad."

"Yeah, but three months of captain, that's just insane."

"Christina, you're just jealous coz you're missing out on surgery again-"

Standing off to the side, looking amused, were Meredith and George. Bailey, on the other hand, was looking anything but pleased.

"What the hell do you fools think this is?" she retorted. "You take the task given to you by me, your resident, and you smile sweetly while doing it! None of this fighting crap! It's not my job to please you fools, its your job to please me, especially if you want a happy resident and you know that you do. You'd think this would've sunk into your thick skulls by now. Now scram!"

Grumbling could still be heard as the interns went their separate ways, but as none of them was willing to face Bailey's wrath again, it was all kept to a murmur. Meredith followed Bailey to the doors of the Emergency area, as they heard the ambulance sirens rounded in on them. Its gonna be another busy day here at the hospital. I wonder if I'll get to see Derek?

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On the other side of the country, back in Manhattan, a lonely man sat on his recliner lounge in his apartment, calmly sipping his scotch. After an interesting phone call today, he had no idea what he was going to do. That's a new one, me, scared and hesitating. What happened to the cocky bastard who lost his best friend and the love of his life in one fell swoop? It was all that he could do, sit there and think about the past and the woman of his dreams while he drank himself into oblivion for the third night that week.

Desperately waiting for her to arrive
Longing for strength that I lack
Tears fill my eyes when I realise she's gone
I know that I can't bring her back
She used to make it so easy to love her
She used to make me shine
So stay if you will and I'll show you
The way she loved me for a time

Nothing killed him more than the night times. The sleepless, restless nights, when she haunted his dreams. Those few months when they were happy together flitting in and out of his thoughts. Their late night trysts, their days together at work, living for one another without a care in the world. Until she found out that her husband had found someone else. Until she left without even saying goodbye. He'd tried to bring her home, but she had refused, choosing to remain blind to the fact that her husband no longer loved her, choosing to remain in a loveless marriage. And the worst part was that he knew, just as much as she did, that she loved him as much as he loved her, and that she was only trying to work out her marriage in an effort to absolve herself of her sins. Their sins.


Empty, I lie on the bed that we made
But now I can't get to sleep
She had a way of wearing my clothes
And made them look better than me
She had a heart that could light up the ocean
She told me she was mine
So lend me an ear and I'll tell you
The way she loved me for a time

God I want to see her so much. I want to touch her, feel her, have her in my arms. But while she stayed with her husband, he knew that he didn't have a chance. It's not like she's going to show up here.


Oh, I long to hold her
Oh, I want her here to see
Oh, how I ache for her next to me
Desperate I wait for the day that I see her
Hold to her deep inside
The most perfect love that I wanted to be her
From the moment she caught my eye

But everything was about to change, starting tomorrow. Thanks to that phone call.


I light a candle for her every evening
Pour me a glass of wine
I will remember so clearly
The way she loved me for a time
Yes I will remember so dearly
The way she loved me

A/N – So, I hoped that you liked this, and that I'm doing a good job transforming it into a fic. Please let me know, otherwise I'll go insane!