I hope everyone really likes this. It was a little more challenging witting for Edward but I think we did a pretty good job! Here is the forth chapter : Edward's Point of View. PLEASE review!

Edward's Point of View

It had been just about an hour since I last saw Bella, only an hour since I had walked out on her. This morning when her beautiful eyes opened, I thought that today would be a very special day. Sorry to say, I was wrong.

While she ate this morning I told her about the plans that I made while I waited for the hot sun to rise. Today for some reason she looked even more beautiful than normal, it was very distracting.
I told her about going to the bookstore, since the last time we were going to go we went to our clearing instead, she agreed and got ready. We left not to long after she got out of her burning shower.
When we were there it looked like she was having the most fun she ever had. Most of the time when I could see people in a Library, or a bookstore, they normally struggled finding a book that they found interesting. But Bella was a very different story, she would maybe look at a book for less than a minute and put it in the large pile of books she had already picked out. All I could do was watch her and her beauty in amazement.

We left the bookstore after she found the hundreds of books she wanted and I stopped on the way at a car dealership to buy a new car. I wouldn't tell Bella then, but the car would be hers when I could trust her to go faster than 20 mph. I got her a dark blue Ferrari that looked almost as stunning as she did. We left it there so I could pick it up with Emmett later so he could also see the new car.

The ride back to Bella's house was very frustrating. Just about the whole ride she barely spook a word. Leaving me to just sit and drive. I felt like at any moment in time that I could reach over and just slightly take a taste. A small taste couldn't be to bad would it? It wouldn't kill her, but it might have scared her away. Leaving me to live for nothing again. Bella wasn't just a human; she was my life. Since that first day at school, the first day that I felt as if there were no possible way for me to be in heaven I knew that my so called life would never be the same. I would be living for this human till the day she would die. And that was how it would be even if she hated me for saving her life every ten seconds. My life was now about nothing more than just her. That is why now as I am still running, I don't know how I could have just walked out on my angel. And I don't know were I am running to, but I do know one thing, no matter what Bella wants, my life will always be about her.

Why I left like that I still do not know, I wish I would have just stayed there with her a little longer to work things out. Even if I was mad about the very stupid thing she wanted to do. The stupidest thing anyone could do. The one thing she wanted most.
We fought for what seemed hours but was really only minutes. After she would get ready for bed I was going to show her what I had been planning all day today. I was planning on asking her to marry me. I was planning on asking Bella if she wanted to be mine forever, I guess that means I would have to change her then. I am very confused. And the one thing I hate the most is being confused and not knowing what to do. But now I don't know if Bella will ever look at my monster face again. I didn't and still do not want to change her. I know to everyone else that me not wanting to change her seems selfish but to me to change her would be even more selfish. I am running now, and thinking about her beautiful face. All I can think about is what I have just done to hurt her. This whole time I was protecting her from harm, from anything that will come between her and her human life, but now I feel that I have failed. Failed because I have now harmed her, making her salty tears fall because of me. Me, the selfish monster that refuses to change his angel into a monster like himself.
I should just change, I know that it is what she wants but I cannot bring myself up to it. Killing her incident life would be like eating the last scrap of food in the whole world full of hungrier people than yourself. I just can't imagine myself doing that to her.

And as we were fighting in her room just an hour ago, I knew she was right. She had every right to be changed. I loved her and she loved me. But how could I kill an angel of God. I'm sure he already is very angry with me, what if I was to take her? That is why I left. I left because she was right. I was wrong and I didn't want to be, so I left like a coward loin running from a soft bunny rabbit. A rabbit that was stronger than the lion but didn't have any clue as how much stronger she was.

That very moment in time I stopped running and made the decision. If Bella wanted this as badly as she does, she must really be sure of herself. And I love her, more than anything on this earth or in the heavens. I will change Isabella Swam is she was absolutely sure that it was what she wanted.

I turned around and ran back to Bella's house to apologize to her from my rude believer. But when I got there she wasn't in her room any longer, I listen quietly and could hear the water of her running shower.

I sat on her bed waiting for her to return so I could tell her that I was sorry for what I did.

Before she returned I walked over to her computer that was turned on. She had a new unread e-mail that was from her mother. I opened the letter and began to read it.

The letter had said something about Bella going back to see her mom and stay with her for part of the summer. I couldn't let this happen. There was no way I would let Bella go to her mother's house and be away from me for that long. She would find way too much trouble and get herself hurt. I would have to tell her that she could not go. But would that be wrong? I mean, it's not really any of my part to tell her what she can and can not do. Especially now that she was mad at me.

I heard the water turn off and knew that I would only have a minute till Bella would be upstairs.

But for some reason I suddenly was afraid to see Bella. I could hear her from upstairs. She was crying. And not just a soft little cry, Bella was really crying this time. I felt my dead heart drop and my stomach turn to knots. I had made Bella cry.

I heard her soft foot steps grow louder as she walked up the stairs. I began to get very nervous to see her. Something that I haven't felt in a very long time. I closed the e-mail and marked it as new mail so she wouldn't notice that I read the e-mail. I then opened up her only window in her room and quickly stepped outside so I wouldn't have to face her.

She opened her door and walked slowly to her computer. Her skin was a slight rosy color from her shower that she just got out of. She opened up the new e-mail from her mother.

As she read the letter her facial expression changed. I'm not sure if I changed because if she was happy to leave or if she was upset that her mother had asked her to come and visit her. But it became clear that she wasn't overjoyed.

I would have done anything at that moment in time to hear her innocent thoughts. To know how she really felt. To reach into her mind and find the truth that had been taken hostage from me. But I couldn't.

But when I looked into her face, I could tell that there was something very different in her eyes. Something that I must have done.

So instead of just standing there in the rain watching her and killing myself on the inside because I couldn't hear her beautiful quite thoughts, I just ran home. I ran home to think about what I had just done to Bella, what I had just done to her to make her shed more tears from her small eyes.

And I made the decision to punish myself, that I would not bother Bella anymore that night. I promised myself that I would give her some time not cool down and not be so mad at me. Why do I have to make everything go wrong? Bella could have been getting married to me tonight but I had to ruin it!

A/N: Sorry for the funky set-up. My computer doesn't like me anymore. I think I could cry my eyes out! But while I do so, I need you to review my story to make me feel better! Thanks!