What He Always Wanted
Written by Ashleigh
I'm sooo sorry that this update took sooo long! I had school camp, then exams then following that more exams, in fact I just had my maths exam today (by the time I finish this, yesterday) and thought I would write the next chapter!
I hope you like this chapter; I have no idea how Scott and Taryn will break up so I am prolonging that till the next chapter and hope that you all have many good ideas!
And here are my thanks to my wonderful reviewers:
MiEsHa: Your writing does not suck! It chews…just kidding! Hope you like this chapter! Thanks for R&R!
Diaz F: Yeh Duncan does deserve more than a twist of the arm but I am no good at writing fight scenes even if the characters are drunk! Hope you like this chapter! Thanks for R&R!
Ingrid: I'm sorry about the late update, really I am! I'm so happy Duncan is gone! Any ideas on how to get rid of Taryn? Thanks for R&R! Hope you like this chapter!
Toast: I totally forgot about Duncan taking her! Thanks for pointing that out! I feel so stupid! Hehe. Thanks hopefully the following chapters will have more details! Thanks for R&R. Hope you like this chapter.
Lavender Gaia: JOTT is the best! Glad you like this story! I'm sorry this was such a late update. Thanks for R&R, hope you like this chapter!
Rogue14: When you said ASAP, I'm guessing you meant faster than this…I'm sooo sorry! Yeh I'm happy Duncan was dumped he's evil I tell ya…EVIL! Thanks for R&R, hope you like this chapter!
Cheese Head Lover: Yes you should put another chapter! You're taking longer to update than me! Hehe. Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
Sweetmidnight: No Jean was just stupid to date him in the first place! I mean I would go out with Scott as soon as I saw him! Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
Mark C: When you say it that way, the chapter was quite complex…wow! Do you have any ideas on how to get rid of Taryn? I'm stuck! Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
DOJ: It's a good feeling, getting rid of Duncan! Now just to get rid of Taryn…hmmm another party? Nah! Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
Iceglitter: Go Scott! The things Scott will do for Jean! I want a Scott! Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
Helen: I can't wait to bring Scott and Jean together but Taryn's in the way and I don't know how to get rid of her…any ideas? Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
Luvincycke-jott28: Sorry about the late update! I was glad to get rid of Duncan…it's a good feeling! Thanks for R&R, hope you like the chapter!
BookJunkie: Sorry about the late update but I have a very hectic social schedule (you can so tell by my vocabulary...right) yeh…Thanks for R&R, hope you like this chapter!
Marites: You really should get your own name and not sign into mine! Thanks for the review? I now know the words to Zippity Doo Da! Great! Thanks!
Disclaimer: If I get an A+ on my exam will you give me the X-Men…Please?
Summary: Scott has yearned for Jean his whole life but when he finally gets her is she what he always wanted? JOTT of course!
Jean and Scott are perfect for each other --------thought, or in this case diary entry!
"Jean and Scott are perfect for each other" --------talk
xX Jean and Scott are perfect for each other Xx--telepathic talk
Chapter 4: A Spur Of The Moment Crush
Dear Diary,
You don't mind if I call you diary do you?
I've never felt this way before. I thought I could suppress it, but I guess I was wrong. I don't know if these feelings are normal, I repeat, I've never felt this way before.
He's on my mind all the time, every minute of every hour, ever since the incident at the party. I can't not think about him. I see him everywhere, in the mirror, in my photos, in my fricken homework for God's sake. I think I'm going mental, have you ever felt like this before? What am I doing, I'm asking lined paper for advice. I think I am losing it.
It's just his hair; I love his bangs how they just fall across his visor. Blocking out half of the big picture. I sometimes think it may be me he's not seeing. But then I see him smiling. I resist the urge to look behind me. Something comes over me, a fluttery feeling of some sort. I can't explain it. It just consumes me and I feel like a little girl again about to be scolded for something but I know he would never hurt me.
In missions it scares me how he can be so different. He seems so uptight; I know I'm not the only one who thinks this. But he's just looking out for the team. I know I'd love for him to be looking out just for me. The feeling of warmth, being in his arms, there's no other safer place.
Again to his eyes, I've never really seen them. I'm imagining plain brown the total opposite of his personality. Or maybe blue, the colour of the sky, he can never really witness. Or green, quite like my own, except darker with a tinge of brown…and blue. Ok now I'm obsessing. But if only I could get one look at his face, his whole face. And the joy he would find able to see colour again. If only he weren't a mutant, he could have lived a normal life full of colour. Really, he takes the term colour-blind to the extreme.
And oh my god! His body! Have you ever seen it? Just imagine a single bead of sweat falling slowly down his accented abs; across he's rounded muscles. I'm nearly drooling just thinking about it. But that's not why I like him. Actually I don't really know why I like him. I just feel giddy whenever I'm around him. I feel a tug towards him. I don't even know how he feels about me.
Diary have you ever liked someone so much, even though it's a spur of the moment crush, that you can't stand anyone but you even talking to him? But it's not a spur of the moment crush, it's much more. And just knowing that Taryn is there spreading her evil germs across his lovely lips, it irritates me. I want to be the one in his arms; I want to encircle him in my love.
I never really understood the meaning of the word love. I mean, I love my family and I loved my Barbie collection. But this is a feeling so pure it seems unreal. I'm just going to come out with it. I think I love him. Diary, have you ever questioned the way you live life because someone as pure as this love has entered it?
It's just…he's so…there are no words to explain him, well just one. He's so…Scott.
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A/N: Ok, I love diary entries, never any of my own. Any guys I like would be non-existent or a cartoon character. Don't get any ideas, Scott and Superman…they're mine! Again I ask for ideas on how to get Taryn out of the picture, I've come up with a blank.
Thanks for reading; I really like this chapter. That last line was the first line I wrote, I work backwards! Hoped you liked this chapter too.
Please Review! Otherwise I'll have no ideas on how to get rid of Taryn, therefore no more story! Muahahaha! Actually I'd think of something really lame, for example
"Oh no Taryn's been eaten by a giant ant! What shall we do?"
In response, "How about nothing?"
"That works for me!"
And Tadah you have a chapter! Please don't let it come to that! REVIEW!