A/N: Own nothing and going to start using lyrics because well they can express what I can't, maybe next chapter or the next! Enjoy!
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"That's great!" Sara leapt into his arms and planted her lips on his; it took an second or two before he pushed her away.
"What are you doing?"
"I love you, you love me, what else is there standing in our way?" she was way too happy to be sober
"Umm…my girlfriend for one, the one that I was going to propose to when I got back, that's why I came here, to buy a diamond ring"
"But"
"No I told you I'm not coming back here" he stated crossly, he was afraid that he would completely loose it and soon if he didn't get out of there, but how to leave a person who is as thick headed as Sara, believing that he did love her and would do anything for her?
"What will happen to me?"
"The same thing you've been doing for months, maybe years I don't know, but if you don't stop you'll end up dead, and I hate to think that the next time I come back would have to be your funeral"
"There's nothing I can do to make you stay?" she began unzipping her dress from the back
"Short of you saying that you're pregnant with my child, which I know you aren't, even then highly unlikely that I would come back, so there is nothing. Tempting me with sex isn't going to either"
"I knew this would happen, it always does"
"What always happens?"
"I mess up any relationship I've ever had" tears spilled over and down her cheeks
"That's not true"
"Yes it is, every relationship since I was a little kid, my father was the only one I had a relationship and look where he is" she turned away from him, weeping silently
"You'll find someone that will make it work" he turned her around with his hands on her shoulder
"I already have"
"I can't be with you" he said full-heartedly
"But you still love me"
"That may be true but that doesn't mean, I'm in love with you"
"But you were at one time?"
"Yes I was, was being the key word I couldn't stand around watching as you went through man after man, waiting for the chance that you'll ever see me in a different light. If it had been a few months after I left yes, probably I would have come back, not now, four years later so much has changed"
"Would you come back if anything changed, if the relationship didn't work out?"
"My relationship has nothing to do with why I'm here, it only started a year ago"
"Is it getting serious?"
"Did you just not hear me? I plan to propose so yes Sara it is getting serious" this seemed to make her cry harder, and she sunk onto the sofa, crying
"Well let me be the first to congratulate you"
"I don't want to leave like this, with this hatred between us"
"I don't hate you"
"No you love me" shouldn't he be finally happy that she was saying that she did love him, and no one else?
"And I'm never going to see you again" he sat down beside her and took her hands in his
"Hey, you will see me again, I promise you that"
"Oh ya when?"
"That I can't promise anything with? Anybody I know planning to retire?"
"Brass might put in early retirement"
"See I'll be back for that, and any conventions that are around here"
"But she'll be with you wont she?"
"More than likely" he nodded quickly
"I guess I have no say in this do I?"
"No sorry you don't"
"Don't apologize, I'm happy for you, really"
"You're lying through your teeth"
"Just believe that I'm not"
"I'll try, come here" he held his arms open for her to come into, just for a little comfort he assured himself, nothing that would lead to anything, he would hold her until she stopped crying and then excuse himself and leave. Nothing too hard. Nothing too easy.
"Would you do something for me?" she asked against his chest
"What is it?"
"Will you make love to me?"
"Sara…"
He couldn't finish his sentence as Sara was kissing him, and he knew he should of but he didn't stop her, even when she started removing his clothes.
Several hours later as Sara 'slept' beside him he kept thinking over and over
What the fuck have you done?
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He'd slept with Sara Sidle and fell into her carefully set up trap.
A/N: Just a ditty one, to tide you over, and yes you are all probably saying YES! But I can only hope that more than a few read this. Just remember that there is still a few more chapters including when he goes home. Will he or wont he tell Alison? I already know its partly written if only I could find it!