Chapter 8
A/N. Sorry it took so long, but here it is, and it is longer than most of my chapters so far. Enjoy.
At the Pub, Rory waited anxiously for Finn and Colin to arrive, while Steph just smiled an "I'm innocent" smile. Both girls felt like the next moment could change their lives, but were both clueless as to what would happen.
As soon as Rory saw Logan walk through the door, she knew she needed to leave, she couldn't stay and listen to what Logan would have to say, it would hurt too much.
"Steph, I'm leaving, I can't talk to him, I just can't," said Rory in a quiet but exasperate tone of voice.
Steph looked Rory straight in the eye and said quietly, but firmly, "Rory, you need to talk to him. Even if you don't do it know, you know you will have to do it eventually, and why not just get it over with and move on? You both need it, more than either of you knows."
Rory just stared at her, then the door, where Logan had just walked through. She knew that she had to talk to him, to tell him that she missed him, to ask him why he had left her. She also knew that if she confronted him, and it hadn't been a mistake, then she couldn't pretend anymore that it was, that he didn't love her. It would bring the realization that she wasn't good enough for him true. I can do it though, I will be strong, and I will know the truth, she thought to herself.
As soon as Logan walked in he knew that Rory was there, he could feel her presence. It also helped that Finn and Colin tensed up when they walked through the door. What do I say to her? Will it even matter to her that I have been suffering ever since she left? I need to talk to her though, but not with tons of people staring at me, at her, he thought to himself. So with new resolve he walked straight over to where Rory was sitting with Steph, and casually said, "How've you been?"
As soon as he said it, he knew he had made a mistake, that that was definitely the wrong approach to take. He hated it when she glared at him, it made him feel like he had no control over himself, so powerless.
"Ok, I know you're mad at me—"
"No, ya think?" she replied sarcastically.
"Please can we talk about it, not here, somewhere more…more…private?"
"What if I don't want to?"
"That's your choice, but why in the world would you want to talk about our personal life in public?"
"Our personal life? OUR personal life? You mean YOUR personal life that you kept from me?" she replied angrily.
"Please Rory; I really don't want to talk about this here. Please?" he asked quietly, with the "please" being only a pleading whisper.
Rory looked at him straight in the eye, then quietly looked at Steph, then Finn, then Colin, then replied with a faint, "sure."
They both walked quietly, neither of them knowing exactly where they were going, they just walked. Both of them were trying hard to forget what the other would probably say, that would ruin their relationship even farther.
They ended up in the middle of campus, where there was a small pond, and some trees. It was where they had gone and just sat on all of their "anniversaries", it was a special place. To bad this place is going to be where we talk for the last time, they both thought.
It was a dark night, there were no stars in the sky illuminating the pond, nor was the moon out. It was foggy, and the only light visible was a street light a few feet away from the pond.
When they reached the pond, Rory turned to face Logan and quietly, so it was barely audible, said, "Why?"
Logan was shocked, of all the ways for her to have asked the question he hadn't thought it would be quiet, he thought she would be fuming mad.
Before he could say anything, she continued. "Why did you do it? Was I not good enough? Was it because I moved out, 'because I wanted Steph to stay on campus? Was it because I have become friends with your friends? Was it because I just am not good enough? Why?" The last "why" came out as more of a whimper than anything else.
Logan was shocked to say the least, of all the things he expected, it wasn't this. He expected her to rant and rave, and carry on about how we was a jerk, and how he needed to get out of her life. He did not expect her to think it was her fault, because she wasn't good enough, she was. She was his world, and without her he was falling apart.
"Rory, nothing happened. NOTHING. I promise. But even if you don't believe me, know that there is nothing wrong with you, you are as perfect as humanly possible, and I love you."
"Logan, have you ever hear the song Wishes by Superchick?"
"No, but what does this have to do with anything?"
"There is a verse that is quite relevant to what we are going through." She then pulled out her ipod, clicked a few buttons the said, "Listen to this."
The saddest thing is you could be anything that you could want
We could have been everything
But now we're not
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream I built with you
A fairytale that isn't coming true
You've got some growing up to do
CHORUS:
I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have these doubts
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I
I wish that I could stop this wishing
And just say my last goodbye
After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I'm still in love with you
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
I'm taking back the life that I gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do…
CHORUS
It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye…
CHORUS
It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye
Logan looked straight at Rory and replied, "You mean, you mean you don't believe me? Rory I promise you I am telling you the truth. You can't leave me, Rory I love you, and it was my sister and my cousin. They can both testify to that, even my parents would tell you that, and they don't have a side. You can talk to them if you want, and verify what took place, that it wasn't what it looked like. Please."
"Logan, I loved you, and while I may believe you that it was your cousin, why didn't you try to call, or come chasing after me. Why did you give up?"
"Finn told me to give you some space, and we both know that if I had come and chased after you, you wouldn't have believed me, you would have run. You weren't ready to hear what I had to say. But I did try, Finn just intercepted me first. I love you Rory, please believe that."
"Fine."
"What?"
"I said fine. Is that a problem, do you want me to fight you? Do you want me to tell you to go away? I can if you want me to."
"No, that's not what I meant."
"Then what did you mean?"
"I meant that I was surprised that you believed me, that you trusted me."
A/N. Ok, I know that took, FOREVER. But I didn't have inspiration, and then I went to a conference, Acquire the Fire, which was AMAZING. And well life had been hectic ever since. But I need to know if you want me to just finish the confrontation and end it, or keep going. It will be whatever you decide. I will try to update quicker.