Careless

Category: Anime Fairy Tail

Author: MisZ Anarchy

Language: English

Rating: M

Disclaim – Fairy Tail belongs to Hiro Mashima.

Chapter 12 – We were ok

"I'm the hood Mona Lisa, break a n*##a into pieces, Had to X some cheesy niggas out my circle like a pizza," Megan Thee Stallion – Savage

"Okay so that Warrant Officer in the back told me I'm working overtime on New year's day." One of the new Constable said as he walks up to me.

"Oh you will be working with me and Jellal then," I say and at this Dan smiles giving me a firm thumbs-up. He was a Grey two point oh and very hyper, something that would be his downfall in the end

"That Warrant Officer in the back is ballsy but she is sexy." Dan replies with a cheeky smirk and at this we double up because did he just refer to Aries? Laxus raises an eye at Dan.

"Aries?" Grey asks and at this I joke and laugh because he couldn't be serious.

"You mean Lucy?" I rectify him and I watch how Laxus eyes him now because no offense to Aries but I didn't find one thing sexy about that woman and I think he had mistaken her for Lucy.

"Yea, the one married to Sgt Grey." At this I howl laughing and Hikiki who was close enough to hear us burst out laughing almost falling out of the vehicle. "How long have they been married?" Dan asks and for some reason I was going to entertain this because it was funny as fuck. Hibiki closes the vehicle door and then we see the blonde in question walking out of the office and all eyes are on her as we stop laughing and Laxus winks at Lucy.

"Babe finish up fast I need to get home quick." There is a silence that falls among us as Dan looks between myself, Hibiki, Grey and Laxus, the cogs in his head finally working as he puts two and two together.

"Wait! So it's Laxus and Lucy?" Dan asks and we all chuckle as we stand around the car watching each other, Lucy completely oblivious to what we were talking about. "You all knew that these two are together and you make me look like a fool!" at this we laugh again

Well I have only ever seen them hug, never kiss. And for a moment I stand back and think to myself. "Never have I ever seen the two of you kiss." I state as a matter of fact and I can see that we are agitating the shit out our friend now.

"What if we don't kiss?"Laxus asks as a matter as fact.

"God the things I would do to that mouth if she was single…." We all go quiet as we look to Dan. He over stepped his boundaries. Because you don't say that shit to or about someone else partners. And not when that partner does shooting as a sport. No one would want to be on the receiving end because Laxus would kill everyone evolved and that made me gulp

"So you're all telling me all men are off limits for Miss Heartfelia…" Dan innocently asks.

"I do assume Laxus might shoot you." I say and my eyes move towards him to which he smiles In agreement.

"At least I can trust a man like Natsu around her because he won't fuck around." Laxus replies as Lucy finally registers what is being said and her eyes go wide as we all just nod in acknowledgement and turn to face anyone but Laxus or Lucy.

"In AA, with an AKm melee, finna set it like a playdate, Better vacate, retreat like a vacay, mayday," Eminem ft Juice WRLD – Godzilla

Leading up to the holidays we all just kept to ourselves. Most people went on leave and there was minimal people who was at work. So when the 31st rolled by it felt like a normal day. Except Laxus wasn't at work and Lucy was sitting in the secretary office.

So when I got to work it was business as usual. But something was off and I meant it was really off. So when Gray and Dan reported for duty we booked out a vehicle and did normal patrols. They would be working overtime with me that evening leading up to New year's.

For some reason Lucy decided to forgo leaving early as the support employees was sent home early for the festive season even when she claimed she was not feeling well and she had a rather bad temper to her as Laxus didn't even try to ensure that he would be going into the New Year with her.

It was just before 4 PM when Lucy strolled down to my usual spot where I smoked. The tree had become like a normal meeting spot for us. "Hey," Lucy greeted as she smiles to me, she looked across the parking lot towards where some people were seated at the pond.

"You're still here?" I ask taking a drag from my smoke and extending my arm to her. She doesn't hesitate as she walks into my embrace and she folds her arms around me.

"Yeah even if the doctor sent me home." She says as she remains in my embrace not willing to move, to others it might have looked like a lovers embrace but we just remained in each other's arms as I continue to smoke.

"You feeling sick?" I ask as I look over to the people at the pond. Our commander together with a member and his wife and the pastor.

"Yeah, I don't feel too good." She says as Dan walks out of the house and he stops at the side of the house waving towards her.

"Hey Lucy," Dan greets and she temporarily loosens her hand and she gives him a small wave. "You still here?" he asks to which she finally lets go of me and takes a step back.

"You know me, a workaholic." She replies as she keeps her eyes firmly on the group at the pond, frowning every now and again.

"Any plans for the new year?" Dan asks and she shakes her head from side to side.

"Not really, I know you're working though." She says and I take another drag from my cigarette and look to the group at the pond. Soon Grey appears as he makes his way to Dan and he also gives Lucy a one sided hug before stepping back. "Hey Grey, you ready for tonight?" she asks as both Grey and Dan is now out of sight from the pond and standing next to the house.

"You know I am always ready for duty," Grey replies with a smile and then looks to Dan smiling.

I look back at the group at the pond then motion to Lucy. She briefly looks to me then back to the group. "And that?" I ask finishing up my cigarette and I continue to look as I see the pastor rise, followed by our commander and then the member and his wife.

"They have been here the whole day, something is up." She replies and that's when it happened, her eyes focus in on the group then they go wide as her hand rises and she gasps for air, both her hands goes up as she places them on my chest and she pushes forward making me tumble somewhat.

I didn't know or realize what happened until the member had the firearm in his mouth and as I fell to the ground the gunshot went off. In that small span of time Lucy had witness the member grab for our commanders firearm, he first aimed to our commander and then someone yelled to stop.

And that's when he turned the firearm on himself and pulled the trigger. Our bodies hit the floor before his body lifelessly fell to the ground. Lucy's eyes were wide as she stared in that direction, her mouth agape as her lower lip quivered tears welling up in her eyes.

Her body wasn't heavy but it held weight as she lay on top of me, her one hand over her mouth as she finally looked down and her eyes met mine. I almost felt frozen but being a policeman all those years kept my mind sharp as I wrap an arm around her and with my other hand reach for my firearm. Even though I hit my head I moved fast and thought smarter.

She was underneath me now as I rolled us over and I had my firearm aimed in the direction of where the shot went off. Dan was flat on the ground, his hands on his head. Grey to the side of the house as he took cover and moved to reach for his firearm but remaining out of sight.

I look to the lifeless body on the ground, our commander only a few feet further also on the ground with his hands raised over his head taking cover. The pastor stood there in complete silence as he stared to where the member stood moments before.

I looked around as most people that was in the area either took cover or prepared to fire. Lucy was still beneath me as I held her too me, the sight something I never wished upon anyone to witness. She was yelling, or repeatedly yelling "No, no, no" that it came out as a blur. Tears were now freely rolling down her red cheeks.

I didn't plan ending this year on such a sad note neither did I plan entering the new year with the suicide of one of our own. "Lucy?" I call to her but her eyes are fixated on the scene just meters from us. "Lucy?" I call again but she just kept staring.

I finally find my balance as I pull her up but her body isn't steady on her feet. I pull her against my body and look from the pastor then to our commander who is still on the ground to Grey and Dan who seem to be hiding. No one making a move.

"Lucy!" I yell then look to Dan when she isn't replying and I motion for her to go to him and he quickly jumps and he reaches for her successfully grabbing her and pulling her into his embrace. I steady my firearm as I look from side to side and I start to make my way toward the lifeless body on the ground. I move fast because everyone one else stopped moving.

I move forward and when I reach the body I kick the firearm of to the side and I reach down towards the members pulse. "We need a medic!" I yell but I already knew it was too late as I feel no pulse. "Call emergency services!" I call again even if it was in vain. It was too late. But I stood there until emergency services reached us and declared him dead on the scene. They ensured the firearm was safe and then the medic inspected each and every person.

It was nearly 7 PM when I found Lucy with Dan and Grey in the boardroom. Mavis had instructed everyone on the scene to go home and our overtime had been cancelled. The event was of such a traumatic nature that none of us seemed fit for duty.

Lucy sat, her eyes wide as she stared off out of one of the windows but when I entered the room her eyes darted to me. So when I reached out my arm she instantly lets go of Dan and reached for me. Her silence was loud as I kept her in my arms. I think this was the most traumatic event she had ever witnessed. So when Grey told me he was driving her home I just agreed and nodded my head. As they drove out of the station gate it finally hit me and I couldn't help the feeling of loss that overcame me. Today was off and would forever change us.

"Oh girl we notice, your body the coldest, Everybody fall in love, fall in love" Jason Derulo feat Admin Levine – Lifestyle

I refrained for going to work most of the new week. I couldn't get myself to get out of bed, I couldn't forget what I saw, I didn't know what was more traumatic seeing the suicide or Lucy's reaction to the suicide.

Her face was etched into my mind, her eyes and how petrified she was. It seemed that no one noticed or acknowledged the fact that Lucy had remained behind that day. It was unknown to Mavis that she had witnessed the events that shook our station and our community. How she did it was beyond me but she made sure it was not knowledge to anyone what she witness, only the people who had seen her knew and it seemed that they were too traumatized to recall her presence but I knew.

So when I came back I dreaded driving into the station but when I got out of my car she was standing there. Her arms spread open as she welcomed me. "Are you ok?" came her voice as I closed the door and I stepped into her embrace, not even acknowledging Laxus or any other members.

"No." came my reply as I hugged her

"You were here when it happened?" Laxus asked half knowing I was here because I was the one who called him. I glare to him as I nod my head and just continue to hold Lucy. "I am sorry you had to witness it Natsu. Fuck I am so sorry." Laxus states as he shakes his head.

Hibiki shakes his head as well as he places his hands on his hips. "That must have been truly traumatic."

"I am here if you if you want to talk." I hear Lucy say as she hugs me tighter then I have ever been hugged before. And that's when she releases me and she pulls me at arm's length and looks to me. She gives me a half smile then nods her head. "I arranged an appointment with a therapist for you for Wednesday at 10:00, I'll message you the address." With that I frown at her not completely understanding what she meant.

"I think everyone who witnessed the suicide should get to see a therapist." Laxus says and Lucy looks to him nodding as Grey walks closer to us, he had finally arrived for work.

"Yeah we are busy arranging therapy sessions for everyone. But when I spoke to Mavis she suggested a private therapist due to the pastor also witnessing the suicide." Lucy replies as Grey reaches for her and hugs her as well. Laxus shakes his head as he looks to Grey then to Lucy.

"That was good decision making on her behalf." Laxus replies and Lucy just rolls her eyes at the man beside her.

"I just need to make sure everyone goes and gets debriefing." Lucy says and I have no idea how she does this with a smile on her face.

"I should probably go sign my leave form." I finally say and Laxus and the other just nod as Lucy takes a step back from Grey and she turns on her heel.

"Yeah I filled it, it just needs your signature." Lucy says as she starts to walk and I follow suit.

As we got out of earshot I grab her arm and pull her to turn to me. Her eyes meet mine and she has this small smile. "When did you get back? When is your appointment?" she almost seemed surprised that I asked her this, her frown said it all as she stared at me.

"I never left…" she replies and that's when realization sets in. "No one knows I was here but us. So keep it that way." She replies as a matter of fact. Did she honestly think I would? Just like everyone else she witness what I witnessed, she went through the traumatic experience, she needed debriefing just as much as I did.

"You have to." I say as I pull her in closer and stare at her in disbelief

"I'll be ok." Was her reply but I didn't believe it for one second.

"Lucy please you need to go see someone. At least do it for me." I ask almost pleading as I stare down at her.

"Or what?" she asks and I didn't believe that she was serious.

"Or…" I pull her flush against my body and my lips meet hers in a heated kiss, and it was like we kissed for the first time as I pushed all my emotion into that kiss… Our eyes closing as I savour the feel of her soft lips. "We stop this…" I reply after pulling from her, this would be the only way to threaten her if she really wanted what was happening between of us.

To my surprise she gasped. "No." She replies and pulled me in for a soft peck once more. The moment ends way too soon before I can savour it. She places her palm on my chest and pushes me lightly. "I'll go see someone." And with that she turns once more and I find myself following her.

"You coulda had a bad bitch, non-committal, help you with your career just a little,"Lizzo – Truth Hurts

After seeing the therapist I just felt so fucked up, even more so then I should, it made me so much more aware on how bad it actually was gretting at the station. I wasn't happy at the station and this was just work related. I think the only reason that I was still there was to see Lucy.

I mean I stayed in a different policing prescient and I contemplated whether or not to just put in a transfer. But the thing is, I tried pleading and begging for the management just to move me to the detectives because I had a passion in investigation and even if there was an open spot they refused to place me at the detectives as I was a too good member to lose at Visible policing.

Management had this firm grip on all the members and their movements. And it wasn't only me that was un-happy about this. I was supposed to be a sector co-ordinator but on the system I was part of Crime Prevention which was a complete piece of bullshit. The posts of the sector co-ordinators were actually for Captains but now you have Constables and Sergeants placed there just to make the picture look good. It was bull shit and all the work was now shifted to us. The reliefs were not bringing in their part like they were supposed to.

We were the ones making the arrests, getting the targets. We were working ourselves to the bone all for the relief to drive around in their vehicles and patrol. They attend to the petty shit like the shopliftings and then it wasn't even them who made that arrests but the shopping centre's security they just get handed the suspect. We were working awkward hours from early too late to ensure that we reach targets of drunk and driving and drug arrests when we should have been focussing on the real crime. The only reason I have reached this point was due to Lucy sending me to a therapist and all this shit came up. Shit that we all had bottled up I am sure. I take a deep breath as I continue to watch television and Lisanna is silently making dinner in the back, but she hears my sigh.

"Love, what's wrong?" She asks and I lazily look up to my wife as I frown at her. She was also a topic of discussion at the therapy session. No idea how she was related to my work situation. Maybe it was because I could finally say what I was thinking and feeling without having the judgement of other around me.

"I want to leave the station." I manage to say and at this she tilts her head to the side and furrow her brows.

"I thought this would be coming." She states placing the knives on the kitchen counter and making her way towards me, sitting on the armrest of my chair. "You haven't been happy there for a while." She states lightly brushing her hand through my hair.

"Can you blame me?" I ask her looking up into her eyes.

"Not really." She states as she continues to stroke my hair lightly. "You are working so hard and they barely give you a breather much less appreciate all the work you're doing." she continues and I nod my head.

"I have been there almost my whole career. Maybe it's time to look at other opportunities. Even other stations." I say and at this she gives me a soft smile. "I can see if I can get a cross transfer because they won't let me go without a replacement." I say and her eyes soften as I say that. She always wished that I would always remain at the station where her father had been the Visible Policing Commander and she always thought I would take up that post. But I was still a mere Constable and that road was still far, even with my studying. She gives me a kiss on my forehead and then she rises again walking back to the kitchen to finish dinner.

"Roses, I walked in the corner with the body screaming dolo,"SAINT JHN - Roses

I take a seat in front of Lucy as she types on her computer smiling brightly. She seemed optimistic. I take a moment and wonder if she went and saw a therapist herself but I would question her on that at a later stage.

"Lucy…" I say and she looks up her eyes meeting mine and it was like she had stars sparkling behind those beautiful eyes and a smile that I just had to return but I felt that other than the therapist and my wife I wanted to discuss my situation with her. Maybe she would know better, or try and advise me better.

"Natsu?" she asks with a smile but she sees that I am hesitate as I look down.

"I want to leave this place." I say softly and at first she just sits still and her eyes remain on me. I can't look her in the eyes because in a way I felt that I am saying that I want to leave her and that was not the case. "I want to leave the station." I say again and at this I feel her soft hand touch mine and she has a soft smile as I finally look up and my eyes meet hers.

"Can I ask way?" she asks as she slowly strokes my hand and she continued to stare into my eyes with that small smile on her lips.

"I have been here for more than eight years, and our working situation currently is not really good… There is no place for me to grow or do what I want to because I want to move to the detectives and they don't even want me to do that." I say as I look down to our hands which she is still slightly stroking. "And after that…. Incident I just can't, I am traumatized seeing one of our own members taking their life." I finish and her expression softens as she looks at me with a soft smile. "I need to leave." I repeat and at this she smile slightly.

"Well let me help you?" she asks and I tilt my head not sure what she meant because how was she going to help me. She didn't have connections or anything to actually pull strings like that. She removes her hand from mine and then she is moving her mouse and clicking on away at her computer.

"How?" I ask as she gives me this shy little smile but she continues to click away.

"Well if they don't want to help you at the station then we go to Province. You remember that workshop you and Laxus attended in broadening your career path?" she asks and at this I raise a brow but I nod my head. "I am sending him an e-mail requesting that you meet up with him and then maybe he can assist and type up a report. But also in the meantime let's see if we can get you a cross transfer." At this she smiles brightly like she had a trick up her sleeve.

"And what is this going to help? They will disapprove the transfer if I am not replaced with someone to their liking." I say. I was rather negative because any and all ways that I was going to try to get out was not going to help because I knew Mavis and the management will go out of their way to ensure that I don't leave this place.

"Trust me?" she asks and at this I just shake my head from side to side. But I did trust Lucy. "Remember there is still a lot about me that you have no idea about." She states and at this she gives me this brilliant smile showing me all her pearly white teeth.

"I trust you. But it seems the only way getting away from here is either a promotion which I would never get or I am dying here." I say as I look to the side window and watch as they clean the garden.

"Don't say that Natsu!" She states and then she smiles brightly. "Okay I have good news." She states and with this she turns the screen of her computer as she shows me the screen. It was an e-mail. "Okay so while you spoke I e-mailed Colonel Roux from Provincial Office and it seems you will be meeting up with him next week to discuss possible career changes and developments." My eyes go wide as I scan over the mail that I am reading of which the Colonel did agree. I was actually surprised. "So next week Wednesday you can skip the operation and go to your appointment." She states with a big smile and I have no idea how the fuck she just did that.

"Thank you Lucy." I say as I look over the e-mail again, in utter disbelieve.

"Just keep it too yourself though." She states with a smirk.