Yes yes i havent update in forever. i know and apologize. but here it is. im thinking of ending the story here but idk. I need feedback! there is no interuptions. just rose and emmett. anyway i hope you like it. i tried hard on this chapter. Enjoy and review.

i dont own twilight or any of the charecters. stephenie meyer does. :)

Chapter 10

I let out a shuddering breath as my fingers clutched at his shirt tightly. You're scum. The voice in my head said. I had been hearing it ever since the transformation was complete. Was this what Edward went through all the time? Why was it that I seemed to always do the wrong thing? Emmett did not answer me when I asked for forgiveness, and the pain of it stabbed at me. Was I truly meant to spend eternity alone, even after finding someone so perfect? He took a breath after some time. I didn't want to know what he would say. No. I couldn't bare that. I was ready to block out every word that he said but he took me by the wrists and pulled me onto the bed with him, shocking me momentarily.

"Forgive you?" He said frowning.

I turned from him and nodded. You're scum. Wasn't I?

"No Rosalie, I won't forgive you because-

At that I leaped from the bed as if he was contagious and covered my face with my hands.

"Will you let me finish?" He said with pleading eyes.

I shook my head violently balling my hands into fists and crossing them over my chest.

Your scum, pathetic, a disgrace.

He was behind me in a second, and I felt his strong arms turning me around to face him. Again it was odd to see him this way. He towered above me and his eyes, usually warm and dark, were now a startling shade of bright red. I couldn't stand to look at him…it hurt too much. I had done this to him.

"Rosalie," He whispered and shook his head with a pained expression. When I didn't respond he shook me gently. "Look at me." It was an order, not a request.

Slowly and reluctantly I turned to face him. I deserve this. I thought. To have finally gotten what I wanted, only for it to be taken from me.

"What I meant to say is that, I won't forgive you, because there is nothing to forgive. I looked up into his eyes, unbelieving. "I should be thanking you instead…you saved me Rosalie. Remember?"

"I killed you Emmett, I didn't care if you wanted this life, I should've asked." "I am a murderer."

He smiled that flawless smile of his caressing my cheek with his thumb. "You are no murderer, I know who you are. Besides, what sort of murderer asks their victim if they would prefer to be killed or not?"

I could only manage two words: "I'm scum."

At that he chuckled, his face softening and making his eyes wrinkle slightly at the corners. He was so beautiful when he laughed. His cold hand smoothed my hair back.

"You're not scum; you're an angel."

I shook my head, frustrated that he couldn't get it through his head that I was no angel. He was still holding me. "You don't get it do you Emmett?" "I'm a disgrace, the lowest of low; no I'm worse than that! I'm a vampire."

"Well," He said carefully as he thought of all the nasty words that flew from my mouth, describing myself. "If you're a disgrace, lowest of low…a vampire…how bad can it be?"

I stood looking at him. He was insane, I concluded.

He laughed humorlessly then and shook his head again. "You know…I barely know you and yet…"

"I feel like I've known you forever," I interrupted.

He nodded vehemently. "It's so strange…If I told you I love you would you think I was insane?"

I laughed softly. "Too late for that," The corner of his mouth pulled up slightly but then became serious again.

"I know its crazy, how could I love someone I hardly know, but I…I do Rosalie." At those words I almost thought, for just a second that my heart beat. I couldn't help myself. I smiled wholly. He lifted my chin up so we were looking in each others eyes.

"I can't tell you," I said my voice shaking a little. "How much I love you."

He smiled.

"I love you so much it hurts sometimes, and to know that you feel the same way it's…" I couldn't finish. I tried to explain to him how much he really meant to me.

"Shhh," He said pushing back a stray lock of hair. "No words can define what I feel for you, none."

For a moment it seemed as if time stopped and we were just suspended there looking into each other's eyes. I wanted him, wanted him so badly. But was this right? After all I had done. After everything I had selfishly stolen from him? But the questions were moot because at that moment all I saw was him. And in his expression I saw nothing but love. Hesitantly he set his hands on both sides of my head and leaned in forward to press his cold lips against mine. Then the kiss deepened and I didn't want it to end. That this wonderful, sweet man should ever want me, well, it was unfathomable. Reluctantly he pulled away to gaze at me for a while.

"I love you," He whispered.

I smiled. "I know." Before I knew it I was in his arms and we were running. Where? I did not know. But as soon as I smelt the clean mountain air I knew so well. He set me down on the damp grass and watched me as I lay closing my eyes. He bent over me and kissed my forehead, then my nose, finally meeting my lips. He pulled me into his lap and began stroking my hair.

"You're beautiful," He said kissing my cheek in one swift movement. "Inside and out."

I lay my head on his cold chest. And we just sat there for hours till it got dark. Time seemed to fly by. If I was going to be a vampire, if I was going to live for an eternity, it would be with him. And I would have it no other way.

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