Remember all the things we wanted.
It wasn't to say that they didn't almost die that day, because they did. They came very close, in fact.
Miroku had almost run out of time, and it took weeks for his whole arm to heal. The poison almost did him in. Sango had suffered multiple broken ribs and ankle and, last but not least, a blown bloody eye. Inuyasha lost a hand which he did recover in only two months' time, along with two black eyes, broken ribs, and heart. Kikyo was the only one who didn't make it; there was no saving her even if they wanted to. The jewel did not reverse anything like some of them hoped. But they were sure that she was no longer in hell.
Kagome thought she had died. The last thing she recalled before blacking out was holding the jewel, Sesshmaru flying towards her, and then an explosion. She woke seventeen hours later in an old hut. She recalled the sound of the rain on the roof, waking her.
Everyone was passed out but him.
He sat on the floor against a dirty wall just watching her. She managed to turn her head slightly as he stood up and walked to her.
"Are we dead?" She asked it was dark and cold.
He carefully leaned down and kissed her, showing her that she still had feelings and warmth, showing her they were not dead but alive. It took her by surprise, however. "Did you hit your head?" She was covered in blood, scratches, and bruises the most notable was the trail of dried blood leaving her nose. She was sure if it had not been for him, she would have died. But he healed faster than any of them, but she did see the blood on his clothing.
She asked with a hoarse voice, but then her mind went to her friends, "Where is everyone else?"
He stepped aside, and she saw them all lying around.
The next day they went West, slowly and he let them rest and heal, but when it was time to go, she had nowhere to go. The well had closed. He took her back, and nothing much else was said. He gave her a home, a life, let her come and goes and do as she pleased. She never asked, and he never said, and so this uncommon life started. They acted as they always had during the day and around others, but at night, he took pleasure in her, and she liked to pretend he actually cared. She knew quite quickly; she was around because of his honor and the mark. The mark meant he didn't have to indulge or entertain women; in all, Kagome had become a useful tool to him, and he was the hand that fed her, and so she was ok with that. Plus, the sex and his hands were enough to sustain her brain.
But she knew what was happening that she was falling for him. Hoping for his touch at night. Waiting to wake to see him in the day. Feeling happy that he didn't seem to want another. It was everything she wanted; he was everything she wanted. He was the male that none could compare to. She often found herself saying this could work.
She was well aware that the night he marked her that he wasn't asking for a lifetime, just one night because they were never supposed to see the sunrise.
He didn't have to do any of this. This was what she wanted, not what he wanted. If life or death had not happened, none of this would have happened. She would have never known him as a man; he would have never touched her; it was all based on circumstances and not a real choice — a back against the wall kind of thing.
Kagome shook her head and packed a small back for the morning journey. She hoped she could slip out without him bumping into her because she didnt want him to think she was leaving because of what she was sure was something he was not aware she saw. Sleep didn't come; the hours passed so slowly. Clouds started to form, and she knew the rain was coming, she could only hope it would stay away long enough for her to get where she was decided not to wait till dawn, he was always awake before then anyway. He did not come that night; she knew why. She made her way to the stables, her breath showing in the cool air, winter would be here soon.
"My Lady," A male bowed,
Some graced her with the title, others did not, and Sesshomaru never said anything; otherwise, neither did she. She smiled and bowed her head.
"Something I can do for you?"
"A horse please,"
The man looked over her,
"I'm going to see Inuyasha,"
"Ah, I see just you then,"
She nodded, and the horse was packed and ready within moments.
"Save travels then My Lady,"
"Thank you,"
It would take her several hours, and she made it just before the rain started to fall. Inuyasha met her in an old abandon hut. The rain reminded her of that next day. Same smell, same sound, and almost the same looking hut.
"Kagome, what are you doing here," Inuyasha rushed to hug her "Are you ok, is something wrong?"
He quickly pushed her away, holding her out at length. She knew she didn't have to say anything. His eyes drifted down, and then slowly, a hand fell to her flat tummy, and their eyes met again. "Does he know?"
She shook her head no and then told him everything.
"So, you just left?"
"I dont know what to do, how to feel?"
"You have to tell him Kagome,"
"I know that,"
He pulled away "I'm sorry I haven't come back by,"
"It's ok, I know its a little weird,"
"I dont blame you, or him, how where we supposed to know? The only definite thing was our death,"
"He doesn't own me anything Inuyasha,"
He sighed and pressed his hand to her again "You could always come here but, it is his, and he is going to want you near,"
"Do you think he is going to be angry,"
"K, bastard knows how to make a baby Kagome if he's made he's gonna have to be mad at himself,"
"Yeah, he sure does,"
"She was before you, remember that,"
"It's bad timing,"
"I know,"
Their forehead touched, "You gonna stay the night?"
"No, I'm going to move on and see Sango and Miroku,"
"Second opinion?"
She smiled "I trust you,"
"Want me to go with you?"
"No, it's ok,"
"At least wait till the rain goes away, if you get sick he will be mad,"
She smiled "Hai, ill go visit Kaede,"
Kaede didnt ask, she didnt tell and the strew was good. After a quick nap, Inuyasha helped her back onto the horse and saw her off. The rain had stopped, at least for now.
"I should have stayed with her,"
"Now ye know that's not how fate works; ye were all where ye were meant to be,"
He snorted and shook his head, but he knew she was right. If anything changed, they would all be dead.