Now all our memories, they're haunted.
It started to rain again, and she tried not to cry, but it was all becoming rather depressing. Ending Naraku was supposed to be joyful. Their lives were supposed to be joyful. Inuyasha was alone. Shippo was gone training. Miroku and Sango had yet to conceive even though they thought for sure they would right away. Of course, she knew science didn't quite work that way, but still, it had been months.
They fought hard, and right and she had protected the jewel.
Even though this whole thing was one big fantasy, one big wow of a life, it was still just that, life. A pat on the back, and you made it to see another day.
By time Kagome reached the gates and slid off the horse, she was full-blown crying.
Miroku and Sango met her at the gate, and he pulled it open, and she threw herself into Sango's arms as the rain came down harder.
"Kagome?" Miroku asked,
"He's having a baby," She cried into her friend.
"Let's get her inside Sango,"
Sango nodded, and he grabbed the horse.
He quickly added wood to the fire, and Sango wrapped her in a blanket.
"Now, why dont you start over,"
Kagome looked at them, cold wet and tired "I'm pregnant,"
"Oh," Miroku seemed to calm "Is that all, you scared us,"
"Or is there something else wrong?" Sango asked as she handed Kagome hot tea.
"Is he upset?" Miroku asked,
She looked down at her tea and sniffed into it "I'm not the only one,"
"Come again?" Sango could have sworn she heard wrong,
Kagome looked up again fresh hot tears fell, and she told them just as she had told Inuyasha.
Miroku sighed heavy,
"You can stay here Kagome," Sango quickly offered,
"Of course she can, but she cant keep this from him; you dont plan on doing that, are you?"
"No, of course not I, I just dont know how to tell him, I dont know what to do?"
"It is complicated you are for all purposes, " He sighed again "His mate, intended or not," He added and pinched the bridge of his nose "So you care about him and this,"
"Of course I care,"
She wanted this baby.
"You're afraid," Sango whispered
"You have diplomatic immunity to a lot of things now Kagome," Miroku told her,
"I dont care about that," She cared about how he felt about being tied to her, she cared about how she felt about him.
"You should," He said stern then he soften "Nothing has changed, and you left before he could even come to you,"
He was right about that.
"The first thing you have to do is tell him," Miroku place a hand on her shoulder "I understand you have been content, in fact from what you say you both have been and if that's enough,-
"It was,"
"You love him," Sango said shocked,
Kagome pulled the blanket tighter "I guess so," She whispered,
"You may be worrying for nothing; it is apparent he cares for you in some capacity," Miroku was sure about that.
Kagome nodded, she just needed confidence,
"Plus you do have a diplomatic position there are things he can't do without your consent,"
"He never meant to," That was her main issue, he didn't even have to play the part, and she didn't want a forced relationship.
"But it doesn't change that fact that he did and you are his mate even if neither of you have ever addressed it," Miroku poked the fire "Perhaps its time you do,"
She closed her eyes "That's not fair to him, that's my whole point,"
"But its also not fair to you, you have to talk about it to at least resolve it," Sango added "If he wants you there, and it makes you happy, be there and be happy and if he doesn't then that just the reality of it all and you won't let that mark keep you, I know that, and you can come here," She added,
"If I left, would he take the baby?" Kagome asked,
"I doubt it, would he abandon it, no" Miroku answered,
Sango touched Kagome "Take it one day at a time and do what your heart tells you to do,"
"But dont forget, just because we were given tomorrow does not promise tomorrow," Miroku was ever the wise.
They left her to sleep that night, and Kagome closed her eyes. All of it now, everything leading up to his moment now haunted her. But in the end they were right, she had to tell him, and she had to keep her calm and poise because she had played along and agreed without words to the arrangement they had. It was too late to take it back now. He never wanted more, never asked for more.
She could leave, or she could stay.
Her hand went to her belly. She had to think about the baby, too; it wasn't its fault. Perhaps she could do this, after all, she wasn't in her time. This kind of thing was normal for this time period. But she wondered if she could. Could she be strong enough? Would she be strong enough? Perhaps at least till their child was older just as his mother had done with him.
She didnt stay either after he took Inuyasha's mother as his mate.
Kagome groaned, she had fallen into a diplomatic relationship without knowing it, without wanting to, but that's the price you pay touching an untouchable, powerful man.
Besides, he had been good to her. She didnt want for anything. He was doing for her, why could she not also do for him.
Mutal benefit. She would just have to keep her heart out of it, at least to his face.