Author Note: You don't really get to see a lot of Yui in the Anime and since I haven't read the Manga I don't have much to base her on so I hope it turned out alright. Gendo… umm no comment lol I have a lot of trouble with him.

Title: He Wasn't Suppose to Love Her
Author: Neochick
Theme: # 13 "What a Waste."
Fandom: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Gendo x Yui
Disclaimer: Sadly the characters of NGE do not belong to me in anyway or form. They belong to GAINAX

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"Oh he's beautiful! He has your eyes too." A tired sweat soaked Yui Ikari gently stroked her new baby boy, rocking him lightly in her arms. She looked up at her husband, smiling serenely. "Don't you think Gendo?"

The man in question cleared his throat coolly, taking a closer look at his own flesh and blood. "I suppose." He responded smoothly. Yui laughed at his disposition and held out the little boy to him.

"Here why don't you hold him?" He was about to refuse when the child reached out and grasped his finger. Slightly flustered, but not one to show it, Gendo took the baby into his arms. The kid was fragile, and seemed as though he would shatter if held to tightly. His eyes, in Gendo's opinion, where much more like his mother's; full of life and childlike innocence. On top of his head were small wisps of fine brown hair. It was still too surreal for the male to realize that this was in fact his and Yui's child.

"What's his name?" He muttered quietly, a little less mechanically then usual.

"Ah, well since it's a boy, I thought we could call him…Shinji." She looked over at the peaceful sight of the two people she loved the most in this world.

"Shinji…" He repeated before the boy spat up and started to cry. Giggling, the woman took him back and soothingly sang a lullaby. Gendo was sure he would never be a good father, as sure as he knew that Yui would be a good mother. He looked down at his watch and grimaced before rising to his feet. "I need to get back to work." The new mother nodded in understanding.

"Alright."

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That was one of the best days of his life. Truth be told, everyday spent with the love of his life was one well lived. So once the time for the final step of his project to be carried out, he was reluctant to go through with it. He'd never meant to fall in love with her; she was simply suppose to bring his child to life and help provide the stepping stones to her son's destiny. So why is it as he watches his wife zip up her plug suit does he feel the inclination to stop her. Yui pulls her mahogany hair out from the collar of the suit and turns around with a small smile.

"Ready." Gendo looked away coldly, merely nodding in response. Mrs. Ikari tip toes over to her husband and pecks him on the cheek. "I'll see you in a few hours." He doesn't say anything, he doesn't know how too, to cynical to stop this all from happening. The commander reasons that this is for the good of humanity and Yui would want that. Of course she doesn't know what she's about to do but in good time…

Gendo watches as she waves goodbye. "Take care of Shinji!" She only means for the hour but he knows it's for life. And the door closes as more self doubt manifests, but he won't do anything to stop it.

"What a waste…" He mutters quietly and turns to the stairs that'll lead him to his office. He doesn't want to be there when it happens.

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He can hear the alarms sounding below him, muffled cries of his subordinates trying to stabilize her condition but it's useless, he tells himself as he gazes out at the metropolis that is Tokyo-3. The sun has worked its way down to the horizon, painting the sky an angry red, rather ironic in his opinion. The door to his office swings open but Ikari doesn't look away at the sounds of hurry footsteps of one Kozo Fuyutsuki.

"Gendo! Yui, she…" He stops at the sight of his superior, sipping on a glass of brandy, just looking out the window. He calms his voice but feels a vileness seep within him. He understood now that this was no accident. "Yui was absorbed into EVA unit 01, but you already knew that didn't you." Ikari made no gesture to acknowledge the older man, gulping down another glass of the amber liquid.

"I see… please see to it that the unit receives a thorough analyses. Have a report on my desk in the morning." The commander completely disregarded his deputy's accusations, another matter on his mind. Kozo looked away.

"Yes sir." He bitterly remarked as he left the man to his own devices.

Gendo unleashes a painful sigh as realization settles in. He decides that in the morning he'll take her son to a home for him to live far away from him. He'd call for him when he needed him again. His malice against the boy already apparent even though he really had no direct connection with her death. Perhaps he was jealous that one day Shinji would see his mother again, where as he would lose all contact.

Days from now, Gendo will take the sample of Yui's DNA that had remained in the labs and force a horrific task upon a woman that would do anything for him. He knows this and will take full advantage of it. Regret and love would cause him to do unthinkable acts that would one day trigger third impact. It was all a set plan that had to start with the death of a woman.

He grimaced at the image of her smile, downing another glass as the sky turned black.