Disclaimer: I do not own ANY of these characters. They are all of the brillant work of Stephenie Meyer I am simply using them to adapt them to a story line of my own imagination. I do not claim these characters, plot references nor places as my own creation.

Warning: This is speculatory of 'What if Bella agreed to going to Las Vegas' so it will contain spoilers of the Sequel of Twilight: New Moon up until the point in which Edward asks Bella to marry him.

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Surprising, as it was these words didn't bring me comfort at all. What in god's name was Edward planning? This was the ending of my life shouldn't I have a say in how it's done? What a stupid thought, since when did people get a say in how they die. I sighed heavily for what had to be the thousandth time since we had left the Chapel.

"Bella my love," Edward began softly, "could you stop sighing? Everything will be fine- I swear." I turned to look at him with the utmost scrutiny.

"How can you say that? You're planning my death and won't even tell me how it's going to happen." I saw Edward flinched at the word death and wished I had weighed my options of words more carefully. "Sorry… I meant, well you know." He nodded slightly,

"I know…" He finished softly. Even after getting used to Edward's ridiculous speeds it never ceased to amaze me when a trip that normally took 2 days would only take us 8 hours at the most. I grinned, I have been married for 7 and a half hours. 6 of them I had slept through despite mild protests from my side. Edward had explained I would need my energy for the initial transformation, after that I could sleep through most of it to dull the pain some.

Pain, it was like a best friend. Or at least it was for someone like me it was. But then again; I remember what it felt like when James bit me. I pursed my lips in thought for a moment before I shook my head to clear the thoughts that were clouding my mind.

"We're almost in Forks… I'm going to pull over here and let you out." Edward said as he let go of the steering wheel to grab my hand for a moment. I turned to look up at him and nodded slowly wondering how he was going to go about doing this whole death thing. After a second or two he let go of my hand again and pulled over. I watched him watch the highway for a second until we were pretty much the only ones on the shoulder.

"Just get out and head straight into the woods, I have a car parked there." I grinned in spite of the situation,

"you already bought a car?" I asked with a small laugh. Edward returned my grin with that of his own; the one that I loved so much before he shrugged before reaching behind the seat and grabbing a shopping bag from the backseat.

"Alice bought it, don't blame me for what's in the bag." He said with a small laugh as I tentatively reached into the bag. Slowly I pulled out a sweater, low-neck and pink. I gave Edward a horrified look before biting my lip,

"could… you turn around?" I asked softly in the most awkward manner. Edward looked slightly put-out before he mumbled something along the lines of 'and here I thought married had benefits.' I laughed slightly, Edward was right marriage had those benefits… but I wasn't ready just yet. Even marriage was a big leap for me. Slowly I began pulling my own shirt off and replacing it with Alice's taste of clothing. I was even more tentative to see what Alice had picked out as bottoms for me; slowly but surely I pulled the monstrous article of clothing out of the bag. I gasped in horror;

"EDWARD! How could you let her buy this!" I exclaimed giving the short skirt the once over. You won't be Alice's doll for much longer, I reminded myself as I gave the skirt another horrified look as Edward shook with silent laughter in the seat next to me.

I was reluctant to pull my pants off and replace them with that thing I was expected to wear; but I knew this was the only way the death would be believable. Charlie knew what my pyjamas looked like. I felt horrible about leaving Charlie like this, stealing away into the night with Edward, not even saying goodbye… I felt sick just thinking about it. Quickly I put the skirt on my body and whispered,

"ready…" so Edward could look again. I felt his eyes travel from my exposed thighs to my revealed chest, feeling self-conscious I crossed my arms over my chest quickly before he leaned over me and pushed the door open to let me out.

"Out you get Bella I'm not taking any chances…" He said sternly. I nodded for a moment while in mid-exiting. I stopped completely and turned back around to face him. Leaning in once more I grasped his face in between both my hands before kissing him softly.

"Be safe." I murmured against his lips.

I felt his smile on my lips before he pulled us apart and gently nudged me out the door. I stepped up and turned around to face the car for a moment giving Edward a small smile as I slowly pushed the door closed and backed away stumbling down into the ditch. I wondered how Edward was going to pull off crashing the car and getting himself out safely… I didn't think much of it as I turned around, my back now to the retreating car, and started into the bush. I was careful not to fling branches into my eyes or something as I hiked through the patchy outer layer of the forest until it cleared up a bit and I could walk more relaxed. Straight ahead I repeated to myself as I continued along. Unfortunately, hiking by myself gave me time to think about everything, which certainly wasn't good. My mind roamed to Charlie once again, and Renée, to either I had never said goodbye to. I imagined how they'd feel about my death… for a moment I contemplated turning around and running after Edward until I heard a loud explosion from behind me.

I winced as I spun around to see a cloud of smoke erupting from where he must've crashed the car. I felt sick again and doubled over letting up my breakfast and whatever else was in my stomach. I groaned as I pressed the back of my palm to my mouth. I was such a horrible person; doing this to Charlie and Renée… As I felt my stomach contort again I doubled over further getting ready to vomit once more until I felt Edward's comforting hand on my back rubbing small circles.

"Shh it's okay Bella…" He said softly straightening me up, slowly he reached out and brushed away the tears that must've been on my cheeks… I hadn't known I was crying. He pulled me close against his stone chest and I hugged him tightly. I still didn't know I was crying but I could feel his shirt getting wetter under my face I pulled away, sniffled and wiped my eyes. With a small sigh I looked to my feet still feeling rather low, obviously regretting my decision.

I felt Edward tense against me and I took a sharp breath turning my chin up to look at him;

"I'll be okay; I just feel guilty." I said softly. Edward nodded slightly as he slipped his arm around my waist holding me close to him like he had in Italy. Unhurriedly he led me towards where I assumed the new car was parked. Sure enough a shiny new Mercedes-Benz appeared in a clearing as we stepped out of the thicker brush. I chuckled lightly shaking my head,

"Edward…" I moaned slightly, "always showy…" I finished softly, though I had a feeling the car was under the influence of one Miss Rosalie. Edward grinned and said,

"It's Rosalie and Emmett's wedding present. For us." He said pointedly and I groaned, I had forgotten that with dying I'd lose my truck.

"I don't want to drive." I immediately said, even though I had a feeling Edward wanted to do the first test drive, whether he admitted it or not.

I let go of Edward and made my way carefully around the car, my foot caught on a root that was sticking up and I feel forwards quickly catching myself on the car. Edward groaned,

"Bella… get in the car before you actually do die." He said in a teasing tone of voice. I rolled my eyes, pulled the door open and slipped inside. The smell of new car was simply overwhelming, new leather, that strange cleaner smell… I held my breath for a moment as the smell burned my nostrils until I couldn't hold it anymore. I let out a gasping breath just as the car started, I quickly pulled my seatbelt on assuming Edward would go into 'speed-demon' mode with his new toy. He reversed the car and pulled out following the old tracks made previously by the car and out onto the highway through a hidden driveway.

Edward picked up a bit of speed but slowly came to stop as we got stuck in the traffic obviously cause by our wreckage. I unintentionally looked out the window to see the mangled car against the telephone pole, and I don't know why but my eyes flicked to the faces of the cops and fireman controlling the flames. There he was. I choked on my breath and doubled over gasping for breath as my eyes burned. The expression on his face; the absolute horror… I closed my eyes and willed the image away this was cruel, unfair… I had seen Charlie absolutely distraught as, I assumed, someone told him it was Edward's car. I couldn't breath; I was choking on the breath that was trying to give me oxygen. I knew Edward was there, I knew he was touching me… but I was miles away. Pretend-dying had to be a hell of a lot worse then actually dying; I was still seeing my life flash before my eyes…

"Edward…" I gasped finally as the shaking and rocking began, "make it stop… get out of here…" I groaned through the tears and convulsions. It was unrealistic, was this was I was suppose to be doing? I doubted it… but then again, what human had ever endured faking their own death? None that I had heard of.

"I'm trying Bella…" He said softly as I finally registered he was rubbing my back. I felt the engine rev and soon thereafter pick up speed. I continued to sit there shaking, trying to put myself under control. I wished I could say, 'I take it back, take me home… let me live' but it was a matter of conflicting interests. Edward, or my parents…

"I loved him…" I whispered softly, "I never told him, but I did…" I continued for a moment feeling the burn in my eyes once again.

"I know Bells… I know." Edward comforted me. I didn't want to think about it, I wanted to forget everything, I wanted to look forward to what was coming; eternity with Edward…

With my eyes still closed I took a deep breath and sat up wiping my eyes, yet still shaking. I reached out and tightly grasped Edward's hand,

"tell me something…" I said hurriedly, "take my mind off of it." I finished softly. I turned to look at Edward's stone expression, I could tell he was re-thinking this whole plan, I could almost feel his emotions… he was worried it was his fault I was so upset.

"I love you." He said simply, it was enough, a huge grin appeared on my face as I leaned over and rested against him,

"I love you too." I said quietly. Edward let go of the steering wheel and wrapped his arm around me, hugging me close to his side once more.

"I'm not leaving you anymore…" He murmured softly, I nodded and continued to stare out the windshield my mind far away from my dad and mum. It had settled on the thoughts of Edward and eternity; just like I had asked for. But the hole would come back; I know it would… and how long it would be there I didn't know.

It didn't take me long after we drove past Forks that I realised exactly what house we were going to, to do this. Alaska. I closed my eyes and let my head relax against Edward's shoulder,

"how long until we get there?" I asked quietly. The Canadian border wasn't far from Forks, but then we'd have to drive all the way through British Columbia, through the Yukon to Alaska, and I didn't know how far into Alaska the house was.

"5 hours." Edward said shortly as I felt him brush my hair off of my face. I frowned slightly, only 5 hours to get through the entire province? "Rosalie played with the engine for me." He added after a moment's pause as though he had read my thoughts. But I knew he couldn't. With my eyes still closed I concentrated on figuring out exactly how fast we were going that it would only take that short of time…

"Bella…" I felt someone jostle me, "Bella my love… wake up." They did it again. Groaning my eyes fluttered open to pure daylight I turned my head slightly to see Edward grinning a flashy grin, I gave him a short, crooked smile as I sat up stiff from my awkward position. Looking out the window I saw light snow still covering the ground as I realised where we were. Sitting up even further I rubbed my sleepy eyes and blinked a few times as Edward said,

"welcome home." I grinned at the sound of this, liking the idea of sharing a home with Edward. He pushed open his door, jumped out and before I had even flinched he was at my side with the door open, his hand extended to help me up.

"I didn't expect you to be so chipper about my change…" I said with a teasing grin, but couldn't help the laugh that erupted from my lips. It was a pleasant change from his usual grumpy expression. "So, can I meet the family now?" I asked playing along with the whole ordeal. Edward smiled and wrapped a protective arm around my shoulders. I knew this was because he wasn't sure whether everyone would be able to contain him or herself around me. Slowly he led me away from the car and up the driveway to a large, but cozy cottage ahead of us. It amazed me that Edward walked so calmly in broad daylight, but assumed it was because we were in the middle of nowhere. After a few remaining steps we made it to the front door and without knocking Edward grabbed the handle and pushed it open.

Within seconds Alice was in front of us bouncing on her toes, a large doll grin on her face. She quickly pressed a kiss to my cheek before grabbing my hand and dragging me, and Edward, towards what I assumed was the living room where the rest of the family was assembled. I looked around at the new and beautiful faces, each one smiling at me. Obviously Alice had filled them in completely about who I was; or maybe Edward had early this year… well; either way they knew exactly who I was.

"Tanya, Irina, Eleazar, Carmen, and Kate." Alice said in a hurried fashion. Only one I knew right away, Eleazar. The only new male vampire; and the female beside him with his arm around her had to be Carmen… I smiled anyways, after a while I'd know their names. There was a brief chorus of 'hello's' until Esme stepped out and approached me. She leaned in to hug me briefly, I knew this was her attempt at consolation, I just wished there was a way to tell her I'd be okay. She pulled away and went back to Carlisle's side. After another second of awkward silence I decided it was time to bring to light the next step in this crazy plan.

"Where do you want me?" I asked softly looking up at Edward. His face hardened and I worried that for a moment he wouldn't do it. NO. He couldn't betray me like this; not after seeing my reaction to Charlie.

"I've set up a room downstairs…" Carlisle interrupted. I turned to him and gave a brief nod,

"lead the way." I said softly stepping away from Edward to go with Carlisle. But I knew Edward wasn't more then a step behind me. Carlisle nodded and turned away from everyone and walked away silently leading me towards the stairs leading to the basement. I slowly made my way down the stairs, Edward's hand on my shoulder all the way. It seemed like Carlisle had pulled a couch down here, I assumed to keep me comfortable during the process… As I reached the bottom of the stairs my heart was pounding, and I knew both of them could hear it. I turned to look at Edward, he looked rather grim, and stone-like, and I knew it was because he didn't want to do this… but he had promised. And if he didn't Carlisle was here to do it.

Stepping away from him once more I walked over to the couch and took a seat, "want me to lie down?" I asked softly looking to Carlisle. He looked pensive for a moment until he shrugged, "it's up to you really… I suppose Edward will be able to hold you down better if you're lying down…" I nodded and lay down on the couch moving my hair out of the way. With a quick thought I pulled my hair into a ponytail using the tie around my wrist to hold it up that would be best. Like a robot Edward made his way stiffly over to me and knelt at my side. I found it incredibly clichéd, but thought nothing of it. After a moment's pause he lifted my head and sat himself where my head had been. He pulled me up into his lap and hugged me close, staring into my eyes. It wasn't until now that I realised his eyes were completely golden. Always one step ahead, he had fed to keep himself from sucking me dry. I shivered at this thought and suppressed it quickly.

"I love you." He said once again before he kissed my lips tenderly. I nodded once again unable to say anything else; I just wanted him to get it over with… Tilting my head to the side I spread out my neck for him and waited with bated breath. I saw out of the corner of my eye Edward look to Carlisle who nodded, which I took to be 'go ahead, if you get overwhelmed I'll pull you away'. I swallowed hard and took my last breath as a human….

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So there it is everyone… I'm so cruel with that cliffhanger, I'm sorry. XD But I promise to get another chapter up for you, sorry it took a week school just started up and I was getting adjusted to the work load, but I'm fully ready now… hope you liked. R&R my faithfuls 3