#50 - Believe - Expanded

Words and music by: Jon Lind, Phil Galdston, Wendy Waldman

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Sometimes the snow comes down in June

Sometimes the sun goes round the moon

I see the passion in your eyes

Sometimes it's all a big surprise

xxxxx

"I thought you were dead."

"I thought you were in hack."

"It's good to be wrong."

How ironic those words had turned out to be. Everything about their relationship had been wrong, from the first moment they'd seen each other after the annihilation of life as they knew it, till long after she'd returned to Galactica after shunning everyone and everything that had been important to her to make a life on New Caprica with Samuel.

Sometimes things just didn't work out the way you planned. Of course that was an understatement when it came to her - nothing ever worked out the way it was supposed to. She was supposed to become a pro pyramid player. She was supposed to marry Zak. She was supposed to make it right with Lee and perhaps even build a life with him. She was supposed to live with Samuel for the rest of her life as promised in their vows.

Nothing ever seemed to go right for her.

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Cause there was a time when all I did was wish

You'd tell me this was love

It's not the way I hoped or how I planned

But somehow it's enough

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"Did you say you love me?"

"I ... well I ... didn't mean it like ..."

"Lee Adama loves me."

"You're dreaming it Kara."

She could never have told him how crushed she was by that admission. Yes, her heart was confused at that moment - she'd been angry beyond belief at Lee when she'd jumped to Caprica, not to mention knifed to the core by his words, but she was filled with hope and possibility in the form of Samuel. She didn't think she loved him - it was too soon for that, but there was definitely something there.

Nonetheless, she'd been waiting months for Lee to finally pry open his stubborn mouth and say the words she could see written in his eyes in every burning gaze he favoured her with. He loved her - she knew it, everyone else knew it. He probably knew it too, but just couldn't admit it. It had slipped out unawares and he was doing his best to back-pedal.

Obviously he was afraid to admit how he really felt about her.

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But now we're standing face-to-face

Isn't this world a crazy place

Just when I thought our chance had passed

You go and save the best for last

xxxxx

"Life on New Caprica not fulfilling enough for you?"

His words still had the ability to slice her right to the heart. She said nothing but the look on his face changed to one of regret as he realized how deeply he'd cut her. As always though, neither of them spoke, though their eyes, as always, were never silent.

"It's good to have you back," he said softly.

Her heart trembled - how many times had he hurt her in the past? About as many times as she'd hurt him. Was he serious? Did he miss her? As much as she'd missed him? His face was unreadable - while she was gone he'd perfected the ability to hide his feelings, but his eyes had never been able to lie to her. He was glad to have her back.

It was time for a new beginning.

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All of the nights you came to me

When some silly girl had set you free

I wondered how you'd make it through

I wondered what was wrong with you

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"I can't believe you're here with me."

Kara stretched her neck up to look at him. "Why?"

"I thought you were happy with him."

She lifted a hand to his face and stroked it gently, feeling the sweat wetting the stubble in a deliciously arousing way.

"I was. But I love you."

Lee pulled her down on top of him, again, and made an inarticulate noise in his chest as he began to kiss her. He'd never been good at verbalizing his feelings - especially with her, so he strove to show her what she needed to know. Evidently she was getting the message as she kissed back, allowing all the raw passion and love that she'd held back from him to flow freely.

Their hands clasped together and Kara broke away, looking at the finger where his ring had been. There was still a deep groove there, and every time she felt it the jealousy came bubbling to the surface.

Lee read her mind. "She wasn't the one I wanted to be with either," he said softly. "But since we couldn't be together, I figured I'd try to be happy with someone else."

"Silly man," Kara whispered, kissing him again. "All you had to do was ask me."

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Cause how could you give your love to someone else

And share your dreams with me

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for

Is the one thing you can't see

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Sometimes when she looked at him she wondered how they could have been so stupid. It was the end of the word - they didn't have anyone else, and yet all they did was do their best to hurt each other and push each other away, despite the love they felt inside. It made her heart swell with happiness to think they'd finally overcome all of their stupidity and given in to what was meant to be.

There were still good times and bad, times when they fought and times when they got along - that couldn't be helped, working as closely together as they had to, but at least now when he yelled at her it was only with his voice ... his eyes always spoke love. And when they apologized after a fight, neither one walked away in silence. Instead they took it to bed, and whatever couldn't be spoken in words was always resolved physically.

Finally they'd reached the same space - a place where they could be together, yet be different, sharing a life, sharing a dream.

xxxxx

Sometimes the snow comes down in June

Sometimes the sun goes round the moon

Just when I thought our chance had passed

You go and save the best for last

xxxxx

His hand clasped hers firmly as they smiled through tears. Their son was going on his first flight in a viper - more poignant to them than any other achievement could possibly be.

"If someone had asked you twenty years ago if we'd be here, now, living the life we live, would you have believed it?" he whispered in her ear, the feel of his breath, as always, making her tingle inside.

"Believed? No. Wished? Yes. This was what I always wished for - I just didn't know it at the time," she whispered back, sliding her other hand around his neck to pull his lips to hers. They'd long ago given up caring who saw their personal displays of affection - even their son who was embarrassed at seeing his parents kiss had gotten used to the fact that they were always touching, always kissing.

"Back then all I wished was that you would tell me you loved me," he whispered, after breaking the kiss.

"I did. It just took a while ..." She smiled and he pulled her close. It had taken a while - but it had all been well worth the wait.

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You went and saved the best for last