A/N: I am finally able to update this story… I wanted to this sooner, but somehow my muses left me and they are still not fully with, but I managed to write this chapter… not really as good as I had planned, but… yeah…

Thanks to Cherry Jade for being such a patient and wonderful beta-reader and friend…

Btw, the idea to the first scene from this chapter is from Aurora Mikayla´s story Crazy Times at the Mallit´s a great and funny one-shot… you should read it… and of course don´t forget her awesome story Only New Beginnings… if you like RaeRob you will love her story… it´s wonderful…).

Dedicated to Tecna, Mol, Mind ShadowRaven-Angel-of-Darkness, Lain the Fluff-Master, sekai no yakusoku, Aurora Mikayla and Cherry Jade

Disclaimer: Do you really think that if owned the Teen Titans I would live in Cologne? No, I would be rich and forgot that I have a family and friends and live somewhere really cool… and I would be married to Orlando Bloom… ok, that was too much information…hehehe…

Chapter Four:

Memory Lane

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"Raven, please come out… I…" Richard stood in front of Raven's bedroom door trying to talk to her through her closed door.

"No!" Her voice came through the door.

"But you can't stay in there forever." Richard tried to reason with her, because usually logic would do the trick with Raven.

"Wanna bet, Boy Blunder!" was her sarcastic reply at which Richard rolled his eyes.

"But…"

"There is no way I'll come out!" Raven interrupted him.

"Not even… for me…" Maybe his "I'm-so-cute- and-you-can't-say-no-to-me" tactic would do the trick.

"…"

Or maybe not…

"Please…"

"…"

"Raven, I'm practically on my knees… how lower should I sink for you to come out…?" Desperation was winning over Richard and he was about to give up as the door was opened to reveal Raven… a really pissed Raven.

"Dick," Richard flinched at her mad face and at the tone she said his name. "You can't sink low enough to make me go out in this…" And she gestured widely at herself.

Richard grinned cheekily at her and cocked his head to look her up and down. "I don't see what is wrong with the thing you are wearing."

"What's wrong? What's wrong? I tell you what's wrong," Raven spat out in anger. "I know that it was my mistake to let you choose my Halloween costume and it was also a mistake on my side to agree on matching Halloween costumes. But what did you think when you choose this… thing? Wonder Woman and Batman… jeez Richard…"

If it was possible Richard's grin grew wider and wider. "Raven, c'mon you look hot in this outfit," He winked at her and regarded her in the gold-red corset and the blue-white short shorts… and not to forget the crown and the lasso… she just looked hot. Richard was delighted to see her blushing. She always looked so cute with her pale, ivory cheeks tinted pink. "It brings out your cute butt!" Her blush deepened at his last comment and Richard laughed whole heartily, but he chocked on his laugh as he saw the wicked glint in her eyes.

"You know that you owe me one for this!" It was more a statement than a question, so he just nodded.

"Ok, I will come with you… Robbie-poo." Richard shuddered at the nickname Katherine Moth a.k.a Kitten had given back in Junior High. It was an open secret that Kitten wanted Richard. "And tomorrow you have a date with Kitten…" That being sad and an evil grin flashed at the boy clad in grey tights, Raven marched away from a terror-stricken Richard.

"Raven… Raven… you can't do that… Raven… Raaaaveeen…" He screamed after her…

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Richard Grayson smiled at the memory as he once again stood in front of a closed door – with Raven on the other side.

But this time it seemed as if she wouldn't come out…

For almost an hour he tried to talk with her and coax her out, but every apology or plea had been ignored by her… but she had to forgive him… she just had to.

Richard couldn't imagine going back to Jump City without Raven… he couldn't imagine his life without her… without his best-friend.

"Raven, please… talk to me… I'm sorry… so sorry… Raven…"

No response.

"She can be really stubborn sometimes, can't she?" Richard whirled around and was greeted with warm, gentle blue eyes.

Richard smiled sadly at the woman who had always treated him like her own son.

Arella looked at the young man and sensed his distress. "You shouldn't worry, dear. Raven will forgive you. You know how she is… she needs to calm down before you can talk to her."

He shook his head in defeat. "I doubt that she will ever talk to me again… after all the things I said to her…" The last part was whispered but Arella caught it anyway.

"She will… she lo- likes you too much to not to," Richard looked at her intensively. It seemed to him as if she knew something… something important about Raven that she didn't want to tell him. "Just don't give up on her… she will need you…" Arella trailed off and her light blue eyes met Richard's darker ones and she wasn't surprised to find worry and concern in them.

"I don't understand…"

"Promise me that you will look after her when you return to Jump City…"

"But she won't return… she'll stay here – at least that's what she told me… I…" It was clear that Richard was confused. He didn't really understand what Arella meant, but he knew that something was wrong… really wrong and his suspicion was confirmed as Arella looked sadly at him and gestured at the small library on the far end of the floor.

"Come with me, dear… I have to tell you something…" She took his hand and guided him to the room.

The door closed with a soft metal click…

Knock Knock

Raven growled into her pillow. Why can't he let her alone?

Knock Knock

'I hate him, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him… I… love him…'

She pressed her face deeper into her pillow.

Knock Knock

Okay, if he knocks one more time she would kill him!

"Raven, it's me…"

Raven jerked up from her bed and opened the door. "Dad…?"

Raven looked into the soft brown eyes of her father. His dark hair was tousled and he looked… troubled.

"We hadn't really time to talk… and we really need to talk…" He smiled at her and the sickening feeling returned.

She let him in and as Raven's father sat down, he misjudged the position of the chair and stumbled slightly. It was nothing, but Raven saw with a kind of panic that he was indeed getting old.

Worried, she sat down on her bed – opposite from her father.

"Dad…"

Trigon interrupted her "Do you know how happy I am to see you and how proud I am to have such a beautiful daughter…?"

Raven wanted to say something, but she just didn't know how to react… there was something wrong with him.

"Do you remember when you was three and you asked me to turn off the moon, because it sacred you? Or when you were five and decided that your hair needs a cut… you mother had a heart attack as she saw you," He paused and chuckled slightly.

"Dad, tell me, what happened…? You… you are ill, aren't you? Raven asked and in this moment she felt like she was a little girl… a little girl begging her father to tell her that everything will be alright – that she didn't have to worry.

He didn't answer… just smiled sadly at his daughter.

"Dad, are you ill?" Raven asked again this time more persisting.

"I… I have Alzheimer. The doctor told me four weeks ago… and… Raven, look, you don't have to worry… it's not that bad. I have several years before… before… I…"

"… before you forget mum or me or who you are…" Raven finished for him.

"Raven, I…"

"Why haven't you told me sooner? You knew for four weeks… I… why…" She couldn't say anything… she didn't know what to say or to do.

"We didn't want you to worry" Trigon explained and he knew that his daughter would never accept such an answer. No, not his daughter… not his Raven.

A cynical laugh escaped her lips. "I will stay here in Steel City. I will be there for you…" Raven said ignoring the pain that crept through her heart… ignoring the painful truth of what she had learnt.

"No, Raven… you can't stay here. You will return to Jump City. Mr. Harper has to go on a business trip to Jump City tomorrow and you and Richard will go with him. You can't stay!" Her father told her and something in Raven snapped.

"How can you say that? How can you tell me not to stay with you… now that I know that…? I will stay and I will help you and mum… and…" Raven was angry and mad and she just wanted to scream and trash her room, but she had learnt from small on to control her emotions… or at least she tried to control them. At the moment, she wasn't really controlling her emotions, but who could blame her?

"Listen Raven, I know you want to help me, I know that you are worried and afraid, but you don't belong here… you won't be happy here. I know that you love me and your mother, but… you can't stay here."

Raven wanted to argue… wanted to tell him that this was her home and that she wouldn't leave, but deep down in heart she knew that her father was right. She would never be happy here, but still… she couldn't just leave her father – not now that she knew that one day he will… forget her…

So, in her despair and sadness Raven did something she hadn't done in a long time. She flung her arms around her father and hung on him as if he would disappear when she let go off him.

"I don't want you to forget me… I don't want you die… I… I… dad…" She stammered into his chest while her father stroked her hair.

And there she sat in the arms of her father and for the first time in her life, Raven Roth didn't know what to do.

It was an hour later when her father had left her room and decided to get some sleep.

And while her father went to sleep, Raven decided to sit a while on the veranda-steps.

Raven had always loved the night-time. There was so much more to discover during the night… so much more to see… so much more mystery… so much more…

"It's a wonderful night, isn't it?" The one voice that could take her breath away reached her ears.

She looked up from her spot to find Richard standing next to her.

Bending down, he sat next to her.

Raven knew that she couldn't stand his presence right now… she was emotionally too confused to deal with him. It wouldn't end pretty… and she just couldn't take any pain

"Richard, please… just go… I…" He cut her off.

"I'm sorry," Was all he said.

"Richard… don't…"

"So sorry…"

"Ok, Richard… what do you want to hear…?" Raven screamed. Her emotions were playing havoc and she couldn't take it anymore. Her father's illness, her love for Richard and Richard's accusation… it was just too much. "You know what? You are forgiven… I forgive you… everything, I forgive you everything. Are you happy now? You can leave now… there is no reason for you to stay. You don't have to feel guilty anymore… just go… please…" Her voice cracked at the end of her little speech and all she wanted to do was crying.

"Raven… I'm sorry…" He repeated and extended his arm to her face and stroked her cheek.

Her eyes winded and it was now that Raven realized what he meant… what he really meant.

"Richard, he… he…" Not sure what to say, Raven let her word linger in the air and looked helplessly at her friend.

Seeing her so sad and helpless broke Richard's heart… usually, it was Raven who helped him and supported him – usually it was Raven who helped through his pain, but now it was his turn to help her.

So, Richard did the only thing he thought would help her: With as much care as he could muster, Richard hugged her and held her tight and when he felt her tremble and sob onto his chest, he knew that he had done the right thing.

And for hours they sat on the veranda… Richard holding Raven in his arm while Raven cried and cried into his chest…

A/N: I told you that it isn´t good, didn´t I? Next chapter will be better, because Kori will make her appearance and not to forget Roy, because he will play an important role… an really important role… hehehehe…

Anyway, I will begin to answer my reviewers again… so, here we go:

sekai no yakusoku: I can´t tell you hom happy I am that you like my poor little story… to hear that from such a talented authoress like you is great… so thanks for that and for all the reviews you left for my stories…

I´m glad you liked the last chapter, because I wasn´t really sure about the chapter and I thought about re-writing it… and I just hope that you will like this chapter as well… it´s not really good, but I do what I can…

Oh, and I´m happy that you like my (emphasises on my) Roy… I just love his character… especially in the comics and I´m glad to do him a bit justice… btw, your Roy in your story "Glass" is wonderful and I´m happy to see someone beside me liking his character…

Chica De Los Ojos Cafe: You know, you are one of my most faithul reviewers and I´m happy for that… your reviews makes me always so happy and I´m more than happy that you like this story and especially the last chapter… I just hope that you´ll continue enjoying my story… thank you so much for you review

Lain the Fluff-Master: Hey! I´m happy to see you back and feeling better and not mention how happy I was to see that you have updated your story…

Oh yeah, Richard can be jerk… but that´s why we love him so much… nobody than him makes being a jerk so sexy… yeah…

Anyway, I´m glad you liked the last chapter and let´s see

Raven-Angel-of-Darkness: Yay, another person found who likes Roy… that's good and I'm glad you like the way I portray Roy… he is one of y favourite characters from the comics… that's why I love him so much and he deserves some justice…

Richard is a jerk just like always… but I hope you liked him better in this chapter and Raven will have to endure much more before she can be happy… but now, I'm talking too much… hehehe…

You deserve the dedication, because your reviews makes me so happy and not forget that I love your stories… so, it's a honour for me that you read my poor story… thank you…

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Thank you so much for you review… your reviews are always the funniest – in a good way I mean…

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Before I leave, I wanted to ask you guys something: I have some ideas for new stories, but I'm not really sure which one I should really write and post… so, I will tell you my ideas and you will tell which one of the ideas you like the most, ok…?

Ok… here are my ideas…

Once upon a time (Humor, Parody, Romance)

Summary: After a battle with Mumbo Jumbo the Titans find themselves in the land of the fairytales and only when the prince finds his true princess they will be able to come out of this mess. Meanwhile, they have to deal with fairies, gnomes, witches, a love-drunken prince and not to forget a jealous Boy Wonder Pairings: RaeRob

Seduction (Drama, Romance)

Slightly AU/ Summary: Richard Grayson is a playboy… ready to seduce every woman and when he meets Raven Roth that's his plan: Seducing her! But will he learn not to play with her heart when he realizes that he has fallen for her… or will their secrets stand in their way…? Pairings: RaeRob TerraGar KoriRoy VicJinx

The Rules of War/ The devil's daughter (Drama, Tragedy, Romance)

Slightly AU/ Summary: A deadly war has broken out between Earth and Azarath and while the people of the planets fight, Richard Grayson a.k.a Robin has the mission to bring down the ruler of Azarath, Trigon the Terrible… the devil himself… working undercover as the bodyguard of the devil's daughter.

Everything could be so easy… or as easy as a war with hundredths of victims can be… if Robin wouldn't find himself falling in love with the devil's daughter. Slowly, Robin begins to realize that dark and dangerous is not the same as bad and evil…

Can a love between a Robin and Raven really last and will it overcome the brutality and cruelty of a war and Trigon…? Pairings: RobRae… duh/ other pairings undecided… maybe a bit GarTerra

Masquerade (Drama, Romance)

Summary: Six years ago, Robin had left Jump City, the Titans and… Raven leaving her in charge of the team.

Now, he is back and he needs the help of the Titans, because a greater evil than Trigon approaches earth… but Robin realizes that not everybody is happy to see him back and that in six years many things can change… even the heart of the girl you love more than everything else. Pairings: RobinRavenJericho/ StarBB/ CyBumblebee / SpeedyAqualad

That are my ideas… and as you can see I'm obsessed with AU…

Anyway, tell me which idea you like the most and with which one I should start…

A last note, some of the idea can take longer to be published than others… so, it can take a while before some of the ideas can be read or maybe will have it up in a week… depends which idea is most wanted…

So, that was it from me…

Until next chapter…

Alena